Head Elf

Constantly losing focus. I'm a scattered mind, writing these drifting thoughts.

[listlesslylistening]

She’ll tell you she has demons to kill, but she can’t remember which one is the demon anymore.

Drags of smoke and shots of liquor

[listlesslylistening]

I’m drunk and still in love with you. All I can think about are songs I should’ve written for you. But I was scared and sober, so the words never left my mind, where they’ll be trapped for as long as I love—I mean live.

[listlesslylistening]

I ache for them.

In the worst possible way,

a mind-numbing fantasy of what could’ve been’s,

if I had only told them.

[The truth about my feelings]

[juansendizon]

“Friends are very similar to gardeners. The genuine ones are the ones who are always waiting to watch you bloom.”

— Juansen Dizon

[listlesslylistening]

Poems are just dramatic rap

My little brother

[unsends-deactivated20170829]

im permanently emotionally damaged but it’s chill, I’m chill

[listlesslylistening]

I see glimpses of you in everyone I talk to.

The way you would bring up the corner of your mouth and shrug.

How you would smirk when you knew I couldn’t fault you for anything.

The way your eyes would dance when you talked.

People are ruined, blessed, because when I see them. I see you. In everything.

Everything but your damn smile. That was undoubtedly yours, I’m sure you’ve forgotten, but it was mine once.

I want to see it one more time.

[freakphone]

when will the clown sightings happen again that was fun

[moleshow]

look in the mirror and they can start today

[freakphone]

[listlesslylistening]

I feel like I’m stuck

Stuck in time

Stuck in place

Just wandering around, looking for something to believe in. To latch onto.

[wnq-writers]

“1. When you’re in high school, worried and anxious, know that everyone feels the same. Everyone is waiting to be judged by invisible people. 2. You’re enough. 3. There are days where your mirror and camera will lie to you. Try not to listen to them. You’re freaking beautiful. 4. Nobody can make you feel bad, worthless, ashamed. You give them that power. 5. College won’t be anything like high school. You’ll fail tests you actually studied for. You’ll want nothing more than to drop out. Don’t drop out. 6. Heartbreak and loss. It’s going to happen. It’ll feel like you’ve been blindsided, like you’ve lost your reason. You’ll survive. You’ll be roughed up, but you’ll survive. 7. Talk to your family. They don’t always deserve your time, but you’ll regret the times they did and you let it pass. 8. Stop being so damn stubborn. That pride is going to ruin us. 9. Step out of your comfort zone. You’re only there because you feel safe. Be free, be happy, not just safe. You’re afraid of falling, but the fall is the best part. 10. Everything will be okay. You’ll be okay. There’s going to be a time where the pits in your stomach will unknot, where the weights on your chest will be lifted. You won’t want to stay in your room. You won’t be afraid. You just have to make it there.”

— listlesslylistening  | Submit your writing(s)  @wnq-writers​

[bepeu-deactivated20171202]

i just need a hug(e amount of money)

[listlesslylistening]

I’m at a loss.

A loss for words.

A loss of love, a loss of time.

I’m at a loss, wondering, if you were ever really mine.

- K.H.

[r0sebuddy]

[listlesslylistening]

I’m drowning in you, drinking you in. You’re whiskey and vodka. Burning my throat and leaving nothing but an unpleasant aftertaste. But you make me numb, and if you’re the sin, I’m the sinner.

I’ll pray tomorrow.

- K.H.

[listlesslylistening]

Do you know that moment? The one where you’re just really happy you’re alive.

It’s almost always small and fleeting, but in that infinite second—you’re drowning in bliss.

Thats what she tasted like.

[listlesslylistening]

You are like a book that never ends. I crave to know more about you. At times I can barely stop myself from opening you up and getting lost between your folds and pages.

— K.H.

[listlesslylistening]

There’s a moment when you cannot speak. Because if you dare to open your mouth, only choked sobs and tears would escape.

There’s a moment where everything burns. It stings. It weighs so heavily, that you are drowning—in the words you’ve left unsaid and the tears that have gone unshed.

Moments where you hold it all in and wait. Because you’re too stubborn to let them see you cry. So you wait and you wait, until they all leave. Because they all leave.

There are moments when you are truly alone. These are the moments you cry.