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use more olive oil

I didn’t even notice the url I was just like damn they’re right.

anyways how sexy would it be to be moderately wealthy i don’t mean like oppressively rich just like. maybe 50k in the account n i could go on trips n have nice things and do more nice things for ppl and ! when i see something cute i can buy it n pay bills n im not like! scrambling for my life; im just chilling in my apartment with my nice furniture, being happy, being Calm

thenatsdorf

Ocelot scritches.

injuries-in-dust

butchstrahd

Y'all should really follow Overly Sarcastic Productions' twitter

deejay

Reblog if you need this energy

kaijuno

This video has utterly undone me

Oof 8/23/19

So, this morning my doctor brought me in this morning to talk to me about results from my recent MRI to get a closer look at this mysterious lump on the left side of my neck. I had noticed it since about end of April this year and it has gotten progressively more noticeable but it doesnt bother me a lot so I didnt think much of it. I got it checked out regardless cause it just shouldnt be there and it's annoying.

The results, he said, are highly suggestive of lymphoma. This is also based on other enlarged nodules found in my neck/chest region. Idk about other people, but I dont keep up to date on all the cancers in the world. So when he told me what I had, I didnt even fully process what it was or what it means for me.

I cried for awhile in the morning immediately following the news, probably out of pure shock. I'm a healthy 21 year old ya know? Who knew this is what was going on inside me?

I havent been formally diagnosed, I'm going to have a proper PET scan done this week and meet with an oncologist the following day to really know what's going on. The laid back, "stop worrying yourself, calm down" part of me is thinking this will just be a scare and I wont have to go through treatments or miss my last semester of college after all. Then the paranoid, overthinking part is scrolling through the hashtag lymphoma and looking up "do you need to go through chemo for lymphoma?" "how to tell your loved ones you have cancer" stupid shit really.

I dont wanna scare myself but I also dont wanna give myself a false sense of hope either so where does that put me ?

I'm literally most pissed about possibly missing my last fucking semester and not graduating on time, cancer-shmancer right?

#lymphoma #worried #paranoid

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biyaself

Fat girls spent their childhoods and teenage years developing fire ass personalities to even be looked at as human. So as we grow older and start loving ourselves more and more and we finally see how beautiful we are, we already have a fucking great personality. I’ve never met a fat girl who wasn’t funny as shit and who didn’t have a bomb ass personality. And when the self love finally kicks in wooo shit boy watch out, because we definitely out here ruining lives.

supersizemeplz

justangrymacaroni

Writers

Writer says: So I had this crazy idea one day and I just had to work on it. Here ya go!

Writer means: So I had this crazy idea either right before getting in the shower or right before falling asleep so I grabbed my fucking laptop and shat all over it to create the steaming pile of crap that I now lay before you. I don’t even know if it’s good anymore. I haven’t slept in two days.

Writer says: Wow, real life’s getting busy! Sorry on the slow updates.

Writer means: My life is a literal storm of shit at the moment. Why did I decide to do this. Why am I still doing this. Everything around me is spinning out of control and I am staying up ‘til 5:30 in the morning every night to create a piece of work that will only get two comments and 12 demands for quicker updates. I hope no one’s mad at me, all I wanted to do was write.

Writer says: Wow! Would you look at that! I updated on time! Please enjoy!

Writer means: WOOOOOOHOOOOOO BITCHES LOOK AT THIS PRODUCTIVE ASSHOLE GO YEEEEEHAAAAWWWW TAKE THAT YOU NASTY REVIEWERS ALWAYS DEMANDING ME TO BE FASTER! I GOT THIS SHIT I GOT THIS SHIT

Writer says: This chapter was a toughie. Glad it’s finally done!

Writer means: I don’t know if this is good or not. I honestly don’t fucking know. I’ve read the same words over and over and over again and I just couldn’t look at it anymore. My beta said it was ok but I’m not confident but HOLY SHIT I JUST NEED TO STOP WRITING THIS FUCKIGN CHAPTER.

Writer says: Thanks for reading!

Writer means: Please, oh please oh please oh please leave me a review. A comment. Anything. Please tell me you’re out there. Please tell me someone is reading this.

Writer says: I just want to say that real life is getting pretty hectic right now. Please try to be patient with me, I know you guys want updates. Thanks! :)

Writer means: FUCK. YOU. Who the fuck do you think you are, demanding shit from me?! You don’t know my life! I have a very busy life! I create shit for free, you entitled son of a pig-fucker! STOP LEAVING ME COMMENTS TELLING ME TO UPDATE SOON OR I SWEAR TO GOD I’LL PUKE ALL OVER MY COMPUTER

Writer says: What’s gonna happen next? Who knows? Hee hee ;)

Writer means: I have no fucking clue what the next chapter is going to look like. What’s my plot? I don’t know. I feel no emotion.

Writer says: Please leave a comment! It helps me write!

Writer means: I am begging you to leave me a comment because I swear it’s the only thing that’s keeping me motivated right now, I hate the work I put out and I need reassurance that people are actually enjoying this.

Writer says: I hope you enjoyed that chapter, big things are coming up! ;)

Writer means: Buckle up bitches, someone’s gonna die.

Writer says: I know I’ve missed a few updates, but I swear I plan on finishing this story!

Writer means: *high pitched eternal screeching*

Writer says: Here we are at long last! This has been one wild ride. I want to thank you all so much for your support and love, I adore each and every one of you. I am so happy to say that this story has come to a wonderful close.

Writer means: My body is numb. Voices call out to me from the void, but I can no longer hear them over the beating of my racing heart. I am stressed to the point where I feel no relief. The story is done. It’s fucking DONE. I loved it, I hated it, it was a fucking storm of horror and pain. I can no longer see color. Now I can at last relax and…wait……wait a second………..holy shit I just thought of the best idea for a one-shot that’s totally gonna turn into a 50 chapter slow burn AU fic leT’S FUCKING DO THIS

benadryldad-deactivated20170904

Being ugly is poppin cause ya phone doesn’t blow up all the time and ya battery lasts long.

loved-5-first

Ha

no-passaran

Sometimes I wonder if native English speakers appreciate how much more comfortable the internet is for them than for the rest of the world

Like, you can go on tumblr and simply read stuff in your mother tongue? Amazing. Go on youtube and you don’t have to replay some sentences ten times to try to understand what they’re saying? Incredible. Look for practically anything on google and know that there will be a fuckton of results that you can read without having to spend half the time looking up words in a dictionary? Fascinating. Make a post or send an ask without panicking that you’ll make a silly mistake or that they won’t understand what you meant? Unbelievable.

thisisnolongerfun-deactivated20

lol this is still the most relatable gif ever:

*Italian

ohana

I quote this GIF in half of my conversations. (Also not only smart but fun. I’m fucking funny in italian.)

workslikeacharmie-deactivated20

I relate to this hard. In my native language it’s so much easier to express myself which, in turn, results in me sounding a lot more eloquent and (emotionally) intelligent. I constantly feel frustrated by my failure to truly convey my thoughts and ideas in English.

alittlefrenchtree

👆👆 I feel like I don’t know more than 17 words in english most of the time. 17 words that I put randomly together and hope for the best without really knowing what I’m doing.

starfieldcanvas

the fact that every single anxiously non-native speaker in this post used completely flawless English just breaks my heart

nandamai

I teach ESL.

Y’all non-native speakers all over Tumblr are doing GREAT and I mean it.

inactiveblogger-deactivated2018

me learning a language: wow! this is so easy!

verb conjugation:

loved-5-first

FUCC

yknow if romeo had just Cried on juliets corpse for a couple hours instead of drinking poison Right Then they would have been Fine

persephonesidekick

The moral of the story is: always take time to cry for a few hours before making important decisions.

runecestershire

So I’m more or less being facetious here, but this is actually a thing.

Hamlet is genre savvy. Hamlet knows how Tragedies work, and he’s not going to rush in and get stabby without making absolutely certain he’s got all the facts.

Except once he thinks he has all the facts – once he’s certain that it really is the ghost of his father and Claudius really did kill him, he rushes in and stabs the wrong guy, which starts a domino line of deaths and gets Laertes embroiled in his own revenge tragedy and ultimately results in the deaths of nearly every character other than Horatio.

That’s the irony and the tragedy of the story. Hamlet knows his tropes and actively tries to avoid them, and the tropes get him anyway. It’s inevitable, the tropes are hungry.

motherfuckingshakespeare

I want a sticker that says the tropes are hungry so I can put it on my laptop

daimonie

i met a scholar once who said that tragedies aren’t about a silly “flaw” or anything, it’s about having a hero who’s just in the wrong goddamn story

if hamlet swapped places with othello he wouldn’t be duped by any of iago’s shit, he’d sit down & have a good think & actually examine the facts before taking action. meanwhile in denmark, othello would have killed claudius before act 2 could even start. but instead nope, they’re both in situations where their greatest strengths are totally useless and now we’ve got all these bodies to bury.