Poetry

LBS is the name. I write poems, and want to share them.

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[lbspoetry]

Boxes

I work with boxes

Delivering smiles.

I had this great idea

To take my anxiety

Put it in a box

Tape it

Ship it to a far away land

bury it in the sand.

It was a great idea!!

Right?

You see I have never been the person who sleep walks

But without the anxiety

My body was lost

It knew something was missing

I couldn't hide the past in that way

Day after day looking at that fake smile

Waking up in an unfimiar far away land

holding a firmiliar box

Covered in sand

My name scrawled on the front

I had forgot what the box looked like

Opening it was like opening Pandora's box

The plagues and disease were only meant for me

All of the anxiety

Everything built up

Imploding because the weight of what I tried to ship away

Found it's way back to me.

Sitting unable to move

The sand falls from below

All alone,

a hearing with my anxieties

Telling me I was wrong

Long bouts of I'm sorry

Unable to tame the thoughts and feelings

I thought my sentence was life on a ship that lost its way in a storm

Land nowhere to be seen.

But I found land, leaned into the storm

Made it out

Maybe I learned my lesson

But maybe there is another box out there

With my name scrawled on it

Waiting till I can handle the weight

Of the plagues I am hiding from myself

-LBS

[lbspoetry]

UNTITLED

No one looks behind your lungs....

Behind my lungs,

That's where I like to hide my feelings, my emotions

Earthquakes in my chest,

Rumbling and tumbling

Lungs mumbling

"I can't breathe!"

My heart fumbling

Crumbling

Because its losing life, vitality

My brain feeling the quake

Telling me, "For Peet's sake!

Shove the emotions down

In each crack made

Let it be a place

To hide all of the pain.

Suck it up

Let it be

So we can finally be free!"

But unfortunately the

Anxiety

Doesn't let you hide

Emotions,

Going with the motions

Crying,

Barely breathing

Paralyzing

emotions demanding attention.

My lungs cracking

Pouring,

Lies,

Memories,

Feelings I don't want to feel,

With out a doubt

the reason I can't breathe

Chest hurting more with

Each half breath

Leaving me in my car

Hands over my eyes

My brain telling me lies of

Everything will be fine

I've heard that line

And remember the last time it was said,

Now look where we are

In my car unable to breath

I wish I could leave!

-LBS

[lbspoetry]

Starvation

I am going to bed without dinner again

I seem to think that i am deserving of punishment

And that if I punish myself enough

I might love myself enough

To believe that you love me enough

To keep me around.

I used to starve myself,

And I know I slip back into old habbits sometimes

I watched myself intentionally

Step on the banana peel

Of the banana I didn’t eat for breakfast,

fall in slow motion back into that old habit

Depriving myself of what my body needed because it needed love and nutrition but I thought I could be a magician,

trick it into thinking nothing was more important, than nothing.

Learning to hate myself from my mom

Learning from the example of diets

and pills set before me

Mom why didnt you bore me with love?

Was I not good enough?

every time I look at my arms

The fat and excess skin make me

feel like ripping my skin off

No amount of cloth can compress them into the size that will make me happy

I thought I should go back to therapy

But I can’t bear to see me back in that chair

Staring at someone saying I am not okay

Telling a stranger I hate myself enough to deprive myself of the things I need to survive because surviving is all I know how to do and I don’t want to do it anymore

My girlfriend calls me beautiful and I can’t see it

I lit a match in my house that was full of life

Burning it to the ground

Because that’s all I’ll be in the end

Ashes of a a person who hated herself enough to stop caring

Because she couldnt understand that love was stronger, more productive than hating.

-LBS

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I think this is my final product.

[lbspoetry]

Starvation

I am going to bed without dinner again

I seem to think that i am deserving of punishment

And that if I punish myself enough

I might love myself enough

To believe that you love me enough

To keep me around.

I used to starve myself,

And I know I slip back into old habbits sometimes

I watched myself intentionally

Step on the banana peel

Of the banana I didn't eat for breakfast,

fall in slow motion back into that old habit

Depriving myself of what my body needed because it needed love and nutrition but I thought I could be a magician,

trick it into thinking nothing was more important, than nothing.

Learning to hate myself from my mom

Learning from the example of diets

and pills set before me

Mom why didnt you bore me with love?

Was I not good enough?

every time I look at my arms

The fat and excess skin make me

feel like ripping my skin off

No amount of cloth can compress them into the size that will make me happy

I thought I should go back to therapy

But I can't bear to see me back in that chair

Staring at someone saying I am not okay

Telling a stranger I hate myself enough to deprive myself of the things I need to survive because surviving is all I know how to do and I don't want to do it anymore

My girlfriend calls me beautiful and I can't see it

I lit a match in my house that was full of life

Burning it to the ground

Because that's all I'll be in the end

Ashes of a a person who hated herself enough to stop caring

Because she couldnt understand that love was stronger, more productive than hating.

-LBS

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I think this is my final product.

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[lbspoetry]

I'm sorry

I am sorry.

You didn't deserve to

Know me the way I know me

My life tragic

Using magic to try and illude

From what's really there

I shared the dark

I shared the things

I wanted to hide even from myself

I know they

Scare people

Hell, they scare me shitless!

How I expected you to take it

I don't know

But maybe this is why

I'm better off alone

-LBS

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[lbspoetry]

Where Two Hearts Meet

Poetry;

Where two hearts meet

Beaten by life

Giving life to the uncertain

Growing with each rhyme

Never forgetting times

feelings

Dealings written in words

Heard

unheard

Ready to take on the world

-LBS

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Missing you

I look for your face everywhere I go

Like looking for a lost part of my soul

Unable to control this

Sad

knowing I won't find your face in

The sea of people

Mad knowing I should let it go

But how do you let go of something

Like that

Something you never felt bored with

Tired of

Living without you

Knowing I must go on

Wishing on what could have been

-LBS

[lbspoetry]

Two Poets

Two poets running through the redwoods

Both cut up and bruised from our travels

different stories

Rhymes

And Times

Stopping for two minutes to see

All the beauty inside the

Other

people come and go

Leaving,

Believe me was hard,

Two minutes,

directions shared,

Caring more and

Loving way more than we should

Sorry we could not stay longer.

Paths lit in

Opposite directions

An inspection of what could be

But knowing we were not mean to be

Going along our way

More bumps and bruises,

More beautiful poetry.

One flicker of the past

And a poem is made

To take the place of the

Time two poets were running in the redwoods

-LBS

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Untitled

Two poets cannot fall in love,

Because then who would be the one to keep the other grounded?

Two poets cannot fall in love,

Because one must keep them on earth.

Two poets cannot fall in love,

Because poets are vampires who drink the blood called Love Sick off of the other

and we all know two vampires cannot survive alone

Two poets cannot fall in love,

Because if we fall in love what else will we have to write about?

[vodkaforbees]

The Most Beautiful Way Of Breaking

I don’t want to fall in love,

Because falling in love would mean my eyes would no longer be barren deserts.

I don’t want to fall in love,

Because falling in love would mean my cheeks will turn into little buds of roses.

I don’t want to fall in love

Because if I fall in love my back will be exposed,

And the trace if him will come back.

I don’t want to fall in love,

Because falling in love would mean my hands will ache for the stars.

Because falling in love would mean the marrow in my bones

will dry up in search for tears

Because falling in love means my hair will become a waterfall of hormones

Because falling in love would mean my eye lashes no longer catch dirt but the stardust you imit

I don’t want to fall in love

Because falling in love means my neck is out and sunflowers will grow from the veins,

Because falling in love means every one of those flowers

Will me berutially l ripped from my body and

I’ll just say sorry

Because falling in love means feeling something,

I never even got the chance to feel from my family.