Meaningless Babbeling

Wisdom.

[levic94]

WTF

I just feel like I want to die. Thats the only emotion I have right now, Im trying to force myself to feel something other than nothing at all. I would rather feel depression or anger or anything but no. I am forced to feel this tingling nothingness like a sharp buzzing noise in the back of my head. It speaks louder than anything I’ve experienced. I hate it, and I want it to stop. More than anything I just want it to stop.  HELP!

[levic94]

Leave it behind?

Do you stay with the person you have convinced yourself that you love, or do you go out and do you? Part of me wants to settle as this shy person I’ve become with this man I think I love. Part of me wants to go out, be outgoing, try new things, meet people, learn about myself, and take care of myself. I have to say at 21 this is the most important decision I have had to contemplate in my life. So my question is, leave my relationship, my job and this piece of shit town. Or risk it all and see the world?

[moonfall-requiem]

[levic94]

Untitled

I feel empty. I feel cold and alone. I'm sick to my stomach. Hands are clammy. Body is weak. I pressed a gun to my head this morning. Expecting the cold embrace of the tool that will end my pain. Instead I felt nothing. Absolutely nothing. It was like my mind just shut off. No thoughts. No feelings. Nothing.

I am trying to get through today. I feel like if I start writing about how I feel I can find a pattern or an answer to make the feelings stop. Even before the love of my life broke my trust yet again I felt and still feel, like I am falling into a deep black hole. I cant focus, I have no drive, and the luster I once saw in the world has dimmed into grey matter infecting my brain.

I am not the same. I don't know how to make it stop. I'm losing myself. Losing my friends. Losing the people I love and losing my mind. I keep getting more and more numb. The deeper I get the more I don't care or lose interest in trying to find out what is wrong with me. Is it me? Or is it the people around me wearing me down into nothing.

I am losing hope and praying for an eternal release. I cant seem to handle this madness anymore, even my writing is off and sporadic, with no rhyme or reason. God I just want to sleep.

[levic94]

Oh my god

I need help :( I cant do this anymore...

[kushandwizdom]

[lukesapeach]

badlands on vinyl is so beautiful

[lareinaperdida-deactivated20241]

Anything that don’t add to you most likely only subtract

Kevin Gates (via lareinaperdida)

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[vivoconcerti]

[levic94]

Enlighten me

 I do not understand why being loyal is so hard for some people. I am exhausting myself being with someone who pretends to be loyal but doesn't live up to the standards. It feels like a trap I fall into over and over again. Something will happen, we fight, I get called crazy and he takes no accountability for his actions, he threatens to leave me, and I beg for him back. Now once again after months of what seemed to be the break in his behavior I got that feeling. That sharp distinct ache you get when you just know that something is up. You try to put it off and say that you trust the person you’re with but your curiosity eats you alive.  

 The log on. Everything seems as usual until you dig. You don't know why you dig but you do, deeper and deeper. Messages, likes, comments, and lastly the friends list. This and messages usually is where you halt your searching and fall into a deep, sorrowful, furious emotion. You start asking yourself, “how should i present this?” “Am I crazy?” “WTF he knows how I feel about this!!!” So many feeling they stir around your head like a raging sea of words you want to say but can’t. Choked by the slight notion that you are in fact still in love.

  The wait. Your day goes by slower than ever, dragging on hours as you await the moment when you can get home and scream right in his face. You play scenarios over and over again of what to do and what to say, but, no question of what, why, when, who, etc are answered. Your just stranded.

  The confrontation. Well there isn't one. Much than what you are used to. Screams and accusations thrown at you like daggers. Taking every blow like a champ. Your heart aches. you break. and the cycle continues.

[weedporndaily]

Kid Cannabis (2014)

[thecutestofthecute]

In honor of Autumn coming soon, here are some happy dogs that love the fall weather are aren’t afraid to show it. Have a great day everyone.

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@siidc

[minimalyzed]

replacing my heart with another liver so i can drink more and care less

[levic94]

send me one for a blog and url rate!

1) Sexuality?

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

4) What do you think about most?

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?

6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

7) What's your strangest talent?

8) Girls.... (finish the sentence); Boys.... (finish the sentence)

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?

11) Do you have any strange phobias?

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

13) What's your religion?

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

17) What was the last lie you told?

18) Do you believe in karma?

19) What does your URL mean?

20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

21) Who is your celebrity crush?

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

23) How do you vent your anger?

24) Do you have a collection of anything?

25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

26) Are you happy with the person you've become?

27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?

28) What's your biggest "what if"?

29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

31) Smell the air. What do you smell?

32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?

33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

35) To you, what is the meaning of life?

36) Define Art.

37) Do you believe in luck?

38) What's the weather like right now?

39) What time is it?

40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

41) What was the last book you read?

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?

43) Do you have any nicknames?

44) What was the last movie you saw?

45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?

47) Do you have any obsessions right now?

48) What's your sexual orientation?

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?

50) Do you believe in magic?

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

52) What is your astrological sign?

53) Do you save money or spend it?

54) What's the last thing you purchased?

55) Love or lust?

56) In a relationship?

57) How many relationships have you had?

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

59) Where were you yesterday?

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

61) Are you wearing socks right now?

62) What's your favorite animal?

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

64) Where is your best friend?

65) Spit or swallow?(;

66) What is your heritage?

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?

68) What do you think is Satan's last name?

69) Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

73) You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

77) How can I win your heart?

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

80) What size shoes do you wear?

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

82) What is your favorite word?

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

84) What is a saying you say a lot?

85) What's the last song you listened to?

86) Basic question; what's your favorite color/colors?

87) What is your current desktop picture?

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?

91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

96) Do you have any relatives in jail?

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?

98) Ever been on a plane?

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?