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I hate that parts of me are jealous of my friends/ family that are travelling abroad right now because I’ve done it lots but I think it’s because they are all single and have the option to move to those places if they so chose to. I feel like I really missed out on a part of my life not moving abroad and I’m only 28 and would still love to do so but I’m in a relationship … which don’t get me wrong I’m very happy in and am so in love but he wants kids soon as he’s older and I’m in no way ready for kids anytime soon. He lived in Thailand for 2 years in his 20’s and I feel like I just hold so much regret not doing that while I had the chance. Having kids will mean I will never get the opportunity to do so if I by chances wanted to. But I do also love travelling and being able to do just that, but I want to be gone for months and now I have a career with only 3 weeks vacation time so I can’t do that… this whole growing up thing is really fucking with me lately.

movedtofailhag2

you need to be earnest. you need to tell people that you love them. you need to speak on how you’re feeling honestly. you need to be sentimental. you need to stop letting the fear of other people laughing at you have so much control over how you express yourself. you need to get over yourself. you need to be embarrassing but true.

fucklife101

I’m no one’s favourite. I’m the back up. The one they go to when they have no other options. I sit and walk behind them and pretend that I am cared about but I’m not. And that really hurts.