Lia ♡꒱ˎˊ˗

Lia / Lily (they ⌇ them) 2? (sapphic queer) ❤️‍🩹 Menhera 🏥 ~ 🏳️‍🌈 🌻autistic and chronically ill 💙 pt& eng ୨୧ artist ୨୧ science fan https://liamyalgia.carrd.co/

[liamyalgia]

୨୧ 𝐌𝐞 : Lilia/ Lily / Lia  | they/them/she/it , PT & ENG | artist

| Non-Binary sapphic | autistic spoonie 🥄🥄🥄

ʚ 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐈 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭 💕🌸

Cute things, fashion, j-fashion, menhera and queer stuff. Some venting and illness stuff

Interested in : history, anthropology, arts, science, psychology etc ✏️🎨📖🔬🎭

୨୧ CW: talking a lot about mental and physical illness, self harm, eating disorders etc.

KINS Chii (chobits) Lain, Shiro (NGNL) Mashiro Shiina (Sakurasou pet na Kanojo) Crona (Soul Eater)

ʚ 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐡 💊🏥

♡ brain: [diagnosed: autism + giftedness, ARFID, Sensory processing disorder, PMDD, Bipolar & BPD ] [investigating: ADHD, c-ptsd dyscalculia & dysgraphia (considere these as "things me and my doctors have already figured I do have but we are both too lazy to make it official, I already get most accomodations I need from the diagnosis I already have so there is not much of a point on making documents for it) ticks, memory issues, and a likely dissociative disorder ]

[undiagnosed: mixed eating disorders, I've never disclosed this to any professionals and don't plan on doing so ♡]

♡ body: Fybromialgia, POTS, GERD & LPR, chronic migraines, essential tremor, GI issues & hypermobile spectrum disorder (investigating hEDS) 🌻💙🦓

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https://lili4.carrd.co/

https://br.pinterest.com/liabunii/

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[aleyma]

Raphael Kirchner, Woman inside a cobweb with little hearts, from the series Love Thoughts, 1900 (source).

[thestuffedalligator]

Steven Universe ended on a great note, but now I just really want a spinoff series about Steven travelling across America and inflicting his own brand of weirdness on people

“So this guy walks into the diner. I say ‘guy’ because I had no idea how old he was, he was either a very tall child or a babyfaced grandpa. He’s wearing a bright pink varsity jacket and flip-flops, and when he’s done breakfast he gives me a fifty-dollar tip on a five dollar breakfast. So now I’m thinking, ‘Oh, I gotta know more about this guy,’ and I ask him what he does for work.

“And this guy looks at me, and he looks like the oldest man in the world, and he says, and I quote, ‘I used to run a school but I retired because the stress was killing me,’ and walks out. I think about him maybe once a week.”

[bonediggercharleston]

“I really love being a creator sometimes. Last week I was at a local con, selling enamel pins and this teenager - I think he was a teen, but he looked like a giant toddler - comes over in his gaudy-as-heck pink jacket. Face is fresh as morning dew but he’s got a real tired look in his eyes, until he sees somehing out the corner of his eye that makes him light up. Like I swear you could see stars in his eyes. Things is, I used to be big into a silly show called Crying Breakfast Friends and still had some pins left in the grab box. Never sold a lot of them cause the show was old by now and those were some early pins I made so they were not the best, but he goes absolutely feral over them so I say he can have them for cheap. He’s about to pay when he sees my other pins and their prices and insists to pay full price. I’m taken aback and for some reason try to argue, but he says “Look, you are not my moms, you can’t survive on love and light alone”. I sorta didn’t process that, but was more focused on stopping that boy from overspending on some crappy pins cause he seemed real nice and then he just follows it up with “I get it. You don’t think they are as good as the other ones, but you put the same work into them as the others. They are an important part of how your art became yours and that’s why they are some of the most important pins you ever made”. This kid nearly made me choke up and I gave up argueing against getting more money.

So we start talking about CBF. It felt real good to talk about something that you thought only you cared about with someobdy else and we really got along. And the kid used to be a superfan, used to make reaction videos and fanart and roleplayed with his breakfast, even made breakfast OCs. The last thing he didn’t really want to talk about, because he got real quiet all of sudden. How can breakfast hurt you that bad? But I managed to cheer him up by saying I’m gonna make more CBF pins and would send him some. He was super grateful and told me to send it to the beach of his city. I wanted a real address but he said the postwoman there would know what it meant.

And just as he leaves he say “My therapist said I should reconnect with the things that make me happy to combat my PTSD and existential dread, so thanks, you really saved me here” boy you’re 16, ur welcome but what the hell?

UPDATE: I found his tubetube account and yeah, there’s all the reaction videos but also he apparently used to be part of SADIE KILLER AND THE SUSPECTS like he played a bit of guitar with them and documented their sessions and uploaded them AND HIS DAD WAS THE MANAGER THAT LAUNCHED THEM BECAUSE HE ASKED HIM TO DO IT wat? I have so many questions. Like did the rockstar life give him PTSD before they even got big? Does he have a dad and two moms? was his dad his mom? is this a trans thing? who is that sweet boy?

SECOND UPDATE: Apparently his dad is an underground rock legend and a millionaire cause his song appeared in a sprite commercial. I’m done. How are people real”

from the blog of a pin designer

[ed-recoverry]

People who self harm only for attention are just as valid as people who self harm for any other reason.

Seriously.

Parents often make the mistake of dismissing their child’s self harm as “attention seeking” when it’s otherwise.

But what always gets me is that, even if a child is harming themselves solely to get attention, that is a huge problem they need help for!

If a person has to go as far as to cause physical harm to themselves in order to gain what they feel as the proper amount of attention, that is someone who needs help ASAP.

No matter the form, no matter the severity, no matter the reason, self harm is a sign of severe distress that deserves immediate, intense attention.

And no one will ever convince me otherwise.

[liamyalgia]

Hot weater triggers my POTS so bad, I live in brazil and the last few months (summer) have been literal hell, it's so hot I can't keep myself awake for long, I can't go outside during the day without collapsing, in many days I can't eat solid food, relying in either a liquid diet or waiting untill the sun is down to be able to eat normally. I've been on meds for a few months but even then sometimes it is still just too hot for me to be conscious during the day.

Heat is also a huge trigger for my emotions, besides impacting my health it also makes me very VERY overstimulated and increases the chances of a meltdown or even being borderline abusive to anyone close to me because it makes my nervous system be in a permanent fire state. I just completely explode and it's ugly. I feel broken

[liamyalgia]

I get sick(er) every time I go outside this is so tiring

[menheradoll884]

Not having a diagnosis does not make your symptoms any less real!!!

[jiraiadored]

"You're gatekeeping jirai kei!!" Why would you.. want to join a community full of and for mentally ill people... if you're not mentally ill...

[alluring-goddess-deactivated202]

what if i told you that, wanting to become a magical girl, even metaphorically, is what keeps me going.

[piko-chan]

[kelpology]

being disabled will really have you thinking/saying things like “yeah i’m not really THAT disabled. as long as i take my meds twice a day (and as needed), eat and drink exactly the right things, keep the perfect balance of being active and resting, the weather is stable, and nothing unexpected happens AT ALL… i’m totally FINE! i probably should not even call myself disabled at this point because i’m doing so well!”

if you don’t want to call yourself disabled, that’s fine and it is your choice! but if you’re only “fine” or “doing really well” when a bunch of different variables are all lined up perfectly, then maybe you are not fine actually. just a thought!

[oistrong]

This is very important...

[fanon-and-canon-deactivated2026]

abuse stole my whole childhood, and then chronic illness & pain stole my whole future right when i was getting ready to live. i have so much grief for the life i never had, for the person i'll never get to be. i never got to be a child, so it's almost ironic that my independence was ripped away from me, that im now unable to care for myself.

i dont think people think about the amount of grief disabled people have, even if theyre disabled from birth. there the life you never had, the life you never will have, the life had and future you lost (if youre disabled later on), the grief of your reality, and so much else.

[fibro-memes]

[autistic-af]

Them: "Be sure to push your boundaries! Change your routine up! Do things that make you uncomfortable!"

Me: *holds you gently by the cheeks*

Not you. You're autistic. You require routine and boundaries in order to thrive and be healthy. Yes, change will happen and it's important to have a healthy relationship with that possibility. But you do not push yourself. Existing is difficult enough. This one is not for you.

[thelakeswillbreakourfall]

But also it’s okay if you’re in a situation where you want to push yourself a teeny tiny bit to see what happens. You do you, just make sure you take care of yourself while you do it!

[autistic-af]

This I like! Yes. Push if you want/can. Just be healthy!

[laimina]

[liamyalgia]

the mentally ill urge to start overexposing yourself on the intertent (tiktok) just to get numbers so you can finally have at least SOMETHING going on on your life other that malaise and excruciating pain