Life As I Know It

This is my life...not too flashy, but I love it. Here's to finding some joy in every day!

[levychristy]

New Week, New Hope

So I decided to step on the scale today (trying to only do this once a week) and to my surprise it had fallen! Not too much, but it was in the right direction. That was just the boost I needed for the day! My husband's birthday is today, so we've done some celebrating this wknd. It included too much food and plenty of adult beverages. However, we started the weekend by working out together, so that was a plus. See what I'm doing here...trying to give myself some credit. This past week I also was on a documentary kick on Netflix and watched several regarding food, the American food industry, and the like. It made me want to run right to the farmers market and avoid the local grocery store like the plague. Do I think I'll be eating 100% whole foods by the end of the week? NO. But I do think that it has increased my awareness regarding the things that I'm eating. I'm going to make a real effort to do better here. I also go back to the fertility specialist this week, so hopefully I'll be able to remain in this good mood. I like seeing them because they're pretty upfront and give us a definite plan. And I certainly appreciate a good plan.

[levychristy]

Feeling frustrated

As usual, my weight loss is not going as I had hoped. As a matter of fact, it's been a weight gain. I'm taking 5 minutes to have a pity party for myself, since I'm not one of those people who is perpetually thin with little to no work involved. Ugh. After this 5 (or so) minutes of feeling sorry for myself/angry at myself, I'm going to get back on track. I've been using an app and working out on a somewhat regular schedule. No, not every day. And not even as often as I'd like. But this app involves a lot of jumping and other high impact exercises and my knees are killing me. This is discouraging. None of the exercises are anything crazy that I shouldn't be able to do. But collectively they are making my knees scream! I know, I know...find something else to do. I get it. I have a frugal side to me that hates that I paid for this app (gasp!) and now won't be using it. It also links to my calorie counting app, which is super handy. But, if I'm not doing it because my knees hurt, it's not helping me at all. I know that calorie counting has worked for me in the past, why wouldn't it this time? I am giving myself the tiniest bit of slack, because I do feel like my hormones are still regulating themselves after the events of the last month. Therefore, I've got to be done bashing myself and/or making up excuses. I know what works. I know I haven't been doing those things diligently. Herein lies the problem. I have to fix this problem, because that scale keeps going up at an astonishing rate and I'm going to have a melt down if it doesn't stop. And, I just feel sluggish and gross more importantly. Now to go soak my knees...

[levychristy]

Enough already!! I've been doing pretty well with the exercise (I completed my workout for today first thing when I got up), but I gained a pound!! Grrr. I know that it's my eating habits, but they're proving to be really hard to break. I'm trying to give myself a bit of a break, because I didn't gain this weight overnight, much as it may feel like I did. So, it won't just fall off overnight either. When I stopped working in June, it was to stress less and hopefully get pregnant. I was very fortunate and got pregnant pretty quickly, only to have a miscarriage very early on. We are getting ready to start trying again, so I need to get myself in a healthier state. I want to have the best womb to live on for all of those months! So today my afternoon snack is an apple with a very precisely measured portion of organic peanut butter. I know I can turn this around. I must!

[levychristy]

Sunday Funday

I started the day by getting a workout on the books. I'm counting this as a win. However, Sundays are especially hard for me in the calorie department, because it's football watching day. That means lots of snacks! And plenty of adult beverages too!! I seem to be having the most trouble this week with curbing my appetite, so today should be interesting. I know in the past when I've counted calories, it took me a little while to hit my target consistently. I'm hoping that I can get my butt in gear with it again. On the bright side: I've had a little bit of an easier time making myself work out than I've had in the past. Figures, I can't get both pieces to fall into place at the same damn time! I'll keep trying!

[levychristy]

Finding some issues

Woohoo!! I worked out again today. Yay me! Well, that was until my snacking self gave in this evening and I ate not only chocolate covered pretzels (and at least 4 times the serving size) but also gummy bears (yep, you guessed it-well over the serving size again). So, you can see that there is a problem here. I'm determined to fix it. I may have to lock the pantry. With a guard to stand there to make sure I don't somehow gnaw the lock off. Yes, I'm an animal. Somehow I better get it under control, because I'm at my all time highest weight. And it's gross. I feel like a tank, or a hippo, or any other big, fat thing that no one wants to be compared to. So there you have it folks: I feel huge, I had a decent week of exercise, and a major snacking problem. I've identified some of the issues. On to fixing them (this is the freaking hard part, damn it.)

[levychristy]

Another successful day

I'm giving myself another very small pat on the back today. I've managed to find another smidge of motivation! Today I exercised and logged my meals in the handy dandy app that I use. I know it seems like a really small deal, which it is, but it's a step in the right direction. I'll take it! I really get annoyed and tired of logging my meals after a while-I just know myself. But, I also know that I see results when I track what I'm eating. So I'm going to try to stay with it for a while to keep myself in check. I also know that I take a while to get in the habit of exercising, but once I do I'm pretty good about it. So, two days in a row is better than none. Here's to another day on the right track!

[levychristy]

Today is a new start

I have to try not to beat myself up over my weight gain and overall decrease in healthy behaviors. Why? Because it's not helping to motivate me much, and just makes me feel bad. I need to feel like I CAN do something about it, instead of moping around as the pounds continue to pile on. So, today I just decided that I need to do this. I looked back over the myfitnesspal app on my phone and realized that there was a time, not that long ago, that I was 23 pounds lighter. And only about 6 months ago, I was 12 pounds lighter. I want to feel better, look better, be better. And why not? I deserve to! This blog is a place that I can try to keep myself accountable, without the public humiliation on other forums that exist. This is for me. That's it. I can do this.

[janeaustenmx]

[levychristy]

LOL!! Ewww, Mr. Collins!

[darcyknightley]

[levychristy]

There will never be a better Mr. Darcy

[whatwouldelizabethbennetdo]

[levychristy]

One of my favorites!

[emugavero10]

Today, Tony and I completed the 31 Heroes workout 💪 This workout was a definite challenge, but also a great opportunity to recognize the 31 fallen heroes who made the ultimate sacrifice 🇺🇸

[levychristy]

I think I broke a sweat just looking at these pictures.

[levychristy]

Life after work

So, I thought these first few days/weeks after leaving my job would be a tough time of adjustment for me. Hahahahaha! Not at all! I'm so happy to report that I'm sliding into my new role as a happier woman, wife, friend, etc very easily. It's amazing what a break from such a toxic place can do for you. Now, onto the weight and fitness problem. That's not gotten much better, mostly because almost every day I'm trying some sort of new recipe! Aaaahh!! I need to regain control. But, I am enjoying all of the treats I'm making, both healthy and otherwise. I'm trying to make a weekly menu, which does include some healthier recipes. Hey, it's a start. And my sweet husband and I have started taking an evening walk together. It's so nice, because it is a bit of exercise for us and let's us connect at the end of the day. Hopefully a more acceptable figure and number on the scale will follow. Right now, I'm just enjoying life and all of its' good things!

[levychristy]

Ok, so I really did it. This is a picture from my last day at work!!! It's so bittersweet for me. But on my last day, not a single member of management or administration said anything to me. Trust me, many had the chance. On the other hand, my coworkers did lots of special things, which was more meaningful than anything my boss could've done. It's going to take some getting used to, but I know my new routines will be much, much better. I've gone dark for a while on here, probably because I was busy sorting my thoughts and planning for the big changes that were going on in my life. Now it's time to catch up! Also, it's time to get back on track with being an all around healthier person. I tipped the scales this morning, and I'm not happy about it. I've fallen way behind with the healthy things I had been doing, but now is not the time for excuses. It's been a while since I made a green smoothie, but I'm determined to choke one down today. I really want to have a baby, so it's important that I get my body in the best state it can be. I also want to just plain feel better. I've been so sluggish, and woke up with another headache today. Not good people, not good. Also, I recently had to buy a few pairs of shorts in a bigger size (kill me) just so I had something to wear. This has got to stop. More peaceful life = healthier me. I'm determined. Wish me luck as I get back on track. More updates to come

[levychristy]

Fun night at Tyler Arboretum (at John J. Tyler Arboretum)

[lisalivinginlititz]

Week 7 (I think)

Finally! Even I can see a change! I love lifting weights and I feel this can be something I won’t want to give up on. Feeling strong is better than being skinny….but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to lose weight. I do want my focus to be on health, so I’m not worrying about the scale. Slow and steady wins the race (and gives your skin time to adjust too!). I got my bloodwork back and all my labs are perfect! I’m feeling great, and like Christy told me….not all victories are on the scale!

[pamelabonmyway-deactivated20150]

Oh congrats you!! I just posted a woe is me post and then read yours, great job! Inspiring!

[levychristy]

Wish I could like this a thousand times over!! I'm so proud of you. You've made a commitment and you're totally seeing it through. What an accomplishment! I just love you so much! Congrats and keep killing it!!!

[pamelabonmyway-deactivated20150]

WHAT a day. lisalivinginlititz thank you for your kind words on my earlier post, if I could figure out how to respond in my post I would! Instead you get a special mention here!:)

Left the house nearly hit 4 cyclists I swear I almost pissed my pants. They were right in the middle of the road...

[levychristy]

First, I love that you're helping to keep the word vexed alive! Love! Secondly, I have to admit that you beat me to it with your second post, because I was going to comment on your shoes too! I agree with all of the passersby-they're great shoes!! Now, to get rid of the blisters, ugh. Here's hoping that today is a better day for both of us. Let's kick this funk we both seem to be in. :)

[levychristy]

Today I gave my resignation at my job of 13 years. The only response I got was "ok, thanks." I feel sad about that. I'm looking forward to taking some time for myself, but I feel disappointed to be ending my time there like this. I'm in a funk overall right now, and I hope I can soon come out of it. There. Maybe publicly posting this (sort of, since I only have a handful of loyal followers :) ) will help me over the hump.

[pamelabonmyway-deactivated20150]

Holy crap congrats you did it! Sorry that your departure was met with that smug reply :( some people are just complete shits. You are free! I am sooo envious. Relish your alone time, roll around in it. Go for a spa day! You are now a lady who lunches!

[levychristy]

A lady who lunches?! Yes, of course!! This is the only way I will refer to myself for the next year or so, I'm sure. Thank you!!!