Did I deserve to lose everyone? I don't know anymore, but I think I did. I regret everything and I can't even get apologies to the few people I need to, I can never tell them how sorry I am. I'm just a loser fuck up clown bitch and it's better everyone has moved on and left me in the dust. Worthless, I never deserved any of them, I deserve being alone, I deserve sinking the way I am. I hope they're all thriving, but I feel like I'm fading without them. All my love still goes to them even though I know I I'll never receive theirs back again. The pain I'm burdened with is my own doing, loneliness is what I've earned but I miss everyone, despite how selfish it is.
I don't deserve sympathy, this is the life I've made, I have to walk it now. Just needed to get it off my chest, sorry to those that came across it.



















