Artistic birdy

[littlechirpysoul]

I used to miss you. Every day, every minute, every cell inside my body used to miss you for what feels like a lifetime now. I still miss you but not like that. I guess i am more grateful now, you showed me what i was capable of and now i miss being her. So whatever breaths i have left, I will spend it on me.

01/02/2022

[littlechirpysoul]

I know its hard, everything hurts. Everyday is a war and it doesn’t seem to end. You don’t know yourself anymore and the sad thing is you don’t even want to. You just want it to pass, to get over with it. And one day it will, maybe tomorrow, or in a couple weeks or in fifty years. Till then you are your own home. You can either abandon it and mess it all up or you can turn it into a nice, clean and a warm place. No one else is going to clean it for you. 

Go home. It needs you, YOU need you. 

01/01/2022

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[quotesndnotes]

You can get as far away as you can..

[littlechirpysoul]

Numb

At the beginning of my depression my mind was full of thoughts. it was crazy how many things i had going on in my head, and now it says nothing, thinks nothing, does nothing, feels nothing. It feels so empty, like my soul has been drained out of my body. And what’s worse is it doesn’t terrify me anymore. I look into the mirror and whatever i see, that is not me, not the person i remember. 

[littlechirpysoul]

I am not sad because YOU are happy without me.

I am sad because I am not happy without you.

🌻

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Two years back when i was moving to a new city, i wanted to start afresh. I had just gotten out of a really bad spot and i wanted to change everything. I used to draw back then, every day a new painting. But i lost my passion for art. So i picked up my paintings and sketch book and painted all over them. I used black, navy blue, dark blown and forest green. The darkest shades i had. I tore all the pages and threw away my colors and brushes. Now that i look back I wish I hadn’t done it. No matter how much i hate myself, there is a part of me that wants to love myself, a part that thinks i am worth saving. Those paintings were a part of me and I destroyed them. They are gone. I don’t even have their pictures. I just want to say please don’t voluntarily destroy anything you once loved with all your heart. No matter how much you hate it at a moment, it’s memories will haunt you all your life.

[littlechirpysoul]

Passionate yet tired.

Motivated yet uninspired.

Dead yet alive.

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내 클랜은 어디에?

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Unless something else chases us away.......

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