linia !

sweet cute lovely hamster girl dms OK be my friend 🐹

[liniahamster]

[nightmarereverie]

“Café de hum 3” by Epoch

[liniahamster]

everyday i lose a reason to keep living

[liniahamster]

Hi

[liniahamster]

i wish i could give her the world and more. she deserves everything good in life, she's the sweetest person i've ever met

i wish id die for making things so difficult, i know i'm a big part of her life too yet all i do is cause issues. i just want to be normal enough to make her happy. i hate the way i am

[liniahamster]

i distanced myself from her for a whole week

i felt a lot better, not because her presence is bad or anything but. i guess me not being there to ruin things further gave my brain a bit of a break

[liniahamster]

hows it possible for me to be too much yet not enough for you

[liniahamster]

it feels like my life was over before it even began

[liniahamster]

i just can't manage to think of anything at all

[liniahamster]

i'm stupid because of this void i've felt in my brain ever since i was 9 years old

[liniahamster]

i've never had a lowest point in my life. my life has been the lowest it's always been

[liniahamster]

im failing every single class what do i DOOOO

[liniahamster]

Go to therapy

i prefer to wallow in self pity

[liniahamster]

its not like i don't want to tell you what's wrong. it's all just wrong. how do i explain to you that everything is always wrong

[liniahamster]

"things would be better if i was alone" -> i can get worse if i'm alone

[paper-wounds]

[liniahamster]

i really do love and care for her but these stupid disgusting feelings of mine would never do any good. i don't Want to make her sad but what can i do besides leave ?? its not like i want to leave her. she's really the best person ever but ive just ruined absolutely everything. i hope i die in my sleep so i don't have to feel guilty for this