ANGEL-KISSED //*

MY LOVE, YOU ARE HEAVENSENT !! ind. priv. humanized discourse on decadence of bsd loved by xiulan

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hey !!  xiulan here — !!

I wanted to address some things today, starting with the fact that I’m sorry ;  I’m sorry that I’ve had little-to-no activity during the short amount of time that this blog was open, as these past months have been a bit bumpy for me and the energy to roleplay or even talk to people outside of a tight friend circle was difficult for me. 

Unfortunately, this difficulty has grown too strong for me to enjoy tumblr roleplay altogether, I barely have scraps of motivation or inspiration to write and make graphics for this blog as well as my other ones. I also experience unbearable paranoia when interacting with those on sites as big as this one ( I have this irrational fear that someone is going to make a callout post about me, I don’t know why because I haven’t done anything but I feel it. That’s just the ppd lifestyle. )

That saying, I’m sorry to say that I’ll be archiving lovemused. 

I haven’t been roleplaying for a long time, especially not on tumblr, but I’m glad that I started it !!  In these past few months, I’ve made so many friendships and learned so many things, including the creation of graphics using photoshop and how to spice up my writing style into something more flowery. Even if my blogs are short-lived and unpopular, every single person I’ve interacted with has a special place in my heart !!  I’m sorry that I have to go because I want to continue roleplaying, build my muse more, and interact with you all, but things are just the way they are.

If you want to talk to me beyond this ( which is flattering and also welcomed ), my twitter is @GIDEANGOS and my discord tag is xiulan#0548

goodbye !!

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soooo whats up with tumblr lmao

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➳    repost and bold your muse’s preference .

·  roses / cherry blossoms / orchids / tulips ·  winter / summer / autumn / spring ·  thunderstorms / sunshine / snow ·  indoors / outdoors ·  meat / fruit / sweets ·  extravagance / traditionalism / minimalism ·  god-fearing / non-god-fearing ·  cats / dogs / horses / birds ·  sunrise / sunset ·  day time / night time ·  fire / earth / water / wind ·  reading / writing ·  rising early / sleeping late ·  wine / ale / neither / both ·  fur / silk / satin / lace   ·  rubies / pearls / sapphires ·  horseback / walking / carriages ·  love / power ·  having company / being alone ·  lakes / rivers / oceans ·  knife / sword / bow / poison ·  gold / silver

➳    stolen from:    @atlasfollowed ➳    tagging:   heh, oh you know

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flxwersandgxld·:

·❝ Dɪʀᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴs ᴛᴏ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ, ᴇxᴀᴄᴛʟʏ? ❞ His flustering was… Cute? Kouyou supposes. She had blinked her to clear the thought of Sakuguchi from her head but now she was sure. The similarities were there and the boy did look like him. A relative probably, but what was a relative of his doing in mafia territory?

·❝ Sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀɢᴇ sʜᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ʙᴇ ᴡᴀɴᴅᴇʀɪɴɢ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ. Dᴏ sᴘᴇᴀᴋ ᴜᴘ ɴᴏᴡ. ❞

— *:·ﾟ✧  kouyou  ; @flxwersandgxld·

he only tilted his head. thinking to himself :  someone my age ?  but I don’t know anyone my age — !!  in fact, I don’t know anyone outside of passerby government agents, taneda, and ango,  how could I possibly know someone my age . . . ?

wait !!!  what was the question again  ?

“ ah — I’d like to know directions to the nearest coffee shop !!  one with cheap espresso, please !! ”  he hummed, smiling to himself when the thought of ango’s delighted reaction turned to a visage in his head

“ and whaddya mean ?  I’m 18 !!  I think I’m allowed to wander alone, or at least I hope so. ”

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[ breakdances softly ]  im trying really hard to be active im just depressed during the summer but i’ll get to making replies and content soon i promise

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10dreamt·:

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❛     great  .  i’ll  be  on  my  way  ,  then  .  do  you  want  to  come  or  not  ?    ❜

you’re  only  extending  the  offer  because  you’re  also  less  likely  to  be  caught  if  it  seems  like  you’re  being  escorted  ——  but  you  really  wouldn’t  offer  at  all  if  you  found  him  unbearable  to  talk  to  .  you  don’t  wait  for  an  answer  ,  though  ,  opting  to  continue  out  of  the  facility  .  if  he  can’t  keep  up  ,  it’s  his  own  problem  .

❛     i’m  going  shopping  ,     ❜  you  explain  ,  though  the  word  shopping  is  a  bit  of  a  stretch  .  truthfully  ,  you’re  heading  out  to  pick  up  a  doll  you  had  already  won  .  well  ,  and  you  need  cat  food  .

— *:·ﾟ✧  ayatsuji  ; @10dreamt·

blissfully ignoring the way ayatsuji’s voice held undertones of racor, deca’s lips cracks into a grin. he holds onto the end of the blond’s coat as if physical contact was suddenly permitted without question — 

“ don’t do so much as look at him and, dear god, do not touch him. do not speak with him and, if you see him escaping, tell someone. understood ? ”  ango’s voice reverberates through his head, harsh and stern despite the worry seeping through his words. deca had only nodded in return. 

—  “ of course I want to come !! ”  he sings, “ ayatsuji - sensei !!  I have some spare change on me, can I buy stuff with you ? ”

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Harukaze no Étranger illustration by Kii Kanna from the Onblue 8th anniversary fair, limited in Tokyo. (Getting a good quality on this is really hard since it’s on thick cardboard material)

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My worst mistake is depicting Deca as baby boy when he’s actually incredibly horny and fuckable

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ravertia·:

            𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐩𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐬.     a farce mirage where idle youth endured tragedy.     it’s     AUDITORY RELAPSE     that trounces speech , fractures of sombre depths unfolded.     his     SENSITIVITTY     which absolves him a fool of a shared past.     notorious ire with shells aimed upon elastic stitches —     TEAR WITH MELODIC VOCAL CHORDS TO HIS HEART     &     expose his true sorrows.

            to the graceless nights amount of     HAUNTED TERROR     did he turn.     match of azure to the expanse of concrete.     his grudge was not with the other — yet did the presence evoke such harbored feelings.

            annoyance that sprouts amongst a deep sigh.     ground stood to gauge the hidden figure ,     “     you need something     ?     or did     DOC GLASSES     just send you to burden me   ?     ”

— *:·ﾟ✧  chuuya  ; @ravertia

as if it’s instinct, deca snaps to ango’s defense —

he always does. it’s all he knows :  defending ango when others slandered him, protecting ango when others wished to harm him. he was too-used to the press of metal against his forehead when it was supposed to be ango that felt the bullet, but he wouldn’t let him. 

— “ ango wouldn’t do anything to burden you  !!! ”  he snaps, his voice raising to a volume that reverberated through the air.  “ it’s the least he can do for all the pain he knows that he’s caused you !  don’t go around thinking that he’d want to hurt you if he’s already hurting ! ” 

then deca returns to his meek self, a few tears prickling his eyes as heat colors his cheeks red. the soft cloth of his sweater wipes away the tears before he continues in a trembling voice. 

“ I came on my own accord, just to see you. I know the blood between you and ango isn’t . . . the sweetest, but it isn’t stopping me. ”

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10dreamt·:

❛     obviously  i  know  ango  .  i  hope  most  of  the  things  he  says  are  complaints  .    ❜  perhaps  it’s  rude  ,  but  you  take  a  strange  sort  of  satisfaction  in  pissing  off  the  people  in  charge  of  you  .  you’re  not  ashamed  to  make  this  known  .

uncaring  about  his  presence  ,  you  continue  to  make  your  way  through  the  facility  .  you’re  definitely  not  allowed  to  be  outside  right  now  ——  but  when  you’re  walking  confidently  ,  people  are  far  less  inclined  to  question  you  than  they  would  otherwise  be  .

❛     if  you  insist  on  making  yourself  a  bother  ,  then  at  least  hold  off  from  running  along  and  telling  him  i’ve  left  my  quarters  until  i’m  safely  back  there  .     ❜

— *:·ﾟ✧  ayatsuji  ; @10dreamt·

deca only blinked. his body stiffened in a foreign way that he couldn’t exactly identify the reason behind ; maybe it was the uncertainty that drifted through him when he spoke to the other. ayatsuji wasn’t exactly the nicest to come by, but deca had already deduced that. 

he listens to the man’s demand — or was it simply a suggestion with sardonic undertones and a hollowed voice of irritation — and steps to the side, creating space between them but not enough that he wouldn’t notice deca’s presence despite the amusing differences in their heights. 

“ I won’t tell ango ~ !!  I promise !!  he wouldn’t care much, anyway. ”

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— *:·ﾟ✧  accepting  ; @schxchterndschlau​

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answered here !!

◈  ━ share some headcanons that you have for a muse of your choosing

OH OH !!  I headcanon that deca unintentionally makes cat noises, esp in response to his name and such. he’s trans and like . a B cup ! he  doesn’t bind too often and wears very loose sweaters. deca has a very ver ..y soft figure and he’s very huggable .. thighs big . big as his heart. his entire face is soft and rather round … he’s very very small and he gets his gentle features from ango. he talks to cats on the street and his favorite food is melonpan !!

♣ ━ share five random facts about yourself

UHH WELL !! cool facts about xiu is: 

I accidentally used my har.vard acceptance letter to wipe up a coffee spill

half of my friends are frat boys and one of them cracker ones asked me why i was appropriating chinese culture by making my name xiulan (extra fun fact: im chinese)

once i hotboxed in my ex girlfriend’s car and was so fucked up that i thought i locked myself in and i freaked out and smashed her windshield so i could crawl out

during my highschool graduation I received a diy tattoo of a cherry on my thigh it’s really unnoticeable and cute

I once sent a man to the ER.

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— *:·ﾟ✧  accepting  ; @florabled​

☀ ━ how long have you been roleplaying? how did you get into it?

I’ve been rping for maybe 3 years ?  Not that long djsfkga;irdf  but !!  I remember getting into rp as a result of an rp group between friends !!  I can’t remember if it was a bsd group that came first or a fire emblem one dklfsg 

♕ ━ which fictional characters are your favorites?

definitely ango is one of my favorites.,,, him, gide, and oda are my 3 main comfort characters. uhhh some other favorite fictional characters would be (gbf) shao, ladiva, elmott, societte, (mdzs) jin ling, nie huaisang, nie mingjue, and uhhh probably every lesbian or stupid bara man to ever exist. [blows a kiss to the sky] for them

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mun related

send me one ( or more ) of the following.

✮ ━ top three favorite muses that you’ve played

♫ ━ a small playlist for a muse of your choice

ღ ━ favorite canon ships for your muse(s). are there any you dislike?

✄ ━ do you have any artistic abilities? If so, what can you do?

☀ ━ how long have you been roleplaying? how did you get into it?

❤ ━ do you have any crackships for your muse?

♕ ━ which fictional characters are your favorites?

回 ━ what are your top four favorite shows?

◈  ━ share some headcanons that you have for a muse of your choosing

↓ ━ have you had any bad experiences with roleplaying?

☾ ━ how many pets do you own? if none, what kind of animals do you like?

♣ ━ share five random facts about yourself

[yamkumo]

i’d rather die with the knife lodged in my throat than die being food to the dirt.  i’m not going to let myself be a victim of self-pity in a world that’s borderline fantasy.       akatani ‘ yamikumo ‘ mikumo, aka izuku midoriya’s prototype. unaffliated with bnha, selective and private, written by ligaya!     © sinisterspooks

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