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@lovendfear
“Sleep doesn’t help if it’s your soul that’s tired.”
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I crave the deepest connections with other people, but I can’t trust anybody anymore.
i have always been too much for someone or not enough. i’m either too loud or not loud enough. i am a walking contradiction. a full glass or an empty one. there is no balance in me. tell me, what made you leave? my devastating fire or my lack of heat?
- l.r // i am never half empty
you ever just have someone, who you let into your life, and you’ve regretted it your entire life??
me: wants to be loved
also me: incapable of letting people get to know even a little bit of my personality because of past relationship abuse and manipulation resulting in lots of guilt, trust issues, and intimacy issues
also me: gets frustrated when the people i let into my life, who only know me off of the very minor details i made sure to allow myself to show, make wrong assumptions about me, and don’t actually know the real me, so i have to break up with them and get sad all over again because i can’t even allow myself to be loved by good people.
also me: i just want a relationship that will make me feel alive
to forget is a great blessing
hello 911, i cant stop eating
“One day, she’s going to know. She’ll know your birthday, your middle name, where you were born, your star sign, and your parents names. She’ll know how old you were when you learned to ride a bike, how your grandparents passed away, how many pets you had, and how much you hated going to school. She’ll know your eye colour, your scars, your freckles, your laugh lines and your birth marks. She’ll know your favourite book, movie, candy, food, pair of shoes, colour, and song. She’s going to know why you’re awake at 5am most nights, where you were when you realised you’d lost a good friend. She’s going to know your phobias, your dreams, your fears, your wishes, and your worries. She’s going to know about your first heartbreak, your dream wedding, and your problems with your parents. She’ll know your strengths, weaknesses, laziness, energy, and your mixed emotions. She’s going to know about your love for mayonnaise, your dream of being famous when you were five, your need to quote any film you know all the way through, and your fear of growing older. She’ll know your bad habits, your mannerisms, your stroppy pout, your facial expressions, and your laugh like it’s her favourite song. The way you chew, drink, walk, sleep, fidget and kiss. She’s going to know that you’ve already picked out wedding flowers, baby names, tiles for the bathroom, bridesmaid dresses, and the colour of your bedroom walls. She’s going to know, get annoyed at and then accept that you leave clothes everywhere, take twenty minutes to order a Starbucks, have to organise your DVD’s alphabetically, and check your horoscope… just incase. She’ll know your McDonald’s order, how many sugars to put in your tea, how many scoops of ice cream you want, and that you need your sandwiches cut into triangles. She’s going to know how you feel without you telling her, that you need a wee from a look on your face, and that you’re crying without shedding tears. She’s going to know all of it. Everything. You, from top to bottom and inside out. From learning, from sharing, from listening, from watching. She’s going to know every single thing there is to know, and you know what else? She is still going to love you.”
— (via youwillgetbetterrr)
i pray you heal from things no one ever apologized for
i am putting together all my poems in once place, to edit and everything because it is my honest to god dream to get published, and walk into barns and noble, and see my book on the shelves.
however, doing that means that my family will see all my deepest thoughts. my struggle with body image, eating disorders, relationships, sexual assault, mental health, my struggles with my sexuality.
and i am so scared. there is something so raw and open about letting people read my poems, and not total strangers, i mean real, people, who i interact and talk to every day. Knowing how o feel inside, and i’m terrified.
But in order to achieve your dreams there’s going to be so much discomfort and vulnerability involved. So let me just hope i can achieve it.
you don't get the same me twice so play your cards right bitch.
What screw us up the most in life is the picture in our head of how it is supposed to be.
Silence is an answer too.
I just want…..someone to be so utterly enamored by me in every way?? but I don’t want to be romanticized. I want to be fully understood on every level. to be seen as fundamentally whole. I want security and respect and I want the freedom to still be me. I don’t want sacrifice tbh….I think it’s overrated… I just want to coexist. not two halves that complete each other but two wholes that compliment one another….and I don’t think that is asking for too much
you ever look back @ yr relationship/interactions w/ someone and realize the exact extent of how insidious certain aspects and occurrences were that at the time went under the radar and had no special meaning or anything but now that you have perspective and know what happened later on down the road everything is very.. There. apparent. staring you right in the face. bc.. yeesh. bad feeling. nauseating, even
how do you get attractive enough so that everyone loves you no matter what