howl at the moon

(손하은) son haeun — twenty-four. dancer && rapper. legacy entertainment est. january 2022

[cherrylgc]

take a hint

once the break up, cherry hasn’t had any interest in romance. cherry genuinely thought areum would be the one cherry would end up marrying, and she had not seen their break up coming at all. areum had been the first person cherry ever genuinely liked, areum had been cherry’s first ever girlfriend, and partner overall. three years had went by, and she expected many more years to come, but only a few months after their third year anniversary, areum broke up with her. areum left not only cherry, but her group and legacy too, and cherry hadn’t seen the other since.

it’s been a few months now, and cherry wished she had gotten over her, but she hadn’t, so any form of romance, cherry kept away. 

she finds herself along haeun, since the break up, cherry rarely ever finds herself alone, if she’s alone, that means she’s alone with her thoughts too. there’s a smile on her lips, genuine or not, she’s not sure, but every smile since the break up has felt weird. “so, i’ve barely met my grandparents but--” cherry gets interrupted by a stranger, “can i have you two’s number?” he asks, “no” cherry is quick to say, but he, just stands there… not moving an inch, cherry looks confused at haeun.

written for... @lgcxhaeun

[lgcxhaeun]

haeun was the one who suggested they go out. she doesn't know all of the details or why, but cherry has been a bit out of it. haeun guessed that something must've happened that threw the other in for a loop. it wasn't horrible: cherry was still able to hang out and look like she was having a good time. but there were stolen moments just when you were expected to be distracted that cherry seems to have a far-off look. haeun recognised it: that's how she herself looked when she was lost in thought. not good thoughts, either.

so she made an effort to extend a hand to cherry, a hand that she desperately wished had been extended to herself earlier. she hangs out with cherry, takes her out and they've created a great friendship from it.

as they talk, haeun notices a man approach in her peripheral. she ignores it at first, thinking he was just passing the table but he then stops at their table and asks for cherry's number. haeun's body temperature rises as her temper does and gives him a look. "is there a reason why you're still here?" she asks, the hostility dripping from her tone. the guy ignores it, as most men do, and poses the question to cherry again.

haeun was getting really, really pissed off. "look, this is my girlfriend. she doesn't want to give you her number. we're on a date. you should leave." if only that was enough to get him to leave. it definitely wasn't. haeun spared a glance to cherry, giving her a look of 'do you want me to handle this guy' because haeun might need to make a scene if the guy stayed any longer.

[lgchyunhee]

”haeun!” hyunhee exclaims, letting out a soft giggle. she brings a hand up to cover her mouth as she continues to laugh, not wanting to be too loud but who’s around to hear them, anyways? for starters, everyone has headphones on. her face flushes red as the other flirts with her, heart starting to pound in her chest. despite being together for so long, haeun still manages to make her feel as giddy now, even though they’re way past the honeymoon phase.

“maybe you can try them out later at home?” she leans in to haeun, whispering in her ear, ensuring no one hears them. hyunhee pulls away again before slapping haeun lightly across the arm. the urge to hold her hand and kiss her are high right now, but she knows better. though the model’s not afraid of a little punishment, she’d rather not jeopardize haeun’s career as the older of the two is just getting started.

besides, they’ll have plenty of time to celebrate halloween on their own later.

“glinda? from wicked?” she asks, eyes widening. “didn’t we want to watch that movie? i forgot all about it, we’ll have to do that this weekend,” hyunhee tells her with a smile. “i’ve seen so many characters! honestly, a lot of them i don’t recognize,” she laughs. “oh! but some of the nova girls are dressed up as sailor moon! isn’t that cute? i went as usagi a few years ago.”

[lgcxhaeun]

haeun smiles, proud to make her girlfriend fluster so easily. it had become a favourite pastime of hers. her eyebrows quirk at the suggestion. haeun has to stop herself from suggesting they go straight home. she runs her tongue over the elongated canine with interest. "sounds like a date," she says cheekily. knowing that no one can hear them (or just simply weren't paying too close attention), haeun felt a little more confident and comfortable.

"yeah, i've been getting a lot of ads on youtube about the movie." their promotions for the movie had been really good. haeun didn't know much about wicked prior to the movie coming out. but once hyunhee made her aware, haeun decided to read the books first. "we can go this weekend. early evening?"

she hadn't spotted any of the nova girls just yet. "that sounds so cute. we should get people to do a big group costume like that next year." the suggestion surprises herself even after it leaves her lips. although the idea seemed ....fun. and she could guess at least two people who would most likely join them.

she hooked her pinky around hyunhee's. "i heard the dance contest is starting soon. think you want to do it?"

[lgcmedia]

@LGCENT just posted a photo!

help me...i just wanted to see if i'd sparkle ㅠㅠ

#lgctrainees #lgcent #sonhaeun

[rowonlgc]

"then you would have to separate without disengaging."

haeun has a point; he's heard horror stories of the more extreme measures some methods actors put themselves and their co-stars through. if they're to pull any of those, legacy would surely break their contract.

"if my character is a pyromaniac, for example, i wouldn't go around setting things on fire. i would imagine it and consider why and what i would get out of it, so in the end, i'm still thinking like my character."

rowon lets that linger, humming as haeun draws her own conclusion. there's a spark in her—a gem of a personality that peeks through the crack he'd chipped away at before they inevitably fell out of contact. he wonders if he tried too hard, pushed her too far ... or if he didn't push her hard enough.

a group of actors sweep past them. their chatter is but a distant echo. and then finally—it's quiet.

"how have you been?" he doesn't look at haeun as he asks this. figures doing so would put pressure. "it's been a while since we last spoke."

[lgcxhaeun]

"oh, that makes a lot more sense," haeun says with a nod. she kind of assumed it would be more like walking around, intentionally doing things the character would do. this would prove to be problematic in certain situations, possibly borderline crazy but rowon's explanation put it in perspective. "i think it'll help to do a character sheet....i'm good at drawing...i can use that to my benefit."

her brain is already concocting ways to bring it to fruition. drawing interpretations of what her character would look like instead of drawing herself ( because she hated drawing herself ). getting into habits, quirks, personality: a full character building sheet. it would help haeun understand her roles more.

but she'd have to work quick.

"hm?" she's pulled from her planning, head turning to look at him in brief question before her brain catches up to what she heard. "oh, um..." she faces forward. how has she been? she decides to go the more honest route. she leans her head against the wall. a soft sigh escapes her lips. "uhm, torn. it was hard choosing to be an actress. even up until i did it, i wasn't sure that i wanted to. maybe that's why i'm struggling so much."

in fact, she considered being a model, if only to be around hyunhee more. that fact she doesn't reveal, instead choosing to avert her gaze to her lap.

"i feel like it's been forever since i've seen you. how have you been?"

[lgchyunhee]

━━ side event 025 ◞ xoxz.· ( @lgcxhaeun )

when haeun had approached her with an idea for their halloween outfits, hyunhee was more than excited to match with her. already being able to attend the legacy entertainment halloween party together ( of course not officially as a couple ━ that's for the two of them to enjoy and giggle about in secret ) was a joy in and of itself, but matching costumes was like the cherry on top an already filled to the brim sundae.

hyunhee is as excitable as a puppy and after the green carpet and beginning of the party, she had lost haeun in the maze while making her rounds and saying hi to some of her other friends. everyone's effort into their outfits make her smile and of course she's happy to be wearing pink and dressing up like the princess she was always meant to be. in the midst of dancing to fabula's baddie on the kpop channel, she spots her other half in the pop booth. she runs over quickly, relieved that she was able to find haeun again, tapping her on the shoulder to get her attention.

"i lost you," hyunhee yells before wincing and deciding that it'd be best to have this conversation with at least one of her headphones off. "sorry, didn't mean to yell. this is so weird, isn't it?" she asks with a laugh. "when they said there was going to be a maze i didn't expect it to be so . . . " she trails off, eyes darting around. "maze-like? i guess? easy to get lost."

[lgcxhaeun]

haeun was distracted the moment hyunhee was in her vicinity. hyunhee was her princess — she didn't let the other go a day without knowing that — but seeing her in the bubblegum cosplay made the princess visuals come to life. hyunhee looked so angelic in pink that haeun didn't really focus on anything else the entire green carpet. of course she posed by pretending to bite hyunhee (and show off the vampiric canines she had).

they get separated for a bit. normally, that would be daunting if only for the fact that haeun was horrible at small talk (among other factors). this time she was calm. the topic of conversation was typically halloween-esque, which made talking a lot easier. asking about costumes, sharing halloween pictures of the past, and just general conversation about the party. haeun could handle that.

( doesn't mean she wasn't absolutely thrilled when her other half returns to her. )

"it's okay. i know it's better to let you frolic for a bit before i steal you away," haeun jokes. she's immediately distracted once again. her girlfriend looked so cute — the colour pink really did suit her. haeun clears her throat after noticing she was staring. she diverts her eyes quickly, instead doing a sweep of the room. hyunhee was right: it was easy to get lost.

ding!

"do you think there's some hidden spaces?" haeun says, eyes bright at the possibility. no doubt that there probably was one or two tucked around corners. the lights were already dim.... "we can test out how durable the canines are." she wiggled her brows and laughs, knowing damn well they couldn't even risk doing that. it felt nice to be light hearted about it though. haeun had been so uptight about it before. "who did you see so far? i saw someone dressed up as glinda earlier and her dress was such a light pink i thought it was you."

[lgchyunhee]

birthday delivery 𝜗𝜚⋆₊˚

when opening the door, there is a trail of pink petals that direct to the bedroom. inside the bedroom the petals gather at the foot of the bed and on the sheets. the petals on the bedsheets are in the form of a giant heart around a box. the box is black though decorated with polaroids of haeun and hyunhee taped onto it. a projector sits on the dresser across from the bed, projecting a slideshow featuring moments of the last three years together. photos and videos. some of haeun and hyunhee together or some of just hyunhee that haeun managed to take.

upon opening the box, a dozen of paper butterflies fly out and flutter to the floor. in the centre sits a pink velvet ring box atop an envelope. inside the box is a ring. in the envelope, it reads

to my hyunheebear

in an effort to avoid a cliche saying like ‘words cannot describe how much i love you’, i’m not going to say it. because the truth is i will always love you and i will work so that my words, my actions and my dedication proves it enough. thank you for never giving up on me. thank you for being my light, my strength, and my motivation. i thank the heavens for taking painstaking care when they created you, my soulmate. i thank my past self for being bold enough to kiss you. you’ve always had my heart, as i’m sure that it was crafted not to give me life but to beat in time with yours. so this ring is a promise. a promise to be your biggest supporter, cheerleader, confidant — whatever you want and need. i will be that for you. i promise.

happy birthday, keeper of my heart. i love you.

it’s no surprise that haeun would go all out for hyunhee’s birthday. she’s always been a love of all kinds of attention, but the private moments the two share will forever be her favorites. even though it’s a bit odd, the younger’s birthday marks the start of their relationship and thus this isn’t the only celebration happening in november. 

her ring is a present that she’s always cherised from haeun, something she rarely ever takes off. it represents the promise they made to each other, to be together throughout all the ups and downs that life throws at them. she opens the box, excited and giddy, and replaces her old ring with the new one knowing how much thought and effort haeun must have put in to picking out something she deemed perfect. 

indeed, hyunhee is spoiled rotten, but she likes to think that haeun wouldn’t have it any other way. the model loves being spoiled and haeun loves spoiling her. is there anything inherently wrong with that? 

at their cores, they’re very different, but that’s what makes them work. hyunhee takes care of haeun in her own way, even if it may be unconventional. they’ve both been each others’ rock during hard times and have grown through the trials and tribulations of finally debuting as a celebrity. 

once she finishes reading the letter, she clutches it to her heart wondering how she wound up with the most caring, kind girl in the world. it’s at times like these when hyunhee wishes she could shout from the rooftops that she loves son haeun with all her heart, and son haeun loves her back. 

it’s just not possible, though, not today. but deep down, hyunhee knows that one day it will be.

[somenights]

[lgcaeri]

aeri’s mind was having a mental debate between telling or keeping quiet over what had happened to her minutes before but when haeun greeted her, aeri returned the greeting belatedly. “hey, how are you?” she asked, only for her to mentally regret asking such a question. she could have gone about her way and forgot the phone mishap, but aeri knew that her conscience would get the best of her at some point.

taking her notebook, aeri quickly flipped over to another page. as she tried to forget why she took the phone in the first place, aeri stared at the blank page while thinking to herself what she would write. “hm? oh that is a cute reading light. i didn’t know they had other kinds of reading lights besides the slim metal lamps with the adjustable arms.” she commented, realizing how there were so many cute reading lights compared to the first time she bought one for herself.

looking back at her notebook, she took her pen and began writing the first letter before pausing. “oh—um, contact.” aeri responded with the first word that was on her mind, but it was also the last thing that she checked on haeun’s phone before placing it back where it was. clearing her throat, aeri clarified, “i mean, physical contact in comedy. slapstick comedy.” while her response wasn’t too far off from what she was actually learning, aeri wasn’t sure whether her recovery was convincing enough to haeun. “comedy isn’t quite my strength so i figured it would be good to understand one of the comedy types.”

[lgcxhaeun]

"oh wow, that's cool," haeun said with a smile. she never ventured in slapstick comedy. though, admittedly, she should get more comfortable first before she starts mastering anything else. good physical comedy was about timing and the right level of energy. it was difficult. haeun was a bit envious of those who were naturally funny.

haeun had a passing thought that aeri seemed off. nervous, maybe? or maybe haeun just had caught her off guard. she shrugged it off. haeun was notoriously awkward with conversations sometimes. there was no space to comment just because aeri seemed to be stumbling over her words a bit. "you know, i'm no good at comedy either. not the traditional kinds, anyways."

though she wasn't sure how much of a comfort that came off. haeun wasn't good at anything yet. she was still honing her skills. "i'm more of a ...what is it? quick-witted type. i have a sharp tongue." she'd be a perfect comic relief with quick one-liners. but an actual focused comedy routine? she wouldn't stand a chance. "but i couldn't tell a joke to save my life."

she notices the message from hyunhee and quickly responds before locking her phone and leaving it face-up on the table again. the lock screen was something inconspicuous: just a sunset she had seen on her way home once. it was her wallpaper that always left her heart beating quickly in public. once the screen dimmed, haeun's eyes returned to the other. "maybe i should study with you to increase my strengths too. would you mind if i joined?"

[lgcxhaeun]

NOW PLAYING: im just your problem - marceline

though the song was technically a fight between the two characters, haeun figures the song was the kick off of the princess bubblegum and marceline ship. in the lyrics marceline mentions wanting to make up with bubblegum, feeling distanced after their argument. it takes a couple of episodes after for them to get together officially but the song perfectly captures marceline as a character: someone with too many emotions who can only express it through song. while haeun isn't exactly the same, she does feel better expressing herself with music.

[cherrylgc]

lgcxhaeun

she looked around as cherry did, frowning at the idea that her friend got accustomed to living like this. "cherry... don't think it's all me. we wouldn't be doing this if you didn't want to make a change too! so it's thanks to yourself too." colourful. haeun could do that. it was just colour blocking that would be difficult. hyunhee was better at all of those things: fashion, interior design. she had an eye for it. haeun was decent but she was nowhere near her girlfriend's level. "don't worry, i'm good at building stuff. i've got all day. and then i could come on my free days for a bit if you have any more to build that i didn't get to finish." when haeun said she was going to help, she meant it. she could follow diagrams easily. "c'mon. we're like two bus stops away from the place i was talking about!" she leads cherry out the door. "what's your budget? let's stay within that budget and see how many things we can get."

this wasn’t cherry’s first time living alone, and the last time she lived alone, her apartment pretty much looked like this, perhaps a bit sadder. ever since getting kicked out of her parents’ place at eighteen, she’s been struggling with money, working jobs she didn’t even like, simply to keep a roof over her head and food on her plate. her dad is back in her life, but he also doesn’t have a lot of money, he helped her buy her tv, but she understands he can’t help much more than how he’s helping for now.

“ah? i suppose…” she hums “still, thank you, i might’ve wanted a difference, but had you not come to my rescue i probably wouldn’t have made a difference” she shrugs.

“oh? my budget?” cherry hums, “ah, i… don’t know” she pouts “haeun i’m not sure if i can afford furniture at the moment, even if it’s cheap i won’t be able to buy much” … “sorry…” she pouts “i’m not a successful actress, and while my youtube channel gets views, it doesn’t bring me a lot of money” she fiddles with the end of her sleeves. “perhaps today could be more of what i want in the future? and we just spend a little money today?” she nods her head, smile on her lips. 

[lgcxhaeun]

haeun nodded, immediately understanding the switch in plans. she wasn't going to make cherry feel bad for not having money. haeun definitely understood. there were times that she had to live like that with her family due to her father having lost his job. "that sounds like a good idea. we can make a document on our phones and keep track with pictures."

besides, window shopping would help haeun out as well. the impending switch to acting meant that she had to plan her apartment as well. haeun was a little on the frugal side at times. while she did splurge on her girlfriend here and there, she still saved a pretty penny. she used to tutor a lot in school. the earnings were pretty good considering all of her money went straight to savings. haeun recognised she was privileged in that sense.

"c'mon! and then we can have a yummy lunch after." she led cherry to the nearby bus stop. it would only take a short 15 minute ride to their stop. then a brisk five minute walk.

haeun had almost forgotten their stop, although thankfully someone else had rung for the stop as well. she excitedly led cherry to the furniture store. they had everything on discount. the store often had sales as well. maybe they could coincide their future purchases with a sale as well.

"they have sets too. some great ideas. have you thought of some colour schemes on the way over?" haeun wasn't sure herself. she always imagined letting hyunhee going nuts with her apartment. "we can look at some sets first!"

[rowonlgc]

in contrast, acting comes naturally to rowon. or more accurately, pretending comes naturally to him. it wasn't his choice, but he still reaps the benefits.

( they didn't want him. they being his parents. rowon knew it long before he had any proof of it. they gave more attention to robin, his twin brother. robin, who was quiet, who charmed every visitor with his calm energy and warm smile. as a kid who didn't know any better, rowon began emulating him. acting as him. pretending as if they were the same. it worked, not only with his parents, but with everyone else. )

acting as a character someone has written for him isn't too different. but of course, that isn't the story rowon tells.

"i wasn't good when i first started. the coaches and all my mentors kept telling me do this, do that, control my micro-expressions, but at the same time, loosen up. it was a lot to take in, and they don't really teach you how to do any of it. workshops only help so much." even though they're on a break, he can still hear actors practicing their monologue down the hall. perhaps that's why he hasn't landed a bigger role; he's never been the type to push himself.

"have you heard of method acting?" rowon draws his gaze back to haeun. "it's when you immerse yourself in a character, so everything you do, every thought you have, you do it as them. that's what helped me the most. if i'm filming that day, i wake up as my character. if he doesn't like coffee, i don't have coffee. that sort of thing."

[lgcxhaeun]

haeun sighs. she's been giving everything some thought as she sat outside the workshop prior to rowon's arrival. she suspected acting was a lot easier when she did project origin because she had been in a better headspace. she wasn't depressed anymore (kind of) but there was already a mental block from when she was. there's no longer the voice that tells her there's no point in trying but the habit of shrinking herself was still there.

her therapist warned her of this.

"yeah. i have to be more natural but be intentional with all of my expressions and movements." she shakes her head. it had been a note that she kind of forgets that the audience will still look to her, even when she wasn't centre. the opposite of how it was during project origin practise: where whomever was taking centre stage needed to have the spotlight so the ensemble faded into the background.

she blinks. "method acting?" getting into the mindset of the character. "but i heard that can be really scary depending on the role you're intending to play. what if you have to play someone who you don't align with morally?" aside from the obvious, haeun thinks of going about her day like her character. she grimaces at the thought. wouldn't there be people judging her?

"though you may be on to something. i probably have to come to understand my character more. it's not just a quick assignment.... i'm supposed to bring the character to life." maybe she wouldn't go as far as to method acting. that's a type of dedication she doesn't yet have. but understanding a character? that wasn't too hard. that was like her character studies she would draw. she has to understand her character to understand what looks they would embody. it was sort of similar.

when she looks at rowon, haeun couldn't help but wonder what would possess him to speak to her. she settles on the opportunity presenting itself and him taking it. whatever it was, she was glad. she had missed rowon's companionship. "....thanks," she says after a breath of silence between them. "i think i'm a lot calmer now."

[lgcaeri]

during the times when aeri was at legacy and not on set or stage, she felt like she had to manage her time properly. a few minutes to review her notes before a workshop, another few minutes to check on her phone to see if her packages have arrived, and so on. sometimes, aeri missed the trainee days when the schedules were decided for her and all she had to do was follow along.

after receiving her notes back from another individual, aeri quickly grabbed one of the phones placed in the same area where she left hers. she soon recalled a term that she wanted to look up, so without any hesitation, she began unlocking the phone with the passcode she had just set up a couple days ago, glancing down at her notes to check if she highlighted the word. but as soon as she looked back at the phone, aeri sensed that something felt off. 

thinking that it was a glitch, she swiped through the home screen before she saw the first sign she should have noticed beforehand – the wallpaper. her home screen wallpaper was a scenic photo of jeju, her hometown, so to see that it was completely different left her even more confused. thinking that perhaps she made a mistake again, aeri opened the contacts app, hoping for a clue and immediately noticed that the names didn’t match hers at all. as she was about to ask out loud if anyone was missing their phone, a notification flashed across the screen. realizing what she was doing, aeri quickly locked the phone out of fear of getting caught and placed it back where she had last seen it.

[lgcxhaeun]

"hey aeri sunbaenim," haeun greeted with a smile as she came back around to grab her phone. it doesn't register her face for a moment, which forces herself to put in her passcode. it unlocks, revealing her background with her kissing hyunhee's cheek. the picture makes her smile until she remembers that she probably shouldn't have that wallpaper in view of anyone. she swipes to the next page of applications. she hopes she was fast enough that aeri didn't see but she knows damn well even if aeri glanced she would have caught sight of it.

"i found a reading light online. it's super cute. it'll help me do some line reading at night now." haeun pulls up the reading light that was shaped like a daisy. it was adjustable and had a clip. haeun got it in pink. it reminded her of hyunhee. "it was really cheap too!"

haeun looks up at the other, trying not to overthink if the elder saw anything or not. maybe she didn't notice. after all, it's not like aeri could go into haeun's phone herself and confirm what she saw or anything. "what have you been working on lately?"

[lgcjisoo]

curl up club

chilly days were meant to be spent indoors in jisoo's humble opinion. now he doesn't invite that many people over, but haeun had been over in the vicinity of hyunhee and jisoo's building before. he wonders if its weird to her at all that they lived so close. they were probably closer as cousins than they would have been as siblings - sometimes that parental bonding/trauma bullshit doesn't carry well, not that he felt they had any real familial trauma, but he's not the type to judge on that. the place as clean as he can get it, which isn't hard to do due to how minimalistic it is. things have filled out over the last year or two since he moved into the bigger location compared to his original one-room but it's still not a big apartment. it's truly enough for like... one and a half guests, maybe.

"you should most definitely not check out the ugly pieces i tried to paint and sketch," jisoo declares as an open invitation to her, having a few lingering pieces of canvas laid atop eachother against the wall. he didn't want those things hung up, for god's sake. "i am definitely not ever going to be an artist in the making," jisoo all but laughs as he relinquishes his very first sketchbook from this year to haeun's hands, as he turns the kettle on to make some tea. "do you prefer a different drink? i have a milk frother so we could make you like a.... tea latte, or coffee. i don't have the fancy coffee stuff though, only instant." not much of a coffee drinker here, but he had some packets from a label he worked with lingering around the place.

"i'm really glad you could make it over finally. everything here used to be in monochrome but i had a few friends convince me to put some colour." it wasn't much, a rug here... a mug there. yea, that red mug could be considered a decorative item. he's trying, but his efforts are lukewarm. "how are you doing lately anyway? was chuseok fun and relaxing?"

@lgcxhaeun

[lgcxhaeun]

haeun was thankful that jisoo was hospitable and supplemented conversation first. a part of her wondered if they'd just sit in silence in the absence of their wild card but haeun felt at ease. those worries were put to rest quickly. though even if they sat in silence, haeun wouldn't mind. (though hyunhee might find it weird if she knew.)

"i bet they're not even bad," she replies, wandering over to take a peek for herself. haeun wasn't judgemental of other's art. unless they were boasting and the reality was that they didn't put their own effort into it (like using ai, or tracing the entire piece and claiming it was their own work). "anyone can be an artist. you just have to find your medium. maybe you'd be great at pottery." the image of jisoo in front of a pottery wheel, covered in clay makes her laugh.

a sketchbook says a lot about an artist. haeun's which was waiting on the couch to be examined, had a lot of art studies and experimental styles. haeun was more of a sketch artist: messy lines, slightly cartoonish style, usually left without colour. though she's been transitioning to digital art. she looks up at jisoo for a moment. "oh, tea is fine. especially for how chilly it is today." she turns to the next page of his sketchbook, turning to show it to jisoo. "i like the composition of this one!"

"monochrome suits you," haeun says with a nod, putting down the sketchbook next to her own. on the floor in front of the couch was a ton of arts and craft supplies in a reusable plastic bag. sitting at the top was a pink velvet ring box. the star of the gift haeun was creating with jisoo. "though the splash of colour is nice — nice mug."

she sits on the floor, taking out the supplies and organising them on the coffee table. "chuseok was nice! though my grandmother is like in denial i'm dating a girl," she pauses to roll her eyes. hyunhee is the only person haeun has ever brought around her family. they knew how private she was at times. that alone should have been a wake up call for her grandmother. "she calls hyunhee my special friend; whatever that means. still nice though. i'm glad i had time for both families this year. hyunhee finally got to meet my cousin in person."

[lgcsori]

lgcxhaeun

haeun smiles, feeling comforted by sori. she knew sori would never snitch. would never ever do anything to put haeun in harms way. so then... "no, they think we're best friends. i intend to keep it that way for multiple reasons." haeun wanted to get further into her career before legacy has an inkling about it. lord knows how they'd react if it got out to the public. she shudders just thinking about it. "thank you, sori. i know you would die with the secret. i trust you." after a moment she takes out her phone, sending sori a message. it reads:' i can't say it out loud....but my partner is a girl. you might know her. or, i think you guys know each other!

sori finds herself lost in her thoughts for a second, pondering over the question ‘what’s her type’? sori has never thought about it before, too busy to care about anything romantic, now she doesn’t even know what kind of person she’d be interested in dating. should they be similar to her? or does opposites work better for her? what about looks, is there anything she finds particularly interesting and pretty? sori swirls her straw in her glass, disappointed that she can’t answer the question herself.

“have you always known what kind of person you wanted to date?” she asks the other.

sori listens carefully and interested as the other speaks. it’s not exactly easy to date while in legacy, and sori is curious how one can make it work, you’d have to be careful, wouldn’t you? and sori would need to really like someone if she attempted to keep a secret like she’s secretly dating. “difficult… yeah” she nods “majority of the people under legacy lives in dorms, there’s not exactly much privacy in our lives, we’re always surrounded by people….”. though if sori liked someone, they could probably spend time at her dad’s place, she spends time there with her friends anyway, he’s often too busy to even sleep in his own bed.

when sori gets a notification she only briefly looks, when she sees it’s from haeun, she lifts an eyebrow and looks confused at haeun before reading the text. “oh?” is what manages to escape her lips, someone she might know? she would’ve never guessed. and then it hits her, haeun likes girls? she looks up at haeun and suddenly she realizes, what does she like herself? she’s been so little interested in romance she’s not even sure what gender she likes. “i suppose i have something i want to talk about, but… in a public space isn’t the best idea” she shakes her head. “thank you for being willing to listen to my stupid troubles” she chuckles.

“how is life going as a trainee though?”.

[lgcxhaeun]

"oh no," haeun says quickly, thinking back to how she felt before she had feelings for hyunhee. hyunhee was her confidant, her closest friend. it just kind of ...happened. she never expected to like a close friend. especially not a girl. "it was a surprise. when they popped into my life, it took a while before i noticed them as potential. they were a good friend!"

lucky her, she supposed. it might be difficult for sori. she hopes she wasn't giving the impression that her person might already be in her sphere. it might be someone she hasn't met yet. "though now that i think about it, i probably should've noticed i liked them for a lot longer than i admitted. i'm grateful."

despite knowing sori wouldn't judge, there is a twist of anxiety in her gut when sori reads the message. her reaction is rather tame. haeun relaxes in her seat in relief. "oh!" haeun replies herself, feeling as though she could guess what sori would naturally ask next. though would she be able to answer her properly. sori didn't have any experience and haeun only had a specific one. she's not entirely sure how helpful she'd end up being to the other.

"hey, i'm glad to help you!" haeun insists. "besides, we can continue this conversation later. i'll probably be up late tonight anyways!" sori could ask that private question she wanted to. when the question gets redirected to training, haeun sighs.

"difficult, truthfully. i think..." she sighs again. it feels ridiculous to be stressed over. training. but it's been on her mind for a while. "i don't think i want to pursue being an idol anymore..."

[rowonlgc]

top of my lungs — outside the workshop

here's a face he hasn't seen in a while. son haeun—a friend, if the definition of friendship has a loose connotation. they're closer than acquaintances in his books; he still has her number in his phone, still keeps her birthday on the calendar despite not doing anything for it. they just haven't spoken in a long while. the last time they did, haeun didn't look too great. rowon asked, but he didn't press, and he most certainly didn't follow up.

and now that he's thinking about it, he doesn't know anything about @lgcxhaeun. he didn't even realize that she'd wanted to pursue acting until she stepped into the workshop earlier this week. so much for friends.

"different, isn't it?" rowon takes a seat on the floor next to her and leans his head back against the wall. he closes his eyes for a brief moment, the lights a bit too bright for his liking. or perhaps it's the improvisation workshop that's giving him a headache. "people think actors have it easier since we don't have to sing and dance, but they fail to consider that our main job isn't to act, it's to persuade. i don't look and sound like a pilot, but i still have to convince you that i am."

he cracks an eye open, peers over. "how are you holding up?"

[lgcxhaeun]

haeun was one of those people that underestimated acting workshops. she thought that being an idol trainee was far more difficult than preparing for acting. why would acting be harder when there were so many idol-actors?

to say she grossly underestimated the difficulty would be an astute observation from anyone. which is what leads her to be sitting outside of the workshop curled up: knees tucked in and forehead pressed on top of her knees. like a protective cocoon, as if the acting workshop couldn't get her in there. at the sound of a voice she lifts her head.

"rowon?" she asks before she thinks better of it. she and rowon hadn't spoken in... ages. if she sat there and tried to calculate exactly how long its been, she'd feel awful at the stretch of time between them. some part of her had to deal with it in therapy. her therapist had said that friends drift all the time, some get too busy or some simply evolve beyond the friendship. she wasn't sure what category to put rowon in but her therapist assured her that if it was a strong friendship, she'd find her way back to her friends.

now here he is.

"oh, yeah," she says, blush tainting her cheeks as she was definitely one of those people. she heaves a sigh. "it's just...different, you know? dancing was easy: all i had to do was follow the steps. there's no formula to acting. you just have to figure out how to do it your way. it's so hard."

she doesn't want to go into it. she doesn't want to divulge that she gave up being an idol because it wore her down. that she gave up only to hit another wall here. haeun was trying to give acting a chance. "i feel like i suck. even though i've been doing workshops for months. how do you do it?"

[lgcxhaeun]

bamboozled ༊*·˚

she felt like a chicken with her head cut off. there was so much to do, so much to catch up on in such a short time. she already had a short film to be in that she was wildly nervous about. she thought acting wouldn't be as much pressure but boy, was she wrong.

haeun was taking a breather, scrolling on her phone to calm her nerves. she didn't really have much social media due to them not being allowed to have any but at least she had tiktok. that was enough to keep her brain entertained for a bit to unwind. someone called out to her, asking for her to come over for a minute. haeun put her phone face-up, next to a few other phones. she didn't think much of it. she was going to come back quickly anyways.

"coming!" haeun called, rushing over to the other side of the room to see what was up. thankfully everyone has been so friendly during the process that most of the time, people were calling her over for tips and tricks. she heard her phone buzz (or what she thought was her phone) in the distance. ignoring it, she gave her full attention to the other trainee. although she wondered.

did a message come through?

don't snoop too hard @lgcaeri

[lgcxhaeun]

chuseok headcanon ༊*·˚

chuseok is spent, unsurprisingly, with her girlfriend. haeun brings hyunhee home to her family, as customary, to enjoy dinner and traditional games. haeun's grandmother, while not malicious, is still stubbornly insisting that hyunhee and haeun are just friends. her grandmother is perfectly pleasant with hyunhee, finding her to be a lovely friend to haeun. haeun's aunts (and cousins) are incredibly supportive. one of her younger aunts tell her not to worry about it. they all love hyunhee all the same.

haeun, in turn, spends some time with hyunhee's family as well. haeun adores hyunhee's family. they're welcoming and loving. they basically treated her like a member of the family since the beginning. she feels like she could be herself around them. she has a good rapport with hyunhee's parents. while haeun tends to be a bit shyer around her own family, with hyunhee's she's more expressive.

because somin was spending it alone, haeun made sure to bring her around to do something. anything the other wanted to do. she refused to leave the other to be lonely while everyone was doing stuff. it felt nice to reconnect with the other.