A villain who doesn't want to harm the hero, is trying to take them down as gently as possible and thinks the hero is the one being crazy about this, while the hero is desperately fighting to protect the world.
Bonus points if the villain is the hero's big sibling or similar figure.
"Father wanted to put you in an institution," their sibling said. "There was no way I was going to allow that." They carded their fingers through the hero's hair, soothing, like they were still five years old and waking up from a bad dream. "Those places are awful. They'd hurt you."
"I can't move."
"It's okay. You're okay."
"The - the tea. You." The realisation of it choked off in the hero's throat. Sharp. Catching. Betrayal.
"I told father I'd handle it," their sibling said, almost absently.
"Handle me."
"Yes." Their sibling ducked to gather up the jagged shards of the fallen mug, depositing them on the coffee table. They met the hero's eyes. "Handle you."
The hero glared. They willed their noodled limbs to move, but all they got for their efforts was nearly crumpling to the floor again. Their sibling caught them, steadied them, pushed them back into the chair. The hero's heart thudded wildly beneath their palms.
"He wasn't having it though," their sibling continued. "He told me that you needed to be corrected, by any means necessary. He told me that it was just the place for a crazy person like you. That you'd bring shame on the family." They grimaced. "You know father."
The hero did, unfortunately, know their father.
They also knew their sibling though. They knew they were drugged up in their own living room, not being wrestled into a straight-jacket somewhere for some non-consensual therapy sessions.
"What did you do to him?" it came out raspy.
Their sibling smiled, small and grim. "He should have known better. Just like you should have known better, but you always were a little idiot, so no shockers there."
"...what are you going to do to me?" That was, perhaps, the better question. Their mind still felt sharp, after all, even if nothing in their body wanted to cooperate with them.
"Do you think I'd hurt you?"
"You hurt father."
"Father was a jackass. You're just stupid."
"I'm trying to make the world better!"
"Yeah," their sibling said. "Stupid."
"It's not stupid!"
"I'm not going to debate this with you."
"Just drug my tea!?"
"Eh, that was for your own good. For all his many sins, father wasn't totally wrong. You do need help. A friendly intervention."
"They'll come for me. My friends will come for me."
Their sibling shrugged. "I have no such reservations hurting them."
The hero swallowed. Their mouth still felt dry, sticky and cloyingly sweet. They searched their sibling's face for any sign of a lie. They found none.
"You know what father and his friends are doing is wrong," the hero said after a beat; maybe just frantic to see some glimmer of recognition of that fact.
Their sibling shrugged again, easy. "Sure."
"You could help us fight them. You could come with me. You could...keep me safe. That's what you want, right? To keep me safe."
"Your friends aren't going to kill you. You're perfectly safe like this."
"But what father's friends are doing - don't you - you have to care."
Their sibling raised an eyebrow.
The hero wanted to snarl. As ever, it seemed, their sibling did not have to care about anyone or anything. Who cared about the world if going along with monstrosity was easier?!
"Don't you care that I care?"
"You care about everything," their sibling rolled their eyes. "You held a funeral for the fish."
"He was my pet!"
"He was a fish."
"This is nothing like the fish!"
Their sibling straightened up with a sigh, looking down on them, hands on hips. "I've made my decision."
"Fuck you."
"I don't expect you to be happy about it, but you're gonna deal with it. You're underage. That makes you my responsibility. I'll let you go when this all blows over."
"You mean when father's friends finish wrecking the world?"
"Don't be so overdramatic."
"You drugged me and I'm overdramatic?"
"Overdramatic looks better on me. I have the cheekbones for it."
"This isn't funny!"
"No." Their sibling's voice shifted, abruptly. "It isn't. Do you want me to get serious?"
The hero...paused. The air suddenly felt oppressive.
"I am being very gentle," their sibling said. "And you are infinitely squishy and breakable. Father's institution would have crushed you into teeny tiny pieces, so shattered that you didn't even care anymore. You would kill your friends if they asked, by the time they were done."
The hero swallowed, stricken, horrified.
"Tell me again how unfunny this is," their sibling said. "Like you think I'm stupid."
The hero shook their head.
As swiftly as the storm had come, their sibling offered them a sunny smile. The tension vanished as they booped the hero's nose.
"We're going to get through so many film nights. It's going to be great. Now." They reached for the coffee table. "Have some more tea."
Cassidy/Hanzo – Part ⅓ (ish) – wolfgod!Hanzo; coyote shapeshifter!Cassidy; young!Cassidy (mid 20s); old!Hanzo (mid 40s); virgin!Cassidy; transman Cassidy – Right what it says on the tin. Just Hanzo being feral and wanting to play with his newest sacrifice...
(reimagining of a little drabble I wrote years ago :) )
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Hanzo can hear the commotion from a mile away. He stays hidden on top of his little temple, though, idly watching the people from the village coming closer, their path lit by the torches they are carrying and the moon glowing below.
At the very front they have a little creature that is struggling for its life though its words elude Hanzo until they are much closer.
It is begging for its life, its voice cracked and high-pitched from panic. It is trying to reason with them – that it did not mean any harm. That it just wants to get back home – but the villagers are not paying it any heed. They are softly chanting one of the many prayers they have made up for Hanzo.
Out of sight as he is, he sniffs the air. There is the metallic, thick scent of blood, nearly overshadowing the foreign scent of the creature.
He waits until he hears the village people lock it into the stone cage inside his temple. Once the last straggler has hurried out of sight, Hanzo jumps off of his temple and shakes himself before sauntering inside.
He is not in the mood to make the creature wait. He is too intrigued by it. The first sacrifice in quite a while. Oh… and what a sacrifice it is.
Looking at it properly, he can see why the villagers have brought it to him.
“A little shapeshifter,” Hanzo growls softly.
The creature whirls around. It had been in the process of trying to squeeze its scrawny body through the stone bars of its cage but now it is pressing itself against the opposite site, thin chest heaving.
It is caught in a half-transformed state; covered in scraggly fur and with twitching, ripped coyote ears on its head. A tail submissively curved up between its trembling thighs. And there it is – slowly starting to heal over and right on display: the source for the thick scent of blood. The shifter’s left arm has been somehow cut off just above the elbow.
Hanzo moves closer, snout barely poking through into the cage to inhale deeper. He enjoys the scent the little one gives off. So different and spicy and… pure.
“A little shapeshifter,” he repeats with satisfaction. “What is your name?”
The creature just stares at him for a while. It looks on the verge of fainting but eventually whispers, barely audible: “Are you real? Or am I goin’ insane?”
Hanzo’s ears twitch. He slowly lowers himself into a sitting position, steadily watching the shapeshifter. “I am quite real, I assure you.”
The creature is quiet for a while longer. While it does not relax its tail from between its legs, it does slowly move, cradling its no-doubt aching stump in the other arm.
“The name’s Cole,” he says softly. “I don’t mean to do no harm, I swear. Just… let me be on my way. I’ll be outta your hair real quick.”
“With that wound? I doubt it,” Hanzo replies mildly. He watches the shapeshifter fidget around. He looks younger than he is; his voice had given that away now that he hasn’t been begging for his life. He’s just standing there, pale faced, staring at Hanzo with huge eyes.
Waiting for death.
Hanzo leans forward, pushing his large snout through the bars of the cage. “Come here, little one,” he croons. “Extend that stump.”
Cole shakes his head, his tattered ears tilting backwards… but despite his denial, his body follows suit of the God’s quiet demand.
His face twists in desperation, nearly falling over his own long, skinny legs as he tries to stem himself against his own instinct.
In the end, he loses. Of course. He stands there with an expression of denial, his stump extended toward Hanzo. Tears are brimming in his eyes. The hopelessness is radiating off of him.
It’s easy to see that this pup has not had many good things happen to him in his life. Hanzo is intrigued. He does not really do pity, after all.
He stretches his snout through the bars and drags his tongue across the raw stump.
Cole clenches his eyes shut tightly, his teeth grit together. Somehow he manages to press out between them: “I ain’t tastin’ too good. Trust me on that, will ya? God fuck but you’re huge…”
He opens his eyes again just to stare at Hanzo; easily five times the size of a normal wolf. It apparently doesn’t occur to him for a few long moments that the pain from his stump has diminished and is quickly dwindling down into nothing.
When he does notice, he stares at it with confusion, his one hand touching it with trembling fingers. “How…?” he asks softly.
Hanzo’s tongue slides out, licking his chops, large eyes staring unblinkingly at the shapeshifter. He slowly pulls his snout back from between the bars, then starts to stalk around the cage again; getting a look at the bumbling fool inside.
If Cole has been growing up in a pack, it must have been exceptionally bad at communication. Words keep dripping from his lips; an oddly lilting, honeyed speech that Hanzo would like to listen to some more. Later.
He pushes his snout through the bars again, sniffing at the pup’s shoulder. He can’t smell a pack on him. So he must have been wandering alone for quite some time.
Cole jerks away with a low sound of panic, pressing himself against the other side of the cage in his distress. The contraption is not big enough for him to really get out of Hanzo’s radius, but he is at least trying. His scraggly fur stands on edge.
A malnourished, pitiful creature that smells oh so good.
“I don’t taste good, really,” he whines again. Hanzo likes the subservience in his tone. A lot.
“Turn around,” he orders, voice all but purring. He is used to being obeyed… and the shapeshifter is no exception. Eyes clenching shut, his whole body a tight, malnourished line of tension, he follows the Okami’s order and slowly turns around. Hanzo sniffs the back of his head and the nape of his neck, noting how intense the pup smells.
He must have been on the run without a bath for quite some time.
Hanzo rumbles low in his throat, quite enjoying the scent as he drags his nose along the protruding knobs of Cole’s spine… down, down, further down until the fur thickens again just around the coyote’s tail which is so tightly clenched between Cole’s legs that it surely has to hurt.
But ah… how he smells here. Hanzo sniffs him, taking quite a while just to enjoy the scents rushing nice and warm through his nose and over the back of his tongue. He is intrigued.
His hot breath ruffling the shapeshifter’s fur, Hanzo allows himself a few licks of the base of his tail; slow, languid drags of his tongue, wetting the fur and all but eating up the captured prey’s scent.Cole might be insisting that he will taste horrible, but Hanzo knows what will happen tonight. He will eat him whole and make him his.
I have posted them in their own new fic here and will add the new chapters to that so you got it all in one place!
Premise: Okami Hanzo (as in, can himself transform into a human but usually is an actual, huge wolf Princess Mononoke style) is however old you want him to be and resides over a little temple where he lets himself get worshiped as a god by the local villagers.
Coyote shifter Cassidy is around 20-ish, trans and brought in as the virgin sacrifice.
Against all odds, Hanzo is immediately smitten with the scrawny little thing.
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Cole is still scrawny, but Hanzo knows that it won’t be so for long. He dotes on him lovingly. He hunts tender meat and brings it to his feet, letting him lick the blood off his chops with skittish little drags of his tongue. Like he is afraid Hanzo would change his mind after all and get a taste for coyote instead.
He eats everything he is brought. Ravenously. Always. Hanzo loves watching him tear into the offerings, his eyes going wide and rabid with the hunger that consumes him whenever the first taste of meat hits his tongue.
He has a lot to catch up to but that is alright. Hanzo has nothing but time. He enjoys watching the little thing eat, and he enjoys even more feeling it seek out every last scrap of blood around his muzzle and between his teeth.
Cole will be breathing in hot little chuffs directly down Hanzo’s maw as he licks his fangs and slips that sweet little tongue in between to clean him thoroughly of his hunting efforts.
And maybe.. just maybe… also to show him his subservience. He’s not a pup anymore but he behaves like one toward Hanzo even so. Whimpers and whines and keeps his scrawny tail curved up between his thighs more often than not. Half to hide his delicious little cunt and half to show that he is still nervous and to an extend afraid.
Hanzo is not worried about that either. He enjoys a bit of fear. A bit of… reverence. He’s not had a lot of companionship in the past few decades and while he would have thought that Cole’s babbling would annoy him fast, he can’t help but be enamored with those silly words he insists on using.
“Ah… ah-ah, puh… puh-lease-” Cole is scrabbling against Hanzo’s head; his hand as well as his stump dragging through the luscious white fur – and while his fingers have more than enough opportunity to grab a hold and pull, something in him is too hesitant to actually do it. Hanzo likes that.
He huffs his hot breath continuously against Cole’s belly button, patiently nudging his tail aside whenever it keeps worming its way back against his lower belly, shielding himself from the Okami’s ministrations.
“D-Damn, haaah-” Cole staggers back but a wall is immediately at his back and doesn’t let him go further. It’s been three days. Hanzo wonders if the pup thought that he would not get put to use anymore after the first time.
Maybe he thought Hanzo had grown tired of that sweet little gash hidden between his skinny thighs. Far from it. Hanzo once again pushes the tail aside and gives him a growling little chuff. Not enough to be aggressive but enough to make him freeze on the spot obediently, tail held in an awkward limbo.
Hanzo is pleased with that, at least. Now he can drag his tongue across the soft fuzz liberally growing beneath the pup’s belly button. He can groom it in slow, indulgent licks, first flattening it in one direction, then in the other while Cole noisily breathes above him and keeps skittishly shifting his weight from one long leg to the other.
Oh, Hanzo needs to fatten him up so much more. He can just tell that he will be gorgeous in a few months’ time. His perfect mate. Tall and strong and hairy, ready to bear his young over and over again-
Ah, yes. Hanzo blinks slow and satisfied as he slowly nudges his way even further down. Cole’s tail twitches, then curves away like the deferential guardian to a sanctum. It knows when it is outmatched. When it can no longer put up any resistance to Hanzo because it will be futile.
Cole whines in his throat. He keeps mumbling, his voice cracking half-way through. Some slew of ‘oh Gods, please’ and ‘have mercy’ and all kinds of sweet little things that make Hanzo’s ears twitch. Never has the human language been so intriguing to him.
The fur that is growing in a wide line down from Cole’s belly button is gathered in a thick little bush above his cunt. Hanzo opens his muzzle, breathing warm and wet against the hairs to dampen them while inhaling the scent and taste of Cole’s pussy.
He can’t detect any pregnancy yet but that isn’t surprising in the least. After all, the pup had been a maiden when he bred him a few days ago; and he is still way too scrawny to bear him the healthy pups that he would like to have anyway.
Hanzo is patient. He has been for so very long, he has mastered the art. He can stand still like a statue atop his temple for days on end, staring down a prey that is meandering its way slowly through the forest…
Or hunker down to carefully nudge his muzzle between scrawny thighs until they finally shuffle apart and let him have a look at what is his now.
Cole groans into the cup of his hand. When Hanzo glances up briefly, he can see that the Coyote has his eyes closed now. His stump arm is awkwardly held in front of his chest like he had wanted to put both hands up but forgotten once more that he is short of one.
Hanzo will have to see about that too. His revenge. For hurting his mate.
“Damn,” Cole mutters into his hand. When nothing happens for a bit, he cracks one eye open and peers down at Hanzo, seemingly startled to see the huge wolf god peering up at him while his muzzle is still hovering close to the vulnerable parting of his legs. He can feel his warm breath fanning out against his labia.
“Why… why’re you lookin’ at me?”
Hanzo’s ears flick. Cole sounds so petulant like that; so whiney. His bushy brows draw together as if he were annoyed, but the tiny sliver of his eyes that he cracked open is wet with nervous tears. Skittish, mouthy little thing.
Hanzo must have been alone for far too long for him to be this endeared by the display.
He chuffs softly. He does not move yet despite the tantalizing scent of Cole’s freshly bred pussy right in front of his sensitive nose.
“I may look at whatever I deem worthy of my attention,” he murmurs, eyes still up to Cole’s face, tail slowly wagging behind him as he lays down in an even more comfortable position. “This is one of my newest possessions, so I am inclined to look even more closely.”
The young Coyote whines into the cup of his palm. He clenches his eyes shut again and shakes his head slowly.
“There’s nothin’ to see, I tell ya! Gods… f-fuck, if I’d known you’d be like this I wouldn’t’ve had…”
Hanzo’s ears perk up. He had been about to snake out his tongue and get a taste for himself, but now he pauses and glances up at his little mate with interest.
“You had known of me prior to coming here?” He has to admit: he is intrigued.
Hanzo/Cassidy – Wolf God Hanzo AU – Part 2/6 – Cole might slowly be realizing that there is a tiny age difference between him and Hanzo.
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They hadn’t talked all that much in the three days since the villagers had brought Cole to his doorstep. Cole had been skittish and hiding away most of the time and Hanzo had been out and about hunting food for his scrawny little mate, then letting him eat and lick the blood off his muzzle in a hunger induced frenzy.
He somewhat regrets not having tried a little harder to get him to talk. But they have time now. Hanzo is close to that warm little space he fucked into submission; he can smell how his mate smells at his most intimate parts, and he is sated. So he waits for Cole to say more.
But he won’t. He just stands there and shakes his head, eyes clenched tightly shut, his scrawny tail held awkwardly behind him as he obviously tries not to curl it back between his thighs again.
Hanzo slowly reaches forward with his muzzle again, pushing his large, cool nose into the meager meat on the inside of Cole’s thigh. The pup yips in surprise and lifts his leg a little more, opening himself up even more.
His breathing is coming fast and nervous, but he does not smell like he is afraid, per se. He smells apprehensive and unsure, his whole body language so stiff and awkward that Hanzo supposes he must be dreading getting mounted again.
He did attempt to be careful with his virgin little mate but maybe it had been too much for such an unused hole anyway. When he slides his large tongue between the sweet gash offered up to him, he hears Cole make another little yip; a hiccup, really. The flesh against his questing tongue is fever hot. It feels tender and raw, especially so inside when he worms his soft, long tongue into Cole and drags it against his spongy walls.
Cole muffles a gurgling sound into his palm, his stump flailing in a jerky motion toward Hanzo’s head; like he’s wanted to hit him or grab at him or something.
Hanzo chuffs softly and pulls his tongue out in a slow, wet drag that has Cole’s knees apparently go weak for a second because he sags down a little, shoulders hitting the wall behind him hard.
“You poor thing,” Hanzo croons. “Your sweet little palace all ravaged and in disarray… you should have told me sooner. I could have alleviated the discomfort, you know.”
There’s a moment of absolute stillness; everything suspended in time before Cole’s eyes start blinking open. He pulls his hand away from his mouth, his expression an odd one as he stares down at Hanzo. He still doesn’t look afraid, though, so Hanzo accepts it for what it is. Whatever it may be.
“My sweet little… what?” Cole blinks at him. He seems to be taken aback and at a loss for words. It feels like he was just moments from using his inner voice instead of those silly human sounds which titillates Hanzo for some reason.
“Your palace,” Hanzo repeats patiently and opens his maw just enough to chuff a hot, amused breath against Cole’s pussy. “Your pride. Your delicious treasure. The secret place I can’t get enough of…”
His tongue slides out again, not pushing into Cole’s aching hole this time but dragging through his slit until it can wrap itself around his clit in a loving little embrace that lasts for but a second before his tongue has dragged past and he needs to repeat the motion again… and again… and again.
Cole is shaking. Hanzo peers up at him through half lidded eyes, senses flooded with the sweet musk of his little mate’s pussy, watching his face be caught in an odd rictus between laughter and skittish arousal from getting stimulated with the Okami’s warm, huge tongue.
Hanzo hums, pleasure exploding warm and satisfying in his belly at the sight. A laughing mate is good, though he does not quite follow where the mirth has come from.
“Oh… oh fuck what are ya even… s-stop, don’t call it that!” He is pressing his hand against his face once more, though across his eyes this time, his mouth open wide, his laughter stuttering out of him like pearls, half garbled into hoarse little moans.
His scrawny hips keep jerking forward, trying to follow the slow, beautiful drag of Hanzo’s tongue as it laves soothing warmth against his abused folds. He must have been so uncomfortable in the past few days… no wonder he never asked Hanzo for a repeat of the breeding, instead just making those desperate little sounds as he licked at razor sharp, huge teeth-
“Why not?” Hanzo asks, ears flicking as he lets himself get pulled into the little game. He thinks that he can allow it. There has been little amusement for him in the past few decades; only stoic quiet and frightened worship by humans that are usually too far beneath him to even acknowledge.
Cole shakes his head, his hand still pressed over his eyes, a flush creeping from his narrow, heaving chest up his throat and into his cheeks. It looks so delicious that for a moment Hanzo is distracted from his plump peach and starts to lift his head higher.
“It just… it sounds so-”
“What would you call it?” Hanzo interrupts with a low purr in his inner voice.
The young Coyote startles. Hanzo can see his mouth opening a little to pull in the scent of his breath fanning over his gasping face. Can he also scent his own ripe little plum?
Slowly, Cole pulls his hand away from his eyes and stares at Hanzo. His expression is bleary, the amusement from before having bled away – but that flush still very much existing and becoming darker by the second.
“A… a pussy,” he whispers. “Cunt.” He swallows thickly. It clicks so loud in his throat that Hanzo’s large ears twitch. When he opens his mouth again, Hanzo does not let him try to get out more: his tongue darts out, big and soft and agile, and presses deep into his little mate’s mouth.
It looks human – Cole has yet to show Hanzo his fully transformed state – but the teeth are far sharper than they have any right to be.
Hanzo is instantly hooked. He licks in deep and Cole whimpers soft and submissive. His fingers grip a hold of the shaggy fur right behind Hanzo’s ear while his stump nestles in against his jaw. Hugging Hanzo as much as he can as he slowly lets his jaw hang open wider and wider so the Okami can lick into him as deep and possessive as he likes.
Halfway through, Hanzo pulls back and laps at Cole’s cheeks, tasting the flush for himself, then kissing back into his open, panting mouth.
His little mate, Hanzo is starting to realize, is sweet all over. Each hole is soft and warm and accepting; pulling him in deeper and snaring him in his sticky little web.
By the time Hanzo pulls back and gives Cole a once-over, his scrawny Coyote looks an absolute mess. Strings of saliva are glittering on his cheeks and hanging from his chin and open, panting mouth – and his lap does not fair better. Despite how raw and aching his fragrant peach had been, Hanzo can see how eager it has responded to him and his ministrations.
Hanzo/Cassidy – Part 3/6 – Hanzo and Cole talk a little on their way to getting Cole cleaned up from all that wolf slobber.
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Hanzo suspects his little mate would not have asked for a bath. In fact, Cole looked downright mulish when Hanzo suggested it, dragging his feet and not really meeting his gaze until Hanzo ordered him to sit on his back so they may move faster through the forest.
“You could have shifted,” Hanzo comments mildly as he trots through the underbrush. Cassidy’s weight is negligible on his back but he can feel his bones even through his thick fur. He really needs to fatten him. He should probably go and hunt while he lets his mate bathe, but he is loath to leave him alone in an area that is not as secure as his temple.
His seed might not have taken that first time, but he feels very protective of Cole nonetheless.
Cole makes a noncommittal sound. Hanzo isn’t sure whether he simply does not want to answer the question or whether he is still sore about the prospect of cleaning himself up.
Hanzo can’t quite fathom what is going through the young coyote’s head at the moment. While he quite likes smelling himself all over his scrawny little mate, he is certain that he will feel better once he’s cleaned himself off the saliva and the sticky residue of his own excitement over it all.
“May I ask you something?” Hanzo queries politely after another few minutes of quiet trotting.
“Sure,” Cole mumbles. Hanzo can feel him shift on his back a little bit; has been able to feel it since they’ve started the trek, in fact, but he doesn’t pay it much mind.
“You had known of me…?”
The question had been gnawing at him since Cole brought it up earlier and while he had not pushed him then, he feels like it is important to know what he knows.
Cole makes a chortling little sound and as always answers Hanzo’s quiet mental connection out loud with those silly human words that sound so endearing with his lazily drawling tongue: “Ye’re not some kinda secret. Lotta people know of ya outside the forest. Kind of a celebrity. Urban legend? Somethin’ mythical. Wasn’t all that certain if ya even exist.”
That… surprises Hanzo. He carefully weaves his way through the trees, trying to not let a falter in his step show how disquieted he was by this announcement.
“I was not aware. I do not venture outside of my forest and do not interact with anyone aside from the villagers on occasion.”
“Yeaaah… but they’re not that low-down, ya know. You ever been in their village? They got a whole… tourist thing goin’ on. There’re li’l white wolf plushies.”
Hanzo’s fast clip starts to slow down somewhat as his stomach roils uncomfortably.
“I… do not know what that means,” he admits uneasily. “It has been many years since I ventured the mountain down far enough. Humans are distasteful. I did notice their clothing change, but…”
“Not somethin’ you would be interested in. Yeah, gotcha.” Cole does not sound condescending and Hanzo feels his mood perk up a tiny bit. “You been outta the loop for really long, huh? When’s the last time you were in like… civilization? Human stuff, I mean. Did they even have electricity?”
That uncomfortable feeling in Hanzo’s stomach starts to expand somewhat. His trot has slowed down to a walk. The little lake is close now, but he’s lost focus.
“I do not know what that is, either,” he says softly. There’s a pang of regret starting to grow in his belly. Should he have paid more attention? Maybe danger had been closing in on his forest all along. Suddenly the peaceful stretch of it seems very open and very vulnerable; as if armies were already lurking at its borders.
Cole leans forward. Hanzo is startled to find that he pets him. Right between the ears. It’s such a human and domestic motion that Hanzo comes to an immediate, complete stop.
Cole, apparently unaware, mutters something that breaks Hanzo wide open: “Ya must’ve been real lonely for… fuck… so long.”
Hanzo is still, just staring ahead at the glittering water he can see greeting them through the last row of trees. Cole’s hand is slowly petting along his head. The moment stretches for just a little too long, then breaks as Hanzo exhales with a soft chuff.
“I suppose I… must have,” he allows as he slowly starts moving again.
“I can keep ya company, then,” Cole says with an intonation as if he thought he were sly. The mood shifts a little then as Hanzo turns his head just enough that he can peer up at the scrawny coyote on his back.
“You say that as if you had any choice in the matter.”
“I uh…”
“They have gifted you to me,” Hanzo croons. “So you are mine now. I will take care of you.”
“O…oh,” Cole stutters softly. He feels him shift a little bit again, and warmth starts to creep through his body as he finally recognizes what the pup had been doing since they had been on their way: rubbing his scrawny little cunt along Hanzo’s spine.
He stops at the edge of the water and digs his claws into the soft, loamy ground as he arches his spine up against him, listening to the hitch in Cole’s breathing and feeling his fingers awkwardly dig into his fur.
“I do believe that I should make sure you are not overly hurt still,” Hanzo murmurs in a low voice. “You should have told me that you were this sore. I could have alleviated your pain far sooner.”
“That’s kinda…” Cole sounds breathless, biting off his own words as he carefully starts to slide off of Hanzo’s back. When Hanzo turns, the coyote has his tail curled once again up between his legs. Shamefully shielding his sensitive little cunt from view. “I don’t wanna be a burden.”
It does not sound like the truth… but not like a lie, either. Hanzo slowly sits down. Since he is still so much taller than the coyote, he lowers himself further to be more eye to eye with him as he stands there squirming and flushed an absolutely delicious pink. He wants to taste it again but refrains for the moment.
“I will take care of you from now on,” Hanzo promises in a low voice. “I will fatten you up and breed you and keep you safe.”
Cole’s eyes go wide at that, mouth slack as he stares at Hanzo. He takes a single step back, startled.
“What?”
Hanzo’s ears flick but ultimately stay forward, his full attention on the scrawny pup. Trying to gauge whether his reaction is good or bad. He does not want him to be distressed.
“I will keep you safe,” he murmurs, leaning forward and gently nudging Cole toward the water with his snout. “You are nervous about being bred. It is quite understandable – you were still a maiden until I had you. I have to admit that I quite enjoy that. The villagers did well in choosing you. I will endeavor to be more patient with you. I did not mean to overwhelm… Come. Step into the water. I will show you that you can trust my word.”
Hanzo/Cassidy – Part 4/6 – Hanzo doesn't really have any of those human hang-ups with being embarrassed... Cole kind of gets off on it. He'll soon become even more shameless, I'm sure.
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“It’s just, uh… you know… family planning and all that st… oh. Wow.”
Cole stops babbling. He’s slipped inside the water with a soft hiss but shuts up the second he turns and sees that Hanzo has shifted into his human form.
“Wait, you can… you have- I didn’t know ya had a human form.” He is staring at Hanzo with such wide, shocked eyes that Hanzo pauses in getting into the water himself and stays to let the pup have a proper look.
His lips quirk in amusement as he tilts his head to the side.
“I bred you in this form,” he reminds him gently. “Your sweet little palace would not have withstood my size otherwise.”
Cole flushes and Hanzo is not quite sure whether he is still embarrassed about Hanzo talking about that sweet little gash he has or about being reminded of their coupling.
“I guess,” he breathes, sounding faint. He drags a hand over his face and mutters into the cup of his palm: “That whole night’s kind of a… blur, to be honest. I barely remember anythin’.”
“I see,” Hanzo mutters out loud and watches with amusement how much his human voice startles Cole. He waits with one leg down in the shallow water of the little lake, the other still up on the shore. He gestures at his body, unselfconscious of how Cole’s eyes are raking over him; the thatch of white fur on his solar plexus creeping down his belly. The red, tattoo-like markings spilling over his left arm and pectoral.
His cock resting between his thighs, chubbed with perpetual interest for his little coyote and only starting to fill out more so under the scrutiny of his gaze.
“May I come in?” he asks softly. Cole groans, head tilting back, the line of his throat an immediate, tantalizing point of interest to Hanzo who stares at the way his Adam’s Apple bobs and how the veins at the sides prominently throb with the flow of blood.
“Damn, but ye’re gorgeous,” Cole says to the sky in a voice like he’s in pain.
The corners of Hanzo’s mouth hook back into a sharp, amused grin. He steps fully down into the water, reaching out and dragging the tips of his fingers across the scrawny pup’s throat. He likes how he bared it to him, though he has a feeling Cole did not do it on purpose. He seems woefully disconnected to his inner animal.
Another thing Hanzo is curious about but will have to investigate at another time.
“I am,” he croons, eyes glittering with amusement when he sees the exasperated look Cole throws him.
“Jeez. No wonder you’re so big; need to fit that whole damn ego in there.”
Hanzo slowly lets his fingertips wander, petting along Cole’s clavicle, then following his collar bone to his shoulder and sliding down his arm until he can curl his hand slowly around his wrist. It’s so painfully thin that he can touch his fingers around it.
“I’ll make you bigger, too,” Hanzo promises low, chin tilted down toward his chest, eyes fixed on Cole’s face. “You will be gorgeous. You already are. But then you will be perfect. You were on the run before this, yes? You don't need to say. I can tell. You’re far too thin. You have not had proper meals in months. But there is meat in abundance in these woods. I will offer it all to you until you are sated.”
The mention of meat has a wondrous change coming over Cole. His gaze becomes a bit distant, eyes glassy as he says in a low, hoarse voice: “Never eaten raw meat before. I thought… fuck… I think I was in some kinda… fugue state? I…”
Hanzo steps closer, one hand palming the meager curve of Cole’s cheek. He can feel the beginnings of a scraggly beard prickling his skin and hums softly, thumb brushing against his mouth and making him quiet down.
“You ate because I wanted you to,” Hanzo murmurs low, voice deep with conviction. “Because you are a good mate that listens.”
Cole swallows. His stump brushes against Hanzo’s side, restless and aimless, his dark eyes nervously twitching over Hanzo’s face, then zeroing in on his mouth. His lips open beneath Hanzo’s thumb, tongue glistening just behind them like he is starting to remember eating for Hanzo. Licking the blood from his muzzle. Lapping at his teeth.
“I think… I’m gonna be sick,” he mutters. He is looking a little squeamish, face going pale, but body crowding closer to Hanzo; instinctively looking for a closer proximity Hanzo notes with no small amount of satisfaction.
Hanzo hums softly. Ignoring what Cole said, he leans down and slots their mouths together in a slow, delicious press. It’s been a while since he let himself really indulge in his human form. He does not think he can even remember the last time.
Breeding Cole had indeed been some kind of… other state, much like Cole had insinuated just now. It had been wondrous, in Hanzo’s opinion. Instincts taking over a body that he’s gotten so unused to. Taking a hold and guiding his hands as he pressed the pup down into the ground – and himself into the waiting, warm embrace of his swollen peach. Whereas Cole seems to have come out of it thinking of the encounter as some kind of nightmare that he is slowly waking up from, Hanzo feels like it had been destiny taking a hold of them.
Cole makes a soft, whimpery little sound against Hanzo. His lips open beneath the dry press of Hanzo’s mouth, taking panting little breaths against him. Immediately overwhelmed but attentive.
The Okami curls his arm around Cole’s back, pulling the pup against his body as he teases his lips open wider and softly breathes into his mouth. Warm and affectionate. Intimate.
“You are so new to everything,” Hanzo whispers into that wet little cavern. “It’s as if you have been plucked right out of existence and been dropped into my lap for my sole enjoyment.” His thumb keeps moving, swiping back and forth, staring straight into Cole’s dazed looking eyes. The pup is blinking at him. His lids move slow like syrup; like all that is keeping him upright at all is Hanzo’s arm around him.
“I… huh?” Cole answers softly. He’s not pulling away but his brows twitch a little as he attempts to think. “What do you mean?”
Hanzo kisses him again; all sweet and chaste except for the tiny wet drag of his tongue against Cole’s bottom lip. He just can’t help himself. “Never eaten raw meat,” he mutters, mirth having a chuckle tickle at the back of his throat. “A shifter that has never eaten raw.”
Somehow that gets a bit more life back into Cole. He attempts to pull back, a lilting growl rising from his throat. It would probably more intimidating if it weren’t cracking through a couple octaves half-way through.
“Listen… the world’s changed quite a bit, ya know? It ain’t like that anymore. Ya don’t hafta sleep in the woods an’ be all- I dunno-”
He’s flustered, putting his hand and stump against Hanzo’s chest to try and push himself away, but Hanzo holds steadfast.
“Never gotten your pretty little temple plundered, either,” he whispers, not taking any offense to Cole’s spitting and hissing. In fact, it barely pings on his radar as he leans forward, forcing the pup to bend his spine and putting him off-balance.
Cole splutters, his face radiating heat that Hanzo can feel against his own cheeks as he watches those pretty, dark eyes. The pupils grow large and fat as they stare up at him and Hanzo likes that.
He chuffs softly at Cole, tongue flicking out to taste his lax, open mouth once more in a brief little dip inside, flicking up against his hard palate as he lets his hands wander. Fingertips trailing along Cole’s spine, Hanzo revels in the tremble going through the pup’s scrawny body. He is so receptive. So sensitive. He slides down, nails scratching softly against skin until he can round the trembling base of his tail and slip between his cheeks.
He can taste how Cole’s breath hitches, his resistance growing for a split second before vanishing completely.
“Ye’re so weird,” he whines softly. Accepting. Capitulating. He’s going up on the balls of his feet with a whine when Hanzo’s fingertips first brush against the tight, shy furl of his anus, then even further down until he encounters the wet mess of his tender hole; still sticky and warm since the water isn’t reaching up high enough where they are currently standing.
Hanzo/Cassidy – Part 5/6 – Hanzo getting a little taste of how fucking around as a human can be fun as well.
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Hanzo is not used to kissing the human way anymore, but the way Cole arches against him and whines, high-pitched and puppy like with every swipe of his tongue dipping into his mouth, he thinks that he’s probably forgotten more about it than Cole ever knew in the first place.
The pup seems very appreciative either way. He’s melting into Hanzo, the water around their legs sloshing softly as he keeps restlessly shifting about. Eager. Wanting. He keeps trying to catch Hanzo’s tongue between his teeth as if he were much younger than he is; playful and eager and squeezing his thighs together to try and alleviate a pressure between them. Or maybe to produce a pressure.
He attempts to catch Hanzo’s fingers, force them more securely against his warm little treasure palace than Hanzo is willing to give him yet. Cheeky.
Hanzo grabs Cole’s hips and pushes him away, gratified by the way Cole keeps trying to kiss him for as long as possible.
The young coyote shifter’s face is flushed but he is also wary; brows furrowed and eyes narrowing slightly as he stares at Hanzo from the little space that separates them now.
“I think I promised to take care of you,” Hanzo murmurs low into what little space separates them. “And I intend to keep my promises to you, sweet little thing.”
Cole’s flush deepens, his expression becoming a little more mulish.
“The name’s Cole. Ain’t a simperin’ little… thing.”
Hanzo tilts his head, intrigued by what things get the other to put his hackles up.
“Cole,” he echoes softly, pleased with how the name feels on his tongue; and since Cole lets himself get pulled into the deeper parts of the little lake, he thinks that he might enjoy the sound as well.
The pup is much more amenable to getting washed by him than Hanzo thought he might be. He hisses at the temperature of the water as it starts to lap at his abused little cunt, but there’s not a peep of complaint coming over his lips.
Fascinating. The things Cole puts up a fight for and the things he just lets Hanzo do to him make absolutely no sense to the Okami. He is inordinately excited.
But maybe his acceptance also stems from the fact that Hanzo’s hand has unerringly found its place between the pup’s thighs once again. This time slipped in there from the front, cupping his pussy and feeling how the swollen mound radiates heat even beneath the cool, lapping water.
“Ah-ah…” Cole is panting soft and open-mouthed, his forehead pressing against Hanzo’s collar bone as Hanzo gently fits two fingers between his folds and rubs little circles around the silky edge of his hole. He’s so sensitive… even without Hanzo paying attention to the pearl throning at the apex of his cunt, he’s gasping and making noises like he’s never had to learn to keep them down for anyone or anything.
Hanzo does not want him to learn. He wants him to be loud, to sing for him when he slides home once more. To let everybody in Hanzo’s domain know who his swollen pussy belongs to – and how wonderfully he gets it played with.
When Hanzo does shift his hand a little, sliding his fingers up to round the swollen, prominent jut of the coyote’s clit, Cole suddenly bites him. Like a teething pup, he digs right into Hanzo’s collar bone. The pain exploding up his neck is sharp and delicious, pounding immediately in his temples and setting his blood alight. Hanzo hisses through his teeth, baring them at nothing in particular, eyes falling closed as his body is suffused with a sudden, intense heat.
The pup isn’t biting him to get away; it’s more so a gnawing; teething against his collar bone, trying to get some of that jittery energy out that Hanzo is teasing into him cunt first. There’s no reason to reprimand him – but it does make him want to reciprocate in kind.
Makes him want to slip back into his true form and fit his huge jaw around Cole’s entire head to gently try his sharp teeth on him. He closes his eyes, trying to breathe through that first impossible impulse. He can’t say that he is used to not being completely in control of himself. Oh… isn’t that interesting. Isn’t that new.
Hanzo growls low in his throat; a purr, really, all rumbling and without heat, fingers rounding Cole’s clit patiently. It is so fat; fatter than he would have thought from such a scrawny pup, and he likes it. He is immediately obsessed with how he can catch it between two fingers and feel it twitch and flex. A little cock in its own right, the hood allowing itself to be teased back from the intensely sensitive tip. Fingers dancing across it, Cole makes a sound like he’s been punched.
His hips jerk forward, chasing the touch, more pressure but twisting his head at the same time to dig his short little canine’s into Hanzo’s skin. The pain is exquisite. Sharp. Endearing because there is no real danger coming from the pup in his awkward, half-transformed state.
Hanzo growls low in his throat, rounding the fever hot nub in two quick little flicks that have Cole keening – then suddenly dips down, cups his plum in his palm and presses two fingers to his aching, raw little hole.
Even in the water he can tell that the pup is leaking; his slick being much silkier than the surrounding liquid, warm and smooth against Hanzo’s fingertips. He rubs it around; smears it all along Cole’s gash, pretending to clean him but only trying to make it worse. He wagers that he succeeds in neither, standing in the water as they are, and that is fine as well.
Cole is finally working alongside him, shuffling his feet apart and giving him more room to work with. His arm and stump are curled around Hanzo’s neck, his teeth still around his collar bone, using him as a glorified chew toy as he tries to work through the electric, warm sparks that are being scattered throughout his body.
“Do not startle,” Hanzo cautions in a low, warm murmur against the top of Cole’s head as he finally slides back down and does not pause this time. Slipping a finger into the intense heat of Cole’s body without a hitch, he hears him whine reedy and high-pitched in response, teeth digging sharper against the Okami’s collar bone.
The pain from the hard, unrelenting pressure increases until Hanzo hisses through his teeth, the pleasure finally toppling over into something more akin to pain. His other hand spasms around Cole’s hip, digging his nails into the pup’s skin until he suddenly releases Hanzo and pulls back with a gasp like he’s forgotten how to breathe.
“Sorry,” he mutters, bleary eyed, cheeks flushed a lovely, ruddy red. He looks alive and healthy and Hanzo’s mouth goes dry with how desperately he wants him in that moment.
He wants to push him down and bury himself back where he needs to be. Wants to fuck him until he can pump all that he has into the pup’s womb. Get it achy with how desperately swollen it’ll be with his seed-
He blinks slowly, mouth open, pulling Cole’s scent and taste up into his mouth and against his soft palate.“Do not apologize, Cole,” he croons back, crooking his finger slowly inside the clench of the young man’s cunt. “You are perfect like this.”
Hanzo/Cassidy – Wolf God AU – Part 6/6 – intercrural sex – Hanzo somehow managing to make Cole even dirtier than he had been before the bath.
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Hanzo has completely forgotten about his own arousal until Cole angles himself and drags his belly against his cock.
They both startle, eyes going wider, mouths parting in soft little gasps.
Cole is tall in his human form; maybe even more so than Hanzo, but somehow he manages to look small and submissive for the most part. His pupils are so fat that they seem to eclipse the warm brown of his irises. Hanzo can feel him tensing his inner muscles; feel them gripping a tighter hold of the finger softly plunging inside him, and does not catch on to what he’s about to do until he feels him dragging the soft fur of his lower belly against his cock again. This time with intent.
“Cole!” Hanzo growls, blood surging hot through his body, true form struggling in his grasp to break free like a silvery little fish. He leans forward, pressing their foreheads together, breathing in the gasping little laugh that bubbles out of the young coyote.
“Yeah?” he drawls, cheeky as can be, eyes glassy but full of mischief when he tenses himself up again to drag that fluffy little line of fur growing beneath his belly button all along Hanzo’s cock yet again. His stomach is warm and firm, squeezing Hanzo’s cock between them with the most delicious pressure.
His little antics do force the Okami to take his hand away from his cunt, though, sliding out of its clutches to instead grasp both of his hips, crowding him closer and holding him against his body. As his cock is sandwiched between their bellies, flexing and warm, they both groan for wildly different reasons.
Cole is wondrous in his fearless curiosity. Virgin he might have been but he is devastatingly intrigued by Hanzo’s body. He wants to play, and it makes Hanzo feel like a pup again himself. Invigorating.
“You are so eager,” Hanzo whispers, licking against the corner of Cole’s mouth. “You want my seed this badly, yes? I can’t give it to you yet… you are still too raw.”
Cole whines, pulling back a little with his face even as he presses his belly closer, if indeed that is even possible. Hanzo can feel him breathe against his cock and he just knows he’d feel that motion too if he were buried nice and deep inside Cole’s cunt right now. The thought is making his head swim. There are flashes of images in his mind like lightning arcing through the night sky: Cole beneath him and Hanzo buried in his lap. Cole’s throat submissively bared, his hands up at his shoulders, fingers curled into his palms like paws – and his furry little stomach moving with each and every one of his slow breaths, making his insides around Hanzo’s cock undulate-
“It ain’t that!” Cole’s voice breaks halfway through. He’s stuck between embarrassment and exasperation. “Don’t be so full o’ yourself.”
“Then what is it like?” Hanzo asks curiously, not really feeling rejected. He can’t when his cock is drooling sticky and warm into the line of fur beneath Cole’s belly button.
He supposes he should have known that his attempt at cleaning them would have been doomed from the start.
His hands slide from Cole’s hips to his outer thighs, grabbing them and digging his fingers in to feel how much give there is.
Not much. Yet. He intends to change that over the coming weeks and months.
Cole doesn’t quite answer his query; like he is shocked that Hanzo would answer his flippancy with honest curiosity. Would actually wait for an answer, all his attention zeroed in on the pup. His eyes slide off to the side, his breath hitching as he mutters as if to himself: “‘S just so warm…”
He moves then, slow like he’s in a dream, uncurling his right arm from around Hanzo’s neck and reaching down between them to cup his cock in lieu of pressing his tight little stomach against him.
He just holds him; the hot weight of it pressing into his palm, heartbeat throbbing in the fat veins stretching along the shaft. He doesn’t do more, but he looks like he’s already getting delirious for cock, his face going slack, and his tongue peeking out from the soft gape of his mouth. Tantalizing.
Hanzo is staring at it, hunger crawling through his stomach and creeping into his limbs until it is giving him an odd kind of phantom pain that pulls at his nerve endings and makes him hyper aware of everything around and between them.
He holds Cole’s gaze as he moves his hips; curves them forward and into his hand, allowing him to feel how it flexes, trying to get away from being trapped right up against the tight muscles of his stomach. Searching for a nicer place. A wet little nook, maybe; one that will hug it and keep it warm and secure and suckle sweet little kisses all along its body-
“Oh fuuuck,” Cole groans, head falling forward against Hanzo’s shoulder again. No biting this time, just him staring down between their bodies and looking at the cock in his hand.
Hanzo lets him have his fill. Despite it all, the scrawny coyote tail is relaxed as it is hanging in the water. Cole’s perpetual half-transformed state tantalizes Hanzo. He wants more of the pup, but he can understand the vulnerability that comes with a loss of a limb. Mayhaps he is simply feeling better in the form that he is now in – and who is Hanzo to take that security from him?
Shaking the thoughts loose, he brushes a hand across Cole’s hair.
“Do you wish to play with your toy?” he asks in a low murmur.
“My… toy?” Cole echoes blearily. He sounds exhausted, somehow and Hanzo feels himself wanting to posture with pride. He’s going to exhaust him so much more before the night is over.
“Yes,” he purrs, rolling his hips again, feeling how Cole’s fingers spasm around his cock helplessly. “It is yours. All yours.”
Cole whines, high-pitched and lilting in the back of his throat. He seems immediately overwhelmed and Hanzo has the feeling that it does not necessarily have to do with offering himself up to the pup as such. Not solely, at least.
He grasps him by the shoulders and starts to steer him back the few steps toward the loamy edge of the lake. Cole’s voice is shot as he breathlessly asks: “What’re you doin’?”
“I need to have you,” Hanzo croons right into his ear after he’s turned Cole around. Slotting himself against his back, feeling the nervous, tense tremble of the pup’s tail against his stomach, he listens to him splutter: “But you said you weren’t gonna!”
Amusement lacing his voice, Hanzo whispers: “I wonder… has humanity lost this much knowledge over the years or are you just a particularly sweet little maiden?”
Cole bristles immediately: “Stop callin’ me that, or-”
Hanzo grasps him by the back of his neck and bends him over. Cole shuts up with a hitch of his breath, his arm and stump jerking out to brace himself against the ground. He glances back over his shoulder, eyes looking large, pupils deliciously fat and dark. He looks wanton and somehow shy.
Hanzo’s hand spasms against the pup’s neck. Not quite scruffing him but certainly enough to let him feel the slight bite of his sharp nails against his skin. Cole whimpers; it’s all instinct, simpering and soft and designed to endear an older shifter to him despite him being far too old for such a sound.
Hanzo is obsessed. Instincts surging within, he keeps his hand on the back of Cole’s neck and grasps the base of his tail with the other, forcing him to lift his hips up higher, a keening little noise slipping from him as he radiates heat despite the cold water around their legs.
“Please… please,” he whimpers and Hanzo could not say whether he is asking him to have mercy or to get on with things.
He can feel him shuffling his legs a little apart and arching his spine more. He is offering up the plump little jut of his peach and the knowledge nearly has Hanzo buckling to his true form’s demands.
“Sweet thing,” Hanzo breathes softly, hand unrelenting on the back of Cole’s neck, forcing him even lower against the ground. “Don’t offer what you are not prepared to give.”
Cole makes a confused little whining sound. he does not seem there at the moment, overwhelmed by the sudden need for Hanzo’s cock after getting just a little feel of it in the palm of his hand and… ah isn’t that just the sweetest stroke to Hanzo’s ego?
He growls softly, the other hand tight around the pup’s tail as he gently slots his cock against Cole’s cunt and slides along his gash in one luxurious, long roll of his hips.
Hanzo groans, echoed by a stuttering little whine from Cole once Hanzo’s crown kisses up to the plump jut of his clitoris.
“Your legs,” Hanzo breathes softly. “Clench them together for me, little one.”
Cole makes a choking little sound. Maybe he wants to protest the pet name again, but he doesn’t have it in him. Instead, he shuffles his legs together once more, scrawny thighs giving the softest little cushion as they mold around the Okami’s cock and hold it warm.
The water that had given them a bit of a slip-and-slide is quickly drying away but that is quite alright. With each and every glide of Hanzo through the little valley Cole offers to him so sweetly, he drags more wetness from the pup’s body, slicking the way in a much more profound and satisfactory sense.
Cole’s has found his voice; it’s slipped into a deeper register, though no less thrilling to Hanzo’s senses as he keeps groaning low in his chest, head hanging down between his arms, forehead probably pressed against the ground with how Hanzo forces him to tilt his shoulders down.
Hanzo can feel the throb of his pussy. The twitch of his clit whenever his cock slips up against it, aided by the wet silk of his slick coating him liberally.
He’s so sensitive… so sweet… Hanzo is addicted to him. The fertile scent that keeps wafting off the pup as he humps him and has him submit without a peeps of protest. It strokes his ego to no end.
He lets go of Cole’s tail, knowing he won’t try and hide himself away again, and instead hooks his arm underneath the young coyote’s hips, hand splayed on his lower belly, playing with the fur there that he can feel is still tacky from rubbing his cock all over it.
Every now and then his own dick will bump against the edge of his palm, wet and radiating an immense heat.
Cole is panting. The sound filling the air around them alongside the soft, slick movements of Hanzo’s cock through the gash of his fertile little pussy.
“Please… please- So close-”
Hanzo has to close his eyes at the begging. His heart is pumping faster, hand spasming against the back of Cole’s neck. He feels like he could do this for hours. Days. Like he could lose his whole self in the silky glide of Cole’s plump cunt spread around his cock; his silky folds slipping against the shaft.
But he could just as well come with him.
“Come for me,” he rasps, moving his fingers so he truly is scruffing him now, pinching the sensitive nape of his neck and digging his nails against the nerve endings there that will make him feel like hot water is being spilled over his head and dripping down his body, making his muscles lax and helpless as he slumps down, cheek against the juicy grass-
Cole keens as he comes and Hanzo can feel it in the palm of his hand. How his little belly tenses and trembles with the orgasm finally washing through his system. He can feel the grasping little mouth of his opening softly moving against the top of his shaft, lovingly kissing at it, wanting it inside so badly. Made for him. Only him.
Hanzo’s mind goes warm and soft and calm as he allows himself his own release. He hunkers over Cole, fitting his jaw around his shoulder but not quite biting down as he rolls his hips with sharp little accents at the end, pumping out his load and smearing it all over the pup’s swollen, sensitive cunt and into the fluffy fur liberally growing on his mound.
Against his thigh, Hanzo can feel Cole’s tail wagging happily even as the pup seems out of it and delirious, mouthing at the base of his own thumb like he simply can’t help wanting something weighing down his tongue in this moment.
Satisfaction crawls through Hanzo, making him happy and lethargic. He can’t believe how absolutely perfect his little mate is for him.
arranged marriage nanami with a people-pleasing reader
read along as Nanami gradually teaches you to embrace yourself. Showing you that the best version of yourself comes naturally and that you can be loved without changing yourself for others.
TW: Implied Non/Con, Implied Dub/Con, Kidnapping, Prolonged Captivity, Social Isolation, Stalking, Obsessive Behavior, and No Actual Incest, But Boy If Those Freaks Aren't Trying. Dead Dove: Do Not Eat.
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If it’d only been Bruce, you might’ve been able to live with it.
You didn’t love him, but you could imagine a world where you tried to. Most of it was circumstance; as upset as you were about the whole kidnapping thing, it wasn’t exactly a Herculean feat to endear yourself to the idea of being a handsome vigilante millionaire’s stay-at-home captive-spouse. You had no room in your heart for the stoic, reclusive, untouchable Bruce Wayne, but you could remember the adoration you’d once held for your masked hometown hero, the pride that’d once given you the force of will to all-but carry a half-conscious man in a torn cowl and a familiar suit into your apartment and lie to the cops when they came knocking. If the conditions had been different, if he’d spent a little more time as something more intimate than a stranger and a little less damning than a captor, then maybe, you could convince yourself to love him. Or, convince yourself to try, at least.
But, the conditions weren’t different, and you’d never quite had the time you would’ve needed to align Bruce Wayne with his more heroic alter ego. It’d been doomed from the start – Icarus jumping from his tower, already knowing his wings were destined to fall apart.
That aside, though, there was the more glaring issue: all his fucking kids.
Calling them kids might’ve been too generous, actually. Only Damian and Duke were younger than eighteen, and as far as you were concerned, they were your saving graces – Duke for meeting the bare minimum requirements for human decency and Damian for adamantly denying you were anything but an unwanted burden on his father. The rest were more-or-less adults, as little as you wanted to acknowledge the nonexistent age-gap between you and your gaggle of stepchildren. They were grown. They should’ve known better.
Tim, for example. He had to be… what? Nineteen? It wasn’t the pinnacle of maturity, sure, but he should’ve known you’d be able to hear your own sheets rustling through the bedroom door, should’ve assumed that you’d know he’d know Bruce would be out on patrol until sunrise. He should’ve known to wait until you were in another wing of the sprawling Wayne estate, somewhere far away from the master bedroom, or better yet, skipped rummaging through your things entirely. You knew better than to dream, though.
The door was still shut, but what was happening behind it and who was responsible were both foregone conclusions. It was Tim, because of course it was Tim, and he going through your meager possessions, because what else would he wait until Bruce was gone to do? Cringing, you rested your shoulder against the steady wood and knocked gingerly. “…Drake? Are you in there?”
Immediately, the rustling stopped. You went on. “I think Bruce is out, if you need him. Is there something you’re trying to find?”
It was a good out. An easy out. Thankfully, he was smart enough to take the bait. A few seconds later, the door cracked, a disheveled Tim emerging with a dark blush spread over his pale cheeks and his hands shoved conspicuously deep into the pockets of his hoodie. It was a struggle not to roll your eyes. He couldn’t have been more obvious if he’d come out with his dick still in his hand.
Your cheeks ached as you put on your dozenth unstrained, unworried, everything’s-fine-because-why-wouldn’t-it-be smile of the day and moved aside to let him out. “I’ll let him know you were looking for him when he gets home,” you assured, like you couldn’t see the way his bright eyes were fixed to the carpeting. “I’m sorry I can’t be more help. You all are just so heroic – it’s still a little hard to believe I’m a part of this at all.”
“You’re perfect,” he muttered, and you pretended not to hear him, cocking your head to the side. When he corrected himself, his voice was a bit louder, a bit clearer. “Don’t worry, I… I found what I was looking for. You don’t have to bother Bruce.”
“Oh, I’m sure he wouldn’t mind. He’s so proud of you and your siblings, after all – it’s practically all he talks about.” A lie, but a fair one to tell. There was no reason Tim should have to know Bruce spent the majority of your time alone with his teeth buried somewhere in your neck, muttering paranoid fantasies about how many different ways you could be killed, mutilated, or otherwise indisposed by the members of his rouges gallery. “Honestly, sometimes, it’s hard not to feel like I’ve been here for years, rather than just a couple of months.”
You only realized your mistake when those bright eyes shot to you, suddenly wide and blown out with desperation. A hand darted towards you, and you stumbled out of the way, but not quickly enough to avoid Tim’s vice-grip on your forearm, to spare yourself the feeling of something cold and wet sinking into your sleeve. “You’re leaving?” The words seemed to slur together, spilling out too quickly to be restrained or refined. “You can’t leave. Bruce won’t be able to handle it, and Steph, she’ll—I mean, security-wise, we won’t be able to make sure you’re—”
Internally, you were keeping up a steady mantra of ‘Thisissogrossthisissogrossthisissogross.’
Externally, by some miracle, your smile never wavered, only growing sweeter as you cut him off with a chirping laugh. “I’m not going anywhere,” you promised, and then, after a slight lapse, “Would you mind letting go of me? It’s—uh, it’s kind of starting to hurt.”
As if on a switch, he let go of you entirely, pulling away as abruptly as he lashed out. There was a mumbled ‘I’m sorry’, and he made a swift retreat, disappearing around the next corner before you could so much as think about bringing up Bruce, again. You watched him go, only letting your expression fall once you were sure he was out of sight.
Without further caution, you slipped into your bedroom, glazing over the mess of pulled-out drawers, overturned clothes and scattered dirty laundry in favor of falling into bed, rolling onto your chest, and screaming into your pillow as loudly and for as long as your lungs would allow.
~
You tried your best never to be alone. It was a little draining, to be honest – having to keep a running chart in the back of your mind of who you could trust and who you couldn’t, constantly trying to guess whether it’d be safer to be alone with someone or if you were better off taking your chances on your own – but you’d learned your lesson the first time you’d fallen asleep in the Wayne’s at-home movie theater and woken up to Cassandra spread over you like a human weighted blanket, staring unblinkingly at your face and playing half-consciously with your hair. You tried not to leave yourself unguarded, after that.
Alfred was your first choice, Barbra your second, with Bruce as a distant third. Sometimes, you could get away with loitering near Damian (something you hated nearly as much as he did – you could only stand to be addressed as his father’s “jezebel lover” so many times), but Bruce was at one of Damian’s school events, leaving them both conveniently unavailable, and Alfred would be locked inside of his underground shooting range for another hour and a half, an activity you knew better than to interrupt. Meaning, you were on your own.
Meaning, you’d picked a very bad time to need something to drink.
The kitchen was deathly quiet, but you still made an effort to keep your head on a swivel as you made your way carefully to a corner cabinet, like stepping on the wrong tile would trigger a pit trap, or a flurry of arrows, or one of another million terrible things you hadn’t thought were possible before Bruce dedicated himself so entirely to proving you wrong. Mentally, you reviewed your haphazardly assembled schedule as you fumbled with the wood paneling and reached for a mug from the highest shelf. Tim was definitely out, touring local colleges on Bruce’s behest, Steph was supposed to be in class, and Dick—
Your fingertips made contact with cool ceramic half a second before another, larger palm wrapped around yours, a broad chest pressing into your back as your mug was stolen out of your hand. You didn’t have to look to know who it was.
And Dick was on bed rest with three broken ribs. Right. Of course.
You really shouldn’t have bothered leaving your room at all. Suddenly, dehydration didn’t sound like such a bad way to go.
“Let me get that, baby bird.” You cringed at the petname, but nodded, letting Dick confiscate your mug and with it, your ability to make a swift exit from a conversation you’d rather not have. “Green tea, right? I know it’s your favorite.”
“On the mark as always, Dick.” There was just enough enthusiasm in your voice to overshadow the despair. You waited until you heard the muted click of an electric kettle before turning around and settling against the counter. “I wish you wouldn’t dote on me, though. I already feel useless enough as it is.”
“Don’t sweat it, I’ve been going stir-crazy all week.” He flashed you a quick smile – toothy and beaming – before pulling open the silverware drawer and rummaging through it, like Alfred would keep his teabags with his cutlery. He was topless, wearing the same pair of black sweatpants he must’ve slept in. He didn’t plan to go out, clearly, and it wasn’t like you had much of an alternative. “This is just the basics, too. For a while there, I had your breakfast, lunch, and midnight snack preferences memorized.”
You forced yourself to smile, albeit, not as brightly as him. “…did you, now?”
“Mhm. B had us running in-person surveillance before he finally bit the bullet and brought you home, and—” He cut himself off with a sudden laugh, shaking his head. “And, I wasn’t supposed to tell you that part. Oops.”
Mercifully, the kettle whistled before you could start to consider the implications, and you reached behind you, fishing two bags out of a teacup-shaped jar. It was easy enough to edge him out of the way, but not having to worry about pretending he’d ever made himself a cup of tea meant he could devote more of his energy to talking, so you still managed to lose, in the end. “He’s stingier with the surveillance footage, now. I’ve never seen him so jealous.”
“He can definitely be a little overprotective.”
You tried to keep your tone even, polite, but Dick was like his siblings – quick to action and slow to take a hint. A hand curled around the counter next to you, and you dumped an extra spoonful of sugar into the darkening water. “It’s just us in the manor, right?”
Another spoonful, just to be safe. “I think Alfred is—”
“Out for the day. Wayne Enterprise emergency – I let him know as soon as he finished down in the range.” In your peripheral, you watched his other hand come to rest on your opposite side, caging you in. “I wouldn’t mind the company, if you were starting to get lonely.”
Another spoonful. It’d be too sweet to drink, but anything not to have to look at him. “I’m afraid wouldn’t be a lot of fun, Grayson. Honestly, I was just planning on getting a little sle—”
“That’s perfect,” he cut in, too eager to wait his turn. “I’m a great cuddler.”
You curled your hand around your mug, hoping the warmth would be enough to ground you. Instead, it only burnt your palm, and for a second, you could imagine a world where your teeth weren’t buried in the plush of your cheek, where you didn’t have to remind yourself that turning around and splashing boiling-hot water on an all-but superhero’s face wasn’t a good idea. For a second, you genuinely considered it.
And then, a sound not totally dissimilar to thunder filled the kitchen; loud enough to leave your ears ringing and your adrenaline spiked. You flinched into yourself, but it only took a moment for fear to shift to relief as you noticed the bullet lodged into the wood less than an inch from your head. Your expression lit up just as Dick’s fell.
Without waiting for him to let you go, you slipped away – sprinting across the kitchen and throwing yourself into Jason’s – brave, bold, beautiful Jason – chest. He caught you one hand and finished re-holstering his handgun with the other, laughing as you hugged him as tightly as you could manage. Dick huffed, playful offense failing to mask real agitation, and you felt Jason brace against you. “Jerk off and shut the fuck up, Oedipus.”
Dick’s smile turned uneasy. “It’s good to see you too, man.”
“I didn’t come here for you,” he snapped, as short-tempered with his siblings as you wished you could be. He looked down, holding you that much tighter. “How’s my best girl holding up?”
“I’m just fine, Jason. I do think we have to have a talk about how you treat your brother, though.” You glanced over your shoulder to Dick. “A little privacy? You really ought to be staying off your feet, too.”
Reluctantly, Dick slinked out of the kitchen, hesitant to go but eager to nurse his wounds. You only went on once you were sure he was gone.
“It’s been awful. I found another hidden camera in my bedroom, and I think Tim’s tapping my—”
“I’ll do a sweep.”
He let you go, but you caught his arm. “Please, I know it’s important, but—” You cut yourself off, swallowing. It was irrational – the way you let your guard down so quickly around Jason. The mask never slipped around anyone else, whether you were afraid of them or they were one of your rare, precious exceptions. Jason existed outside of the Wayne family, though, outside of Bruce’s corrupting influence. He wasn’t going to hurt you. More importantly, he wasn’t going to let anyone else hurt you, either.
“But I really don’t want to think about that, right now,” you finished. “Just… just for a little while, alright? I don’t want to constantly feel like I’m walking on eggshells, at least not while you’re here.”
Jason stood strong for all of three seconds. With the fourth, he sighed, buckled, and shook his head, his exasperation brimming with affection. “How long until Bruce gets home?”
“Six more hours. He’s not due to check-in for another three.”
“I’ve got my bike out front. How do you think he’d feel about a joy ride?”
And just like that, you lit up. “It’d give him a heart attack.”
Jason pulled you close, kissing the top of your head.
“Perfect.”
~
Unfortunately, Jason’s visits were few and far between. You had to find ways of fending for yourself, in the downtime.
“I miss the city.”
Bruce glanced over his shoulder, gaze flickering over you before returning to the buttons of his dress-shirt. You sunk that much deeper into the mess of sheets and pillows, taking some small amount of solace in the way the cool silk felt against your warm skin.
(Sex wasn’t something Bruce came to you for often, but when he did, you gave it to him willingly, albeit with no more enthusiasm than was absolutely necessary. You rarely enjoyed it and always regretted everything you did or said during the act, but it was better than the alternative. Part of you trusted him, trusted Batman, enough to believe that he’d take your refusal for what it was, that you wouldn’t have to say anything more than ‘no’. The remaining overwhelming majority was able to look around you, to remember the way he’d held you down as he forced a needle stocked with medical-grade sedatives into your throat, and recognize that your opinion probably didn’t mean very much to him. Still, you couldn’t let things get that bad. Even if you had to surrender every other facet of your being, you couldn’t let things get that bad.)
“You hated the city. You said your landlord was a tyrant and that even the criminals were living paycheck-to-paycheck.” And then, after a second of thought, “And that there were more rats in Gotham than people.”
“Well, he was, they are, and you know I love animals.” You pushed yourself up, keeping a sheet bunched against your chest as you slumped against the headboard. “I was tired and overworked – you could see that. But, things would be different if I was staying with, say, my wealthy trillionaire boyfriend in one of the penthouse apartments that I know he has because his youngest son got in trouble for bragging about them in school last week?”
Bringing up his kids was a dirty tactic – the fastest way to get Bruce’s undivided attention. This time, when his eyes shifted in your direction, they stayed there, and he made his way back to your side of the bed. He collapsed next to you and, with no resistance on your end, pulled you into his lap. He didn’t seem to care whether or not his immaculately tailored, freshly pressed suit was creased in the process, but you did your best not to squirm. “You want to leave the manor?”
The first half of a frown tugged at the corner of your lips. “That’s not what I—”
“Elevated pulse, avoidant eye-contact,” he muttered. “Something’s bothering you.”
It wasn’t a question. He wasn’t wrong, either, but still. You would’ve preferred to be asked.
“…it’s your family,” you admitted, feigning guilt. “They’re all—” Horny, depressed, creepy little orphans. “—great kids, but it’s just been so much so quickly, and I think it… I think it might’ve been too much too quickly. For them and for me.”
“They adore you, if that’s what you’re worried about. Dick was close to moving back in when I decided it was too dangerous to leave you to your own devices.”
You melted into his chest, sighing. Reflexively, he curled around you – a good thing, if a bit claustrophobic. Bruce liked feeling like a shield between you and harm, between you and the world he couldn’t control. Hopefully, eventually, he’d realize he had more to shield you from than greedy landlords and villains who always seemed to be just out of sight. “It’s not that easy. It’s just been such a rocky adjustment period, and…” You curled your hand around his wrist and squeezed, hoping the force would be enough to communicate what you couldn’t put a word to. “I’m really afraid something bad might happen, Bruce.”
For a moment, he seemed to consider it. There was a kiss to your shoulder, solemn and lingering, then another to your cheek, more fleeting. “I’ll talk to them. They’ll give you space, if they’re told to.”
If he told them to. You doubted you held much authority, here. “And the apartment in the city? On the highest floor, tall enough to see from Gotham to New York?”
Bruce smiled, and your heart soared.
Then, he started talking, and it crashed back down, dying upon impact. “Once I know it’s safe for you, sweetheart.”
There was another kiss, this one to the nape of your neck, then another, lower down on your spine. A calloused hand slipped underneath the sheet still hugged against your chest, and you allowed it to.
Honestly, it would’ve been kinder if he’d cut you into pieces and fed you to the wolves himself.
~
You made a run for it as soon as the arguing started.
Arguing, not yelling – the distinction was minor, but significant. Yelling would’ve meant an injury, or a mission gone wrong, or something else that signaled a sudden complication that couldn’t be smoothed over with sugar-sweet sentimentality or orders issues with an ice-cold strictness. Yelling would’ve meant Bruce didn’t mind letting you overhear, which usually meant you didn’t need to be involved. Arguing, all hushed whispers and hissed explanations and vague warnings, was different. Arguing meant, more often than not, that they were arguing about you.
It was Tim’s fault, as far as you could tell. Barbara had been the one to find the conspicuously encrypted file on one of Dick’s civilian devices, the one to mention it to Stephanie as a point of concern who went to Tim within the hour, but it was still his fault. He’d gotten Bruce involved, let his need for approval tip the tenuously balanced scales that kept his family whole and you safe. He’d talked them all into waiting until Dick was close enough to confront in-person, stopping by for his weekly equipment pick-up and check-in. He was the reason you’d gotten close enough to hear something about ‘pictures’ and ‘inappropriate use of reconnaissance material’ before fleeing to the mansion’s foyer – the only part of the house you could be sure wasn’t occupied. If you were lucky, you’d only be there for half an hour or so, enough time for them to compromise on some non-solution and return to your carefully maintained status quo. If you weren’t, you’d spend the early hours of the morning—
Something small but forceful hit the nearest window, shortly followed by another projectile, then another. The glass was too thick and the world outside too dark to make anything out, but you didn’t need to see anything to know who’d come to your rescue.
Jason.
You rushed to the door, then hesitated. Jason would only get a slap on the wrist for luring you out of the estate, and Bruce could never bring himself to be that strict with you, but now might’ve been a bad time. Tensions were already running high. Your little disappearing act wouldn’t—
A sudden rush of footsteps clattering through the ceiling from the floor above you, hushed voices raised just to the point of audibility. None of it was entirely coherent, but Dick’s came the closest. You managed to make out a half-choked “If you’d just let me—” before someone cut him off.
With your better judgement reduced to buzzing static, you pried open the closer of a pair of huge, mahogany doors and slipped out of the estate entirely.
Of course, Jason was waiting outside, a small stock of pebbles still in his left hand and, of course, you threw yourself at him, letting him catch and spin you twice before setting you back onto your feet with an airy laugh. A pitch-black sports car was waiting at the end of the driveway, the engine purring loudly enough to drown the rest of the world out. “Rough night?”
“You have no fucking idea,” you muttered, breathless. “I don’t care where we go, just get me out of here.”
There was a reason Jason was your favorite. There was no argument, no prying, just his arm around your waist as he herded you into the passenger seat. Fifteen minutes and a little over fifty miles later, the mansion was little more than a dull glow on the horizon, and you could pretend you’d stopped thinking about Bruce entirely.
There was no effort to make conversation, as bad as you felt about pulling Jason into your prolonged tryst with self-pity. Instead, you sunk into the leather of his seat and fixed your gaze on the passing landscape, clinging to any detail you were able to latch onto as it flew by. It was possible, between the subways and boarded-over windows and perpetually overcast skies, to go days without seeing the sun in Gotham. Still, your life had felt brighter there than it ever did in Bruce’s estate.
Jason turned down a road you didn’t recognize, and you managed to find your voice. “Are we going into the city?”
“Even better.” He flashed you a smile, the engine purring as he accelerated. “You’ll like it, I promise. Just sit tight.”
As if you had much of a choice.
Road gave way to forest, forest to empty plains, and empty plains to the dilapidated remains of what you could only label as a long-abandoned amusement park – like Disney World if there’d been some terrible, possibly nuclear accident followed by twenty or so years of absolute neglect. Jason’s car glided past the rusted remains of an iron gate, past the corpses of rides buckled under their own weight, and came to a stop in front of a paint-stripped merry-go-round almost entirely sheeted be vines and weeds and overgrowth. You let out a low whistle as he threw the gear shift into park and, for the first time in any vehicle you’d ever shared with him, pulled his keys out of the ignition. He’d always left the engine running while visiting the mansion, but then again, you’d always been pretty eager to make a hasty escape, too.
“I love it, Jason. I’ve always wanted to get tetanus from a broken down carnival.”
“A fair, actually,” he corrected, slipping his keys into his jacket pocket. Like he expected you to try and steal them while his back was turned, or something. “My parents used to take me here, before I met B. There weren’t a lot of Ferris wheels after that.”
There was a short lapse, the sound of lips moving against teeth. You made the mistake of humming, of glancing over to him, of leaving yourself open for another question, and Jason, as nice as he was, was more than happy to take advantage of you. “So, when did you and B start…”
He trailed off, drumming his fingers against the wheel. You filled in the rest with a breathy chuckle. “When did I start sleeping with your dad?”
He jabbed an elbow into your side. “First of all, you can admit you’re fucking him or call him my dad, but you’ve gotta pick one.” You opened your mouth, already ready to spit out some dumb joke about what Bruce would’ve preferred to be called, but Jason cut in, sniping your stupid joke out of the air. “Secondly, answer the question. I get enough of your diversions back at home.”
“Being a buzzkill must run in family,” you sighed, but gave in quickly enough. “It happened once before the whole kidnapping thing, when he was staying at my apartment and sleeping off a broken leg. I hadn’t even seen him without his mask on at that point, but I figured it was a sign – destiny, or something.” You did your best to smile, slumping against the door. “It was dumb. He gave me a couple weeks after bringing me to the estate, mostly because of the crying and stuff, but things started up again pretty quickly.”
“Do you… like it?”
“Do you like asking about your dad’s sex life?” He flinched back, and laughing, you went on. “I guess I don’t care. There’s not a lot else to do.” You swallowed. “Would it matter if I didn’t?”
For someone with so many questions, he didn’t leave a lot of time for yours, the hypocrite. Moving on swiftly, he asked, “And the others, have they…?”
“No.” And then, after a beat, “Not yet.”
He seemed to relax, at that. His back was still straight, his shoulders still squared, but his grip on the wheel loosened, his jaw unclenching ever so slightly. You tried the handle – locked. Obviously. As if you’d ever get that lucky.
His voice was soft, sweet. The kind of tone you’d use on a child, or an animal, or a doll. “This would probably be easier in the backseat, right?”
“Let me out.”
“So you can go where,baby? It’s just us out here.” He laughed, resting a hand on your thigh. You slammed your shoulder into the door. It didn’t budge. “Hey, hey, this doesn’t need to get rough. I’m not going to be like Dick. The others – they’ll do it wrong, treat you like a cut of meat they have to get to before anybody else. I just need to make sure you get out of this in one piece.”
Nails embedded in leather, body crammed as far from him as you could force it be. You weren’t hyperventilating, but only because you’d stopped breathing entirely. “Let me out, Jason.”
“I love the way you say my name. It’s pretty, and delicate – just like you.” He sighed, shook his head. “I know you don’t get it, but I’m just trying to take care of you, like you’ve been taking care of me for the past few—”
“Stop acting like I’m your mom.” A sob fractured the final syllable, another bubbling up from deep in your chest a moment later. Your body was beyond the point of rationality, but the soft, preservational part of your mind wasn’t so beyond the point of seeking refuge. There was a way out of this, as ghoulish as it seemed. You couldn’t stop it from happening, but you could make it better. You’d regret it in an hour, when it came time to explain yourself to Bruce, but what happened in an hour didn’t matter, not if you couldn’t survive the next few minutes.
You might’ve done it, too – or, you might’ve tried, at least. You wanted to. You planned to. And yet, when you opened your mouth, there was only one thing you could seem to say. “I don’t want to do this, Jason.”
His nails bit into your thigh, his smile easing at the corners. For a second, you almost thought he’d pull away. For a second, you almost thought he’d sigh, straighten back up, and admit this was all part of some cruel, unfunny joke that the two of you would remember fondly, later on.
Then, he laughed and leaned forward, lips brushing against the top of your head. You felt him speak before you heard his voice, but the cloying reverberation alone was enough to tell you that you would’ve been better off never saying anything at all.
You're exhausted from it all. Who wouldn't be? You've been running on nothing but adrenaline and scrounges of food you've been able to find in between "rest".
This room is yet another one you've managed to glitch into. You have no idea how, or why, but rooms keep coming yet you get nowhere. Is this one as deadly as the last? Or is it just a liminal space nightmare?
So far you're for the latter. But with how quietly the room hums and how empty everything seems, you're partial to believing you've died.
You sigh and slam your head back against the faded yellow wall, sliding down until you're completely sat on the floor.
"I just want a bed. A bed and some fucking food." You utter, starting to shake and sniffle as the fear and horror you've been experiencing finally takes over, causing your shoulders to slump and shake as you start to cry.
You sit there for god knows how long, before just succumbing, mind going dark and heavy as you collapse.
When you awaken, you're not as quick to get up and running. You're sore, but not in pain. You're weary, but not exhausted. It takes you a moment before you blink, and truly look around, before saying out loud- "Holy shit it's a bed."
Bewildered isn't the best fitting word, but it's all you've got. Besides, with everything else you've been through, this is the least insane scenario.
Trying to leave causes the blankets on top of you to ruffle, as if offended, before they crawl back on top of you. You begin to think you've fallen into a trap, about to be eaten by a bed of all fucking things, but no. Just firmly tucked back in.
Odd things like this just keep happening. When you're finally allowed up to look around, you're stomach gives away how starved you are. Before you can even complain, there's just a table. Full of an array of foods. Cut fruits, veggies, small sweets, some meats- where the hell did this come from? The table runner looks like one from the 50s if you had to guess. Did it conjure it or just steal it?
"Thank you?" You ask aloud, nervous to try anything. You hesitate to take some of the sliced oranges, and the room senses that, purposefully nudging the plate closer.
Things from there are odd, but harmless.
You're given what you can assume is days of rest and food. You've yet to die, so you assume this room is at the very least a safe spot, if not just taking forever to end you. You're grateful for it all, and feel a bit of survivors guilt for being able to relax like this, especially when you've seen people die right in front of you begging for this exact scenario.
"...I never realized how much I would miss showers...I need to wash off this filth and guilt..." You mutter, sadness tinting your voice as you let the rest of an apple sit on the floor beside you.
A blink.
You're in a massive bathroom. A large shower, and beside it, a large, deep tub. There's a prickling fear up your spine with this.
Food and rest is one thing...But this is a bit more intimate. How do you voice that you know the room is watching, and you don't exactly plan on putting on a show?
"No, no. Look you've been very helpful and I-I love that! I do! But I don't think I'm comfortable with-" You're cut off. In a matter of half a second, your clothes are off, and you're under the perfect temperature of water, yelping in fear as you're washed and brushed without lifting a finger.
You try and claw away, swatting and biting at the rags and brushes being used to clean you. But in the end, you were powerless, and forced to be washed and deep cleaned by whatever the hell runs this room.
You're wrapped in a towel, staring in dissociation at the mirrors that filled the room as water drips down your skin and steam fills the air. You weren't sure what to feel. It didn't feel angry but it didn't feel friendly either. Professional yet predatory.
You need to get out of this place.
You begin tightening the towel around you as you swallow, thick and cautious, stepping forward to the mirror. They surround the room entirely now, steam fogging them up and blurring any image of you.
Your finger starts to write on the glass, words failing you as your throat tightens. Up and down, you write out a soft statement, testing to see if the room would respond.
"Thank you" you write, fingers trembling as the room suddenly feels more heated and alive.
"You're welcome." The mirror responds, even leaving a tiny heart next to the dripping words.
Ok. You swallow and nod you're head, trying to write a message again, hating that speech felt nearly impossible. In your defense, you were just given a beauty and the beast treatment involving a shower. People would understand being too stunned to speak.
"When can I leave?" You ask, unsure how to politely state that no, you can't stay here. You have to get out. You have to get help.
The room starts to shake, rumbling and spinning as you're pushed on your ass, landing on a bed once again but still clad in a towel and wet skin, watching as the place turns into a dimly lit bedroom of sorts.
There's a T.V flashing between channels. Words flashing up on the screen mixed with Audio. It's hard to make out at first, but crawling forward, you get closer to hear better and see what could possibly be being said.
"Why" a click.
"Would" "You leave"
Channel after channel, old shows, commercials, and reports.
"You're so" "happy" "HERE"
You freeze, feeling like the room growing cold as you try to back away, shaking your head. "No no no no no. I-I need to leave. You can't keep me here! I'm not even supposed to be here!" You shout, only to feel an angry tug on your towel and the mattress trembling, a bed frame erupting from beneath.
It had cuffs on the ends of the posts.
You try to scream but can only stare in horror.
"Don't you-" "Worry." The TV speaks, flashing between channels again.
"I'll take such" "GOOD" "Care of you."
wc: 17k || art creds: @/winterrbluess @/su2kuna || 18+
frat!sukuna x shy!nerd!reader
A/N lowk this fic is much more toned down compared to what i usually post but fuck it we ball it's cute
summary ! sukuna doesn't give a shit about chemistry, that is until the big red 8% on his last test threatens to get him kicked out of his frat. desperate, he turns to the only person who can save him: you, the adorable, shy girl who aces every quiz. you agree to help, but only if he helps you get the attention of your hallway crush, his best friend, toji. what starts as a deal between you slowly turns into a spiral of love and jealousy. (18+, fluff, slight toji x reader (?), no angst for once omg go me)
the big red number stares back at him from the top of the paper like a brand burned into his pride. 8%.
sukuna exhales through his nose, the sound rough, annoyed. the paper crumples in his hand before he tosses it onto the desk. he leans back in his chair, the metal legs creaking under his weight as his jaw works.
normally, he wouldn’t give a damn about a grade. it’s not like chemistry was ever something he cared about. but this time, it’s different. one more fail and he’s out. the frat has rules, grades too low and you’re done. and he knows exactly what’ll happen if that happens.
tojis smug laugh. satoru’s endless teasing. the guys calling him “brain-dead” for weeks. no more parties. no more sorority hoes. no more lazy afternoons drinking on the porch with his friends.
he runs a hand down his face, dragging his fingers over the faint scar under his eye and the sharp tatted lines on his cut face. he can’t let that happen.
at the front of the room, their professor is rambling about averages and assessment weightings, something about the next major project. sukuna tunes back in when he hears the words “sixty percent” and “partner work.” that catches his attention.
the next gruelling assessment is a two-month long research investigation worth sixty percent of their final grade.
he was on the verge of strangling himself to death or jumping out of the top story window when he realised.
that’s it.
that’s his way out. he just needs a smart partner who can carry his hopeless ass.
sukuna’s eyes sweep across the room, scanning for anyone who looks like they know what the hell they’re doing. most of the people he usually talks to in class are as useless as he is, too busy flirting or sleeping through lectures.
but then his gaze catches on someone sitting right up the front.
you.
the quiet girl with the tidy notes and the neat handwriting, the one who always answers when the professor asks a question no one else dares to.
you’re sitting there now, head slightly tilted as you jot something down, your pen gliding across the page with that easy confidence of someone who actually understands this shit.
you’ve always sat alone, tucked near the window. you never talk during lectures unless you have to, and even then your voice is small, hesitant. you wear oversized sweaters, keep your hair pinned up, and avoid eye contact with anyone who looks remotely like they belong to his world.
still, he’s noticed you before. everyone has. it’s hard not to. you’re the kind of girl that seems untouchable, not because you’re trying to be, but because you’re so far removed from everything he knows. soft, focused, real sweet.
and right now, you look like salvation.
he pushes up from his seat, ignoring the curious glances from a few classmates as he moves down the aisle. his tall frame blocks the light for a second when he stops beside your desk. you glance up, startled, your pen pausing mid-sentence.
"yo, my names sukuna. and you?"
"uh, hi? it's y/n." he smirks at your shy response, but continues.
“you’re like, a chem genius, right?” his tone is low, rough with disinterest, though his eyes linger on you a little too long.
you blink up at him, hesitant. “oh, um… i guess? why?”
“i need a partner, like, real bad,” he says, dropping the failed exam onto your desk with a dull slap. the red ink almost glows. “i'm gonna be honest, i completely fucked myself with this last exam. i can’t afford to fail again.”
you stare at the paper, then at him. up close, he’s intimidating. messy pink hair, dark eyes sharp and unreadable, tattoos trailing up his arms, his face, and peeking out from under his shirt collar.
he looks nothing like someone who’d ever ask for help, especially from you, and the fact that he’s doing it now makes your mind reel.
“i- look, don't take this the wrong way, but... theres a lot of people in this class,” you manage softly. “why pick me?”
he shrugs, leaning one hand on the desk beside your notes. “because you actually know what you’re doing. and i’m not looking to get stuck with some idiot who’ll drag me down, i'm already so fucking cooked."
you hesitate, glancing away. you’ve never really talked to him before. actually, you’ve barely even noticed him beyond the times you’ve seen him walking across campus with toji. that’s usually when your stomach does that stupid fluttering thing. watching toji laugh, his arm slung lazily around sukuna’s shoulders, both of them looking like they own the place.
it’s strange seeing one of them standing here now, asking you for help.
you fidget with your pen. “that's fine, sure. but… if we’re partners, wed have to split the workload.”
"yeah,” he says. “i can pull my weight, don't stress it, sweetheart. mostly just need someone to keep me from bombing it.”
it’s almost funny. he’s trying to sound casual, but something about the way he’s watching you feels uncharacteristically careful. like he’s actually waiting for your answer rather than being the overbearing dick he usually is.
maybe it’s because you’re cute. or maybe it’s because he knows you hold his fate in your small, nervous hands.
you chew your lip for a moment, then nod. “yeah, okay. i’ll help you out.”
his mouth tilts in a grin that’s half smug, half genuine relief. “good. 'preciate it, babe.”
you look down instantly, pretending to organize your papers so he doesn’t see the way your face warms. you weren't used to such casual name calling.
he drags a chair over from the next row and drops into it beside you, leaning back like he’s been sitting there all semester.
the professor’s voice fades into the background again as you stare straight ahead, trying to focus on anything but the fact that sukuna ryomen, the most notorious guy in beta tau, is now your project partner.
a few minutes pass in silence. the lecture drags on, your notes filling another page. but your mind’s racing the whole time. sukuna, meanwhile, can’t stop sneaking glances at you from the corner of his eye.
he hadn’t expected you to actually agree. and he definitely hadn’t expected to find himself curious about you. you’re so… different. not the kind of girl who shows up to parties. not someone who flirts back when he smirks at her. just quiet and sweet, head buried in your work, the type that shouldn’t even be in his orbit.
and yet here you are.
when the professor dismisses the class, people start packing up. you hesitate, fingers tightening around your pen. then, before you can talk yourself out of it, you turn to him.
“hey… sukuna?”
he hums, eyes flicking toward you lazily. “yeah?”
you look nervous, the words almost tripping over themselves before they leave your mouth. cute. “i’ll help you pass. but… can you help me out with something too?”
his brow arches. “hmm. depends what it is.”
you take a quiet breath. “it’s about your friend. uh.. toji.”
that gets his attention. his posture stiffens a little. “what about him?”
you look down at your notebook, like it’s safer than looking at him. “i just… i think he’s really attractive. and he looks nice. i know it’s kind of stupid but i was wondering if maybe... you could help me get him to notice me.”
for a second, sukuna just stares at you.
out of all the things he expected you to say, that wasn’t it.
you, the shy little thing sitting up front, blushing and tripping over her own words, want toji fushiguro. one of the biggest assholes on campus. his best friend, sure, but a guy who barely remembers girls’ names after he sleeps with them.
he leans back slowly, biting the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing. “you’re serious?”
you nod, eyes still fixed on your notebook.
he studies you for a long moment. you’re fidgeting again, twisting your pen between your fingers, your voice so soft he almost misses it. “you don’t have to if it’s weird, i just thought… you two are close, so maybe…”
sukuna exhales through his nose. part of him wants to tell you it’s a bad idea. that toji doesn’t deserve someone like you. that you’d get hurt trying to chase a guy like that.
but he doesn’t.
instead, he tilts his head and says, “yeah, fine. i’ll help you out.”
your head snaps up, eyes wide. “huh? really?”
“yeah. but only because you’re saving my ass with this project,” he says, smirking a little. “guess we’ll call it even.”
you smile, small, bright, genuine, and something tightens in his chest.
you're so cute.
“thank you,” you say quietly.
he grins again, leaning forward to rest his elbows on his knees. “don’t mention it, honey.”
and as you pack up your notes, he watches you go, already trying to ignore the strange feeling crawling up the back of his neck.
he tells himself it’s just a deal. a trade. nothing more.
but as you disappear out the door, he can’t shake the thought that maybe, just maybe, he’s gotten himself into more trouble than he realises.
~
music blasts through the frat, heavy bass shaking the walls, bodies moving in rhythm across the living room floor. someone’s yelling over the noise, someone else is laughing too loud.
the air smells like bad beer, smoke, and sweat, the classic friday night cocktail that means beta tau is alive and wild again.
sukuna leans against the kitchen counter, red solo cup in hand, watching a game of beer pong play out in front of him. the noise is deafening, but it’s a familiar kind of chaos. toji’s across the table, grin sharp as he sinks another ping-pong ball into the last cup.
“hell yeah,” toji shouts, hands raised. “that’s another win for me, baby!”
someone hands him another drink, and he downs it in one go, slamming the cup down as the room cheers. toji fushiguro lives for this kind of night, beer, bets, and easy company. sukuna’s used to it, the routine almost comforting.
he joins the next round, barely losing after a stupid bounce, then lets himself collapse onto the sagging couch beside toji. the music’s pounding through the walls, but the corner they’re in feels quieter, almost like the noise fades around them.
toji stretches out, arm slung over the back of the couch, shirt sticking to his skin. “you’re slipping, man,” he says, smirking at sukuna. “used to be able to hold your own in beer pong.”
“fuck up,” sukuna mutters, head tipped back, eyes half-lidded. “that last shot was rigged.”
“rigged?” toji laughs, deep and unrestrained. “you’re just rusty.”
sukuna grunts, tossing his empty cup onto the coffee table. his head’s buzzing, not from the alcohol, just from thoughts, mostly the image of you, the way you looked earlier in class, keeps floating up uninvited. you sitting at the front of the room, your careful handwriting, the little way you’d fidget with your pen when you were nervous.
he doesn’t even realize he’s been quiet until toji elbows him. “yo, what’s got you zoning out?”
sukuna runs his tongue over his teeth, deciding. screw it. “you ever heard of someone named y/n?”
toji raises a brow, blinking like he didn’t catch that over the noise. “who?”
“y/n,” sukuna repeats.
toji shakes his head, lips quirking. “nah. that some new chick you’re banging?”
sukuna sputters, choking on air. “what? no. i’m not-” he cuts himself off, dragging a hand down his face. great. smooth start.
toji’s smirk widens. “come on, man. don’t get shy on me. you’re stuttering like some freshman.”
“shut up,” sukuna mutters, glaring at him. “it’s not like that.”
“then what’s it like?”
he hesitates, watching the light flicker off the beer bottles on the table. there’s no way to explain it without sounding weird. he’s not even sure why he’s bringing you up at all, except that he made a promise, and now he’s gotta start somewhere.
“she’s just… in my chem class,” he finally says. “smart as hell. the kind that actually knows what she’s doing, y’know?”
toji snorts. “so, a nerd.”
“yeah,” sukuna says, ignoring the way toji says it like it’s an insult. “but, like… cute. shy, quiet, nice, i guess.”
toji’s grin widens. “bro. you’re seriously telling me about a crush right now? what the hell happened to you?”
“it’s not a crush,” sukuna says quickly, though his voice comes out sharper than he means. “she’s just..” he stops, running a hand through his hair. “she’s helping me with chem, okay? and i told her i’d help her with something too.”
“what, she want free alcs?” toji laughs.
“no.” sukuna exhales through his nose. “she wants you.”
that earns him a pause. toji tilts his head, eyes narrowing like he’s trying to decide if he misheard. “me?”
“yeah.”
“as in… she wants to, what, date me?”
“basically.”
toji’s silent for a moment, then he breaks into a bark of laughter so loud it turns a few heads. “you’re kidding, right? some shy nerdy girl wants me?” he grins, tapping his chest. “guess she’s got good taste.”
sukuna grits his teeth. “don’t be an ass about it.”
“what? i’m not being an ass,” toji says, still smirking. “just saying, that’s not really my type, man. i like girls who can actually keep up, y’know?”
“yeah, i know,” sukuna mutters. “that’s kinda the problem.”
“problem?”
sukuna leans forward, elbows on his knees, voice dropping low. “look, she’s… she’s sweet. like, actually sweet. the kind of girl that probably still says ‘sorry’ even when someone bumps into her first. you’d break her in half.”
toji shrugs, unbothered. “then maybe she shouldn’t be into me.”
“she doesn’t even know you,” sukuna says, frustration creeping into his tone. “she just saw you around. thinks you’re… i don’t know. hot and nice.”
“ha,” toji barks out a laugh, finishing his drink. “then she’s definitely got the wrong idea.”
sukuna sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. this was going nowhere.
he tries again, his tone careful. “i just figured maybe you could give her a chance. she’s not like the other girls you mess with. she’s…” he hesitates, searching for the right word. “different. the kind you’d actually like if you gave her five minutes.”
toji side-eyes him, clearly amused. “you trying to sell me a girlfriend or something? what’s in it for you?”
sukuna’s jaw tightens. “nothing. i told her i’d help her out, that’s all.”
toji grins, eyes glinting. “you sure about that? you sound kinda like you wanna keep her for yourself.”
sukuna’s silent for a beat, his pulse ticking faster than it should. “i don’t.”
“right. and i’m the pope.” toji laughs, leaning back. “are you high? tellin’ me about how cute and shy she is… just fuck her and move on, bro. no need for all this emotional shit.”
sukuna drags a hand down his face, groaning. “i wish i was fucking high. jesus, you’re impossible.”
the music gets louder again, another chant rising from the kitchen as someone calls for shots. toji stands, stretching, grinning down at him. “come on, man. stop thinking so hard. let’s go get wasted.”
sukuna waves him off. “nah, i’m good. go ahead.”
toji shrugs and disappears into the crowd. sukuna sinks further into the couch, head tipping back, letting the noise drown out the frustration burning in his chest.
this was going to be a nightmare.
.
the next morning, the fluorescent lights of the lecture hall feel like punishment. the air smells like stale coffee and paper, and the chatter around the room grates on his nerves. sukuna slouches into his seat, sunglasses hiding the exhaustion clinging to him.
you’re already there, of course. neat stack of papers beside your laptop, pen in hand, posture perfect. you glance up as he approaches, offering a small smile.
“morning,” you say softly.
“hey,” he mutters, sliding into the seat next to you.
the teacher doesn’t waste time, telling everyone to start working on their projects. pairs scatter across the room, some staying behind, others leaving for the library. you glance at sukuna, uncertain.
“should we…?”
“yeah, library,” he says before you can finish. “less noise.”
you nod quickly, tucking your notes under your arm as you follow him out.
the walk’s quiet. you keep close but not too close, fingers gripping the strap of your bag. sukuna glances at you once or twice as you walk, the sunlight catching the edge of your hair. there’s something weirdly calming about you, like your presence forces the chaos in his head to settle for a bit.
when you reach the campus library, you pick a small table near the back, away from the groups of whispering students. the morning light filters through tall windows, catching dust motes in the air. it’s quiet enough that every turn of a page feels loud.
you sit across from him, pulling your laptop from your bag. “um, before we start, maybe we should exchange contact info?”
he nods, pulling out his phone. “yeah. what's ya' number?”
you rattle it off, and he types it in. his phone pings a second later when you text him, and he adds your contact with a lazy swipe. then you both exchange social media.
you open your instagram to show him, but he’s already found it. your account’s small. cozy, soft colors, pictures of coffee cups, notes, and the occasional selfie that looks like you were trying not to take one.
then you look at his. thousands of followers, stories from parties, shirtless gym photos, snapshots of him and toji grinning like idiots with red cups in hand.
you blink, then smile politely. “ours are… really different.”
he huffs out a quiet laugh. “yeah. just a little.”
he doesn’t tell you that he finds it kind of adorable, how small and peaceful your corner of the internet looks compared to his chaos.
you both settle in to start discussing the project, papers spread between you. you talk about ideas, your voice growing steadier as you get into the topic. you explain concepts easily, your hands moving as you describe how you could structure the research, how to divide the work.
he listens. or tries to. mostly, he’s just watching the way you light up when you talk about something you love.
after a while, you pause, glancing at him with a small, hopeful look. “did you… talk to toji?”
he freezes for a fraction of a second, mind flashing back to last night. the laughter, the teasing, the absolute disaster of that conversation.
“yeah,” he says after a moment, forcing a smile. “i did.”
your eyes widen, curious. “what’d he say?”
he hesitates. you’re looking at him so earnestly, waiting for an answer, and he can’t bring himself to tell you that toji laughed it off, that he’d said something crude about just sleeping with you and moving on.
so he lies.
“he seemed interested,” sukuna says smoothly. “asked who you were. said you sounded cute.”
you go still for a moment, then your cheeks flush, and you duck your head. “really?”
“yeah,” he says, leaning back in his chair. “told him you were smart, nice. he said that’s rare.”
your shy smile makes his chest tighten in a way he doesn’t understand.
“that’s… really nice of you, sukuna,” you say softly. “thanks.”
he shrugs, forcing a grin. “told you i’d help.”
but as you turn back to your notes, still smiling faintly to yourself, he can’t look away. he doesn’t know what’s worse, the way lying to you actually hurts his heart, or the way part of him’s starting to wish that toji never finds out who you are.
because the thought of you smiling like that at anyone else makes his stomach twist.
~
the frat house is quieter than usual when sukuna pushes the door open.
no bass pounding through the walls, no laughter echoing down the hallway, no beer pong table clattering in the kitchen. just the faint hum of the refrigerator and the distant muffled sound of someone’s tv from another room.
it’s strange. unsettling, almost. he’s gotten used to the constant noise, the never ending roar of people that filled the house from dusk till dawn.
he kicks off his shoes at the door, shoulders rolling back as he heads for the stairs. his head still feels heavy from the long day, the faint scent of your shampoo stuck in his memory.
it’s weird? he’s been around a thousand girls, maybe more. girls who practically threw themselves at him, who laughed too loud at his jokes and leaned in too close.
but somehow, you, sitting across from him with that shy smile and your soft voice explaining inter molecular relationship, manage to stick in his head longer than any of them ever have.
his room’s dark when he steps inside, save for the light bleeding in from the street through the blinds. he tosses his keys onto the desk and falls back onto his bed, exhaling. the ceiling stares back blankly.
he doesn’t even mean to grab his phone, but his hand moves before he can think. he unlocks it, thumb hovering over instagram.
just checking something, he tells himself.
his fingers type your username into the search bar without hesitation.
your profile opens instantly.
the same cozy layout he remembered. a few new story highlights. your bio, something simple, maybe a quote or a flower emoji. his thumb scrolls down slowly, eyes following the grid of neatly arranged photos. you, a few landscapes, coffee cups, snippets of sunlight through your window, a cat that might not even be yours.
he stops when he sees a picture from about a month ago.
you’re holding a tiny puppy in your arms, your face caught mid laugh, like someone had said something funny right before snapping the picture. the puppy’s paw rests against your chest, nose tucked near your chin. in your other hand, you’re holding a paper cup of coffee, a little swirl of foam peeking through the lid.
he stares at it for longer than he should.
it’s just a photo, nothing special, but something about it hits him hard . the little details, the way your fingers hold gently under the puppy’s paw, the sunlight catching on the curve of your cheek, the way your smile looks completely unposed.
he catches himself wondering stupid things.
was that your dog? probably not. maybe a friend’s. or some random one you met at a cafe.
was the coffee yours? it looks like something you’d order, something simple. maybe vanilla, maybe something with caramel.
where was that taken? some small corner cafe? a weekend morning somewhere quiet?
he doesn’t know. and that bothers him more than it should.
his thumb hovers over the photo for a second before he double taps it. the little red heart fills in on the corner of the screen.
great. now you’re going to see that he liked a post from a month ago. real smooth.
he tosses his phone onto the bed beside him, covering his face with his hands.
“what the fuck am i doing,” he mutters.
he’s never been that guy. the one who scrolls through a girl’s profile like he’s studying for an exam. the one who cares enough to wonder what her favorite coffee order is, or if she likes dogs or cats more. he doesn’t ask those questions. he doesn’t want to ask those questions.
but he can’t stop himself.
he scrolls again, back up to your most recent post, another candid shot, you’re wearing one of those oversized sweaters you always seem to wear to class, sleeves pulled over your wrists.
you look peaceful. and sweet. and so painfully far from the world he lives in.
his throat tightens unexpectedly, he looks deeper, really looks at you.
you’re really fucking pretty.
he’d always known that. he’d noticed, sure, he’s not blind. the first day you’d agreed to work with him, he’d thought you were cute. adorable, even. but now, staring at your pictures, seeing the small glimpses of your life beyond those chemistry notes and shy smiles, he realizes it’s more than that.
you’re beautiful.
and that realization sits heavy in his chest, thick and uncomfortable.
because he knows exactly where this is supposed to go.
he still owes you. he still promised you something.
toji.
the thought of his friend’s name makes him exhale hard through his nose.
he can already picture it. if he brings you up again, toji will laugh the same way he always does. say something crude. maybe shrug and agree to meet you, just for the hell of it. and maybe you’d smile that soft, nervous smile at him, and maybe you’d fall for him harder than you already have.
and that image, that thought? makes sukuna’s jaw clench.
he shakes his head, forcing the phone screen off.
“get a grip,” he mutters, rolling onto his side.
but it’s no use. even as he closes his eyes, the image of you laughing with that puppy burns into the back of his mind.
~
two weeks pass withf lectures and late-night text exchanges about project deadlines.
you’ve met up three times since that first day at the library. each time, sukuna’s noticed small things. how you seem to relax around him more, how you’ve started teasing him lightly when he messes up an equation, how your laugh sounds quiet but genuine when he actually manages to make you smile.
and now, on the fourth meeting, he finds himself heading to the library again, trying to ignore the way his stomach feels weirdly tight.
you’re already there when he walks in.
same table. same corner near the back.
but this time, something’s different.
you’re standing by your seat, waving slightly when you see him. and in your hands, you’re holding two cups of coffee.
“hey,” you say, your voice bright and clear in a way that makes him pause.
he blinks, momentarily thrown off by how cheerful you sound. “hey,” he replies, trying to sound as casual as usual.
you hold out one of the cups toward him. “i, um, got this for you. black coffee, right?”
for a second, he just stares.
it’s stupid. it’s a coffee cup. but his mind stutters anyway.
“yeah,” he says, voice quieter than he means it to be. “yeah, that’s right.”
“i wasn’t sure how you take it,” you admit with a small laugh. “you seem like the kind of person who drinks it straight. no sugar, no milk.”
he huffs out a small laugh, taking the cup from you. “you got that right.”
“lucky guess.”
you sit down, cheeks faintly pink. he watches you for a second longer than necessary before clearing his throat and dropping into the chair across from you.
“thanks,” he says finally, lifting the cup slightly. “for the coffee.”
you smile, soft and genuine. “you’ve been helping me a lot with this, so i thought it was the least i could do.”
he wants to tell you that you’ve got it backwards, that you’re the one keeping him afloat, not the other way around, but he bites his tongue.
instead, he takes a sip, the bitter taste grounding him.
“you didn’t have to, y'know.”
“i wanted to,” you say, eyes flicking down to your notes.
and for a brief second, he feels his pulse skip.
you wanted to.
he tries to shake the feeling, pulling out his own notes. “alright, so. what’s the plan for today?”
you talk about the experiment data, what needs to be written up, the references you still have to gather. he listens, but part of him’s distracted.
it’s the way you’re talking now, louder, lighter. you’re not tripping over your words anymore. you’re not afraid to meet his eyes. the shy girl who could barely look at him two weeks ago is now smiling at him between sentences.
and fuck if that doesn’t make something twist in his chest.
as the minutes pass, the project talk starts to blur into something else. he’s the one who changes the subject first.
“so,” he says, leaning back slightly. “what’s with you and coffee? every time i see you, you’ve got one.”
you look up from your laptop, blinking. “i just like it, i guess. i go to this little place near campus almost every morning before class.”
“the one with the green sign?”
“yeah, that one.”
“figured.”
you laugh quietly. “you go there too?”
“sometimes,” he says. “after workouts. they’ve got good espresso.”
you tilt your head. “you work out every morning?”
“almost,” he says, smirking faintly. “gotta keep my sexy frat guy aura in tact.”
“oh, right,” you tease, eyes glinting a little. “wouldn’t want to disappoint your fans.”
he blinks, caught off guard. “fans?”
“your instagram,” you say, trying not to laugh. “you’ve got, like, a thousand girls following you. i saw.”
he groans, rubbing a hand over his face. “don’t remind me.”
“why?”
“because half of them don’t even go to this school,” he says, grinning a little. “they just… show up.”
you laugh, the sound soft but real, and he finds himself smiling before he can stop it.
after that, the conversation drifts. you talk about random things. your classes, your favorite kind of music, the dog from your photo (“that’s my friend’s puppy,” you explain. “he’s named mochi.”).
sukuna finds himself asking questions, more than he’s ever asked anyone before. not just because he wants to fill the silence, but because he genuinely wants to know.
you tell him about your hobbies, your part tme job at the campus bookstore, how you’re saving up for a trip after graduation.
he listens. really listens.
and for every small thing you share, he feels himself drawn in deeper.
when the session finally ends, the clock showing that two hours have slipped by without either of you noticing, you start packing up your things.
“same time next week?” you ask, glancing up.
“yeah,” he says. “same spot.”
you smile again, that soft, shy one that makes his chest ache.
and as you wave goodbye and walk out of the library, sukuna stays seated for a moment, staring at the empty chair across from him.
he should be thinking about the project. about grades. about keeping his promise to you.
but all he can think about is how the smell of coffee still lingers faintly on his fingers and how, somehow, that’s become his favorite part of the day.
~
the frat house always feels heavy on monday mornings. air thick with the smell of stale beer and cheap cologne, empty red cups scattered on tables like small grave markers from the weekend before. sukuna drags himself through the hallway, towel hanging around his neck, hair still damp from a quick shower.
toji’s already waiting in the kitchen, leaning against the counter with a protein shake in one hand and his phone in the other. he looks up when sukuna walks in, flashing that familiar cocky grin.
“yo, you down to hit the gym?”
sukuna doesn’t even hesitate. “for sure.”
mondays are brutal, but skipping a session isn’t an option. not when you’ve got someone like toji keeping score. they finish off their drinks, grab their bags, and head out.
the campus is still quiet. early morning sun stretches across the pavement, birds chirping somewhere above. their sneakers hit the concrete in sync.
“bro, did you see the game last night?” toji asks, tossing a smirk his way.
“yeah,” sukuna mutters. “you owe me twenty.”
toji groans. “bullshit. that last call was garbage.”
“still counts.”
they go back and forth for a while typical talk. girls, workouts, who pulled who at the last party. toji’s loud, animated, the kind of guy who fills silence with his own voice. sukuna listens, laughs when he should, but half his mind’s somewhere else.
they’re cutting across the main quad when he spots you.
you’re walking toward one of the lecture halls, tote bag slung over your shoulder, hair catching the light in a way that makes his breath hitch.
you’re wearing something simple. a cute shirt and nice jeans, your hands wrapped around a coffee cup, but somehow it makes you stand out more than anyone else on the path.
you don’t see him, too focused on your phone, but his chest tightens anyway.
for a second, it’s like the rest of the campus fades away.
then he remembers who’s walking beside him.
toji’s still talking about some girl he hooked up with over the weekend, words fading into the background as sukuna’s jaw tightens. he forces his eyes away, tells himself to stop being weird. this is stupid. you’re just his lab partner.
except he’s not supposed to be thinking about how good you look in the morning light. he’s supposed to be thinking about the deal.
the one with toji.
his throat feels dry as he forces himself to speak.
“hey,” he says suddenly. “you remember that girl i was talking about the other night?”
toji glances over, raising a brow. “the chem one?”
“yeah. that’s her.”
he nods toward you before he can second-guess it.
toji slows immediately, his attention shifting in your direction. you’re still walking across the path, the sunlight brushing over your face as you look up for a moment, squinting.
sukuna watches as toji literally stops in his tracks.
“no way,” toji says, eyes widening. “that’s her?”
“yeah,” sukuna mutters.
“holy shit.” toji’s grin spreads, sharp and impressed. “you didn’t tell me she was that cute.”
sukuna doesn’t respond. he just keeps walking, pretending to be unfazed, but every word toji says feels like it’s digging deeper under his skin.
“seriously, bro,” toji continues, still staring after you even as you disappear into the building. “you made her sound like some dorky little nerd. i was picturing ugly glasses, messy bun, the whole thing. but she’s, damn. she’s adorable.”
sukuna’s stomach twists. he forces a smirk, because that’s what’s expected. “yeah, she’s not bad.”
“not bad?” toji laughs, clapping a hand to his shoulder. “she’s gorgeous. you holding out on me, man?”
“nah,” sukuna says quickly. “just didn’t think you’d be into that type.”
“what type?”
“the smart, quiet type,” he says, voice flat. “thought you liked girls who could ‘keep up,’ remember?”
toji scoffs. “yeah, well, she’s too cute to pass up. shit, you should let me tag along next time you’re studying with her. see what she’s like up close.”
sukuna forces a laugh, but it comes out strained. “yeah, sure. whatever.”
inside, he’s cringing so hard he feels sick.
they head into the gym, the sound of clanging weights filling the space. he tries to focus on the burn in his muscles, the rhythm of his breathing but his thoughts won’t shut up. toji’s words keep echoing. she’s adorable. she’s gorgeous. you holding out on me?
this was what he was supposed to do. this was the plan. introduce you to toji, let things fall into place, make good on his end of the deal.
so why does it feel so wrong?
~
the next study session comes faster than he expects.
the day’s overcast, the library quiet except for the soft hush of the air conditioning. you’re already there when he walks in, sitting in your usual spot by the window, books neatly stacked, pen tapping absently against your notebook.
you look up when you hear his voice.
“hey,” he says, slipping through the aisles toward you.
your face brightens instantly, that small, warm smile tugging at your lips.
“hi,” you say, already starting to greet him.
then your voice falters.
because right behind him, towering and broad-shouldered, is toji.
your words die halfway out of your throat, eyes going wide. he’s impossible to ignore, dark hair, sharp grin, that easy confidence that radiates from him like static.
sukuna can see the exact moment you freeze. your fingers grip your pen a little too tightly, your posture going stiff.
“this is toji,” sukuna says, trying to sound casual. “he wanted to tag along today.”
“hey,” toji says smoothly, pulling up a chair without asking. “nice to meet you, y/n.”
you nod, cheeks pink. “h-hi.”
it’s awkward from the start. painfully so.
sukuna tries to start things off, opening his notebook and asking about the data you collected last week, but toji’s already jumping in with his own questions, none of them relevant.
“so,” toji leans forward, elbows on the table. “you’re really good at this chem stuff, huh? always been a little nerd?”
you laugh nervously, eyes flicking between the two of them. “i… guess so?”
“yeah, i could never,” he says, shaking his head. “i barely passed last year. too many parties, you know how it is.”
you nod politely, but the look on your face says it all, you have no idea what to say.
sukuna grits his teeth.
toji keeps going, oblivious. he talks about the last frat party, about the time he benched two hundred in front of half the football team, about some girl who texted him last night. you just sit there, smiling faintly, giving small nods and quiet hums of agreement.
it’s brutal.
every word toji says feels like a slow car crash sukuna can’t stop. he knows he should’ve expected this. this was always how toji was but now that it’s happening in front of you, he can’t stand it.
you’re sitting there, trying so hard to be polite, cheeks flushed, fingers fidgeting with your sleeve. and for the first time, sukuna hates how loud the other guy is. hates how he’s filling the space that’s always felt quiet and easy with you.
after what feels like forever, toji’s phone buzzes. he glances down, reads the message, and stands up.
“gotta head out,” he says, smirking. “good luck with your project, sweetheart. maybe i’ll swing by next time, yeah?”
before you can respond, he gives you a wink.
you freeze again, murmuring something that barely sounds like a goodbye.
he leaves, whistling under his breath, completely unaware of how painfully awkward that was.
the second he’s out of sight, sukuna exhales hard and runs a hand through his hair.
“fuck,” he mutters. “sorry about that.”
your eyes widen a little. “oh, um, it’s fine.”
“no, seriously,” he says, glancing at you. “i should’ve told you i was bringing him.”
you hesitate, then smile, shy but real. “it’s okay. i was just… nervous, i guess.”
he tilts his head. “why?”
you look down at your notes. “he’s just… kind of intense. i didn’t expect that.”
“yeah,” he says quietly. “he’s like that.”
the silence that follows isn’t awkward, though. it’s calm. steady.
you’re visibly more relaxed now, shoulders no longer so tight, your voice softer when you start talking again. sukuna listens, his chest loosening with every word.
you don’t mention toji again.
and he doesn’t either.
for the rest of the session, it’s just the two of you again. back to the easy rhythm he didn’t realize he’d missed until it was gone. you explain a reaction mechanism, he teases you about your handwriting, you roll your eyes and laugh.
when it’s time to leave, you pack up your things slowly, almost like you don’t want the moment to end.
“see you next week?” you ask.
“yeah,” he says, smiling faintly. “next week.”
you give a small wave, and as you walk out, sukuna watches you disappear between the shelves, that same quiet warmth settling in his chest.
he should feel relieved, he did what he was supposed to. he introduced you to toji. he followed through.
but instead, he just feels like he’s made a mistake.
because the whole walk back to the frat, the only thing running through his head isn’t how toji couldn’t shut up or how awkward the whole thing was.
it’s how your voice had softened when you told him it was fine. how your eyes met his, even for a second, and he felt that stupid little spark again.
he doesn’t know what to call it. doesn’t want to.
but deep down, he knows one thing for sure.
the next time you two meet, he’s showing up alone, keeping you to himself.
~
music pounds through sukuna's chest, pulsing out of the open doors of the sorority like a heartbeat on overdrive. laughter spills down the steps, mixed with the sharp scent of alcohol and perfume and that sticky-sweet haze that always clings to these kinds of parties.
banners hang crooked above the door, fairy lights tangled like spiderwebs. the sorority girls really went all out.
it’s a mixer. one of those invite only things, where every girl in greek row tries to get noticed by the “right” house. and sukuna’s frat, their house, was always the right one. full of grade A hotties like sukuna and toji and successful athletes like gojo and geto.
he spots toji near the entrance, already in his element. white t-shirt, chain glinting at his throat, grin carved sharp enough to cut through the noise. every few seconds, someone calls his name. girls from different sororities, guys from the rugby team, even one of the organizers waving him over.
toji was built for this. sukuna knew it. hell, everyone did.
“about time, man,” toji says when sukuna steps up beside him. “thought you’d bailed.”
“nah,” sukuna mutters. “just took my time.”
“yeah, well, tonight’s supposed to be wild. let’s make the most of it.”
they shoulder their way through the crowd, music pounding overhead, the smell of beer and sweat and too much perfume thick in the air. sticking together like usual.
a few girls call out sukuna’s name as they pass, and he just flashes that lazy grin he’s perfected, the one that says he’s not interested, but he might be later.
it’s all automatic now. the smirk, the eye contact, the way his shoulders roll when he laughs. it’s all muscle memory.
but tonight, something feels off.
maybe it’s the way every laugh sounds fake. maybe it’s the way the lights flash too bright, painting everyone in the same plastic color.
maybe it’s because all he can think about is you.
they end up in the kitchen, where the music’s still loud but not deafening. beer pong’s already set up on the long dining table, cups half-filled, ping-pong balls scattered across the sticky surface.
toji grabs a ball and grins. “let’s go. loser does a shot.”
sukuna smirks, rolling up his sleeves. “you’re on.”
they start playing, drawing a small crowd of girls who cheer and giggle at every throw. toji’s competitive as always, talking shit between shots, while sukuna plays quiet and steady. the rhythm feels familiar, the weight of the ball, the sound of it hitting the cup, the way everyone leans in to watch.
after two rounds, they’re tied. toji wins one, sukuna the other. the girls watching don’t seem to care who’s winning they’re too focused on the way the two of them look, the easy confidence that comes with knowing the room revolves around them.
and then they descend.
a blonde slides up beside toji, pressing herself against his arm. another girl, brunette this time, drapes herself over sukuna, laughter dripping from her lips like honey.
“you guys are, like, scary good at this,” she says, voice high and flirty.
“practice,” sukuna says automatically. his smirk looks real enough. it always does.
her nails trace the edge of his sleeve, and she leans closer. “bet you’re real good at other things too.”
normally, this is the part where he’d lean in, let the moment pull him under. he knows how this goes, shots, dancing, slipping upstairs when the music gets too loud. normally he'd do anything for a quick fuck.
but tonight, it doesn’t land.
he looks down at her, at the perfect makeup and glitter around her eyes, and all he can think is how different she is from you.
how you’d never lean on someone like this. how you’d never grab at someone you just met. how when you talked, you actually meant what you said.
his jaw tightens.
toji’s already got two girls around him, laughing loudly, drink in one hand, the other at someone’s waist. he looks like he’s having the time of his life. and for the first time, sukuna feels nothing but exhaustion watching it.
the brunette keeps talking something about the psych department, something about a pool party next weekend but her words fade into static.
god, he can’t stop thinking about you.
he pictures your small smile, the way you tuck your hair behind your ear when you’re nervous. the way your voice lifts just slightly when you talk about something you love. the way your eyes meet his only for a second before darting away again.
then he thinks about how you’d react if you saw this.
if you saw toji right now, grinning, drunk, hands everywhere.
you’d look crushed. maybe not outwardly, but he knows you’d feel it. he can see that tiny flicker of hurt in his head, your lips pressing together, pretending not to care.
and for some reason, that thought hits him like a punch.
you’d be heartbroken over a guy like toji. and he hates that. hates it enough that his fake smirk starts to slip.
because toji’s the one you wanted. and toji’s right there, laughing with some random girl like you never even existed.
it makes his stomach twist.
the brunette leans in closer, her perfume cloying and too strong. she presses her lips against his neck, and something cold floods through him instead of the usual heat.
he stiffens.
she pulls back, confused, maybe even offended, but he just steps away, shaking his head.
“you good?” she asks, pouting a little.
“yeah,” he mutters. “just need a smoke.”
he grabs a beer from the counter and makes his way outside.
the air’s cooler out here, cleaner. it hits his lungs in a way that almost feels like relief. he digs into his pocket, finds his pack, and lights up. the first drag burns his throat, grounding him a little. he thinks back to the time you'd seen a flash of the packet in his pocket, the look of concern plastering your cute face.
"you smoke cigarettes? y'know that pretty bad for you, sukuna..."
he sighs and takes another drag, he knew you were right, hell, he even cut down after that little statement.
inside, the party’s still raging. someone shouts, laughter echoing off the walls. he hears toji’s voice above the rest, loud and easy and so damn sure of himself.
sukuna exhales a long stream of smoke and stares out at the street.
why’s he even thinking about you like this?
you're just a girl. just a project partner. you needed his help, he needed yours. that’s all it was supposed to be.
but then he remembers how you'd smiled when he showed up on time for once, how you’d brought him that stupid cup of coffee just because you thought he’d like it. how careful you’d been, shy but trying.
and now he’s here, surrounded by everything he used to want, feeling nothing but restless.
he thinks about the library tomorrow morning.
you’d be there early. you always are. waiting at the same table, your notebook open, your pen tapping as you concentrate. you’d look up when he walks in, offer that small, quiet smile like you’re genuinely happy to see him.
the thought of showing up hungover makes his stomach knot.
he can’t let you see him like that. not reeking of beer, not bleary eyed and dead from a night he didn’t even enjoy.
he flicks the ash off his cigarette, curses under his breath.
“what the fuck am i doing?”
he looks back toward the house. the windows are glowing with golden light, silhouettes moving inside. laughter spills out again, shrill and wild.
that used to feel like home.
now it just feels loud.
he takes another drag, the ember lighting up in the dark.
this isn’t him. at least, it’s not the version of him you’ve seen. the one who actually listens, who tries, who stays sober enough to remember what you said about catalysts and reactions. the one you’ve somehow turned him into without even knowing.
he huffs out a quiet laugh, bitter and low.
you’d probably never believe it if someone told you sukuna ryomen left a mixer early because of a girl.
but here he is.
he stubs out the cigarette, tosses the butt into the gutter, and pulls his jacket tighter around him.
he steps back inside just long enough to find toji at the beer pong table, a girl perched on his lap now, and rolls his eyes.
“yo,” toji calls over. “where the hell’d you go?”
“m' heading out,” sukuna says. “got shit to do tomorrow.”
toji raises a brow. “it’s friday, man.”
“yeah. i know.”
“whatever,” toji laughs. “your loss.”
sukuna just shrugs, already turning toward the door.
the music fades behind him as he walks out again. the night air hits him, cool against his skin. campus is mostly empty now, streetlights flickering.
he lights another cigarette as he walks, the smoke curling up into the cold.
his mind won’t stop racing.
he thinks about you again, about how small you look sitting behind your laptop, about the way you focus so hard you don’t notice him staring sometimes. about how quiet the world feels when it’s just the two of you in that corner of the library.
you’d laugh if you saw him now. the guy everyone calls a monster, walking home early from a party just because he wants to look sober in front of some shy chemistry nerd.
but it’s not just that anymore.
he doesn’t want to look sober. he wants to look good for you.
he wants you to think he’s better than this. better than what everyone thinks he's like.
he blows out smoke and watches it fade into the dark.
when he gets back to the frat, the house is nearly empty—most of the guys are still at the mixer. it’s quiet for once. he climbs the stairs, every step heavy, and stops at his door.
he stares at the handle for a second before going in.
the room smells like cologne and laundry detergent. his desk’s still a mess, papers and dumbbells scattered everywhere. he drops onto the bed and stares at the ceiling, cigarette burning low between his fingers.
he should sleep. he should forget tonight.
but all he can see is you.
your smile. your voice. your eyes when they meet his and flick away just a second too fast.
“fuck,” he mutters under his breath.
he ashes the cigarette in the tray, lets his head fall back, and closes his eyes.
the thought of you lingers like smoke in his lungs. intoxicating, slow, impossible to shake.
and for the first time in a long time, the idea of tomorrow doesn’t feel like just another day. it feels like something he’s waiting for.
~
the sun crawls through the blinds too early for a saturday.
pale light drags itself across the room, landing on the mess of clothes and empty bottles scattered over the frat floor. everyone’s still passed out.
bodies everywhere. some sprawled across couches, others snoring in corners, heads tipped back with half-empty beer cans slipping from their hands.
but not sukuna.
he’s awake.
he’s the only one who doesn’t feel like he got hit by a truck. no pounding head, no sour stomach. just the faint trace of smoke on his tongue and the quiet buzz in his chest that’s been there since last night.
he sits up, rakes a hand through his hair, and exhales. the air smells like sweat and cheap vodka. he looks around at the disaster that was his frat house, sticky floors, someone’s shoe on the counter, a guy in nothing but boxers drooling into the carpet, and shakes his head.
he’s not sticking around for the aftermath.
there’s something about this morning, something clean, light, strange. he grabs his hoodie, slings his bag over his shoulder, and checks his phone. too early for most people. not too early for you.
he smiles a little at that.
when he walks into the hallway, a few guys groan from the couch.
“yo,” one of them croaks. “where the hell are you going? it’s like… eight?”
“got plans,” sukuna says, slipping on his sneakers.
“plans?” another mumbles, half-asleep. “with who?”
“no one,” sukuna says quickly. “don’t worry about it.”
he’s already halfway out the door before they can start asking more questions. the last thing he needs is toj or anyone, really catching wind of this and deciding to tag along like last time.
the air outside hits him cold and fresh. campus is quiet, only the occasional sound of birds or a bike rolling past. everything’s washed in soft gold light, the kind that makes the world look cleaner than it really is.
he starts walking.
there’s a bounce in his step that he tries to ignore. it feels stupid to feel this way. giddy. like he’s got something worth looking forward to. he tells himself it’s just because he didn’t drink last night. he’s clear-headed. alert. that’s all.
but he knows it’s a lie.
the café comes into view just down the block. it’s the one you always go to, the one with the green sign. he remembers the first time he saw you there, hunched over your laptop with a coffee that had already gone cold, scribbling in your notebook like the world might end if you looked up.
the memory makes his chest feel weird.
he pushes open the door, the little bell chiming. the barista greets him with a sleepy smile. he glances over the glass case, scanning the pastries. croissants, muffins, a few danishes. then he spots the one he remembers you ordering once, faky and soft, sugar dusted over the top.
“one of those,” he says, pointing.
the barista wraps it up neatly in paper. sukuna hands over the cash, then hesitates when she asks if he wants a drink.
he almost says yes. almost orders a sweet coffee for you.
but then he remembers.
you’ll already have one right now, you always do.
“nah,” he says, shaking his head. “js' the pastry.”
he walks out with the small paper bag in hand, a faint smile tugging at his mouth.
he feels ridiculous. it’s a fucking pastry. but somehow it feels like more than that. like he’s carrying a confession.
when the library comes into view, he spots you right away.
you’re there, in your usual spot. that back table near the window, the one you’ve claimed without ever really saying so. your coffee’s beside your laptop, steam curling up faintly. you’re biting your lip, eyes narrowed in concentration as you read through something.
and god, you’re cute.
it slaps him all over again.
the way your hair falls forward, the soft sweater you’re wearing, the tiny crease between your brows. you’re not trying to be anything. you’re just there, focused, quiet, real.
he stands there for a second, just watching.
then he remembers himself and walks over.
“g'morning,” he says.
you look up, startled, then your whole face softens when you see him. “oh, hi! you’re early.”
“yeah,” he says, dropping his bag into the chair across from you. “didn't wanna sleep in today.”
you laugh softly, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear. “fair.”
he pulls the paper bag from his hoodie pocket and slides it across the table.
he holds it out to you. “for you. figured you might want breakfast.”
you blink, startled. “wait, really?”
“yeah. it’s from that cafe you like.”
your mouth falls open slightly, and your cheeks go pink in that way he’s starting to adore. “you... remembered that?”
“guess so.”
you take the bag from him carefully, like it’s something fragile. when you peek inside and see what it is, your expression softens even more.
“oh my god,” you whisper, smiling so hard your eyes crinkle at the corners. “this is my favorite one.”
he watches, almost helpless, as you keep talking, thanking him over and over. your voice stumbles with embarrassment, your fingers fidget with the bag, and the more flustered you get, the more something warm spreads through his chest.
“you didn’t have to! really, that’s so sweet of you.”
“it’s nothing,” he says, but his voice is rougher than he means it to be. “just figured you might be hungry.” he softens.
you look down, still smiling. “thank you.”
and it hits him, how long it’s been since a girl said that to him and meant it.
you break the silence first, switching to the assignment, pulling up your notes and explaining something about the next section. he nods along, but he’s not really listening. he’s watching the way you push your hair behind your ear, the way your brows furrow when you focus.
he forces himself to pay attention. still, the moment feels easy.
you talk for a while about the project, comparing notes, trading small jokes. he feels himself relax into the rhythm of it, like it’s become a routine.
and then, without warning, you bring up toji.
you clear your throat first, eyes flicking down to your notes. “so, um... toji.”
he stills, one brow lifting, you were finally gonna talk about him since that awful run in last time. “hmm?”
“he’s… very…” you trail off, searching for the word. “loud.”
he snorts. “that’s one way to put it.”
“and, um, big. like, physically. and personality-wise. very… confident.”
he groans, dragging a hand down his face. “yeah. sorry about that. he’s… a lot. again, i didn’t mean to unleash him on you like that.” he was apologising again, so out of character for him but he couldn't help it. not with you.
“no, no,” you say quickly, shaking your head. “he’s just… different than i expected.”
“different how?”
you hesitate, chewing your lip. “i guess i thought he’d be more like you.”
the words hang between you for a second. his pulse stutters.
“like me, huh?” he says, teasing, leaning back in his chair, spread wide as he looks you up and down. “what’s that supposed to mean, hm?”
you go red instantly, trying to drag your eyes away from his man spread legs. “i just meant- you’re, um, thoughtful. more focused. not overbearing, you're nice...”
he grins. "nice, huh?"
you hide your mouth behind your hand and look off to the side. "nicer than toji, yeah."
he laughs, "that's not a very high bar to clear."
you giggled in response, letting him continue.
“so you like my type better?”
“that’s not what i said,” you mumble, covering your face with your hand again.
“didn’t have to.”
you peek at him through your fingers, and he has to bite back a laugh. your cheeks are so pink it hurts to look at you.
“you’re bullying me,” you say, your voice small.
“maybe.”
you shake your head, still smiling, and reach for your coffee. he watches the way you hold it, the delicate tilt of your wrist, the little sigh you make after a sip.
then, quieter, he asks, “so… you still interested in him? toji, i mean.”
you freeze.
“i.. uh.” your voice falters. “i guess so? i... i don’t know.”
“you don’t sound sure.”
“he’s just, not what i thought he’d be. i thought he’d be a little calmer.”
“he’s not really the type to surprise you in a good way,” sukuna says.
you smile faintly, eyes on your cup. “yeah. maybe not.”
the way you say it, soft, thoughtful, uncertain, it makes his chest ache.
you’re too sweet for this. too genuine. you deserve someone who actually listens, who doesn’t treat you like background noise. and for some reason, he hates that the person you’re hung up on is his best friend.
he sighs, rubbing his jaw.
you look up, curious. “what’s wrong?”
“nothing,” he says, forcing a smile. “just tired.”
you nod, and the two of you fall back into quiet work. it’s peaceful again, the only sounds the soft click of your keyboard and the scratching of his pen. time blurs.
when you finally close your laptop, stretching your arms, he realizes two hours have passed.
“we got a lot done,” you say, smiling.
“yeah,” he says, though he can’t remember a thing you just studied.
you start packing your things, tucking the empty pastry bag into your bag. before you can leave, you hesitate. then, shyly, you step closer and wrap one arm around him in a little side hug.
“thank you,” you murmur, voice barely above a whisper. “for breakfast. and for helping me.”
for a second, he forgets how to breathe.
you smell like coffee and sugar and something faintly floral. your hand rests briefly against his side, and he swears every nerve in his body lights up.
then you pull away, smiling up at him, oblivious to the chaos you’ve just caused.
“see you tomorrow?”
“yeah!” he says quickly, way too excited. “d-definitely.”
you wave and head out, the door swinging shut behind you.
he stands there for a full minute, still staring at the spot you’d been standing, until he realises his hands are clenched and his pulse is hammering.
he grabs his bag, mutters something under his breath, and heads outside.
the moment he’s in the open air again, he takes a deep breath, trying to steady himself.
the breeze does nothing to cool the heat crawling under his skin.
he walks fast, head down, eyes on the pavement.
every step feels heavy with restraint.
because all he can think about is how soft you felt, how small your hand was against him, how much he wanted to pull you in, bury his face in your neck, keep you there for hours.
he curses under his breath, tugging his hoodie lower, hoping it hides the problem growing in his jeans.
“get it together,” he mutters.
he tries to think about anything else the assignment, the game tomorrow, the half finished paper on his desk but his mind keeps circling back to you. your laugh. your blush. your hug.
by the time he reaches the frat, his heartbeat’s finally starting to slow, but the feeling stays. that dizzy mix of guilt and want.
he steps inside quietly, the house still a mess of hangovers, and slips upstairs to his room.
the first thing he does is sit on his bed, elbows on his knees, and let out a long, shaky exhale.
he’s in trouble.
he knows it.
because he can’t stop smiling.
~
the gym in the frat house isn’t much. it’s a dim room tucked behind the kitchen, with cracked mirrors and rusted weights, the air always heavy with the stale scent of sweat and cheap deodorant.
the guys call it a “home gym,” but it’s really just a collection of mismatched dumbbells, an old bench press, and a speaker that always buzzes when the bass hits too hard. its nothing like the fancy campus one him and toji visit, still, it works for sukuna.
he’s halfway through a set, sweat sliding down the back of his neck, when his thoughts start slipping away from the burn in his muscles and land right where they always seem to go lately.
he tries to ignore it, focusing on the motion, the rhythm, the push and pull of the bar in his hands.
but the harder he tries not to think about you, the more vivid you become. your voice, soft but steady, your shy little smiles whenever he cracks a joke, the way you always tuck your hair behind your ear when you’re trying not to blush.
it’s infuriating, how easily you creep into his head.
he exhales sharply, finishing the set with a grunt, letting the bar clang down harder than he means to. it rattles against the frame, echoing in the small room.
“fuck,” he mutters under his breath, sitting up and grabbing the towel draped over his shoulders.
he wipes his face, breathing hard, his reflection in the mirror smudged with fingerprints and dust. he looks exhausted, not just from the workout but from everything sitting in his head.
you and toji.
you and that stupid, innocent crush you’d confessed to him like it was nothing.
he leans forward, elbows on his knees, towel hanging loosely around his neck. he can’t keep fucking around pretending like this is going to work anymore.
he can’t sit through another study session with you knowing that toji knows you're into him.
toji doesn’t even remember half the girls he flirts with, so why should he get to occupy that sweet spot in your brain.
that thought alone makes his blood boil.
you’re too good for that. too damn good.
he picks up the dumbbell again, trying to lift through the frustration, but his mind keeps racing. toji’s face flashes in his mind—the obnoxiousness, his interest in you only after finding out what you looked like.
the memory makes his jaw clench.
toji doesn’t deserve to know you exist, let alone be someone you lose sleep over.
his grip tightens around the handle. he lifts again, but it feels pointless now, his muscles burning for a different reason entirely.
finally, he slams the weight down and stands up, chest heaving.
he’s done.
done thinking he can stomach this, done keeping that deal, done lying to himself.
without even thinking about it, he walks out of the gym, towel still slung over his shoulder. his feet move on instinct, carrying him through the hall, up the grand stairs, straight to toji’s room.
the door’s half-shut, light spilling from the gap, and he doesn’t bother knocking. he pushes it open, the wood hitting the wall with a dull thud.
toji’s sprawled across his bed, shirtless, scrolling through his phone. there’s a protein shake on the desk, a game controller tangled in the sheets. he looks up lazily when sukuna appears.
“yo,” he says, grinning. “you look pissed. what, satoru stealing your shirts n' shit again?”
sukuna doesn’t answer. he stands there for half a second, jaw tight, and then the words just fall out before he can stop them.
“y/n has a boyfriend,” he blurts. “so you can forget the whole crush on you thing.”
toji blinks, confused. “uhm?”
“what,” sukuna says, crossing his arms. “shes got a guy.”
toji sits up slightly, eyebrows furrowing. “who’s y/n again?”
the silence that follows is deafening.
sukuna stares at him, the vein in his temple twitching.
“are you actually deadass right now?”
toji shrugs. “bro, i talk to a lot of girls, you gotta be more specific.”
that’s it.
sukuna drags a hand down his face, muttering something that sounds halfway between a growl and a groan. he doesn’t even bother explaining. it’s not worth it.
“don't worry, man,” he snaps, spinning on his heel.
he slams the door behind him hard enough to rattle the frame.
by the time he gets back to his room, his chest is tight, the frustration boiling over into something heavier. he paces once, twice, then finally drops onto his bed, letting his head fall back against the wall.
“who’s y/n again?”
the words echo in his mind like a bad joke.
he can’t believe it. he can’t believe he ever thought this was a good idea, trying to set you up with that idiot.
it’s not even about the deal anymore. it’s about you.
because now he knows what it feels like to be around you, to hear you laugh, to see the way your eyes light up when he remembers the smallest things. he knows what it feels like to walk beside you through campus at night, the air cool and soft, your voice quiet but steady.
he likes you.
really, really likes you.
and it’s not just because you’re pretty, though god, you are. it’s because you’re kind. because you make him feel human again, in a way that nothing else ever does. because you talk to him like he’s worth something more than the reputation that follows him.
he doesn’t know when it happened, but it’s there now, and it’s not going away.
.
the weeks that follow move in a blur. the two of you keep meeting for study sessions, but they’ve shifted. so subtly that neither of you seems to notice.
you’re more relaxed now. you smile more, laugh easier. you’ve started showing up with little things for him too. chocolates, protein bars, a can of cold brew. every time, he teases you about it, but inside, he’s having a spaz out.
and every time he brings you something in return, you light up like he’s handed you the world.
you’ve started talking about more than the project. now, it’s everything. random things. favorite youtuber, weird scandals, childhood fuck ups, "yeah, i used to be one of those devious lick kids in middle school, me and gojo stole an entire sink".
sometimes, you talk so much you forget the assignment altogether, and he never stops you.
he lives for these moments.
sometimes, when you’re sitting side by side at the library, your knees brush under the table. it’s barely a touch, accidental every time, but it makes his pulse stutter.
you’ve started giving him hugs too, real ones. not just quick, polite ones, actual, full-bodied hugs that make him want to forget how to breathe. all he wants to do is bundle you up and take you back home, lock you away where no one could possibly taint that beautiful smile.
he pretends to be chill and nonchalant, but inside, he’s crashing out so hard.
one afternoon, it’s raining outside, and you show up in a damp tank top, hair slightly damp. he nearly forgets how to speak. you hand him a hot chocolate and giggle when he stares at it like he’s never seen one before.
“it’s not that weird,” you say, smiling. “i thought you might want something warm and sweet for this type of weather.”
he looks at you for a long moment trying not to stare at your see through chest, then takes the cup. “thanks,” he murmurs, and it sounds like something heavier than gratitude.
you shrug, shy but pleased, then sit down beside him, close enough that your shoulders almost touch.
when the session ends that day, he walks you home like he always does. it’s become a quiet habit between you. no one suggested it, but neither of you questions it either. you live just off campus, in a small apartment with ivy creeping up the walls, and every time you reach your door, you both hesitate.
he wants to ask if he can come inside, just once.
you always look like you might invite him, too.
but neither of you ever says it.
instead, you smile, soft and warm, and tell him goodnight. he always watches until you disappear inside, until the light flicks on and frank ocean starts softly pouring from the window.
and every time, he walks back to the frat with that same ache in his chest, the one that’s half longing and half fear.
he knows he’s in wayyy too deep.
but he can't stop.
you’ve started coming out of your shell in little bursts. you tease him now, gently. you call him out when he’s being lazy, roll your eyes when he tries to act too chill. and he eats it the fuck up. every second of it.
you’re different with him now. freer. you trust him.
and that makes everything both better and worse.
because every time you look at him with that open, honest expression, he has to remind himself of the lie he built this on, th e deal, the fake promise to get you closer to toji.
it barely comes up anymore. sometimes you mention toji in passing, usually as a joke, and you both laugh it off. it’s like neither of you really care about it anymore.
and maybe that’s the truth. maybe it stopped mattering the moment you started looking at him like that.
one evening, when the sun’s setting, you’re sitting across from him at the library, talking about nothing in particular. you’re smiling, head tilted, your voice soft. and he catches himself staring, not hearing a single word.
you stop mid way through your sentence, blinking. “what?”
he shakes his head quickly. “nothing.”
“you’re staring,” you say, cheeks pink.
“you’re imagining things, honey."
you laugh, hiding your face in your hands.
he smiles too, but there’s something behind it something he doesn’t let you see.
because in that moment, it hits him all over again, stronger than before.
he’s seriously can't do this shit any longer.
he doesn’t want to help you get to toji anymore.
he doesn’t want to stand by while you talk about someone else, even in passing.
he wants you. all of you.
the quiet smiles, the shy blushes, the little quirks he’s learned by heart.
he wants to be the one who gets to see every part of you, every version of that soft, sweet girl who’s been slowly unraveling in front of him.
and he knows, deep down, that if he ever let himself say it out loud, he’d never be able to take it back.
so he keeps it buried, just for now, as he walks you home again that night. the streetlights stretch long shadows across the pavement, and your arm brushes his once, twice, and each time, he swears of he doesn't concentrate he'll trip over his jordans.
when you reach your door, you turn to him with that same bright smile, the one that always knocks the air from his lungs.
“thanks again,” you say softly.
he nods. “anytime.”
you linger for a second, like you want to say something more, then wave goodnight and disappear inside.
he stands there for a long moment, staring at the door, listening to the faint hum of music from your apartment.
then, finally, he exhales, a small, helpless laugh slipping out.
he’s ruined. completely.
and for once in his life, he doesn’t even mind.
~
the classroom is thick with the sound of quiet chatter, chairs scraping against tile, pens clicking as people jot down reminders before leaving. the fluorescent lights flicker slightly, casting everything in a washed-out glow that makes it feel like time’s been stretched too thin. the chemistry teacher’s voice cuts through it all, cheerful but distant.
“alright, everyone, just a quick reminder that your paired assignment is due at the end of this week. make sure you’ve got everything finalized. i’ll be checking submissions on friday.”
the words hang in the air like a quiet ending bell.
you look up from your notes at the same time sukuna does, and for a moment, your eyes meet across the shared lab table. he’s already watching you, elbows resting on the counter, twirling his pen between his fingers.
he gives you this crooked half-smile, something between fond and nervous, and you return it, though yours falters just a little at the edges.
it hits both of you at once. this thing between you, this rhythm you’ve fallen into, the study sessions, the walks home, the quiet coffees before class? it’s been built around this assignment. and when the assignment ends, what happens then?
he taps his pen against his notebook, looking away first. “guess we’re almost done, huh?”
you try to sound light. “yeah… crazy how fast it went.”
but it doesn’t feel fast. it feels full. it feels like a lifetime compressed into a few short weeks, every minute threaded with something unspoken.
he hums in agreement, glancing at you again. “we should probably go over everything one more time. make sure it’s perfect.”
you nod, pretending to check the notes in front of you. “mhm, library after class?”
“yeah,” he says. “one last session.”
one last. the words make your stomach twist.
.
sukuna drops his bag on the chair across from you, stretching his arms as he sits down. his hair’s a little messy from the wind, and he smells faintly of the sexy cologne he always wears, something clean and manly that clings to his skin.
you open your laptop, trying to focus on the document in front of you. it’s almost done, just small edits, formatting, double-checking citations, but the words keep blurring. you can feel his presence across the table, solid and steady, and it’s impossible to think about chemistry when he’s right there.
he’s quieter than usual too. his knee bounces under the table, a restless rhythm, and every now and then you catch him glancing up, like he’s about to say something but decides against it.
the silence stretches between you, thick and loaded. you can’t stand it anymore.
“so…” you start, voice softer than you mean it to be.
he looks up instantly, like he’s been waiting for you to speak. “yeah?”
you open your mouth, close it again, glance at your hands. “never mind. it’s nothing.”
he frowns slightly. “come on. what is it?”
you shake your head, forcing a small smile. “seriously, it’s nothing. just focus.”
he watches you for a second longer, then sighs and leans back, crossing his arms. “fine. but you’re acting weird.”
you let out a soft laugh that sounds too nervous. “i could say the same about you.”
that gets a real smile out of him, crooked and teasing, but it fades quickly.
you both go quiet again, typing half heartedly, neither of you really working. the tension builds, unspoken and unbearable.
you can feel the words sitting on your tongue, begging to be let out. you want to tell him everything. how the crush on toji fizzled out weeks ago, how stupid it feels now, how you can’t stop thinking about him instead. how every time he looks at you, your whole chest feels like it’s about to give out.
you glance up. he’s staring at his screen, jaw tight, eyes unfocused. and somehow, you can tell he’s holding something back too.
finally, you both move at the same time.
“i have to tell you something,” you say, right as he says, “there’s something i should tell you.”
you both stop, eyes locking.
you laugh softly. “you first.”
he shakes his head. “nuh uh, you first.”
“no way,” you say, smiling now despite the nerves. “you looked like you were about to explode. go ahead.”
“ladies first,” he shoots back, that teasing lilt returning to his voice, though his eyes are still serious.
you roll your eyes, but your heart’s hammering. “fine,” you breathe.
he leans forward, forearms on the table, watching you carefully.
you swallow, your fingers twisting the edge of your sleeve. “okay. so, um… this is kind of embarrassing, but.."
you stop, take a breath, try again. “it's about toji.”
his expression flickers for a second, something unreadable crossing his face. “yeah,” he says slowly. “what about him?”
you toy with a pen to keep your hands busy. “i don’t really… feel that way anymore. about him.”
his brow lifts just slightly, his voice careful. “ts' that so?”
you nod, cheeks warm. “yeah. i mean, it was kind of silly, wasn’t it? i barely knew him. i think i just liked the idea of him. and then when you brought him to that one session, i realised he’s… kinda clapped, nothing like what i imagined.”
he lets out a small sound, something close to a laugh, but it’s quiet, almost nervous. “yeah, that sounds like him.”
you smile faintly, tracing a finger along the edge of your notebook. “the truth is, i think i was just projecting. when we started hanging out, i didn’t know you that well, and i guess i thought maybe toji was like you. you know? confident, funny, easy to talk to.” you pause, your gaze flicking up to his. “but he’s not you. not even remotely close.”
his breath catches slightly, and for a moment, he forgets how to speak.
“i don’t know,” you go on, voice softer now, almost trembling. “i kept thinking i wanted someone like toji, but… the whole time, i was really just wishing he’d be more like you, sukuna.”
you meet his eyes fully now, and the world seems to narrow around you both. “and then i realised maybe i don’t want someone like you. maybe i just, you know, want you.”
the silence that follows feels endless.
he’s staring at you, completely still. you can see the realization hit him. the tension in his shoulders easing, his expression softening in disbelief and relief all at once.
you bite your lip, instantly flustered. “that sounded so stupid, didn’t it?”
he shakes his head quickly. “no. no, not at all.”
he leans back in his chair, letting out a long, shaky exhale. it’s the biggest breath of relief you’ve ever seen someone take. he runs a hand through his hair, laughing under his breath, a sound that’s half disbelieving, half overwhelmed.
“holy shit,” he murmurs, still smiling. “you have no idea how good it is to hear that.”
you blink. “uhm, what?”
he laughs again, softer this time, his hand still pressed to the back of his neck. “that’s what i was gonna tell you. i’ve been losing my fucking mind these past few weeks because i’ve been trying so hard not to say it.”
you stare at him, your heart pounding. “say what?”
he meets your gaze again, eyes warm and honest. “that i like you. like, really like you. i’ve had this massive crush on you for a while now, and it’s been killing me trying to act normal.”
you can’t help the little laugh that escapes you, part disbelief, part giddy joy. “you’re deadass?”
he nods. “one hundred percent.”
“but… the deal,” you say quietly. “you were supposed to help me with toji.”
“yeah, about that,” he says, rubbing the back of his neck with a sheepish grin. “i kinda… just didn’t.”
you tilt your head. “uhhm, what?”
he laughs again, nervously this time. “i told him you had a boyfriend.”
your eyes widen. “you did?"
he winces. “yeah. i told him that weeks ago. i just... i couldn’t do it anymore. couldn’t keep pretending i was helping you get with him when all i wanted was to keep you all to myself.”
you blink once, twice, then cover your mouth to stifle a laugh. “you told him i had a boyfriend?”
“yep.” he grins now, a little cocky, a little embarrassed. “guess that’s me sabotaging the deal.”
you drop your hand, still smiling. “that’s so stupid.”
“i know.”
“but…” you pause, your smile turning softer. “it’s kind of sweet.”
he leans forward again, elbows on the table, eyes never leaving yours. “you’re not mad?”
“mad?” you repeat, shaking your head. “no. that’s… exactly what i wanted, actually.”
he blinks. “really?”
you nod, heart in your throat. “yeah. i didn’t want you helping me with toji. not anymore. i just didn’t know how to tell you.”
he stares at you for a long moment, the corner of his mouth twitching upward. “so what now?”
you smile. “i don’t know. maybe we just… stop pretending.”
he exhales, leaning back with a grin that could light up the whole room. “i can do that.”
for a moment, neither of you says anything. you just sit there, the quiet hum of the library around you, the sun slipping lower through the windows, painting his skin in gold.
finally, he breaks the silence, voice low. “for the record, i was terrified you were about to tell me you had a new man for real.”
you laugh softly. “no chance.”
“good,” he says, and the way he looks at you soft, sure, a little possessive, makes your pulse race.
you don’t know who moves first, but suddenly you’re both leaning across the table, closer than you’ve ever been. the distance between you shrinks until you can feel his breath on your lips, his hand brushing lightly against yours.
neither of you say anything. you don’t need to.
the moment stretches, slow and sweet, full of everything you’ve both been holding back.
~
the second you get back to your apartment, your face ignites with the kind of fire only a really nice fireplace could match, the ones in those fancy houses you see on the block.
the guy you'd been crushing on for a total of four weeks now had just told you he felt the same. and ever more, he'd been so obsessed he'd told your ex-crush you'd had a boyfriend in hopes of bagging you himself.
for a girl not used to being in the spotlight, having such a loud, well known frat guy like ryomen sukuna become vulnerable, just for you? it was like the world came crashing and burning down at your feet. he made your stomach swim with love and passion, a feeling you'd only ever gotten from receiving higher grades than everyone else, a feeling so much better than finding a new delicious pastry you couldn't help but order again.
ryomen sukuna was it. he was the kinda guy you'd been dreaming of ever since you'd started college. he was the perfect man, and he was as into you as you were him.
you settled into your living room with an adorably large smile painted on your lips, the sensation of fulfilment taking over your ever thought as you dreamt of what was to happen next.
~
the week after the submission crawls by. you think about both sukuna and the possible grade you'll both get every day. every time you pass the lab, every time you open your laptop, every time you catch sight of sukuna across the courtyard, leaning against the wall with his friends.
you can tell he’s thinking about it too. the way he catches your eye during class and offers a small, crooked smile says everything. neither of you can really stop wondering what the final mark will be, as well as what life has in store for the both of you.
friday finally rolls around, the classroom feels weird. students trickle in with tired faces and restless energy, everyone buzzing quietly with the same anticipation. the teacher walks in, holding a stack of papers in one hand and a steaming cup of coffee in the other.
she sets everything down at the front desk, claps her hands together, and gives a small, approving smile.
“alright, everyone,” she says, her tone almost teasing. “i’ve marked your projects. you’ll get the official grades through the online portal, but since i know you’re all impatient,” her gaze sweeps the room, landing briefly on you and sukuna, “i’ll let you know this much: some of you really impressed me.”
a ripple of chatter runs through the class. sukuna shoots you a look from across the room, eyebrows raised. you smile nervously and shrug.
after class, the two of you linger by the doorway, waiting for the crowd to clear out. you’re clutching your phone, refreshing the student portal again and again even though the grades still aren’t visible. sukuna leans close, peering at your screen.
“nothing yet?” he asks.
“no,” you sigh. “probably another hour.”
he tilts his head, thinking for a moment. “want to check it together later? at that little cafe with the green sign?”
you blink. “awe, my favourite. sure!”
“of course,” he says, smirking lightly. “how good am i remembering your favourite things n' shit.”
you laugh, cheeks warming. “what a man. how about we meet there at five?”
“five it is.” he gives a small wave as he heads down the hall. “see you then, partner.”
the cafe smells like roasted coffee beans and sugar, the air humming with quiet conversation and the clinking of ceramic cups. it’s early evening, and the place is wrapped in that warm, lazy glow that makes everything feel softer. the green sign outside flickers faintly through the window, the letters worn from years of weather and sunlight.
you spot him immediately sitting near the counter, wearing a black hoodie and tapping his thumb against his phone screen. his hair’s pulled back, a few loose strands falling into his eyes. he looks up the moment the door chimes, and that grin spreads across his face like it’s second nature.
“hey,” he says as you approach.
“hey,” you echo, sliding into the seat across from him.
he gestures toward the counter. “i already ordered for us. black coffee for me, that thing you like for you, and...” he grins, “...a pastry, because apparently you can’t sit in this place without one.”
you laugh softly, trying to ignore the way your heart flutters. “you know me too well, we needa' hang out less.”
“noo,” he teases, leaning back. “i'm just an observer.”
the drinks come quickly, steam curling from the cups. you take yours with both hands, staring at the little swirl of foam, trying to calm your nerves. sukuna pulls out his phone again, refreshes the student portal, and freezes.
his eyes widen. “holy shit,” he mutters.
you look up sharply. “what?”
he turns the screen toward you. there it is, your names side by side, and next to them, the number that makes your breath catch.
98%.
you stare at it for a second, then look at him, and the two of you just burst out laughing.
“oh my-” you say, grinning from ear to ear. “ninety-eight?”
he leans back in his chair, running a hand through his hair. “holy shit- holy shit! can’t believe it,” he says, half-laughing, half-sighing in disbelief. “i actually passed. i can stay in the frat. holy shit.”
you laugh again, the sound bubbling out of you uncontrollably. “i told you you’d do fine!”
he stands up suddenly, still laughing, and before you can react he pulls you into his arms. it’s a full, tight hug, so warm, so big. his chest rumbles with laughter, and you can feel how much this means to him, how much the stress and pressure have finally melted away.
“thank you,” he murmurs into your hair, his voice low, almost breathless. “thank you so much for helping me. i would’ve completely fucking tanked without you.”
you laugh against his shoulder, feeling your own face heat up. “you’re welcome,” you mumble, your words muffled by his hoodie. “you did so good, really.”
when he finally lets go, you can still feel the warmth lingering where he’d held you. he looks just as flustered, rubbing the back of his neck as he sits back down.
“sorry,” he says, half-smiling. “got a little carried away.”
“it’s fine,” you say quickly, trying not to sound as breathless as you feel. “it was… nice.”
his grin widens at that.
you both take a moment to calm down, sipping your drinks in the cozy corner. the sound of the coffee machine hums faintly in the background, and sunlight filters through the leaves outside, dappled across the table. it feels like the whole world’s slowed down just for the two of you.
“so,” he says eventually, voice softer now, “ninety-eight percent. that's so peak."
“yeah, we did that,” you reply, smiling. “you’ll probably get a compliment from the teacher next class.”
“you too,” he says. “you carried me, you're actually so clutch.”
“you helped too,” you insist. “you actually tried, sukuna. that’s what mattered.”
he chuckles, shaking his head. “yeah, but even if i hadn’t passed…” he pauses, his eyes flicking up to meet yours. “i don’t think i’d be too upset.”
you tilt your head, smiling faintly. “no?”
“nah.” he leans forward, resting his arms on the table. “because i got to spend all that time with you. and honestly? that made it worth it.”
your chest tightens, a flutter rising under your ribs. you look down quickly, pretending to focus on your coffee. “you’re just saying that.”
“i’m not,” he says firmly. “you made studying actually fun. no one’s ever done that shit before.”
you look up again, and his expression is so genuine, so open, that you forget how to breathe for a second.
“well,” you say softly, “i liked spending time with you too.”
your cups sit forgotten on the table, the croissant half-eaten, and all you can hear is the chatter of other uni kids and the soft clatter of dishes.
you stare into his eyes, and there’s a question there, unspoken but clear.
he smiles, almost shyly, a rare thing for him. “so… what now?”
you shrug lightly, but your smile mirrors his. “i don’t know. i guess we don’t have to stop hanging out just because the project’s done.”
his grin grows wider, and you can see the faintest pink dusting his ears. “good,” he says. “because i was kinda hoping you’d say that.”
he hesitates for a moment, then sits up a little straighter, as if gathering courage.
“actually,” he says, rubbing his thumb against the edge of his cup, “there’s something i wanted to ask.”
you tilt your head. “hmm? and what’s that?”
he exhales slowly, eyes locked on yours. “i know this is probably cheesy as hell, but… i’d really like to take you out. like, properly. dinner, movie, whatever you want. an actual date.”
the words sink in, soft and certain. you blink, surprised but instantly smiling, your cheeks growing hot.
“you mean… like, a date date?” you ask, teasing just a little.
he laughs under his breath. “yeah. a date date.”
you can’t help the grin that spreads across your face. “i’d love that.”
his expression softens into something that almost makes your heart ache. “yeah?”
“yeah.”
for a moment, you just sit there, both grinning like idiots. it feels unreal, like something out of a quiet, sunlit dream.
he leans back in his chair, relief washing over him in waves. “good,” he says. “i was worried you’d say no.”
you shake your head, still smiling. “never.”
the light outside shifts slowly, spilling gold through the window, painting his skin in soft warmth. he looks at you like he’s memorising the moment, the coffee, the laughter, the way you keep tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear.
and as he sits across from you, grinning like he can’t quite believe his luck, you know that whatever comes next, it’s going to be something worth waiting for.
~
months slide by, slow but lovely. what once was a study partnership built on awkward exchanges and quiet glances has become something sooo much more. somewhere between library stops, coffee stops, and tight hugs, it shifted. you shifted. sukuna shifted. the line between school and romance blurred until it disappeared completely.
now, you’re his. officially his. and he’s yours.
the first time sukuna brings you to the frat house as his girlfriend, it feels like stepping into a completely different world. the place is loud, music spilling from bluetooth speakers, guys shouting from the kitchen about who’s out of beer, the smell of cheap cologne and pizza hanging in the air.
you pause in the doorway, clutching sukuna’s hand like it’s an anchor. he glances down at you with that little smirk that never fails to make your heart stutter.
“don’t stress it baby,” he murmurs, leaning close enough that his breath grazes your ear. “they’ll love you.”
and they do.
weather or not that's because he threatened to beat them unconscious if they made you feel uncomfortable before you came over is irrelevant.
satoru’s the first to notice you, perched on the couch with a controller in hand. he looks up mid game, grins wide, and immediately calls out, “holy shit, sukuna actually brought a girl here voluntarily?”
“shut up,” sukuna grumbles, tightening his grip on your hand. “this one’s permanent.”
that earns a chorus of oohs and whistles from the guys nearby. your face burns, but when you glance up at sukuna, he’s smiling,not his usual cocky grin, but something softer. proud.
“hey,” you mumble under your breath, “it smells so bad in here, ryo.”
he chuckles quietly. “you’ll get used to it.”
before you can even respond, toji appears from the kitchen, a beer in hand and a knowing grin on his face. “well, if it isn’t the little chem genius.”
you blink. “you… remember me?”
“of course,” toji laughs, setting his drink down and stretching out a hand. “heard you saved this idiot’s academic career.”
“hey,” sukuna cuts in, rolling his eyes. “i wasn’t that bad.”
“you had an eight percent, bro.”
the whole room bursts into laughter. sukuna just grumbles and flips toji off while you try not to giggle too loudly. it’s strange, seeing them all like this. so loud, so chaotic, so different from the quiet rhythm you’re used to, but somehow, it feels okay. you feel okay.
by the end of the night, you’re sitting between sukuna’s legs on the couch, his arms draped loosely around your waist, your back against his chest. someone puts on an old movie in the background, and the chatter slowly fades into easy quiet. for the first time, the frat doesn’t feel intimidating. it feels warm. welcoming.
satoru catches your eye from across the room, giving a thumbs up before mouthing, she’s a keeper. sukuna just smirks.
later that night, when everyone else has gone to bed and the house has fallen quiet except for the hum of the fridge and the faint creak of floorboards, sukuna presses a kiss to the top of your head.
“told you they’d love you,” he whispers.
“yeah, you were right,” you murmur, smiling softly. “they’re so nice.”
“you’re even nicer,” he says, his voice barely audible. “that’s why they love ya'.”
and you can hear the truth in his tone. you know he means it.
after that, everything starts to fall into blissful routine. you help him study, drilling formulas and reactions into his head late into the night. he’s surprisingly good at it now, his grades climbing steadily, proof that maybe he was capable all along, he just needed someone to push him in the right direction.
and in return, he helps you come out of your shell.
he brings you to tiny cafes you’ve never been to before, teaches you how to play pool (terribly, but he doesn’t care), and pulls you into spontaneous late-night walks through campus when the air is cool and the stars are bright.
sometimes, you end up sitting on the hood of his car, his jacket wrapped around your shoulders, your fingers tangled with his as he talks about everything and nothing.
he tells you things he’s never told anyone else—about his parents, about the pressure to be someone bigger, stronger, louder. about how he never really cared about anything before he met you.
“you made me start giving a shit,” he says one night, his voice low as he traces lazy circles against your palm. “about school, about the future. about being a better guy.”
you glance up at him, smiling faintly. “you're the bestest guy, kuna.”
he looks at you for a long time, his chest squeezing with the urge to squish you until you pop. then, with a soft exhale, he leans down and kisses you. gentle, slow, like the world could end and he’d still be happy just holding you against his muscular chest.
word gets around campus fast. whispers follow you sometimes. half disbelief, half awe. people don’t really understand how you ended up with him. the shy, quiet girl who sits at the front of every lecture, always polite, always prepared… dating one of the loudest, most notorious frat boys on campus.
but the thing is, neither of you care.
you’ve seen the way people look at you two when you walk hand in hand across campus, his tall frame towering beside yours. you’ve heard the murmurs, 'how long do you think it’ll last, she’s too good for him, he’ll get bored'. but then he catches your hand, presses a kiss to your knuckles, and all of it melts away.
"don't listen to those clowns."
because you know him now. the real him.
the boy who wakes up early to get your favorite pastry from the cafe before class. the one who drapes his hoodie over your shoulders when it’s too crisp. the one who never forgets to text you goodnight, even when he’s exhausted.
the one who stopped showing up to most frat partys because, as he put it, “none of it’s fun without you anyway.”
you see it in the way he’s changed. not because you asked him to, but because he wants to.
he doesn’t flirt with girls anymore. he doesn’t even seem to notice when they do. his focus is all on you. your laughter, your voice, your little quirks that no one else ever bothered to notice.
and it’s not just the big things that show it. it’s the way he always walks on the side of the road closest to the cars. the way he remembers all your orders without ever asking. the way he’ll pull you closer when you’re out together, even if it’s just to rest his big hand on your hip.
he doesn’t talk about feelings much, not directly. but in every gesture, every glance, it’s there.
you’re his world now, and everyone can see it.
his room at the frat house has changed, too. gone are the stacks of solo cups and random gym gear scattered across the floor. in their place are little pieces of you. a throw blanket you brought one day, a mug you left on his desk, your notebook tucked on the shelf next to his textbooks.
he keeps a photo of the two of you pinned on his bulletin board. it’s a candid, one of those moments you didn’t even know he was taking. a shot of you sitting cross-legged on the couch, wearing his hoodie, laughing with a half-eaten cookie in your hand. he swears it’s his favorite picture in the world.
“you look so fucking cute, and happy,” he tells you when you catch him staring at it one night.
“i am happy,” you reply softly.
“better be,” he says. “that’s all i ever want for you, y/n.”
some nights, he stays over at your apartment instead of the frat. he always claims it’s because it’s quieter, easier to focus on studying. but you both know it’s just because he sleeps better when you’re beside him.
you cook together sometimes, though “cook” might be a really shitty out of touch excuse for the disaster you two create. he burns half the things he touches, laughs through every fuck up, and still insists on taste-testing everything like he’s on master chef. you can’t stay mad when he grins at you with flour on his cheek, his dimples showing as he holds up a misshapen cookie.
“hey, we’re improvin',” he says.
“barely,” you reply, giggling.
he just leans down, presses a quick kiss to your nose, and murmurs, “yeah, but you’re still here, so i must be doing somethin' right.”
there are still parties, of course, he’s still in the frat, and sometimes showing up is expected. but it’s much different. when he does go, he stays by your side the whole night, a protective hand on your back or wrapped around your waist.
he barely drinks anymore, claiming he doesn’t need to. when people flirt or make comments, he just laughs them off and pulls you a little closer.
and when it gets late, when the music’s too loud and the air too heavy with alcohol and perfume, he’ll lean down and whisper, “wanna get out of here?”
you always nod. and the two of you slip away, walking through quiet streets until you reach your place, where everything feels calm again.
people still whisper, still wonder how it works. how a shy, soft-spoken girl could tame someone like ryomen sukuna. but you know the truth.
you didn’t tame him, you just saw him. really saw him. beneath the tattoos, the reputation, the arrogance. you saw the boy who just needed someone to care, and he saw the girl who needed someone to make her feel brave.
and together, you found something that feels a lot like forever.
months pass, the seasons shifting from late autumn to the first chill of winter. the air turns crisp, the sky pale and bright. the two of you walk through campus hand in hand, your breath forming little clouds in the cold.
“remember when we first started that project?” you ask one day, laughing softly. “you barely knew what a periodic table was.”
“hey,” he says, pretending to be offended. “i knew what it was. i just didn’t give a shit.”
“hmm, and now you’re pulling straight a’s.”
he grins. “guess i had a real good tutor. she's real sexy, too..”
you bump his shoulder lightly. “awe i bet she'd be real flattered to hear that.”
he stops walking for a moment, looking down at you with that same warm, unguarded look that still makes your stomach flip.
“you know something?” he says quietly.
“hmm?”
“i still think that fuckass project was the best thing that's ever happened to lil' ol' me.”
you smile, reaching up to fix the collar of his jacket. “yeah?”
“hell yeah,” he murmurs, leaning down until his forehead rests against yours. “because it led me to you.”
the world fades for a moment, the cold, the noise, the people around you, and it’s just him. just you.
when he kisses you, it’s slow, steady, full of all the fuzzy romantic fire that’s been culminating between you since the day he walked up to your desk with a failed test and a hidden nervous smile.
you remember that moment so clearly now, and you can’t help but think how far you’ve both come. from shy glances and awkward silences to this. a love that feels like home.
and as his hand tightens around yours, you realize something simple, something certain.
you’ve both found exactly where you’re meant to be, with each other.
chemically bonded headcanons <— here!
soft sukuna is my fav icl
anyways tysm for 6k im gonna cry im gonna miss you all on your mouths 🥹💞
In the long run, it was kind of funny to think about. How you’d disappeared right after the whole killing Elgar’nan and saving the world business. One day you were Rook—the hero who had stepped into the impossible—and the next, you were just… gone.
And no one who knew what happened blamed you for it. Not after losing Varric, after Harding, after standing before the Inquisitor and telling them about Harding. Not after sitting down to write that letter to Hawke, trying to find the right words to break a heart already too familiar with grief.
You hadn’t had the right words then. You still didn’t now.
It was Davrin’s idea to take refuge in the wilds of Arlathan Forest—him, you, Assan, and twelve other griffins. He’d been worried. Assan had been clingy. The griffin hadn’t left your side for more than a heartbeat, like he thought you might vanish if he blinked. You’d waved it off at first, told Davrin he was overreacting. But maybe he and Assan both knew something you didn’t: that if you didn’t get away, you’d shatter into something small and unrecognizable and irreparable.
So to the world, Rook simply disappeared. No fanfare. No goodbye. Just… silence.
Very few Veil Jumpers were aware of the mountain cabin tucked into the folds of the forest, half-swallowed by the overgrown wilderness. It wasn’t far from Eldrin’s place, which turned out to be useful—especially since all thirteen griffins had collectively decided they were your honorary shadows. Whether it was Assan pressed against your side, or the others roosting on the roof or trailing you like massive feathered puppies, they wouldn’t let you be alone.
It was Heidas’ soft chirp that pulled you back to the present. You blinked, the world bleeding into focus—sunlight filtering through the trees, the gentle murmur of the river winding past, Heidas watching you with a curious tilt to her head. She glanced back toward the water, then back to you, as though reminding you to breathe.
“Maybe it’s a good thing they’ve decided to follow you around like lost puppies,” Davrin’s voice came from behind you with a familiar warmth, though tinged with something quieter.
You leaned your head back until it pressed against his legs, looking up at him. He was silhouetted against the canopy, arms crossed, but his eyes softened the longer they lingered on you.
“Hi,” you said quietly, the word slipping out like an apology.
Davrin sighed, kneeling down so he was closer. “You know, just disappearing like that… not the best idea you’ve ever had.” His tone was light, but you heard the worry underneath, the quiet ache that said, I couldn’t find you, and it scared me.
“The quiet got too loud,” you murmured. “Too many thoughts, too much death—”
You stopped, startled by the feathery nudge against your cheek. Assan had pressed his face against yours, letting out a soft rumble, his eyes bright with understanding. He knew. They all did.
Davrin watched you for a moment, then reached out to tuck a loose strand of hair behind your ear. “Even Assan bolted after you. The second we realized you were gone.”
“Sorry,” you winced, pulling your knees up to your chest. “That wasn’t the intention.”
Davrin’s gaze softened further, and he pressed a kiss to your forehead. It lingered as if it was his way of forgiving you. “I know,” he whispered, settling down beside you. Heidas chirped again, darting toward the riverbank, and Assan eagerly bounded after her, both griffins chirping and nudging each other in playful circles.
The two of you sat in silence, listening to the forest—the water, the soft rustle of leaves, the distant cries of the other griffins circling overhead.
“I’m glad you’re here,” Davrin finally said, so quiet you almost missed it.
You leaned into him, your side pressed against his, and let out a slow breath you hadn’t realized you were holding.
◈Sukuna who doesn't bother to even look at his concubines after he's done fucking them. He expects them to be gone immediately.
◈Sukuna who would love how they cower and tremble in fear and excitement, gaze turned down as they couldn't muster the courage to even look at him, reminding him of how powerful he is.
◈Sukuna who feels just the slightest of tingle in his heart when your pretty, innocent eyes meet his cold ones, and turn back down immediately, making him chuckle.
◈Sukuna who decides you're his favourite that day.
◈Sukuna who loves fucking you, watching you tremble in pleasure are he corrupts you, your innocent eyes looking at him so pleadingly, as if he is your god. Loves to see you covered in his marks, proudly claiming you.
◈Sukuna who hates it when his other concubines make noises. It's annoying, he thinks. But is greedy to hear your soft moans and noises that you make for him. Music to his ears.
◈Sukuna who fucks you till you're in tears, withering under him from pure pleasure, clinging onto his strong arms as you're stuffed full of him, making you squirt over and over on his cock till you can't anymore.
◈Sukuna who eats you out, spending hours between your plush thighs, licking, sucking on your puffy pussy, fucking you dumb with just his tongue, just to hear you moan out his name as he feasts.
◈Sukuna who raises an eyebrow when you gather your kimono and bow, signaling that you're leaving.
"Where do you think you're going?" He says gruffly and demands you to get back in his bed.
◈Sukuna who let's you sleep on his bed beside him, admiring how your lips part as a sweet slumber indulges you, who brushes bothersome strands of hair away from your face and doesn't understand why he does this.
◈Sukuna who let's you sit on his lap, your head resting against his broad chest as you trace the markings on his shoulder with gentleness unknown to him.
◈Sukuna who doesn't remember when he last saw the other concubines.
◈Sukuna who, even months later, doesn't find himself bored of you. Who swears his lips curl whenever he sees you smile. Who wants to see more of it instead.
◈Sukuna who swears he'll have the heads of the concubines who mocked you, bullied you out of envy, telling you that you'd be replaced one day. You never see them again after that day, but do see his the white of his kimono stained red.
◈Sukuna who brushes your tears away with his thumbs, holding you close to him. "My Queen," he says, watching your eyes widen at his words with a huge smirk.
◈Sukuna who captures your lips with his soon after. Who found his precious little Queen and intends keeps her safe at all costs.
Your vampire lover has vastly heightened senses, and can smell it on your skin when you’ve been touching yourself. On your next, moonlit meeting, your hand is gently raised to smiling lips, eyes flash red and your fingers are caressed by a seeking tongue.
“Did you at least think of me?”
“Always,” you answer, breathless; kindling again.
“Always…”
The eternity of the word echoes in those red eyes before the sharp prick of teeth, and the tunnelling of the world down to a pinpoint.
Dustin denotes his plan as a stroke of genius. Steve calls it fucking crazy.
It is crazy — going down to the police station and giving a completely faux alibi for Eddie is crazy.
But then, Steve recalls the handcuffs on the hospital bed, keeping him strapped in even though Eddie’s hardly in a state for escape, all bandages and wires. Steve remembers the fitful sleeps he’s witnessed when visiting, remembers Eddie’s ashamed whisper of fear that one of the officers would smother him in his sleep if no one stayed with him.
Steve remembers the bats. Remembers all the other shit Eddie got dragged through.
And if Steve can lessen that blow… well, then maybe he is crazy for going through with the plan.
There’s no prepping Eddie for it, of course, considering he’s being guarded around the clock. Steve thinks it’s ridiculous considering how feeble he feels just looking at Eddie. When he— when they had gotten him out, there was a moment where he was more blood than boy. Just jagged skin held together by Steve’s hands and sheer will.
He shivers involuntarily. This is crazy, Steve thinks, shifting a bit in the chair out the front of Eddie’s room, waiting for the discussion across the hall to meet its end. It’s crazy, but he’s already done it now.
Sharp footsteps sound across the hallway and Steve’s head yanks up. His heart beats too fast and he presses his palms down into his jeans to wipe them, standing up quickly.
“So?” He asks, eyes darting between Chief Powell and Deputy Callahan.
“That’s quite the alibi you’ve provided, Mr Harrington.” There’s a cool expression on Chief Powell’s face, giving away nothing. “One that not many would be so willing to give.”
Steve swallows. Presses down the panic tied to the implications of what he’s told them— him and Eddie. Him and Eddie together.
“We’d like to question Mr Munson a little as well, get everything settled. You know,” He makes a little gesture with his hand. “Make sure your stories line up.”
A new strain of panic jolts in Steve’s stomach and he hopes it doesn’t show on his face. Glancing over his shoulder, he peers between the blinds and tries to find Eddie’s face. He can only see the hospital bed, stark white sheets and hundreds of tubes. Steve tries to remember that he anticipated this, he prepared for this.
“Now?” He asks, turning back to face the officers. He tries to appear like his uneasiness comes from concern, instead of panic. “He’s just had another dose of morphine, I’m not sure how up to questions he’ll be.”
Chief Powell narrows his eyes. Steve silently begs him to take the bait — he doesn’t want to defer the questioning, he just needs a little more wiggle room in case Eddie is slow on the uptake. He’s a performer though. Steve hopes that’ll be enough to convince them.
“Now is best.”
Steve nods, his face grave. “I understand. Just… if he’s a bit slow, give him time to find his answers. He doesn’t know that I’ve… told you.”
Steve’s hand presses down on the handle to the room and the door opens with a hiss. He enters the room, his eyes landing on the officer posted by the door first before they travel onto the bed, to Eddie.
The chair beside the bed is empty for now which means Wayne must be off getting some food. Good, Steve thinks. This will be easiest with a smaller audience to convince.
Eddie’s eyes are closed, resting as best he can, but at the new noise they peek open. The ripple of happy emotion will help their case immensely but Steve delights in the fact that that reaction is genuine. Eddie is happy to see him.
“Big boy!” He rasps as a greeting. He waves one hand up, wires sticking out of it and the handcuff on it clinks uncomfortably, and he begins a spiel. “Welcome back to my humble—”
He cuts himself off when he sees there are other visitors today besides Steve. The heart monitor jumps and Eddie’s hand drops, eyes back onto Steve in an instant.
“What’s going on?”
Steve strides to his side, his hand reaching out to curl his fingers around Eddie’s limp hand. His skin is cool to touch, fingers icy. Surprise jumps onto Eddie’s face but his fingers tighten their grip, holding his hand too. Steve sits down in the seat beside the bed and lets the real nerves of the situation make his voice tremble when he speaks.
“I— I had to tell them, Eddie. About your real alibi.”
To his credit, Eddie only lets confusion wash over his face for a moment before it turns to some mixture of anger and sadness. A furrow forms between his brows, his grip on Steve’s hand tightening, and Steve doesn’t think he’s acting at all when he says, “You didn’t.”
Huh. Maybe he’s figured it out after all, Steve thinks.
Steve nods solemnly, letting his thumb wander over the back of Eddie’s hand. He remembers what it’s like to dote on girls, on Nancy, and find it’s not nearly as hard to bring it all out for Eddie either.
“I had to,” He murmurs, reaching a hand out to brush back some of Eddie’s hair. The heart monitor spikes again and Eddie’s cheeks glow pink.
Behind them, Chief Powell clears his throat and Steve jumps, remembering himself and what he’s trying to accomplish here.
“Excuse us, Mr. Munson, we have a few questions for you.”
There’s a moment where they let their words register and Eddie takes a deep breath, squeezing Steve’s hand and giving a little nod. Chief Powell continues.
“Mr. Harrington here has come forward with a statement that would place you elsewhere than the scene of the crime at the time of Miss Cunningham’s murder. Can you recall where you were that night?”
The mention of Chrissy’s name makes Eddie flinch and Steve’s glad he’s already holding his hand so he can squeeze it gently. Eddie’s gaze drops to their intertwined hands and stares hard for a moment. Shuffling puzzle pieces into place.
Steve leans down, presses a soft kiss to his bruised knuckles, and says “Tell them the truth.”
Eddie inhales sharply, steeling his nerves and turns his attention back to the officers. “I was with Steve. We were… we were at his house.”
Chief Powell nods, scratching words down in his notepad. He hums in a way that tells Eddie to keep going.
“We were…” Eddie trails off and looks to Steve, trying to follow the story already planted. Steve nods, hoping it comes off like he’s trying to be comforting boyfriend, instead of a subtle nudge.
“…Kissing.”
Steve resists the urge to snort at the absurdity of the whole situation. This whole thing is so convoluted and it’s twisted that Eddie’s even been accused but Steve’s putting his fuckin’ reputation on the line and Eddie says they’ve been kissing?
He doesn’t even need to turn around to know some eyebrows have raised behind him.
“Kissing?” Steve hears Chief Powell repeat. “Just… kissing?”
Eddie’s attention snaps forward again and Steve can see him piece together the snappy persona, the Freak, the scary dog privileges that come with being an outsider. He straightens up a bit, shoulders squaring but Steve can feel the quake in his hand.
“I’m sorry, did you want a play by play of the whole act, Chief Powell? I can go into detail if you want, who took who’s pants off first, yanno, but I didn’t peg you for that kinda guy.”
Steve can’t miss this reaction, turning his head to watch both officers shuffle uncomfortably on the spot. Chief Powell tries to keep his power, eyes narrowing, but it’s hard to maintain when Steve dots another quick kiss across Eddie’s knuckle.
“Very well.” He seems to land on. “We’ll be back to collect a formal statement later—”
Eddie gives a faint squeak, his hand grasping Steves that much tighter.
“—but I’m happy to have the guard and cuffs removed from your room for now.”
A sigh so large escapes Eddie that his chest deflates a good couple inches and Steve feels his own shoulders relax a bit. Chief Powell steps forward, key retrieved from his belt and Steve winces seeing the ring of irritated skin around Eddie’s wrist. No doubt caused from the thrashing of night terrors.
He releases Eddie’s hand long enough for it to be freed, scooping it back up in his as soon as he can, properly this time. All fingers intertwined, palm to palm. Eddie eyes their hands again and Steve pretends to not hear the jump in the heart monitor.
The officers leave, including the one holding post, the door sliding shut with a gentle click and Steve holds himself still— unsure of how to start explaining what he had sprung on Eddie. He feels bad, dropping him in the deep end, even if it was for his own good.
“Eddie—” He starts.
“Hug me.” Eddie hisses out the corner of his mouth. When Steve doesn’t react, he says it again, fiercer - it doesn’t match the way he’s smiling so sweetly at Steve. “Hug. Me.”
Steve does as he’s told, shooting up onto his feet and hesitating only for a moment before Eddie’s arms are creeping around his waist — he leans over and tries to keep his weight off him. Eddie’s frazzled curls tickle at his cheek and Steve just burrows his face in further.
There’s a faint whisper into his ear. “They were watching still.”
Steve pulls back a bit, not to check over his shoulder, but to see Eddie’s face. He’s serious, eyes skirting the window behind them but the moment Steve pulls back, his eyes shift down and he softens.
“And now… kiss me too?” He says. His tone conveys that he knows he’s being far too cheeky. Steve’s wonders if the officers are still watching. Wonders if he’d still kiss him even if they weren’t. He casts a glance over his shoulder and is met with a empty window, the officers retreating down the hall.
He turns back to Eddie with an incredulous expression. “What? Getting you off murder charges not good enough for you?”
Eddie’s face shutters for a moment, as though every emotion to do with Steve’s sacrifice floods him at once. There’s a burst of gratitude when he doesn’t mention it — doesn’t mention everything Steve might be giving up for Eddie, everything that might crumble should the details of the case become public.
He chooses the joke again. Eddie always does.
“Yes, but remember, we’re madly in love,” Eddie sings, brows wiggling about on his face and making Steve snort. “So feel free to kiss me anytime you feel like it.”
Steve snorts. “Duly noted, Munson.”
Eddie throws his head back softly against his pillow and pretends to wail in pain. “Munson? That’s all I am to you? That’s how you treat your boyfriend?”
Steve can’t help but grin a little at the theatrics and finds himself thinking that of all the people to be stuck pretending he’s dating, at least with Eddie, it’ll be enjoyable. Well, at least interesting. It will certainly be an experience.
“You have no idea how I treat my boyfriends, baby.” Steve says, voice low, just to see if he can get Eddie’s heart monitor to jump again. It does, a steady beeping as the BPM climbs up a few numbers.
Steve can feel the blush on Eddie’s cheeks, he’s so close, and it’s so nice to see colour on his face — such a stark comparison to the paleness of- well, of older memories.
Steve grins. Despite every nerve that feels singed beneath his skin, overworked from all his anxiety — despite considering every potential backlash that faces both them outside this room, outside the hospital, Steve searches within himself.
