god GOD okay straight ppl will literally never be able to understand the full spectrum of emotion present in ‘betty’ like they just can’t, the whole song just sings with the very specific longing n tenderness that comes from being young n lgbt n just coming into ur sexuality, like especially if ur a young girl n the lines between friendship n something more are already so blurred, and u never know if she likes you back in the way that you like her, i mean come ON “will you have me? will you want me?” is the PINNACLE of gay yearning, because u don’t know!!! u don’t know if she’ll have you, u don’t know if she’ll want you, and god it aches so much, the idea of showing up to the dance n seeing the girl u love dancing with the cute boy that you always thought was the better fit for her, like imagine you spend weeks n weeks with this girl and you fall for everything that she is, but underneath all of that is this layer of fear, like does she actually want you? does she want to be with you? because being with you just brings a tidal wave of everything else, and it would be so much easier if she just picked the cute boy, it would be so much easier for her, and you can’t imagine why she would ever pick you, and GOD like even if betty did try her best to let james know that she was serious about them, don’t you think she would’ve been afraid too? like no matter how brave she is, no matter how much she loves james, the fear is there, and she finally FINALLY put her heart on the line, put herself on the line, asked james to the dance, and james doesn’t show, but you can’t blame james either because she’s spent so long convincing herself that betty could do so much better than her, she thinks she’s doing them both a favour by not showing up, and above all of that she is so afraid of what this could mean, of what betty could mean to her, god isn’t that just the MOST young gay feeling ever, the raw, primal fear of what people will say, of what they could do to the both of you, knowing that your love is not enough to save you, but even MORE than that james just feels so terrible for breaking her promise that she does show up, runs all the way there, thinks about how she’ll ask betty to dance, about what betty would say, how she would look, n then when she does get there, betty is dancing with that cute boy and god the way it would’ve crushed her, of course she leaves, of course!! because what else could she do!!! everything she’s ever been afraid of is coming true in front of her eyes, and james can’t blame anyone but herself, because she’s the one who didn’t show, and maybe betty really will be happier with that boy, so she leaves, and suddenly august is there, and all james wants to do is to forget the way her heart feels like it’s been torn clean in two, so she gets in the car and she lets august drive, spends the whole summer forcing herself to forget, and then one afternoon it clicks and she realises that she can’t ever forget the way betty makes her feel, can’t ever forget the way her eyes light up when she smiles, realises that she’s been wearing betty’s cardigan all summer, so james breaks it off with august (and god, that story is so sad too, the way august knew that this girl was never hers, but for a summer, wanting was enough) and goes to betty’s party and now, now!!! now she’s no longer afraid, because love is worth it, being with betty is worth it, whatever happens, they can face it together, and god “will you kiss me on the porch in front of all your stupid friends?” just SCREAMS with like, i love you and i want everyone to know, i don’t care what they think, i want you to not care too, aaaAAAAAA no one touch me im going thru a crisis
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