Littleimpulsivewritings

Thoughts, experiences , random.

[littleartandwritings]

New dreams

Its time for me to awaken

I have new dreams now

I do not intend to chase after them

I will climb one step at a time

[littleartandwritings]

Your words

aged like fine wine to me,

forever etched into my heart

the words you wrote to me

the words you wrote for me

locked up and sealed in my head

the scent of the ink from your pen

your love for me, your lust for me.

In those letters, its forever safe

the existence of your love,

immortalized in words

today and tomorrow and forever

I sleep, with a smile on my face.

[littleartandwritings]

The only way in which we arrive at peace with our mortality and fragility is by gazing at nature which is constant and immortal. After death, we join this immortal journey alongside nature. We do not have to gaze at anything anymore.

Yes, I doodled this today morning. xD

[littleartandwritings]

This phase will not return.

I believe that in our life we have different phases. Each phase is so precious and is so important for our development and growth. Due to this pandemic, one phase of our life that was considered normal is now ripped away from us.

For me, it is my university years. The time to spend on campus, participating in events and meeting new people. All that is gone. I am forced to stay inside and get my education online where practical application of knowledge and skills is almost impossible. It sucks but I have learnt to deal with it. My patience has improved, I learned a lot from the internet and connected with people online. I do not know how I am holding on, but I am proud of myself.

You should be too. All of us, for being socially responsible and staying inside. And kudos to those who are actively working to shape their future and those who have already started earning money. And to the others, who are confused, lost and just existing, remember this too shall pass. This phase will not come back. Let us make the most out of these days.

[littleartandwritings]

Not today

One more day, let me rest one more day.

Too tired to think, too tired to function

Even stimulants cannot help me anymore.

Not today, my mind

stop with these overflowing thoughts

stop with the guilt

and all my mistakes.

[littleartandwritings]

Comfort turns into a prison

I was told to be happy

I was told to be grateful

for everything I have

Comfort, safety, shelter , food and people.

It stupid, I tell you

I have no adventure, I have no purpose.

I am stuck here in my comfortable room

unable to get out.

The world is moving on

The people are pissed,

My life is ending by each second

and I have to spend it all

wondering what the hell am I doing?

It is this world you see, it owes me nothing

I have to find meaning in everything, they say

my comfort turns into a prison

unable to explore, unable to experience.

All alone in my room.

[littleartandwritings]

Ricochet

My bullets of love

ricocheted off your heart

your bulletproof vest

protected you from all feelings.

My love for you,

almost reached your heart

you thought it would kill you

so you build your walls

and let my bullets of love

ricochet off of you.

[littleartandwritings]

Plant

How do they expect you to grow, little leaf

when they had plucked all your flowers

ate your fruits

and cut your stems,

and asked you

"why haven't you grown, little leaf,

into a strong, happy plant?"

Sometimes, water and sunlight is just not enough

when everything about you is discarded and ignored.

[littleartandwritings]

Lay low

Lay low,

Don't let them see you yet.

Not until you know

you have grown

through nurture and nourishment

rather than their poison.

[littleartandwritings]

Making it through.

Everyone is doing something. Wrong. People are going through similar things that you are going through right now. They are feeling isolated and lonely just like you. They are confused and frustrated on where their life is heading, just like you. We are living in times that cannot be considered normal. Conflicts still exist, people are still cruel. But here we are, surviving in the middle of an epidemic. It is alright. We all are feeling the same way. Just making it through the day in a slightly different manner.

[littleartandwritings]

Letting go.

The bravest thing I ever did. Maybe because I saw it coming. This person is going to stop contacting me ever again. I did not shed a single tear after our final conversation. I had accepted this. I know could look at attachment in its eyes and punch it. The right person perhaps, but wrong time. Life is weird like that. Eventually, you will learn to let go of what sucks you into a loop of sadness, anger, frustration and emptiness. You will get there.

[littleartandwritings]

Exist.

The only thing that is important for us now is survival.

The lives we have been living, the mundane normalcy that we have been so used to, has been shifted upside down. We must live through this. Wake up, brush teeth, eat your breakfast and take a deep breathe. Do chores, watch YouTube, read something , talk to your parents, call up your friends, do courses and on some days just lie down and exist. That is okay, that is all that is required right now.

Everything becomes better once you accept your reality and make the best out of it. Or you do not have to try to make the best out of everything. Some things are cruel. Some things are unfair. Its best to not expect anything for now. This too shall pass.