love wins.

He picked me up & He turned me around & He placed my feet on the solid ground, hallelujah.

[livealive]

what @fancylansy sees when I tell her it’s wine o’clock (at San Diego, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CH1RkV3r_Jo/?igshid=1gwtjm6pstso6

[julieterbang]

ju_seonyo

[actuallywatson]

ashley watson on Instagram: “tw: mental illness. I’d like to preface this by saying that my intention in being vulnerable on social media is to reach as many of those…”

645 Likes, 56 Comments - ashley watson (@ashleywhatson) on Instagram: “tw: mental illness. I’d like to preface this by saying that my intention in being vulnerable on…”

[actuallywatson]

The Millennial Graduate

You’ve heard the catch phrases: “The world is your oyster! You are so young! This is the beginning of the rest of your life!” And I’m not sure if this applies to everyone, but my heart skips a beat when anyone reminds me of the expansive, undetermined nature of my blank-canvas future. While my mouth responds to these unknowingly tortuous people whom I feel obliged to impress “Isn’t it crazy! So many possibilities!” my mind screams “thanks for unleashing the anxiety, SUSAN!” and then comes the spiraling-out-of-control train of thought that always goes something like this:

I have my whole life ahead of me and I haven’t even answered the most essential questions I have for myself. I don’t know who exactly I want to be, what career I want to end up in, and if I don’t know these things, how do I make decisions in spite of my indecision right now? Where do I start and how long do I wait before making a change? Should I pursue a stable path like medical school so I can ensure a sensible and financially secure future all the while checking the “serve others” box in my life responsibilities list? Or should I *follow my bliss* and choose a job purely out of interest? Am I interested in anything enough to want to spend 50+ hours a week doing it? Is it selfish to choose something out of interest? Am I a terrible, entitled narcissist for wanting to genuinely love the way I spend my Monday through Friday? I must be expecting way too much right out of college. What they said about millennials is right. I am the problem.

I hope to God those reading this can relate and don’t immediately feel the need to inform mental health professionals (even though help is always welcomed and encouraged… I will gladly accept referrals). But I truly believe that this thought spiral closely resembles the nature of a twenty-something millenial’s headspace. We don’t know exactly what we want where we’re headed. We haven’t answered life’s most daunting questions. But the reality I’m facing and learning to embrace whole-heartedly is that the game of life is rooted in relinquishing the need to arrive at some shiny, far-out destination. The magic is in the everyday, mundane process of growth. It is hard, perplexing, terrifying work to become the people we are meant to be. And if we’re being real, don’t we want messy life stories? I for one have never trusted people who tell their stories as if it was easy breezy beautiful at every milestone. Movies aren’t made about those stories (mostly because they aren’t stories at all) and those stories don’t make you any true friends.

I have no idea if the next choices I’m making are the right ones, and maybe what I’ll find is that there isn’t one right choice, only my choice, the one only I will have to live with. So I’m starting there with honesty and integrity, one scared and inspired little step at a time.

[juansendizon]

“All I want is books. Books and rain. Rain and books. That’s all.”

— Juansen Dizon

[jaethefade]

Repeat after me: I am allowing myself to live joyfully in spite of the unresolved emotions and problems that I cannot change.

[actuallywatson]

“Yesterday is heavy. Put it down” - an anonymous six word story

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

“Don’t let the concept of change scare you as much as the concept of staying unhappy.”

— Timber Hawkeye

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

It’s better to have nobody than to have someone who is half there, or doesn’t want to be there.

Angelina Jolie (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[actuallywatson]

solo dance.

It is a lonely life,

To try to get someone who doesn’t hear the music to hear it,

To be the Rosetta Stone for a language they don’t want to study,

To sing the lyrics as loud as you can to ears that aren’t listening.

It is far better to dance in it yourself.

[actuallywatson]

whose decision was this really

You broke up with me when you decided that my desire to grow with you was an inconvenience

You

Broke up with me

When holding my hand became a chore

You broke up with me when a year passed before you gave me an unwarranted compliment

You broke up with me when my opinion no longer carried any weight

Just because

I was the first to say it’s over,

does not mean

I was the first to decide that it was

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

There are people who take the heart out of you, and there are people who put it back.

Elizabeth David (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[livealive]

"it takes all kinds to make the earth turn." - something my grandma told me last night that I know will stick with me forever. how simple and loving and accepting is that? (at Monterosso, Liguria, Italy)

[livealive]

cute garden, cuter friends 🌵⭐️ (at Arizona Cactus Garden)

[roxyclothing]

[bled]

[coffeeforthemoon]

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