Lou Out Loud

Anything & everything currently worth shouting about

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Every event, situation, noise...big or small, anxiety is always there.

I jump at normal sounds like the doorbell, which puts me on edge for about 15 minutes after. I dread knowing I have to leave the house for the school run twice a day. I worry about months into the future. I hate summer because there’s too many people everywhere, kids messing around outside and the constant panic when my daughter wants to play out with friends.

Anxiety seriously sucks, even the meds don’t fully stop it. They just seem to prevent constant panic attacks (which are a whole other story). I don’t think it ever goes if you’re prone to it, it just adapts to whatever your current situation you’re in.

Fuck you anxiety!

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My stomach has definitely gotten bigger this last week! I can now see our little man moving and my partner felt him for the first time this morning.

I have a midwife app on Wednesday and then rescan on Thursday as he didn't want to change position to check a few things.

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I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia early 2017 but had symptoms of it for about 8 years prior to this.

I think the worst symptoms for me have been the obvious aches and pains, being extremely sensitive to touch, chronic fatigue and feeling a mental kind of pain when hearing repetitive noises - particularly bassy or banging type noises.

Some days I feel like an old woman, well, most days actually. The feeling of constant pain and being grumpy and irritated by loud noises makes me seem like an 80 year old rather than almost 30! I dread to think what I will be like when older if I’m like this already.

Fibro sucks 👎🏻

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One of my favourite phone cases by Speck. So glittery 😍.

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I love these trainers I recently bought, however I haven’t been able to wear them since the first time as they rubbed the back of my legs badly 😵

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I have a serious problem - I can’t stop spending money on phone cases! I dress up my phone more then myself, I have no idea why - it’s just what I enjoy 🤷🏼‍♀️.

All of the above cases are for more iPhone 7 Plus.

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I’ve decided to make this blog about a little bit of everything instead of just pregnancy related. I normally have a lot on my mind and a lot to get off my chest, so what better way then to ramble, rant and natter!

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20 Weeks Exactly

Ohhhhh we're halfway there Ohhhhh living on a prayer 😃.

Sometimes it's going slowly, other times I can't believe I'm as far along as I am. Only 4 and a half months until I meet baby boy.

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Raging Hormones 😡🤬

The last few days I've been so mad about everything and everyone! Literally everything is pissing me off, every movement and every noise. It's actually frustrating as shit feeling this angry over nothing, hopefully I can chill soon!

20 weeks pregnant tomorrow, half way there! It's gone super fast but at the same time super slow. I know that doesn't make sense, but that's how it feels. On the one hand it feels like yesterday I was hurling non stop at 6 weeks pregnant, hardly able to cope with life but then I'm like "another 20 weeks to go". Must stop being so impatient and let our little man grow 💙.

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19+4 Weeks Lots of Kicks!

Yesterday little man was kicking loads, not so much flutters anymore! Best feeling in the world, definitely can't wait until he's rolling around and proper booting me 🙈.

Only 3 days until I'm at the halfway mark! Anomaly scan next Tuesday!