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kang minjun. 21. v&a. versus' maknae. (part of legacy, not the real zb1)

[lgcmjun]

gig opportunity 030 - solo lyrics creation, word count 364

minjun always chose the most different places to start or finish his writing process, and this time was no different. instead of using the regular studio or even a dance practice room, he opted for the rooftop; obviously, it was dark and cold upstairs, but it was the only place he could find some comfort lately.

when it was given the task to write lyrics to haru’s upcoming project, and he learned v&a would have the privilege to contribute to that, he was beyond excited, but it was also a responsibility he felt weighing on his shoulders.

the first days, he couldn’t come up with anything. The demo held such a nostalgic and romantic feel, and minjun, despite holding loving feelings inside him, couldn’t come up with something interesting or even usable - in his opinion, everything he was writing either sounded rough or too cliche, nothing extraordinary or even good enough to suit haru’s standards.

the light at the end of the tunnel happened when he was upstairs, drinking coffee and just thinking too hard. “damn this feels like an emergency”, when he heard an ambulance crossing the street in front of the legacy building.

blinking, minjun felt the first tingles on his fingers, the characteristic feeling of something happening, his brain pushing him to pick up his phone and open the notes. he didn’t have his notebook, so that would have to do it.

“doctor help me it’s the lovemergency”

“it doesn’t look bad, i guess. This could be a general idea.”, minjun spoke to himself, walking around the rooftop, cellphone in hand, as he thought about the demo he listened to over and over, thinking of how a rap part could fit what he just came up with, but then giving a second thought and also writing.

“and i give it all yeah i would give it all 숨 쉬게 하는 건  baby, 너뿐인걸”

humming to the new lyrics, minjun could feel his face split a smile,  just as some of his tension left his shoulders. he just needed some adjustment and some opinion until he could show it to the ones he trusted.

Hopefully, his contribution would meet the standards.

[lgcmjun]

📓 #724

i can’t say i didn’t try. i did. but things changed so much, you know. i think jimin thought i was still the same minjun who would idolize and trust everything he said. he’s still a model, but unlike the old me, he’s someone whose actions i would not follow.

i’m not going to make the same mistakes as he does, i could never turn my back on someone because i felt insecure about myself. because no matter what he says, he was insecure with me becoming an idol. i was a thread in the end, just like wonnie hyung warned me ages ago.

(i should really call him as soon as i finish here)

but our meeting was fine, surprisingly i wasn’t scared or nervous; jimin doesn’t trigger these emotions on me anymore. and i think he felt it, as soon as we met, he knew he was dealing with someone as mature as he was (even if he’s older than me.)

he wanted us to go back to what we used to be, but that old minjun is dead. i’m not the same boy who would blindly follow everything he told me, him, mom, and dad killed that boy during chuseok two years ago.

still, i’m not a bad person, i left the door open for him. whenever jimin wants to talk, to share things, to give advice, he can. it doesn’t mean i will follow whatever he says, but it doesn’t hurt to listen. i think.

now i need to talk to family, my real family. wonnie hyung is waiting for me.

until next time.

[lgcmjun]

📓 #723

it’s been quite some time since i last talked to you. i know it’s easy to find an excuse and say my job has been keeping me from doing everything, but you were always the thing i couldn’t miss at all, the thing i needed to return whenever things got too stuck in life and when it was almost impossible to breathe.

but i’m coming here now because something changed with my family - and i mean the biological family (mom, dad, and jimin). there’s not much of an update on mom and dad, but jimin reached out. i think someone talked about me to him, or he was asked about having an idol in the family. the exact reason doesn’t matter, but he sent me a message and wanted us to talk. he’ll be in LA at the same time we’ll be there for our kcon concert, so he believes it’s a good opportunity for us to meet and…chat.

i dont really have anything to talk to him, i guess something broke between us, that bridge was burned to the ground, and no one showed up to repair the damage. At the same time i’m curious about it, i wanna know what he wants to tell me. i don’t have hopes. not with them anymore. and it’s sad, even if they’re family (on paper, at least). 

i promise i’ll update you as soon as we meet. guess you’ll see me again from los angeles next.

until next time.

[lgcyushin]

yushin claps like a seal, excitedly at some of the rings hitting their targets. with each successful toss, it gets him hyped up more and more. "ha, no pressure, no pressure, riiight." seriously, if his biggest competition wasn't his own self, he might haev taken it personally, but he's happy that minjun is pulling the team up and that yushin just has to beat his own personal best. they're a team, not pvp or whatever that term is. ( yea clearly, dude doesn't game much. ) "okay, we have a few more rounds to try to hit fifteen points. otherwise we will be penalized.... you're pulling your weight so its time for me to shine now too," he says, more gusto than his actual 'skillset'.

he's being light-hearted about it all, but truly, truly- he doesn't want the embarrassment of a punishment. the longest ten minutes ever, possibly. so here he goes, with his first ring of the second set, eyes lasered in on his goal. the first one misses, and he cringes immediately. "we aren't going to get punished this time around!" after getting a few points in, yushin lets out a low breath, glad they're inching closer to their goal. "okay, we've got this. you'll get us to fifteen, no pressure. although we do have a third round after this too."

[lgcmjun]

it was easy to act around yushin, he thought the other man would be so scary when he met him for the first time, just after his debut. but he was surprisingly surprised by the way the older man carried himself and the group’s name; it was heartwarming, really, even if they didn’t belong to the same unit.

at the end of the day, they were all v&a.

“i will be doing a little dance for you, no worries!”, minjun said doing his immediate dance, already celebrating yushin’s upcoming throws, his hits, not his misses. there was a competition happening, but they should also focus on something cooler, like showing the audience they had good teamwork and how they could have fun while fighting to not get penalized for their misses.

but minjun couldn’t hide his face when yushin missed his first throw, but didn’t stop doing his dance, clapping excitedly when he hit the target the next one. “yes, hyung! you did it!”

sticking out his tongue, minjun shook his head, and immediately laughed when he heard the mission thrown on his shoulders. “no pressure, right? let’s see if i can keep up with this.”

and maybe it was out of nervousness, but as soon as he threw his first ring, he missed his chance. he tried not to look disappointed, but it was written all over his face, “sorry hyung, i’ll do better next time.”

[lgchyoseop]

lgcmjun

if that had been a dynamic involving his groupmates, minjun would’ve responded to that question in a sassier way, teasing his hyungs with jokes about them being too old and not understanding a simple task. they would throw jokes his way, and they would have a great time playing that game. but he couldn’t extend the same thing to someone from another group, someone he wasn’t familiar with. the question was still reverberating inside his head as a bad joke, something that caught Minjun off guard, and he realized how different the cha siblings were; it was so easy to talk to sori, he remembered. “well…” he wondered what would work better for them, but in the end, minjun just did what he always did during moments of tension (maybe they were taking that game too seriously?) - he showed what he meant. “try doing this.” minjun took one of the rings, aiming at one of their selected targets, but before he could throw it, he closed his eyes for a moment, sighing so deeply that he momentarily felt his ears closing, and there was no noise around him. then, as he exhaled, he threw the ring, granting them a point. “it always works for me, hyung. it doesn’t hurt to try. i’m sure we’ll go great.”

hyoseop didn’t have a lot of idol friends, and majority of the other idols on tva he had barely spoken to. he’d gotten quite close with kai and baekhyun, but the two ended up leaving, and just as he was getting closer with seyoon, he left too. the type zero members had always been the idols he was closest to, but as they left and left, it was difficult to get close to the other members.

he was familiar with the fabula members, being friends with minji, being sori’s sibling and having interacted with eunhye here and there, but most other idols in legacy, he was quite unfamiliar with. he hoped this show would gain him some new idol friends, because he surely needed that, someone besides his sister to talk about idol stuff with.

“ah, okay” he nods, before following, taking a deep breath, it doesn’t help, and hyoseop kind of just feels like he looks stupid. “eh! you got it” he immediately claps, a smile on his lips, almost more satisfied than had he done it himself. “okay, i’ll take your advice” he nods, taking another deep breath and then throwing, landing it correctly on “let’s go!” he lifts his hand, signaling he wants a high five.

[lgcmjun]

minjun’s smile was wide, as soon as he heard hyoseop’s celebratory cheer, and he didn’t waste a second and just high-fived the type zero member, followed by a small dance, “you did it, hyung! that was such a great throw!”, and he wasn’t patronizing the older man, he really felt they did good and hyoseop had a chance at bringing points to their group. 

he heard some staff members saying they looked silly, but in a positive way, and minjun wondered if their sudden chemistry would look good on camera when they aired the competition. 

“shall we make a bet now? how are you with competition? of course, this would be just between us”, minjun whispered, a half-tease, half-truth, giggling in between, “we should definitely give the audience some content. the one with more points pays for the other an ice cream. what do you tell me, hyung?

[lgcyushin]

▶▶ LOADING … target practice ( project tva ) w/ @lgcmjun

it reminds him of those carnivals that he used to see on tv as a kid, where americans went to those massive summer festivals and fairs, and indulged in popcorn, crowds, and expensive games like this. he supposes he doesn't have to pay, or be around crowds, and there's no food right now, but they're playing one of the games. yushin's never actually attended many fairs here, nor has he indulged in any of the sideshow games since he was often too cheap to pay for games that he'd be guaranteed to lose at.

yushin hopes he doesn't lose here, but again, he's not particularly athletic in... ring toss. but maybe he would be... lucky? he glances to minjun as he waits his turn now. "take your time. i mean really, because if we miss, we lose ten minutes," the older vna member laughs. no pressure, yea. but seriously, he's hoping that minjun will hard carry the pair of them. as fun as variety is, yushin usually enjoys himself more than being massively competitive. although with the roster of games they'd been participating in, half of it has been luck based so far. this... well. it could be more based on skills.

[lgcmjun]

it’s not hard for minjun to understand people now. he watches, observes, takes mental notes, and then acts upon the circumstances that are made necessary. just like dealing with one of his group mates, yushin. 

being placed in different units sometimes sets them apart, and that could be something to create just the wrong environment, but minjun is an observer; he knows how to make things a little less tense and more fun for them. 

he’s glad, for example, that his partner isn’t as competitive as he is; not that he couldn’t handle if Yushin were, but it’s easier for him to focus on his own performance, not exactly minding if things go wrong during that task.

“no pressure, right, hyung?” grabbing the rings, he throws them, and it’s not perfect, far from it, but he manages to hit the targets, getting them precious points. minjun smiles, not an arrogant one, but the cutesy kind, and makes a V sign, in celebration. “you’re in good hands, hyung. it’s your turn now.”

[lgchyoseop]

lgcmjun

minjun was definitely surprised. no, he was in shock; that would be a better definition for the feelings he was trying to hide while wearing his best poker face. cha hyoseop was praising his dancing? and was asking for advice? in which alternate universe did he land, and that was his new reality? “s-sure! anything you want from the routine, let me know what you wanna do, i’d love to help, hyung.” his voice faltered a little when he answered, but he tried his best to look as cool as the guy in front of him; as a member of versus, they all had a reputation to keep. hyoseop wanted to try the chorus. right. the hardest part indeed. minjun himself took most of his practice time with those lines, trying to get everything right together, instead of working on vocals first and then the choreography; his brain worked better that way, but he didn’t know if the other man would follow the same routine. “let’s do it. how do you wanna do it? practice lines and tempo first, and then add the choreo, or the other way around? what works the best for you?”

hyoseop still felt like he needed help with dance, even though he’d been an idol for a while, and a trainee for even longer, he still struggled a bit when it came to dance. sure, he’d gotten far, but he still looked at other idols and felt like he had long to go. he never asked for help with rap, he was confident with that, and knew how to practice by himself. but when it came to dance? he was willing to take advice from a dongsaeng.

“eh! i’m glad to hear you’re willing to help me” he smiles to the other “you’ve been an idol for so shortly, but you’re still so talented at dance, i can’t help, but be jealous” he pouts, a short laugh following. it did feel a bit weird that hyoseop had to ask for help from someone who had been an idol for a lot shorter than him, but hey, he needed the help.

“ah, i was thinking we practice the choreo first? but hey, you’re the boss! i’ll follow your lead” he smiles to the other.

[lgcmjun]

when minjun thought life couldn’t surprise him, it just slapped him in the face and told him he was just a silly boy with a long road ahead of him. to have someone like hyoseop to praise him and tell him he was jealous of his dancing was something so unexpected, he felt his knees tremble a little, followed by a nervous giggle.

“oh god, hyung, don’t say that! i’m sure you’re just as good, i mean, i’ve seen you since your debut, ok! you guys are great, i’m a big fan!”, he bowed down respectfully before they could move to find a spot in front of the mirror.

they had some practice to do, and minjun felt the weight of leading hyoseop through his dancing process - he found the routine of breaking the whole choreography into small, not sequential, and from easiest to hardest, the best way to cover it all perfectly. some people didn’t like the way he did it, but in the end, it worked fine.

“okay, i think the opening lines, when we’re just walking to the start position, are the easiest parts, before dom and jazz hyung’s lines. we can start from there and stop before iseul’s lines. pre chorus will be covered in the end. trust me, it’s going to be okay. everything harder we can practice in the end. if it’s okay, i’ll be singing and counting so we can see how you practiced, and then we'll do it together. how does it sound? confusing? okay? it’s my first time guiding a dance practice, i’m nervous!”, he laughed.

[lgchyoseop]

lgcmjun

minjun always admired certain idols when he was a trainee. he used to spend most of his free time secretly watching their practice, trying to absorb everything he could during their boothcamps or training events when the idols were working as mentors. so to work with them, especially when legacy decided to pull one of those events where all their groups would interact, was both challenging and exciting. he couldn’t help being amazed by how professional everyone was handling the task to work on a brand new song in such a short amount of time, when most of them were also busy with comebacks. when hyoseop spoke to him, minjun tried his best not to look alarmed or act like a fool - he should’ve been used to being recognized by other idols when he was also one, but that always failed him.  “hi, hyung!” he bowed his greeting and smiled, as he looked around, at everyone else, and finally at the man in front of him. “everything is going great. the song is a challenge for me as well. but i heard your rap lines, you were doing good!” but then he stopped for a moment, an idea crossing his mind. “would you like to practice together?” he could add that it would be such a dream to practice with a member of one of his favorite groups, but he didn’t want to sound like a silly fanboy.

opportunities like these were nice for hyoseop, every idol was usually busy, so it was often difficult to find time to spend with idols that weren’t in your group. he hadn’t realized how little legacy idols he were friends with, while he knew the names of the people in this practice room, a lot of them he had barely spoken with before. it was nice to finally have time to spend with other idol friends, but it was also exciting to interact with the idols he hadn’t given much time before.

“it’s exciting for me, i love trying new concepts” he smiles “and thank you, i’m glad they gave me the opportunity to rap in the song, i do quite enjoy rapping”. rapping was his passion, and while over the years he had gotten better at singing, he still much preferred to rap in songs. “for sures! as far as i’ve seen, you seem to be a good dancer, it’d be nice to get a bit of advice from you”. “wanna do the chorus together? it seems like the hardest part to me”.

[lgcmjun]

minjun was definitely surprised. no, he was in shock; that would be a better definition for the feelings he was trying to hide while wearing his best poker face. cha hyoseop was praising his dancing? and was asking for advice? in which alternate universe did he land, and that was his new reality?

“s-sure! anything you want from the routine, let me know what you wanna do, i’d love to help, hyung.” his voice faltered a little when he answered, but he tried his best to look as cool as the guy in front of him; as a member of versus, they all had a reputation to keep.

hyoseop wanted to try the chorus. right. the hardest part indeed. minjun himself took most of his practice time with those lines, trying to get everything right together, instead of working on vocals first and then the choreography; his brain worked better that way, but he didn’t know if the other man would follow the same routine.

“let’s do it. how do you wanna do it? practice lines and tempo first, and then add the choreo, or the other way around? what works the best for you?”

[lgchyoseop]

lgcmjun

title: put a ring on itpartner: @lgchyoseopevent: project tva 003

sometimes it was hard to notice, but minjun was used to competition. Having spent most of his life inside a pool, dealing with coaches and the weight of always delivering excellence in the form of new records and breaking them, gave him an eye for noticing when things were about to go wrong. he noticed it first when hyoseop threw the first ring (and missed it) for their task, and he sighed deeply, trying to focus more or find something to blame for his performance. minjun wanted to talk to him, but since he wasn’t close to the type zero member, even if they did interact during award ceremonies or promotions whenever their schedules clashed, he wasn’t sure if his words would be well received. in the end, minjun didn’t want their performance to look poor; he didn’t want to lose to anyone else, so if he could help the older man out, even if his words disappeared in thin air after a couple of seconds, he should try. “hyung.” he started, shifting his weight from one foot to another, suddenly unsure about what he was going to say. “maybe you should take a deep breath before throwing it again. we’re just getting started.”

hyoseop has never been particularly smart, his sister definitely got the brains, but being physical? hyoseop was always good at that. he used to be on the swimming team, along with on the volleyball team, and basically whatever sport he tries, he’s good at it. that’s his thing, he’s good at being physical, which makes you question why he’s a bad dancer then, but ask him, and he wouldn’t be able to answer.

but, since he’s so good at physical things, he has a tendency to become… competitive. even when he plays soccer or something else for fun, there comes out a really competitive side in him. and this tva variety show or whatever it was, it kept challenging his inner competitive side.

when he misses the ring, he almost bites his lip hard enough for it to bleed, luckily there's no blood, but ouch, his lip kind of hurts now. he’s not too familiar with his partner for this mission, he knows he’s an idol in versus, but that might be as far as his knowledge reaches. “take a deep breath?” hyoseop stares at minjun, wide eyes, you can almost see the question mark on his face. “how do i take a deep breath?” 

oh hyoseop, so clueless.

[lgcmjun]

if that had been a dynamic involving his groupmates, minjun would’ve responded to that question in a sassier way, teasing his hyungs with jokes about them being too old and not understanding a simple task. they would throw jokes his way, and they would have a great time playing that game.

but he couldn’t extend the same thing to someone from another group, someone he wasn’t familiar with. the question was still reverberating inside his head as a bad joke, something that caught Minjun off guard, and he realized how different the cha siblings were; it was so easy to talk to sori, he remembered.

“well…” he wondered what would work better for them, but in the end, minjun just did what he always did during moments of tension (maybe they were taking that game too seriously?) - he showed what he meant. “try doing this.”

minjun took one of the rings, aiming at one of their selected targets, but before he could throw it, he closed his eyes for a moment, sighing so deeply that he momentarily felt his ears closing, and there was no noise around him. then, as he exhaled, he threw the ring, granting them a point.

“it always works for me, hyung. it doesn’t hurt to try. i’m sure we’ll go great.”

[lgcsena]

the next mission

random starter for @lgcmjun

having worked with minjun in the past, sena was somewhat familiar with him. however, she didn't really know him all that well. after all, they were just in an ad together, which was mainly focused on them getting the job done. however, half a year later, she decided to pay him a visit in the company, just to see how he was doing.

she comes across him in one of the common areas. "hello, minjun!" she says, awkwardly cheerfully for her. however, she has been trying her best to appear a bit more... friendly? less cold? it still feels unnatural though.

"how have you been doing lately?" she asks. "i don't think we've talked since we were in sanghyun-nim's ad, so i figured i'd catch up," she said. she wonders if he remembers how nervous she was at the time, or even at all. is this even a good idea?

[lgcmjun]

minjun enjoyed how the fans and most of the idols saw him - as someone who would be nice to have as a friend, someone always willing to pay attention to people’s problems, generally a green forest (etervals words not his). so when skye came up to him at the company during one of his visits for a private round of training, he welcomed her with an immediate smile.

it wasn’t normal for them to have many schedules together. This worked more with male idols, but he was happy to interact with everyone in the company, networking was always something good, and for them, who worked together already, things should be easier.

“skye! hello!” he greeted her with a smile, closing the distance between them, but not invading her space. “i’m good, just heading to practice, but it’s great to see you, how have you been?” he didn’t know if it’d be polite to have asked for her number when they wrapped their schedule months ago, but minjun would’ve liked to keep talking to her.

[lgcmjun]

« balancing - solo; wc: 295 »

minjun plans things as meticulously as he can that morning. he’s aware that focus would be on him all the time during what he would be recording for their client, but he doesn’t want to look or sound fake to his fans. 

that’s why he’s planning everything - from the trip to the grocery shop near the dorms, where he decides to go very early in the morning, not to cause any trouble to the regular customers; he takes his time to showcase the shoes he’s wearing, when he checks the lower shelves, searching for akio’s favorite cereal.

his next stop, after he returns to the dorms for a quick outfit change, is the park nearby. he chooses a perfect pair of running shoes for a few laps around the place, getting used to the weather around, the sun giving the best lighting when he stretches and shows what he’s wearing - if minjun is honest, the shoes are really comfortable and work perfectly for that task as well.

minjun decides to capture as many moments as he can, showcasing the shoes he’s wearing. he’s glad the company offered a few different pairs so he could play with the possibilities and deliver his footage so they would make the best use of it. of course, his favorite take is the one inside the legacy building - instead of choosing a regular practice room, minjun opts for the late hours of the evening, when the sun is setting and he films a teaser of a never seen before choreography - there’s nothing much to show, because the way his camera is placed, the focus is entirely on the shoes and his silhouette practicing. it feels like a movie, and he hopes everything went great by the end of the day.

[lgcsori]

lgcmjun

“no need to apologize at all.” minjun said immediately, he didn’t want to make sori uncomfortable for expressing her points and giving him advice so freely he liked listening to other people’s reasons, especially when they did it with the little information he gave her. he found himself nodding at her explanation, his heart going to her when she mentioned her relationship with her brother and her debut. when he thought about it, sometimes he wished there were people who would suddenly appear to present themselves as his relatives, but then he really gave it a thought, and wouldn’t change everything that happened until now. “i guess we have a concept of family and how it should go. we are raised to believe they’ll always be there for you, and when that doesn’t happen, is a disappointment. i can say i held big expectations about my parents and my brother, because i knew i had them close to my heart”, minjun sighed, not meeting sori’s eyes at that time, “but when you have your heart broken too many times, you toughen up and move on.” he shrugged. “do you think i’m a bad person for seeing them as relatives, but not family?” that was something he always thought about. what was their opinion about their distancing?

usually sori would find situations like this one awkward. so openly speaking about their personal lives. sori had never been a fan of speaking about her own life, but minjun had her have the words roll off her tongue, barely even thinking before speaking. it was nice, this was all something she hadn’t really talked about with anyone before. perhaps sometimes, it’s better to let it out, than keeping all of your thought to yourself.

“no” she’s quick to answer, shaking her head. “besides my parents and brother, i kind of see the rest, as just, relatives. they were never there for me, they never felt like family, it’s only recently they gathered interest in me”. “i think there’s some sort of idea that you have to forgive family, because they’re family, but in the end, it’s not sharing dna that makes you family” she shrugs.

“if you wanna give your family another chance, that’s fine, but if you don’t, that’s also fine” she nods her head. “at the end of the day, i think we choose our own family”.

[lgcmjun]

if people had to guess, they would never imagine bonding between idols from different groups would come in the form of them talking about their families - and their problems with them - for a long time. minjun was really enjoying that conversation, realizing he wasn’t all alone when it came to parents and how they cared about their children.

“damn, i really feel i should get that on a shirt”, minjun grinned, saying after sori “it’s not sharing dna that makes you family”. he wanted to make more fun of that, but the thing is, he found that sentence very close to his heart; lately, he had been feeling exactly that way, the people he chose to be closer to him, from his friends to his loved one, they’re his real family, they’re the ones that matter the most.

but he also would be lying if he said he never thought about giving his parents another chance - if they wanted to be part of his life again, and not because minjun needed them. sometimes that thought would come when he was writing his rap intros and outros, and it would keep him distracted for a long time, until he gave up and focused on something else.

“did your parents ever favor you instead of your brother?”, minjun wondered once again, knowing family dynamics worked differently from one family to another, but at the end of the day, it all came down to the amount of love one son was getting compared to another. “i’m asking because i think that’s the thing between my family and i”.

[rowonlgc]

minjun was, in every sense of the word, his. he'd been his for some time now, perhaps even longer than rowon could trace back. but as minjun stood before him, pressed up against the rooftop railings, his voice teetering between disappointment and sadness and a brush of anger—rowon couldn't see what was his at all.

but to be rowon's was an impossible request. it required someone to surrender their freedom and identity and to rewire everything they knew about what was right and what was wrong. before their names should be his—like a bird he captured, kept, and fed, who had long forgotten the world outside of the cage it was put into, they should belong to him. rowon's bird.

rowon's minjun.

that was not who stood in front of him. rowon could only wonder where he'd gone wrong. had he left the door to the cage open? or had he been too kind to let this bird fly around, trusting it to come back to him the same? he should've tightened his grip. then, maybe, minjun wouldn't be looking at him like this—with eyes that betrayed the smile he was forcing.

"are you happy, minjun?"

he only asked because he had a good idea of what the answer would be: yes, but not right now. and he'd choose to hear just the first part.

"i am. i know it may not seem like it whenever i come to you like this, but i am."

his eyes flittered to minjun's lips. he wanted nothing more than to resolve this with a kiss, but that was equivalent to giving a bird water; it would be satiated until it became thirsty again.

"sometimes i wonder if the way i love is wrong. if it's too oppressive, suffocating, or unfair. if you love someone, truly and entirely, you wouldn't want to see them like this, would you?"

rowon lifted his gaze once more. his next question came frayed, stripped bare of intent. he was merely curious.

"if i let you go, would you come back to me?"

[lgcmjun]

how many times did minjun question himself if he was happy? if he was ever happy. the smallest things made him happy; he learned to give his all, but hardly received the same in return. and he got used to that - snippets of sentiment, of affection. sometimes they would come in the form of a smile, sometimes a person he cared about would stop by during his school competition, praising him for his performance.

it all happened when he was younger, when he was growing up, when he tried to be loved and appreciated. but during his journey to become an idol, he learned he didn’t need to search for that; if people couldn’t make him happy, then it was their loss. 

and the person who taught him that, even if they didn’t know, was standing before him, questioning him about something he should know the answer to.

minjun heard a lot about rowon when the two of them started to hang out. from his brother, rowon’s ex, to trainees who wanted the same kind of close relationship with him. even coaches told him to be careful, to not deviate from his goals for something fickle - whatever that was.

“you never made me unhappy, hyung. Sometimes, i get disappointed and angry with you, but you make me happy. i don’t regret our journey.”

and it was true. he often told rowon the reason why he blindly trusted him was that he never lied to him, he never tried to sweeten things for him, and that was true. minjun needed that; he was always aware of where he belonged, not to push his luck. his feelings towards rowon were probably obvious to a lot of people, but the older man, and it was okay. he wanted him to learn that by himself, and if minjun’s gut feeling failed him, then, he’d still be there for him. after all, in all his honesty, he didn’t think rowon would ever fall for him. 

“there’s no right recipe for love. you can’t measure and compare it. if it feels right, then it’s right. you shouldn’t worry about that. unless you don’t…” his words faltered for a moment, trying to find something else in rowon’s eyes. “unless you don’t want this anymore.” the heavy sigh that escaped minjun’s lips was almost painful, and he closed the distance between them, placing a hand on rowon’s shoulder, the whisper barely audible, “how many times did you let me go, hyung? and how many times did i really leave? at least you should know this. i never broke our promise.”

[yum-nyang]

GUNWOOK: iconik | music core

[lgchyoseop]

lovely month

hyoseop doesn’t exactly have a lot of idol friends, so the opportunity to interact with other idols makes him excited. his closest idol friends were parker, baekhyun and kai, but when all of them left type zero, hyoseop started to get some sort of loneliness feeling. sure he has his sister who is an idol as well, but they’re both busy too, it’s not too often they can find time to be together. hyoseop wants more idol friends, he just doesn’t know how to do it, but being “forced” to practice along other idols must give him at least an opportunity to speak with other idols.

hyoseop looks around, biting his lips, there’s a lot of unfamiliar faces, or well, he knows who they are since they’re idols under legacy, but there’s a lot of faces he’s barely interacted with before. when a face walks his way, he decides to interact with the other. “hey minjun” he smiles to the other, “how is practice going for you? the song is different from what type zero usually does, so i’m excited” he places his hands on his hips. “legacy truly does know how to make valentines day and love month feel special” gosh, he hopes it’s not too weird to randomly speak with minjun. 

<3 @lgcmjun

[lgcmjun]

minjun always admired certain idols when he was a trainee. he used to spend most of his free time secretly watching their practice, trying to absorb everything he could during their boothcamps or training events when the idols were working as mentors.

so to work with them, especially when legacy decided to pull one of those events where all their groups would interact, was both challenging and exciting. he couldn’t help being amazed by how professional everyone was handling the task to work on a brand new song in such a short amount of time, when most of them were also busy with comebacks.

when hyoseop spoke to him, minjun tried his best not to look alarmed or act like a fool - he should’ve been used to being recognized by other idols when he was also one, but that always failed him. 

“hi, hyung!” he bowed his greeting and smiled, as he looked around, at everyone else, and finally at the man in front of him. “everything is going great. the song is a challenge for me as well. but i heard your rap lines, you were doing good!” but then he stopped for a moment, an idea crossing his mind. “would you like to practice together?”

he could add that it would be such a dream to practice with a member of one of his favorite groups, but he didn’t want to sound like a silly fanboy.

[lgcmjun]

title: put a ring on it partner: @lgchyoseop event: project tva 003

sometimes it was hard to notice, but minjun was used to competition. Having spent most of his life inside a pool, dealing with coaches and the weight of always delivering excellence in the form of new records and breaking them, gave him an eye for noticing when things were about to go wrong.

he noticed it first when hyoseop threw the first ring (and missed it) for their task, and he sighed deeply, trying to focus more or find something to blame for his performance. minjun wanted to talk to him, but since he wasn’t close to the type zero member, even if they did interact during award ceremonies or promotions whenever their schedules clashed, he wasn’t sure if his words would be well received.

in the end, minjun didn’t want their performance to look poor; he didn’t want to lose to anyone else, so if he could help the older man out, even if his words disappeared in thin air after a couple of seconds, he should try.

“hyung.” he started, shifting his weight from one foot to another, suddenly unsure about what he was going to say. “maybe you should take a deep breath before throwing it again. we’re just getting started.”

[lgcmjun]

lovemonth event plot call!

if you're a male idol and wanna have a thread with minjun, like this so we can have fun with this event!