regrets collect like old friends

19, sophomore, daughter of le fou. collector of crystals and addicted to tea. book lover and tea party patron. trying to figure out life one horoscope and tarot reading at a time. currently canoodling with squeaky smee.

[louiselefou]

Just in case anyone wanted to start Christmas shopping for me early, I thought I'd put it out there that my haunted items collection somehow still doesn't include a doll! I also don't have any authentic Ouija boards. I bought myself a board from Toys R Us when I first got here but it as haunted as your average boardgame. Or random thrifted books! I love books that have had life before they met me, they have so much more character. In lieu of any of those things, willingly playing a round of Ouija with me will be accepted! Can you believe I haven’t found enough people who want to give it a go?

[louiselefou]

text 💬 louisaac

Isaac: i was super close right!! i'll try again after a snack break. i need to reenergize my feet.

Isaac: thank you, thank you. I thought the black polish was a nice touch don't you think? it matches my hands.

Louise: Make sure it's a big snack! The smaller the snack, the longer it takes to make its way all the way down!

Louise: Yes! I'm ALWAYS an advocate for black polish. I too have black polish, but I also have a cute spiderweb pattern over it which I also highly recommend.

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text 💬 louisaac

Isaac: [picture of his foot]

Isaac: I was trying to call you with my feet and it did that instead. weird, right? lol

Louise: You got your camera app open instead but that's close! Keep practicing and I'm sure you'll get it!

Louise: Also, has anyone ever told you that you have really pretty feet?

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Text 🥰 Loucey

Lacey J: NO BECAUSE I'M NOT AN ALMOST MURDERER AND I WOULD'VE NEVER STOPPED SCREAMING! THE DICK WAS BOMB ON IT'S OWN. I AM! I COULDN'T STOP THINKING THAT! MAN DROPPED SOME REAL ZINGERS ON ME PRE SEX! I WAS SO WORRIED I WAS GOING TO GIVE HIM BRAIN DAMAGE, I HAVEN'T TRIED IT LITERALLY SINCE THE BEGINNING OF HIGH SCHOOL! GOD I DON'T KNOW! KIND OF? HE'S SO SWEET AND KIND OF FUN TO BE AROUND EVEN WHEN I'M NOT HAVING SEX WITH HIM, AND HE'S NEVER OFFENDED WHEN I'M BEING LIKE TRADEMARK ME SO I'M SURE HE'D BE SUCH A NICE PERSON TO BE WITH. BUT LIKE???? WHAT IF HE CAN'T PICTURE DATING ME?! I DON'T WANT TO PICTURE IT ALONE!

Lacey J: Due to the new rule, I have no idea what you're talking about. Sorry!

Lacey J: The sex is definitely not going to be amazing since it'll be your first time, but you two liking each other and having a perfect location will make that such an irrelevant sidenote if it all goes the way you want it to. Especially if you do it more than once, then it'll eventually get there! STABLES AREN'T THAT GOOD WHEN YOU AREN'T FUCKING COLTON! I'm still a little worried I may have traumatized the horses 🥺

Louise: IT'S NOT "ALMOST MURDER" IF YOU BOTH CONSENT TO IT! IT'S JUST A KINK! I'M GLAD THE DICK WAS BOMB ON ITS OWN THOUGH AND HONESTLY IT TAKES COUPLES MORE THAN JUST THE FIRST TIME TO BRING IN KINK USUALLY SO THAT MAKES SENSE. HE DROPPED ZINGERS? COLTON SLIM? ARE YOU SURE YOUR JUDGEMENT WASN'T CLOUDED BY LUST? I'M GLAD HE'S ALIVE AND WELL THOUGH AND CLEARLY MAKING YOU FEEL ALIVE AND WELL! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE AND WE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW ABOUT IT UNTIL AFTER YOU BANGED HIM, THAT'S SO WILD! HE LIKES THAT YOU'RE YOU THOUGH AND THAT'S HUGE! I'M SURE HE MUST BE THINKING ABOUT DATING YOU TOO, WHY ELSE WOULD HE DO THAT? BUT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW YOU COULD ALWAYS ASK??? OR ASK HIM TO "HANG OUT" AND ANALYZE HIS BEHAVIORS TO SEE WHAT THEY POINT TOWARDS, THAT SOUNDS MORE LIKE A LALALA MOVE.

Louise: It's okay! I won't bring it up again. Just know that I'll never forget :)

Louise: I think so too! It'll be the best just because they're the best... and besides, we're going to be there all weekend so we'll probably have time to try it again if we want to, you're right! I'm sure the horses have already forgotten lol! It was just a few minutes of awkwardness for them but a lifetime of awesome sex memories for you!

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Text 🥰 Loucey

Lacey J: ALSO IF I ALMOST MURDERED A GUY DURING SEX AND THEN TEXTED YOU AFTER, I WOULD'VE LEAD WITH THAT FIRST. I DID! I HAD TO DO CPR AND EVERYTHING! OMG YOU SO WILL, YOU'RE DEF GOING TO GET THE BESTIE EXCLUSIVE. FUCK I DON'T ACTUALLY KNOW. LIKE YEAH I GUESS I DO? I DO REALLY LIKE HIM, BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT IT TO MEAN. WHAT SHOULD I WANT IT TO MEAN?

Lacey J: Yeah. From now on we have to pretend everything I said about Lyssa liking Scooter was positive, k?

Lacey J: Okay good! ☺ Oh my god really? That sounds so cute and such a perfect place to have sex for the first time! That's so great!

Louise: I DON'T KNOW! IF IT MADE THE DICK EXTRA BOMB, I CAN SEE WHY YOU'D LEAD WITH THAT OVER THE ALMOST MURDER THING! OH GEEZ YOU'RE LIVING A LIFE STRAIGHT OUT OF WATTPAD HONESTLY I LOVE THAT FOR YOU! I WOULD NOT HAVE BEEN GOOD AT GIVING CPR, I HAVEN'T DONE THAT IN FOREVER. AND YAY! I DON'T THINK THERE'S ANYTHING YOU *SHOULD* WANT IT TO MEAN. IT'S JUST WHAT YOU *DO* WANT. CAN YOU PICTURE LIKE... DATING HIM????

Louise: I wasn't going to say anything but I was DEFINITELY sniffing a little Essence of Hypocrite in the air.

Louise: Right?! I hope it's going to be awesome but also I KNOW it will be awesome just because of how much I really, really like them. It's both of our first times so I know the sex probably won't be like... amazing. But I'm sure I'll still be in awe. Although NOW I'M WISHING WE'D GOTTEN A PLACE WITH STABLES, WOW.

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Text 🥰 Loucey

Lacey J: SAME! IT WAS SO GREAT! OMG WHAT? NO. THAT'S NOT MY THING! HE ALMOST DIED WHEN WE WERE RIDING HORSES BECAUSE HE FLEW OFF INTO THE RIVER AND I HAD TO SAVE HIM! LIKE REAL ROMANCE NOVEL SHIT EXCEPT I GOT TO BE THE HERO! BECAUSE I'M A FUCKING FEMINIST ICON! WE LIKE EACH OTHER!! I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT MEANS! WE WERE TOO BUSY HAVING STUPID HOT SEX! BUT DOING THAT RIGHT AFTER MEANS IT HAS TO MEAN SOMETHING RIGHT?

Lacey J: Omg omg omg! I didn't mean to beat you to it! But yay! That's so exciting! Where are you gonna go?

Louise: OH OKAY NEVER MIND THEN DISREGARD HOW EXCITED I SOUNDED ABOUT HIM ALMOST DYING DURING, I WAS MISSING THE CONTEXT. YOU SAVED HIS LIFE?! UGH THAT'S SO HOT, LACEY J! YOU'RE *THE* FEMINIST ICON! I'M GOING TO WRITE AN ESSAY ABOUT WHAT YOU'VE DONE FOR FEMINISM SOMEDAY, I SWEAR. DOING THAT RIGHT AFTER HAS TO MEAN SOMETHING, TOTALLY! DO YOU WANT IT TO MEAN SOMETHING? WHAT DO YOU WANT IT TO MEAN!?

Louise: Also, we are talking about Colton Slim, right?

Louise: It's okay, I know you didn't mean to, but you got some and I'm so excited for you! And thanks!! We found this nice big house all to ourselves and it has a reading nook and a nice fireplace and a HUGE bed and it's just slightly cottage-ish and I love it! It's the perfect setting!

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Text 🥰 Loucey

Lacey J: YES! THOSE STABLES! I KNOW! IT LIKE REALLY WAS!! IT WAS A WHOLE THING! LIKE LITERALLY HE NEARLY DIED! THERE WAS SCREAMING! AND HE WAS SO FUCKING SWEET! AND THEN I KISSED HIM! AND THEN HE TOLD ME HE LIKES ME AND I LIKE HIM TOO! AND THEN WE DID IT! NOT IN THE HAY BALES BECAUSE THEY HURT, ROMANCE BOOKS ARE LIARS! BUT NEAR THEM!

Lacey J: You haven't lost it yet!? What? Didn't you make him a full invitation thing??

Louise: WOW! I THOUGHT THAT WAS JUST THE STUFF OF ROMANCE NOVELS, THAT'S AMAZING. HE NEARLY DIED?! LIKE, WHILE HAVING SEX?! THAT'S EVEN HOTTER! WHAT DID YOU DO, HOLD A KNIFE TO HIS THROAT? SUFFOCATE HIM A LITTLE? ADFLKSJ HOT! YOU LIKE EACH OTHER?! OH MY GOSH WHAT DOES THIS MEAN?!

Louise: I did, and they accepted! We just decided to do it the week before school starts which is this week, and I have an AirBnb for us all ready this weekend but YOU BEAT ME TO IT. I'm so jealous but also so excited for you!

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Text 🥰 Loucey

Lacey J: IT WAS TODAY! IN THE STABLES! AND IT WAS REALLY GOOD?? LIKE SHOCKINGLY INSANELY SO!! AND YEAH IT WAS SEX!

Lacey J: No! You have to guess!!

Louise: IN THE STABLES?! LIKE WITH THE HORSES?! THAT'S SO ROMANTIC. DID YOU DO IT IN THE HAY BALES?! LIKE IN ALL OF THE ROMANCE BOOKS?

Louise: No way! I'm happy for you but I'm also trying not to be insanely jealous that you got to do sexy stuff again before I even lost my vcard!

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Text 🥰 Loucey

Lacey J: ASK ME WHAT I'VE DONE! OR RATHER WHO! I'D HAVE SENT YOU CHAINMAIL AS A HINT BUT THERE WEIRDLY AREN'T ANY COWBOY THEMED DIRTY MEMES !!!

Louise: WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? OR RATHER WHO?! AND WHEN?! AND HOW WAS IT?! WE ARE TALKING ABOUT SEX HERE, RIGHT?

Louise: I'm not going to jump to conclusions based on that hint, I'm going to let you say it, but if it's who I think I am, OH MY GOSH. I mean, it'll be an OH MY GOSH no matter who but OH MY GOSH.

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TEXT 🖤 LOUKEY

Squeaky: It was a little weird and very confusing at the time especially because things on the isle were all different and weird. it was way before we'd even gone to auradon so i guess neither of us knew what we were doing. but she's just a good friend now to my brother and I. You, Louise, are so much more than just a little crush. Anything before now doesn't even feel real because being with you... I have never felt like this in my life. I've never felt so appreciated so cared for, so myself and much much more. You're just simply amazing and I can't express how lucky I feel that you have me a chance. I've never even thought about sex before or doing that with anyone and with you, it's something I want to try because it's you and you make me want to be closer to you in anyway that I can. And it's just an extra extra bonus that you are so gorgeous and elegant. I could go on and end up writing a novel. If we do this together (and that includes the actual sleeping together), I'd want this to be as Squeaky and Louise together, partners, united, not just friends.

Louise: Things were so different on the Isle when it comes to this kind of thing, and I'm glad to hear that she's a good friend to you, because she's a good friend in general and you deserve all of those. I'm even gladder to know what exactly I mean to you though. I don't want to seem needy at all, because that's not how I think about myself, but I do appreciate your words, because words are really important to me. I've never felt like this before either, and it makes me so happy that you feel the same! You're kind and compassionate and soft despite all of the hard things you've gone through. I'm so excited to be close to you in that way, because I already feel close to you in so many other ways. You're my partner, you know? And I love all that you are (and I'm already so happy just knowing you think those things about me, if you ever wrote a novel about it, I think I'd drop dead o delight!). I love being Squeaky and Louise, together, partners, united. I wouldn't want to give just anybody a lock of my hair to wear around their neck, you know lol.

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TEXT 🖤 LOUKEY

Squeaky: I would definitely like for us and this to be a recurring thing. I think it's great for connectivity and expressing how we care for each other. I didn't really either on the isle. I mean if I'm being completely truthful, and I certainly want to be, I had this... weird thing with Celia but I don't think it was ever anything. We never even kissed. and I don't think she was actually interested. But everything you said, yes! Being with you is amazing, new, special. You're so one of a kind. And yes, my face is probably the exact shade of a tomato right about now. It means a lot to me that we'll be able to do this together and for the first time together. If it's okay with you, I would like to sleep with you afterwards.

Louise: Oh. I didn't know that about you two! Which is kind of strange because I think of Celia as my friend but thanks for telling me, I love knowing things about you, and Celia is a great person so I can definitely see why you cared about her like that! You have really, really awesome taste in people and I feel really lucky that I'm one of them. It might be a dumb question but I'm just going to ask, I'm not just one of a line-up of awesome people you like, am I? I mean, what we have is legitimately special for you, right? Because it really is for me. I think you're just about the most interesting person I've ever met, and I'm so excited to be at the stage we're at. And that's very okay with me! I love sharing beds with just friends even so I'm sure I'll love sharing one with you!

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TEXT 🖤 LOUKEY

Squeaky: It makes me feel so honored to be that person for you. i just want you to be happy and for us to be happy together. it makes me feel that much more comfortable to be doing this with you even though thinking about it makes my entire face turn red. 🥺💕 hmm, i think the only other thing that comes to mind is just having a place to read but i think that's easy. is there anything else that you would want?

Louise: I want to be happy together too! And it's important to me that you know that I'm not just choosing you for this to happen once; I like being with you, Squeaky. I never did any of the girlfriend-type stuff back on the Isle, with anyone, but I like being committed here, to you, and taking this step with you is just an extension of that awesome-ness. And aww, your face is red? That's too cute! Mine is too, a little bit. I know I sound all confident about it sending invitations and everything, but really, I'm as new to this as you are! A place to read is great. I think I'll also look for a place with a fireplace. And should we find a place with an extra bed? Or are you okay with sleeping next to each other? I know some people need space to fall asleep so if that's a thing, I promise no judgement!

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TEXT 🖤 LOUKEY

Squeaky: Louise, you're so thoughtful, mysterious, and alluring. I've thought about possibly having my first time before but this is already better than what I imagined. I really like the idea of us being away for privacy. I feel like I would be too nervous with too many people close by. a place that maybe afterwards, we could have a nice view of the night sky like a plain or field nearby?

Louise: Squeaky, you're the kindest and most inviting soul I've ever met! I feel so welcome and myself and free when I'm around you and the fact that you make me so happy lets me know that you're the right person to do this with, so I'm so glad you feel the same 🥰🥰🥰 And right? I'm not really sure how this whole thing is supposed to go -- I've read about it a lot but honestly, the closest I've ever gotten is with you already -- so some privacy would be very useful! And ooh, that's great! I'll look for a place near a view like that! Should there be anything else I'm looking for in specific? Like a place with a hot tub or something?

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briellaxdesrosiers​:

That’s actually a great plan, let’s do that. Besides, if no one else wants to join, it could be pretty fun with just the four of us, but I’m sure there’s other people would love a good book club. Wow, that’s really cool! I’ve never known how they worked before.. Did someone teach you or did you just sort of learn on your own? I’ve never had a reading before.

Yay, I was so hoping you’d be on board! I know the school has a Book Club but a reading club that’s going at all times, even during summer, is just so much better, don’t you think? I’m sure I could get my date-mate Squeaky to join, actually -- they really like reading! But you’re right, even if it was just us four, we’d have a great time I’m sure. I’d definitely say Celia Facilier helped me out with learning to read tarot, back on the Isle. Well, if you ever want a reading, I’d give you one for free! What are friends for, right?

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briellaxdesrosiers​:

Oh my gosh, you are a genius! A book club would be wonderful. Now I will just need to think how I can actually start one. I’m sorry, I’m actually not sure what tarots are.. You know how to use them?

Ah, how I love to be called a genius, thank you! Well, you know Lyssa and LJ would be in, and not just because they’re Lumiere and Cogsworth’s daughters; they love reading just as much as you and I do! We can ask them and then maybe make a post about it asking if anyone else would be interested? And that’s okay, tarot is something one has to learn; I’ve been practicing with the cards since I was back on the Isle and I’d like to say I’m kind of okay with them by now. It’s really a mix of memorization of card meanings and also following intuition. Have you ever had a reading before?

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TEXT 🖤 LOUKEY

Squeaky: Hello my divine partner. ♥️ I will go look now!

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Squeaky: I was going to ask if this is real, but it is very clear and official. The presentation is one of your best yet, darling. I would be so extremely honored to accept your invitation.

Louise: 🥰🥰🥰 Please do! 🥰🥰🥰

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Louise: Oh I'm glad you like it! I spent a lot of time on making sure it looked perfect because it was going to you, and you're incredible and awesome and I officially can't wait! I was thinking we could maybe rent an Airbnb for a weekend for ultimate privacy? I'm very open to suggestions though! I want this to be an experience for the both of us, not just for me.

[briellaxdesrosiers]

This has felt like the longest summer ever. I’ve read every book that I own, baked, painted, ate everything I could think of and the list goes on. Is there a chance you have any ideas that I can do to pass the rest of the summer? I’ve never been so bored and so ready for school to start.

[louiselefou]

You should start a book club! I know there would be tons of other kids in the castle who’d want to join something like that, and the only thing better than reading books is reading books with friends. Oh, or you could learn how to do tarot readings! I’ve been really into that lately and it’s so fun just expanding my spiritual side, you know? Oh, or collecting crystals!