I had a pretty major epiphany this morning, although in retrospect it seems so obvious.
I woke up this morning and immediately felt bad, both about myself and the state of my life, I felt anxious, and I felt depressed. I realized that for quite some time I've woken up most mornings feeling this way, and I thought to myself it can't be good to wake up most mornings feeling bad.
I remembered being a child and waking up feeling neutral, maybe even happy or relaxed, even though my life was far from perfect, I had bullies at school and abuse / dysfunction at home. But I still didn't wake up immediately feeling bad, anxious, and depressed most mornings.
I tried to pinpoint when exactly this became the norm, me waking up feeling just generally really bad as soon as I woke up, and I pinpointed it to right about the enshitification of social media.
I had social media / smartphone addictions when I was a teen too, but back then you still had more control over what you saw and were exposed to. This is when your Facebook and Instagram feeds were only people you were friends with, not pages shoved on you by the algorithm. So yes, it still made me feel bad when my feed was mostly people glamorizing their life, as people do on social media, but it didn't completely suck all the peace and joy out of my life the way a steady algorithm of things meant to inspire outrage in me does.
After having this realization, I asked my partner how they wake up feeling most mornings, and they said just neutral (the way I felt before the enshitification of social media), and I asked them what they look at mostly when they scroll on their phone, and they said "idk just tech stuff mostly" since they work in tech. That checks out.
Even though Tumblr isn't as enshitified as most other social media, it does drain my mental health more than it did over a decade ago when I first joined. You still have more control on what you see on here than on most social media sites, but it's still hard to avoid mentally draining content.
Most of all, I think people are so vicious and cruel on social media these days. I'm old enough to know that the internet has always had trolls, but it's one thing to have some trolls on every website, it's another thing for all of social media to be so full of people who are so, so angry, and so eager to hurt other people to have an outlet for their outrage. I think Tumblr is full of a lot of that, a lot of people on here are very eager to hurt and put down complete strangers, and not even in a trolling way, they just have so many unresolved issues that they don't know how else to handle other than lashing out at strangers on the internet.
I know 5-10 years ago if you said on Tumblr "if you feel anxious and depressed, maybe try spending less time on social media" this would make a lot of people very upset. I'm not sure if that's still a hot take, but it's really setting in today how true that is. I'm not nearly as online as many people. I spend a lot of time outside touching grass. But even when I make a lot of efforts to mitigate my social media use, it's still not enough and I still end up feeling bad a lot.
If you're having any mental health ailments, I'm not saying social media is the only sole cause, but spending a lot of time on enshitified social media will make you feel much worse, it's really not good for you. You might not realize exactly how bad it's making you feel until you take a step back and compare the state of your mental health between now and prior to the enshitification of the internet.