Nadja

digital diary of a seventeen year old girl :p

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It’s been so long since I last dyed my hair. Nine months to be exact. I love how it turned out. The actual colour is a lot brighter and way more teal than the camera is picking up.

I also cut my hair shorter since my hair was getting way too heavy and it’s so damn warm outside. My bangs may be a bit too heavy (especially in these photos) but I there’s not much I can do about it. Maybe I’ll cut them a bit shorter??? I miss my short bangs.

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Finally got my Greengreen album yesterday! @vaninipaninie my goat went and picked it up for me and then came to my school so that we could open them together. I got the version she wanted and she got the one I wanted, but we didn’t switch because we’re happy with what we got.

I love that I pulled two martins and two Keonhos. I wish I had all three with weverse benefits but I’m poor 🫩

I think Keonho and I are destined to be. I pulled him for my cotl album and pulled him for this one as well. 🙏🤤

My dice arrived on the 18th but I sadly don’t have any photos of it and I won’t be home for the next few days 🫠 but I pulled James for the dice scratch photocard!

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I'm sorry but I relate to this video so hard

As someone who has chosen an art degree and sometimes wish I had chosen a "smarter" degree, this video hit some string in my heart.

Truly I have always been fascinated by STEM and anything that pertains to it, but due to me always having been horrible at math, I've never even dared imagining myself in the position of studying any such major.

I ended up choosing a photography major which falls under specialized fine arts, and don't get me wrong, I absolutely love it. But sometimes I wonder how it would've been to pick something more science focused.

This video made me feel really seen. As someone who is currently finishing up her first year of high school (I know I'm young and I have a whole life ahead of me, just let me rant) and won't be taking anymore math or science classes. I just realized that once my semester is over, I will no longer have to study these subjects, which has somehow left me sad? I never thought that the day would come where I wouldn't be hating on math, but I guess it has come.

It may just be the fact that I am no longer OBLIGATED to do math that has suddenly given me more space to study it at my own pace and not have to rush through concepts before even fully grasping them.

(This is just a small rant about something that has been on my mind lately. I'm sorry if it's hard to understand)

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Stole this off of someone on Twitter :p but yeah this is so me.

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Since I still have about two weeks until my GREENGREEN albums arrive, here are some of my more recent pulls!

@vaninipaninie bought The sin: Vanish for my birthday. She also got herself one and got the same exact pulls so we’re twinning!

My first ever Cortis album and I pulled Keonho. Who has actually been bias wrecking me for a while now :p

Last week before going to the movies with @vaninipaninie and I bought these at my local music store. Shout out to Vanessa for guessing I’d pull Heeseung and Jungwon from my Romance: Untold album. I wish we had gotten it on film, it would’ve been amazing 🥲

Once I found out that the Cortis ball finally came back in stock at my local store I had to get my hands on it before it sold out. I’ve had the Juhoon pc in my phone case since I bought the album. I just think his card looks so good with my phone!

I’m currently waiting on the dice version and a random standard album with Weverse benefits to arrive. Unfortunately they’re getting released on the 18th at my local store :(. Seeing everyone already have theirs makes me so impatient haha.

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Some random photos from today. It’s finally getting so warm out. I was in a hoodie and it was too warm haha!

I found a random fuggler but left it there even though I was tempted 😓 the melona icecream was so damn good. It was my first time trying it and it might be a new favourite. It’s so expensive though ☹️

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No one tells you how discouraging being in a class full of people who are good at art is, and what's even worse is that it doesn't even motivate me to get better. I'm such a loser.

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AGHHHH

I am so sick of my little brother. Literally whenever I fucking walk by him he's immediately commenting on my weight. All the damn time. I am so sick of it. I know I am fat. I do not need to be reminded every damn day about it. Seeing myself in the mirror is more than enough of a reminder. I think about it all the damn time. I do not need others commenting on my weight or body, and my brother calling me "fatty" whenever he sees me definitely does not help. The worst part is that this behaviour is staring to rub off on my other brother and he's started calling me fat. I am going to fucking lose it.

I was about to apologize for this post but then I remembered that this is my account. If any irls are seeing this, I don't really care. If you have this account it means I trust you cuz I am going to post whatever I want on this account be it embarrassing, weird, or whatever. If me ranting about my weight makes you uncomfortable just block me idk.

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Eid Mubarak!

This morning is such a loving and warm one. My whole family woke up around the same time and we all exchanged greetings. The sun is peaking through the blinds and I have a cup of coffee (I missed my morning coffee hahaha). I can hear my parents sitting in the kitchen calling family members since we unfortunately don’t live near any of them, but thankfully we’re still in contact. Downsides of moving abroad:(.

Whoever may be reading this I wish you an amazing Eid and if you don’t celebrate, I wish you an amazing day<3

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Would playing Pokémon go be good for losing weight 🤔 cuz you’re forced to walk around to go visit different gyms and collect Pokémons. So I guess it should be good???

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Do we fw the new discord pfp? (ofc we do)

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I have discovered the wonders of Twitter

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Teehee. Got a new phone so now I’m messing around w the camera. I haven’t been active or posted anything on here in a while… woopsie. Anyway, update I guess? I’m currently obsessed with Lngshot and gotten back into my kpop obsession hahah. Ermmm… that’s it. I dunno?

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My guilty pleasure is this song or like any song from the movie. Maybe it's the kpop fan in me but these songs are absolute fire but I feel a bit embarrassed admitting the fact that I like them 🥲

04/02-25

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Snowy season

I've always said that I've hated snow.

I'm not sure if I can say that this year though. It doesn't snow very much in Sweden, not until late January/early February usually. This winter, the snow started on new years day. Which was actually sort of beautiful. Everything was covered in white, almost like a clean slate. New year, new opportunities? Everything was so white and beautiful.

Usually I'm the first person to complain about the snow. How cold it is, how it's going to turn into sludge, or that when it melts away it'll turn into ice and everything will be slippery. But last week I had woken up at around 6 am, and just watched the snowfall. The snow was probably over a meter tall and it just kept growing every time I looked out the window. I just wanted to go out and jump into the untouched snow. I unfortunately could not since it was far too early in the morning, and I don't have any snow clothes.

The snow has been melting away these past few days. There has been quite a bit of rain recently. The snow is slowly melting away, and paths are clearing up. Rain after snow sucks. It always leaves behind these huge patches of ice everywhere, and due to my immaculate balancing skills, I am always on the brink of cracking my skull open. Although, the warmer weather is quite nice.

Even now, sitting here watching the rain drip down and melt away the snow, I can't say I hated the snow. Not this year.

16/01-25

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Omg old photos from like 22 may I think????

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Damn my hair looked good

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Chud behaviour

I'm so mad at myself over the fact that I haven't journaled in months. I told myself I'd do it when it felt right instead of writing everyday, and that might've been a horrible decision. I have not sat down to write in my diary since a week before New years or so. It's always on my mind, but I just can't force myself to get up and do it. Same thing goes for reading a book or posting on Tumblr.

It's all things I want to do but since I'm lazy and oftentimes get motivated during the night where I can't do what I want to do, I just leave it "for tomorrow", but tomorrow comes and the cycle repeats. It's all because of my stupid fucking phone and this damn laptop. Of course it's my fault too. I don't force myself to get up and actually do anything with my boring life. I'd probably rot away in my room if I didn't go to school.

I've been trying to be more consistent with practicing bass everyday. I've been doing okay, but I could do better. There is a math exam next week on Wednesday and I should've studied today, but didn't. I can't fail this. I failed the last one and that sucked. How the hell do I force myself to just get up and do something. Read, study, write, practice, literally anything besides lay in bed and watch Youtube or The Office?

It is so hard to be productive. It takes a toll on me and is so tiring, but so rewarding. Why am I such a fat fucking chud 🫩

16/01-25