me dealing with life

i like coffee and plants ツ

[literallyjustm3]

i just wanna have a coffee shop where the sun hits perfectly so at golden hour you can see the steam coming off of the cup. and plants that light up the cozy room with shades of emerald green. that is literally all i want. ッ

[literallyjustm3]

I would like to replay something,

the moment of feeling connected to you

where our emotions and feelings

took us out of the blue

a beautiful happening

in an instant our hearts were two

you’re my love

that’s all that i find true

being so unapologetically

in love with you

-literallyjustm3

[literallyjustm3]

what i imagine married life to be: part 2

It’s 9 p.m. on a Tuesday night, I’m fresh out of the shower, serums, moisturizer and my favorite sweat shirt on; curled up in bed reading a book with the warm glow of my lamp next to me. I look up, he is coming into bed damp hair, no shirt just bottoms ready for bed. “You look tired babe.” I notice as he crawls into bed next to me. He gives me a small noise for an answer and I nod in understanding. I lift my arm for him to lay next to me while I continue reading. He lays down and breaths slowly. I run my fingers through his hair and down his neck some as he falls asleep. I don’t usually get to baby him but when I do we both love it. “I love you hunny.” I say quietly. He replies, eyes closed, in a sleepy heavy tone, “I love you more.”

- literallyjustm3

[quotefeeling]

“The worst distance between two people is misunderstanding.”

— Law of Attraction

[literallyjustm3]

reading a book with romance and love and only thinking of you. - me

[literallyjustm3]

kisses

as our lips brush against one another

in perfect rhythm i can’t help but want more

your body pressed against mine

the warmth of your hands go straight to my core

the sweet taste of your lips is enticing too

the feeling of my wanting

to go deeper into the pool of you

i feel your firmness and hunger in each kiss

however we stay collected

which is pure bliss

keeping every kiss stable and pure

knowing wanting feeling more

one day it will come that is for sure

until then my dear keep kissing me

with the wanting of more

-literallyjustm3

[literallyjustm3]

what i imagine married life to be: part 1

fresh out of the shower, feeling warm inside from the hot water that poured over my hair just minutes ago. dressed in your baggy t shirt i slip onto the bed with my cup of tea next to me on the side table and my hair brush in hand. we’ve both worked all day but just to come home to you and be in silence with you is perfect. your warm look and comfort is all i need tonight. going to brush my hair you grab the brush instead and start to brush my wet locks out with gentleness stroking every tangle. sitting in a criss cross position sipping my tea i feel your soft lips press the back of my neck as you continue to brush my hair. pure bliss. perfection; before bed.

-literallyjustm3

[literallyjustm3]

something different

from the moment i laid eyes on you

i knew there was something different

the whiteness in your smile

the spark in your eyes did something to me

as i continue to go deeper into

a relationship with you

i begin to realize what i first felt was true

this is something different

the way your lips curl to your cheeks as you smile

or the way your body moves when you laugh

your hand slid into mine and i knew

there was absolutely something different

how your fingers wrap around mine

and in an instant i feel secure oh

it is something different

or how i fit perfectly to your chest

as you lean down to wrap me in a warm embrace

how you not only tell me how you feel

but you show me that everything you say is real

this is something different

i feel something different

-me

[quotefeeling]

“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don’t know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds.”

— Anaïs Nin

[literallyjustm3]

relationship birthday

am i mourning a relationship that didn’t last

or a relationship i never had?

a relationship that should have lasted

but only existed in my head for 3 months

a relationship that should’ve been beautiful

but lacked depth of all sorts

was it a relationship between two people

or was it a relationship i had with myself

or a made up fantasy?

a relationship i didn’t see ending

so abruptly

did i make it to be more than it ever was

am i just now mourning due to the

relationship birthday of one year

that is creeping up so soon

with every turn i think of what it could have been

i ask myself why i mourn over a relationship

that never was.

- literallyjustm3

[literallyjustm3]

why best friend?

we used to watch movies together

and talk about all tea

i would have called you heather

i remember all the starbucks you would get with me

and all the nights we would laugh in my room

it all started to change though

even when we would use each others perfume

talking got smaller so

i would try to make up for the silence

but the awkwardness began to grow

pretty soon we became almost strangers hence

why i’d always have to push to hang out

and now sometime I get glimpses of you

like today but i am to old to pout

I hold onto the memories of us or at least the few

you stopped talking to me all together one day

you blocked me on everything without a clue

honestly to get the answer i would pay

my life began to turn dark blue

i could not understand why

why best friend why

to this day i wonder what I did to deserve it

but all I can do is ask why best friend?

- literallyjustm3

[literallyjustm3]

What I want…

“Hey, um I’m not doing ok… I just really need hug.”

I hear a muffled “ok” on the other side of the phone and just a beeping noise.

Crying on the ground as my homework is sprawled across the floor taunting me I hear my doorbell ring. I get up placing my sleeves over my hands to wipe my tears. Gripping the sides of my body I open the door, and to my surprise there he is. He came. A simple “I need a hug” made him come. He comes in and closes the door and wraps me in his arms and doesn’t let go. His hand is on my head as my cheek rests in his chest so I can hear his heart beat. Closing my eyes I take a breathe taking in his calming presence and his sweet smell. More tears keep falling and falling until I finally melt into him. He then melts into the floor with me and we sit on the rug with his back to the door just holding me. I have never felt such a love like this. Someone who would stop their night when I needed them. I think to myself “he must really love me.” Then he whispers into my ear after all the tears have dried, “I love you.”

- literallyjustm3

[literallyjustm3]

if people found what i write about them i would die

[literallyjustm3]

hesitatant

you asked me to write you a letter

but

i can’t describe what i feel towards you

i feel warm

protected even

my heart knows what to say but my brain doesn’t

all i know

is

i have never felt this way for anyone ever before

this is new

i am excited

yet

scared at the same time

i want to jump in with you

but

i’m hesitant

that i might fall too fast

i don’t want this to be nothing

i really want it to turn into something

beautiful

and

long term

i want to tell our story when we are older

not just think about you

while being with someone else

i

want

to

be

with

you

- Kathryn

[literallyjustm3]

this is why i was hesitant

i jumped in with you

i jumped to fast and you left me drained

but the problem isn’t that it’s that you haven’t a clue

of my emotions

i told you several times how i was feeling you

said “i understand”

but you never truly did or you would have known

the end was near

and i was about to draw the line in the sand

i put in effort for a long term relationship

and you gave nothing but a debit card

i said i don’t want that i want to spend time with you

was understanding and hearing that so hard

i am trying not to be bitter

but you told me i was your world but i was afraid

you were with other girls that would be better

now that we are over you bring me flowers

then write me a paragraph that you miss me

but i am sorry i tried way to hard and it left me empty

i am giving that love to me now

you have unfortunately missed out

go love yourself the way i tried loving you

maybe then you will see that what i said

was in fact true.

- the after math

[quotefeeling]

“I never wish to be easily defined.”

— Franz Kafka

[literallyjustm3]

i cried so hard that i ended up feeling nothing. -last night

[melanocetuss]

a few days ago i woke up thinking: snails are cute, but what if they had legs?

so i made this, and i was like "aww yeahhh such a funny animal"

and then a second image popped up in my head

what if they acted like dogs?

YEAAAAHHHHH HAPPY PUPPY SNAIL