honeysuckle daydreams

this used to be my teenaged b/w depression blog, I'm still depressed but now I'm a mom and I'm on meds, so that's cool. emo to witchy librarian pipeline, y'all!

[fwizard]

all i need is a sweet treat. and six thousand dollars

[mtfoss]

I do suffer the american condition of liking to drink huge drinks

[luxwing]

Lemme get a little sippy

[bisexualadamparrish]

saw this post & blacked out for 30 minutes & came back to awareness having had created this. the creative urge overtook me.

[fibro-memes]

[sam-is-always-tired]

"FUCK EVERYTHING HURTS" I scream, remembering I have the Everything Hurts Disorder

[themysticmango23]

Chronic illness is so isolating because I am curled under a pile of blankets trying to sleep while my body kills me and my family is laughing in the living room and I can hear it through the walls but I cannot reach them

[fibro-memes]

[depressedcryptographer]

“Just sleep more when you’re tired!” If I slept every time I was tired you’d think I was in a coma.

[faithlesslovee]

not to be greedy but I'd really like to not be in pain all the time

[cowsabungus]

Chronic pain

ID in Alt

[ferns-musings]

It’s frustrating when your body can’t handle the amount of activity you want or need to do- and I’m not talking about exercise, I’m talking about activities as in the things you do everyday: showering, hobbies, work school, chores, hanging out with friends, watching tv, etc. Now just imagine not being able to do all of those things, even if you absolutely need to, imagine having to pick and choose every single day what you can do, and what is worth pushing past your symptoms for. Will I shower or do the dishes today? Cook dinner or do a hobby I haven’t been able to get to in a week? Rest or ignore the symptoms knowing I will feel worse later if I do so? It may seem like a silly, inconvenient, even stupid way of doing things to you, but to me this is my everyday life, if I do not make these wagers I will suffer for it, and oftentimes I will still suffer for it despite these sacrifices and my best efforts.

[bipolarmango]

People: the normal amount of pain is zero

Me, chronically ill: sounds sketchy but okay

[nonbeans]

The mind numbing anger of chronic fatigue is getting irritable because you're so fucking tired but you really feel like you SHOULDNT BE.

You SHOULD be able to sit at a desk and do work. You SHOULD be able to just watch a freaking YouTube video. You SHOULD be able to just eat fucking lunch.

But you can't. Because your eyes are closing and it's like temporary death is taking you.

[suprsaturatd]

Don’t hold your breath.

[lupusbaby]

Being chronically ill is like

“It’s fine”

“It’s fine”

“It’s fine”

*complete mental breakdown because you can’t do this anymore*

“It’s fine”

[lupusbaby]

Hey, if you’re not as mentally quick as you used to be because of your illness- that’s okay. If you’re can’t think as fast or handle as many tasks that’s okay. You aren’t stupid, you aren’t unintelligent, and you aren’t less worthy of love or respect. It’s okay that your brain won’t or can’t go back to how it used to be. It’s different now, but it’s okay.

[stars-and-branches]

Chronic pain pisses me off cause I'm not even incapacitated for like a cool or badass reason instead my body is throwing the world's biggest temper tantrum because it's raining outside

[asexual-amanita]

Yes, some disabilities are dynamic, and most of us in the disability community know this. However many people aren’t aware of just how dynamic some conditions can be.

A person can go from no symptoms at all to being profoundly debilitated all in one day.

Some have baseline symptoms so low and flares so high, that things can go from 1 to 10 very quickly.

I know it can seem impossible that some people’s disabilities fluctuate with such extreme variability, but this is a real phenomenon that people deal with.