LovelyBlackSweater

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[lovelyblacksweater]

another truth

I meet someone and I allow the thought of them consume me. I obsess over every move they make, every word they say. I fantasize about their life and the things I don’t know. I know I have not crossed their mind outside of our interaction. Yet, I still eat up every bit of attention I receive from them. I become so desperate I fixate on the information I know about them. Even though I do all of this they become a trigger. A trigger for my anxieties. I use them as an excuse to hurt myself. I use their obliviousness to justify my negative actions.

[lovelyblacksweater]

Everything I hate about myself

Everything. I hate everything about myself.

I am lazy

I am awkward

I am friendless

I have no social skills

I am not a leader

I am unlikable the moment you meet me

I am a loser

I make too many mistakes

I am even unlikable in my family. When your own family doesn’t like you what does that say about you.

I am miserable

I am fat and ugly

I am not good at anything

I am not good makeup. Which I need to look a little better.

I have horrible tastes in music

I am unbearably annoying

I talk to much

I am not funny or witty

I don’t even pity myself

I am always nervous

No will ever care about me

I live vicariously through others

I am too quiet

I will never be good enough for everyone

I don’t deserve friends

I am a horrible friend

[lovelyblacksweater]

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Do you think anyone can love me? One by one they disappear from my life. The ones who are subject to my awkwardness are just waiting for the day I realize that I don't belong. The ones who've gone feel the relief of carrying me around. One day I will learn no one wants me around then maybe I will be more willing to leave. Maybe it’s karma from something I did in a past life.

[lovelyblacksweater]

How I listen to music

Then when I listen again I listen to the lyrics that’s what makes the song for me. Their meaning and what they mean to me is everything. Then I will listen to the song until I’m absolutely sick of it. I tend to go through music fairly quickly because over the past years it has become my obsession. I always need the perfect song for the moment I’m in. I even listen to songs so I can imagine how’d I feel in the writers position. I guess that’s the importance of music.

[lovelyblacksweater]

Scott and Allison

[lovelyblacksweater]

Favorite TV Characters

1. Gavin “Spinner” Mason (Degrassi)

2. Brooke Davis (One Tree Hill)

3. Lorenzo “Enzo” St. John (The Vampire Diaries)

4. James Cook (Skins)

5. Sana Bakkoush (Skam)

6. Brandon Darrow (T@GGED)

7. Theo Raeken (Teen Wolf)

8. Alex Karev (Greys) 

9. Spencer Reid (Criminal Minds)

[lovelyblacksweater]

lockscreens

like if you save/use

[bitterbluesargent]

Are You Bored Yet, Wallows

[jackaveryc]

❤️Happy 18th Birthday Zach Herron ❤️

[annabanannabeth]

God I just want to sleep with someone

Not in a sexy way, just sleep

Have our backs touch

Or have them hug me from behind

Or even just a leg thrown over the other

Feel each other’s body heat

And the way their chest moves up and down

Listen to their breathing

God I just want to have some comfort and have one good night’s sleep is that too much to ask

[bearambles]

OTPS explained

so first: aw

then it becomes this: awwwwwwwww

then this: omg my babies

THEN this: HOLY FUCK MY BEAUTIFUL BABIES

then comes this: *stays up till 3am reading fanfiction*

finally: *literally forms a motherfucking religion out of the relationship of two fictional characters that most likely dont even canonly like each other, spending all free time looking at fanart and reading fanfic, only thinks about that otp*

[filmsedit]

wallows headers

[stydixa]

I love you. I’m in love with you. It’s nice after all this time. It’s everything after all this time.

[whambamtransman]

do YOU wish you were born in the 80′s? do YOU have an affinity for ANCIENT GREECE?? do YOU wanna be a COWBOY????

If YOU have answered YES to any of these questions, chances are…

you’re gay

[8lettcrs]

Who do these boys think they are

[lovelyblacksweater]

My current musical favs.

[surrealist-lyricist]

1980s Horror Film - Wallows