You know he will fuck you every morning as he kisses your neck and moans into your ear and then he will kiss your forehead and go make you coffee. It will happen, I can see it, I know it. Everything you're yearning for? Everything that hasn't come easy to you up until now? It's already happening. I took 11 years to get a tattoo after deciding that I wanted one. It took me 11 years to know what I wanted specifically even though broadly the decision to get inked was long taken. I'm wondering if that's the same way about this love, this intimacy you crave. You know you want it broadly, but the specifics? Maybe the reason it's taking this long is so that when you finally have it, it's everything you wanted and so much more. Also, he will know his own capacity and capabilities and not overpromise and underdeliver. He won't ever tell you: you have a beautiful heart, I'm afraid to hurt it. Why? Because instead of articulating that fear he will actively, every day be that man for you who will protect your heart, heal it, give it a space to heal itself. That's the kind of man you will end up with. Capable, soft, generous. And yes, funny and witty. And yes, romantic and expressive. But also consistent, courageous, and calm. Someone who will choose you day after day after day, inherently, naturally, obviously. Someone who will stay. Someone who will work through every conflict, every fight, every emotion. Someone who will show up. Someone who will hold on. Someone who will feel like giving up on you? Is giving up on life. Literally. Yes, you will meet him. And you will spend decades together as best friends, as lovers, as partners, as people who took a while go cross paths but when they finally did? Build a beautiful, abundant, peaceful, and exciting life together. Just you wait.
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