tess

tw: ed she/her 21 hw: 82kg gw1:65kg gw2:59kg gw3: 53kg ugw:45kg

[caloriegenie]

Thinspo Imagine #1 - Back to College

You awake slowly, light pouring through the window at the foot of your bed and dancing across your eyelids. You stretch your legs under the covers, and the fabric floats across your smooth, freshly-shaven shins like butter. Taking a deep breath in, you extend a slender arm toward your nightstand and disconnect the charger from your phone, letting it drop to the floor.

Your phone displays 7:28 AM, two minutes before your alarm was set to go off. You don't have class until 9 AM, but you like the extra time to enjoy your coffee and make a to-do list for the day before your roommates wake up. You're used to waking up early since your body now requires less sleep, no longer overburdened with excess food to digest.

You grin, having beat the startling sound of your alarm, and slide your thin legs out from under the covers and over the side of your bed, nestling your toes into the carpet beneath. You habitually reach for your water bottle and take a few big sips, which sends a chill down your throat to your empty stomach.

You suddenly realize how cold your now-exposed skin feels, despite the late August weather. You think back to the previous summer, when you always woke up drenched in sweat, no matter what you wore to sleep.

You pad over to your dresser, which is nearly overflowing with new pieces you never thought you would be able to wear: crop tops, skirts, and workout sets, all in smaller sizes than you have worn since middle school. You elect a basic cropped white tank, which would have looked like a sausage casing on you 6 months ago, and a pair of ripped, light-wash jeans that leave a gap around your slim ankles.

Before changing, you pause in front of the mirror on the back of your door and can't help but smile at your reflection - pronounced collar bones, toned muscles, smooth skin; nothing bulging out or jiggling. You turn from side to side and fail to find an unattractive angle.

You slip off your pajamas and pull your scale out from under your bed. You take a breath, settling the butterflies in your stomach, which you know are pointless. You reached your ultimate goal weight weeks ago and haven't fluctuated more than two pounds in either direction since.

You step onto the scale, and it displays your ultimate goal weight, plus just .3 lb. You exhale and smile, your confidence instantly restored.

In the bathroom, you wash your face, which has been perfectly clear since you started eating healthier, and brush your teeth, pearly white from the past week's whitening strips. You apply moisturizer and simple makeup - mascara to your top lashes and a bit of powder to maintain your glow - and even in the bathroom's harsh lighting, your slender face looks full of life. After deodorant and a spritz of your new perfume, you collect a pair of Birkenstocks and your backpack from your room and head downstairs.

You scroll through Tumblr while your Keurig spits out steaming hot coffee, which you now prefer black, and like a recipe for soy-and-ginger-glazed salmon. Since reaching your goal weight, you've enjoyed trying out new recipes while working on eating intuitively. You constantly fear that you'll regain all the weight, but each day that goes by makes you feel more and more self-assured.

You sit down at the table in the living room with your coffee mug and your planner, gently crossing one leg over another - a gesture so simple you that you weren't able to do comfortably for years. Now you cross your legs all the time, as if to show off to yourself. You work on your to-do list and listen to the Spotify playlist you spent the plane ride back to campus crafting.

Your roommates gradually emerge from their rooms one by one, shuffling to and from the shared bathroom, while you make yourself a parfait - plain low-fat yogurt, fresh strawberries, and your favorite dark chocolate granola. You know exactly how many calories are in an exact measurement of each ingredient, but you instead eyeball the portion size and remind yourself that the protein and nutrients are necessary to fuel your body.

When you've eaten almost the whole bowl and put your rinsed dishes in the dishwasher, you check your Apple watch, ensuring you are on schedule to walk to your first class of the semester with some time to spare. You say goodbye to your roommates and step out onto the porch, looping a slender arm through the strap of your backpack.

You wonder if your classmates will look at you differently - if people will notice how much weight you've lost, or if they'll think you're someone else entirely. You think about what it will be like to arrive to class without being winded from carrying so much extra weight up the hill to campus; to sit in the lecture hall without your thighs pressing against the underside of the flip-down desk; to catch the eye of a stranger who finds your attractive.

You've always imagined these things, but now you don't have to. Now, they're real.

[caloriegenie]

Thinspo Imagine #2 - Getting Ready to Go Out

Your phone vibrates beside you, the sound muffled by your covers, and you reach for it, dropping your pen into the open spine of your textbook. Your phone shows a text from one of your roommates to your house group chat, reading, "should we start getting ready?"

You glance at the time, 7:04 PM, and type out, "yeah, come to my room," before pressing send. You gracefully slide off of your bed, gather your notebook, and stack it atop your textbook on your neatly organized desk. You hear two of your roommates talking gaily as they climb the stairs to your room. A third roommate responds to the group chat, "be up soon".

Full of excitement for the night ahead, your roommates enter your room, one plopping down on your bed with a partial case of White Claws in hand, and the other searching for an outlet for her hair straightener.

The first roommate hands you a can, and you think back to when it would take three or four White Claws to make you feel anything. Now-a-days, one will get you buzzed, and three will get you drunk.

You connect your phone to your speaker and start playing music as you make your way to your closet. One of your roommates says she doesn't know what to wear, and asks if she can borrow something.

Last year, there's no way you could have shared clothes with your roommates. All of them were smaller than you, so your clothes would have hung off of them like trash bags.

She picks out one of the numerous cute tops, and you reach for a light blue tank top that just arrived in the mail yesterday. It came from a boutique you always used to hear YouTubers mention, but you could never fit into their sizes. Once hitting your goal weight, you treated yourself to several new tops, skirts, and a pair of jeans or two from the boutique, all in sizes small and extra small. For the first time in years, every single piece fit and looked amazing.

You match the top with a high-waisted skirt that shows off the flatness of your stomach and the slight indentation of your upper abs. You get dressed and walk over to the full-length mirror on the back of your door.

The top falls flush against your skin, sloping over your perky boobs and drawing attention to the dainty necklace hanging around your neck. The skirt hugs your thin waist, and your toned legs remain separated by a small thigh gap saving you from miserable chub-rub-filled walks to the bars, with which you are all too familiar.

You laugh at one of your roommate's jokes and catch her eye, immediately recognizing the way you used to stare at girls you were jealous of. You remember watching so-and-so's tiny friend sip a vodka-soda at a pregame, or a group of skinny sorority girls chatting in the bar bathroom, and wondering if they felt the way you feel now: perfect.

You loosely curl your hair, apply some light makeup, and finish your outfit with a pair of booties that don't suffocate your ankles like they used to. As your roommates head downstairs to continue drinking, you remember to grab a light jacket to combat your new-found tendency to get cold at warmer-than-average temperatures.

You take photos with your roommates under the twinkly lights on your porch and don't have to worry about sucking in your stomach or being on your "good side." You look perfect in every single picture and effortlessly choose one to post, notifications of likes and comments rolling in immediately.

After just two drinks, you're buzzed enough to head out for the night, and you pile into an Uber with your roommates, happily squeezing four to the backseat.

You look out the window as the car pulls away and silently congratulate yourself for all of the unhealthy food you denied, all of the days you wanted to skip the gym but didn't, and all of the mornings you spent convincing yourself not to give up after seeing the same number on the scale multiple days in a row.

Now to relish in your reward: perfection.

[d13t-b3an]

Maybe if I was skinny his feelings for me would have been real. Maybe he wouldn’t have taken advantage of me.

[skinnyflo]

[sleepin]

[luvoldiesxx-deactivated20230719]

[bunny-boy-trying]

Another little collection of portion insp0/ foodsp0.

This time it's snacks!!

[9i9i-etc]

yellow mealspo🍍

tried to find food other than bananas and oats lol

side note: cottage cheese pancakes are definitely worth a try! 🥞

[zerocokedreamerr]

@ me

[fawne-deactivated20231002]

how many times have you started over already? you would be at your goal by now if you hadn’t given up in the first place.

[petitepr1ncess]

To look so fragile💋

[emmasf0ckinguser]

-{A semi breakfast mealspø}-

Also hope y'all had a great Christmas!!!

[felslikesugarinme]

I just want to be a skinny and thin girl in the summer

[fatnotfunny]

i won't eat for three days so i can be pretty when i see you

[juttingbones]

getting your protein (eating disorder style)

this post aims to educate on how much protein a person needs, why it’s important to have enough, what low-calorie foods to eat for protein, and a few simple recipes for each food.

the average person needs a minimum of .8 grams of protein per kg of weight (or .36 grams of protein per pound) so as not to have a protein deficiency.

a 45kg/100lb person needs at least 36 grams of protein per day

a 54.5kg/120lb person needs at least 43.2 grams of protein per day

a 63.5kg/140lb person needs at least 50.8 grams of protein per day

a 72.5kg/160lb person needs at least 58 grams of protein per day

a 81.5kg/180lb person needs at least 65.2 grams of protein per day

a 90.75kg/200lb person needs at least 72.6 grams of protein per day

a 113.3kg/250lb person needs at least 90.6 grams of protein per day

a 136kg/300lb person needs at least 108.8 grams of protein per day

signs of protein deficiency include:

Sluggish metabolism

Trouble losing weight

Low energy levels and fatigue

Poor concentration and trouble learning

Moodiness and mood swings

Muscle, bone and joint pain

Blood sugar changes that can lead to diabetes

Slow wound healing

Low immunity

and since the vast majority of people on here do not seem to be getting their protein (myself included), here are some high-protein, low-calorie foods (with a recipe to make it!)

VEGAN:

🥕 in 1 cup of unshelled soybeans, there is: 107 calories, 10 grams of protein, 8 grams of fiber, 13 milligrams of sodium, and 2 grams of fat      to cook: boil until the soybean pods start to float, drain, then add salt (107 calories)

🥕 in 6 ounces of firm tofu, there is: 140 calories, 16 grams of protein, 0 grams of fiber, 0 grams of sodium, and 8 grams of fat      to cook: slice into small cubes and stir-fry with spray-oil, soy sauce, and vegetables (broccoli and carrots work good and are both super low-cal! the whole meal is 200 calories if you use 1 cup of each vegetable)

VEGETARIAN:

🧀 in 4 egg whites, there is: 68 calories, 14 grams of protein, 0 grams of fiber, 219 milligrams of sodium, and 0 grams of fat     to cook: preheat small pan with a little spray oil. separate the egg whites and yolks with your fingers, then discard the yolks (or use for someone else’s meal). cook the egg whites on medium heat until firm, scrambling occasionally. add salt and pepper to taste, and eat on 1 slice of bread (158 calories with a 90 calorie slice of whole wheat bread)

🧀 in 1 cup of skim milk, there is: 90 calories, 8 grams of protein, 0 grams of fiber, 130 milligrams of sodium, and 0 grams of fat     to cook: eat with 1 cup of plain cheerios and 1 packet of sugar substitute for a 190 calorie breakfast!

🧀 in 5.3 ounces of low-fat greek yogurt, there is: 150 calories, 12 grams of protein, 0 grams of fiber, 60 milligrams of sodium, and 4.5 grams of fat     to cook: put plain yogurt in a bowl with ½ cup of any berry and one packet of sugar substitute. stir and enjoy (200 calories or less)

CARNIVORE:

🍖 in 4 ounces of baked chicken breast (boneless and skinless), there is: 110 calories, 23 grams of protein, 0 grams of fiber, 180 milligrams of sodium, and 3 grams of fat      to cook: preheat oven to 190C/375F. spray baking pan with spray oil. rub chicken with salt, pepper, and garlic powder. put the chicken in the pan and cover with a piece of tin foil. bake for 40 minutes (110 calories)

🍖 in 3 ounces of yellowfin tuna canned in water, there is: 99 calories, 22 grams of protein, 0 grams of fiber, 288 milligrams of sodium, and 1 gram of fat      to cook: drain can, then add low-fat greek yogurt, lemon juice, low-fat mayo, apples, pickle juice, or cucumber (there’s a million different things you can add, so experiment! 150 calories or less)

so there we go! make sure you’re eating enough goddamn protein, for faster weight loss, and a healthier body!

[skintightbonelove]

And to avoid Anemia!!

[granolablondie]

gonna have to have tofu later. remember to try to get as many macros as you can in!!

[featherprettybones]

Please let’s also not forget the OG source of protein… Protein Powder!!! 20g of protein for 25g of the whey protein I use, only for 103 calories. For some people this is half of their recommended daily protein. There are many vegan proteins out there with similar calorie counts/macros.

Ladies, Gents, and Non-Conforming individuals: it’s time to no longer be afraid of protein powder!

☀️☀️

[loveybones3003]

so its been a minute

[princess-cdogs]

My boyfriend is not a person who expresses his affection thru words, but for the first time ( after losing 26kgs/59lbs) he held my face with both hands, looked at me and said “my baby is so pretty and is only getting prettier as the days go by.” 

he also offered to tell his mum when i dont feel like eating at his house by telling her “cdogs loses her appetite when shes stressed and she has alot going on rn)

he doesnt know how bad it is. he just thinks im “dieting.”

on one hand this is THE PERFECT SCENERIO!!! It means i can restrict/fast at his house AND knowing that he finally is starting to view me as pretty is all the motivaton i could ever need.

but on the other hand, how can he not see something is wrong :/ Losing almost 60lbs in a bit over 2 months isnt normal. His mum clocked me immediately (i denied her dinner ONCE and she pulled me aside straight away and said “if your starve yourself like i know you are, youre going to fall over. youre already my clumsy little girl, i dont need you stumbling around hurting yourself.) Why is he so overjoyed at my weightloss that hes completely overlooking all the signs of something being wrong. 

of course, theres more benefits to this situation than there are negatives, but i just wish he cared ://