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I'm just sitting on my couch, cradling my heating pad and trying not to cry.

I keep waiting to feel better. I kept telling myself it would be better soon. I don't think it's really ever going to get better.

Three. Three babies now have come and gone and I never got to hold. Three times I've had to look at my husband, my amazing husband, and realize he was losing a child as well.

He keeps assuring me we can try again, whenever I'm ready but I don't know how to be ready. I don't know how I will ever feel mentally stable enough to try again. I want another child with my entire heart, but I do not have enough self hatred to keep going through the pain.

I'm afraid I will never feel confident in a pregnancy until I'm holding a baby in my arms. I don't know how to do this.

Everyone has been so nice, so kind and understanding. The meals keep coming. I'm never alone, except at night. Even my two year old keeps running over to give me a hug randomly, patting my cheek as he mutters, "Mama sad". Yeah, I'm sorry hon. Mama is sad.

#grief #personal #miscarriage #recurrent miscarriage

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#on grief

Let me just say, the pain from a DNC is NOTHING compared to the cramping from a natural loss. That cramping was barely touched by morphin. I'm vibing on the couch with a heating pad and I'm like 1 out of 10 on the pain scale.

#personal #dnc #miscarriage

iminyourceiling

TW: Recurrent pregnancy loss

A common thing I hear when I confide in people about my recurrent pregnancy loss struggles is, “I’ll pray that you can have a baby soon.” I know it comes from a place of love, but it makes me feel even worse sometimes.

Before I continue, let me be very clear: I’m not trying to police peoples’ reactions. I don’t expect someone who’s never experienced this to understand what it’s like. I’m not mad or offended when people say that.

I just think people don’t realize that it’s an oversimplification of the problem.

The problem is not that I’m sad because I don’t have a baby. The problem is that, for a very brief time, I did have babies. Then I lost them. And now I’m grieving them.

And you know what the worst part is? Even if I do manage to have a baby, it won’t undo what happened. It may amplify joy, but it won’t erase the grief.

littleurbanlegend

I'm just numb.

I have two babies in heaven. I'm supposed to be 7 weeks pregnant right now, and it looks like this baby will join its siblings to make three.

I haven't felt pain like this since the day I got the call my dad had killed himself.

It feels like I can't breathe but I have to for my amazing son sitting in front of me. Wondering why his Mama can't stop crying. He is incredible, so incredible I wanted ten more of him. I wanted each one of those babies, because I knew they would be incredible too. The one inside of me now is incredible, a forced to be reckoned with. I just want them to be ok and in reality - it's more likely they aren't.

I might have some answers tomorrow, if I'm lucky. If I'm lucky, I'll learn they are gone tomorrow. If I'm really lucky, I'll learn nothing. If I'm the luckiest I've ever been, they will be ok in two weeks.

I'm not very lucky.

#recurrent pregnancy loss #recurrent miscarriage #pregnancy loss #miscarriage #grief #personal

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My body is a graveyard where I buried my children,

six feet under in the coffin of my womb.

I lay my hands across my stomach as flowers.

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KITTY SONG COVEY & MIN-HO MOON 🩷

↳ XO, KITTY | Season 3 Official Trailer

petaltexturedskies

Taylor Swift, Right where you left me

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theoraclesattic

his brother saving him with their father’s symbol? no one talk to me!!!🔱

bookloverfangirl

Grover and Tyson calling Sally:

livingfandomly

I do want to say something essential about this scene. Yes, he was losing it over Annabeth being hurt. But. This would have been his reaction if it was Tyson or Grover. Because this is Percy and this is his flaw and if anybody he loves is in danger, he literally cannot handle it. So yes, we got a Percabeth scene but that’s not necessarily because of romantic love. It’s just love. In its purest, most undefined and unadulterated form.

murasaki-cha

I really liked this scene where it looked like Dionysus was slacking off, but then the camera zooms out, and you can very clearly see that he's distracting the younger kids and keeping them away from the fights