a real live wire

some things that i want to share with you, but not them

[eearth-deactivated20180601]

You don’t need to go looking for yourself. Center yourself in who you are, make a home of yourself. Open your doors wide, sit patiently, wait for your self to make it’s way to you. Trust that it knows the route. Be present for its arrival.

[dionardolicaprio]

[barefootnfamous]

[slut-for-harry-bro]

just in case anyone wanted to debate whether or not ezra is actually marauder era sirius black :)

[tanjavanja]

living in a pretty much constant state of dissociation is fun

[forgotteniowa]

Donnan, Iowa Population: Ghost Town

“The settlement was officially incorporated (as Donnan) in 1922 so that a school could be built. An area of 1-square-mile of land was included within the city limits so the area would meet the state’s 25-person minimum population requirements.  By the 1930s, several improvements had been made in the town, including a diagonal road built alongside the Rock Island railroad. This road, named New Donnan Road, became the town’s main thoroughfare.

Gradually, even the small population of Donnan eroded, leaving the town with fewer than 25 residents in 1970, and just 18 in 1972. All businesses except the post office had closed by the early 1970s. County road W-25, a paved highway from nearby Randalia bypassed Donnan’s main street in the early 1970s.  By 1977, Donnan consisted of “an abandoned grain elevator, an unused railroad depot, three farms, four occupied houses, and a few empty buildings”. The Rock Island Railroad tracks at Donnan were pulled up in 1977. By 1978, the town’s population had dropped to 13. That year Donnan residents celebrated the city’s 100th anniversary.

Donnan’s few remaining residents fought “long, hard, and unsuccessfully” to keep the post office open. By 1982, however, postal officials prevailed. When the post office closed, on July 23, 1982, commemorative covers prepared by the Iowa Postal History Society gave the town’s population as ten. Residents resisted the closing of the last business in Donnan “because [Donnan] citizens love it and hate to see it die”, Mayor Porter said in 1988.  In 1990, the last seven residents made national headlines when they reluctantly voted to disincorporate, ending their town’s status as an officially recognized city. 

At the disincorporation hearing Matt Porter, who had served as the town’s mayor for 35 years, stated “Three of us are in our 70s and sooner or later it’s got to come. There’s no one else to carry on”.  Donnan ceased to exist in March 1991; the final vote was 6 to 1 in favor of disincorporation.  A monument on New Donnan Road pays tribute to the empty community, which lies just two miles north of its nearly empty sister community of Randalia.”

[shez-a-dove-deactivated20161204]

i deserve romance!!!!! wtf

[shadow-grunge]

[pez-uzi-deactivated20160424]

Places where reality is a bit altered:

• any target • churches in texas • abandoned 7/11’s • your bedroom at 5 am • hospitals at midnight • warehouses that smell like dust • lighthouses with lights that don’t work anymore • empty parking lots • ponds and lakes in suburban neighborhoods • rooftops in the early morning • inside a dark cabinet

[solareveille]

playgrounds at night

rest stops on highways

deep in the mountains

[ghostfiish]

early in the morning wherever it’s just snowed

trails by the highway just out of earshot of traffic

schools during breaks

those little beaches right next to ferry docks

bowling alleys

[genesisdoes-moved]

unfamiliar mcdonalds on long roadtrips

your friends living room once everybody but you is asleep

laundromats at midnight

[coolpepcat-deactivated20190924]

what the fuck

[ringingofraevolution]

galeries in art museums that are empty except for you 

the lighting section of home depot

stairwells

[doomgeneration1995]

•hospital waiting rooms •airports from midnight to 7am • bathrooms in small concert venues

[midtownsparker]

I just got the weirdest feeling I swear

[ravenclawpotter13]

- the clothing section of Sears - stairwells at hotels

[difficultsuggestions]

Grow from the dirt that they left you in

[slingyourhook-deactivated201806]

my nose will be forever stuffy

[rarebritney]

i want to b… Less accessible but more magnetic

[oucu-deactivated20141110]

[girlfig]

marchin’ thru these tall guys with @trashcannot ☁️🎺 ig: isabellaspud

[tmof]

[nyctophiliaccarly-deactivated20]

What to do when you don't know what to do

·       Get out of bed. Do that now.

·       Go into the bathroom and remove all of your clothing. I have fat that gathers into massive love handles, stretch marks on every bit of skin that isn’t flat. But when my clothes are all off, with no fabric to bother me, no illusion of what my body looks like and all I can see is myself, I feel better. I feel more wholesome. Maybe you will, too.

·       Run your hands over it, turn around. Have no illusion of what your body looks like. It’s not as bad as you think. Get a good picture in your mind of anything you want to attend to. Make a list if you need to, only about your body.

·       Brush your hair through, if you have it.

·       Put your hair up and out of the way, if it’s long.

·       Floss and brush your teeth very well. Take your time on this. Do it twice if you need to. Your breath won’t feel as thick, you won’t feel as heavy.

·       Put on lots of chapstick or balm right afterwards

·       Wash any parts of your body that you need to.

·       Blow your nose until there’s nothing left, get it all out. You’re probably clogged up.

·       Clip your nails, take off any old polish. Push your cuticles back.

·       Wash your hair, if you want to.

·       If you (like to)shave, shave everything. You’ll feel weightless. Only fill up the bath a little bit and do it over the edge. You’ll just feel dirty if you sit in hair.

·       Drink a full glass of water. Don’t sip, don’t chug. Just don’t set it down until it’s gone.

·       Dress yourself in whatever way you feel ready for the day. Yoga pants, sweatpants, t-shirts, dresses, shorts. Whatever way that makes things easier.

·       Eat. Eat something. Don’t pull random bits of food from random boxes. Prepare it at once and sit down. Take this time to rest.

·       Get a drink of your choice, as long as it isn’t alcohol. As a matter of fact, if there’s alcohol on the counter, put it away. Don’t look at it. It will only give you a headache. Make yourself chocolate milk, water, a smoothie, a soda, whatever sounds nice.

·       Sit on the floor and forget about everything you need to think about. Set a timer for exactly one minute. Close your eyes, and during that one minute, pay attention to how your body feels. Ask yourself these questions. Am I sore anywhere? Stretch this bit out, put more pressure on it. Focus on your muscles. Keep your back completely straight. Did I eat enough? Think about your stomach. Focus on your breathing. Listen to the air. Can you hear the sound of your lights? A ceiling fan? Your joints? Don’t open your eyes until the time is up. This minute will pass very quickly.

·       Get a good old fashioned piece of notebook paper and a pencil. If you don’t have that use your phone or computer. Make a list of every little thing you need to do. Everything matters. Every errand, homework assignment, thing that needs cleaned, health issue… all of it.

·       Do it now. Check things off as you go. As you see things disappear, your head will be more clear.

·       Don’t forget to take your pills.

·       If you’ve been putting off your homework, fix yourself a snack and a tall drink of something warm. Get all of the supplies you need. Sit down and plow through it. If you need help with homework, message a friend, a family member, even message me. I’ll try and help you. It won’t take as long as you think, your mind is just cluttered. Repeat to yourself “this is what I am working on now. This is what is important now. I will feel lighter when I am finished.” Even if the assignment is due in a few weeks, more than likely it is too much to do in one night. Split it up into quarters. Work for one hour, and if you’re close, finish it off. Give yourself this one hour.

·       You don’t have to make your bed, but take off the blankets and shake them out. If there’s crumbs on the mattress, vacuum, or wipe them off. If you have dirty clothes, put them in the hamper.

·       Now that your day is free, deal with your social problems. Is there someone you’ve been meaning to apologize to? Something you’ve upset? Something you’re unsure of? You have all of the rest of the day to deal with it. Take your time.

·       Before bed, pay special attention to your face. Wash it, clean your ears, put on acne medicine, moisturize it. Anything on your face that needs to be attended to. See how beautiful you are? Your skin will drink it up, it will look better tomorrow. Do this constantly.

·       Listen to songs you haven’t in a while. You forgot that one verse, the reason why you kept it.

·       Make a list of questions. How does a remote work? Why do we have toenails? What is this word? Look them up. They’re right there to know.

·       Ask for help

·       It’s fine to cry. I feel warm in the face afterwards. I feel smaller afterwards, less huge. Less of a problem. You need to understand that we want to matter, but when we mess up we don’t want it to matter. It goes both ways. You are the most important person. Your mistakes only have weight to you. Nobody minds as much as you think they do.

·       Do these things. Do them now.

[forestwlwthings]

the sound of the tent’s zipper in the morning, group dishes near a river, scratches on your ankles and deep conversation with the sun peeking through the trees