Hello! This might be long and for that I apologize in advance.
Unfortunately I cannot ask this unanonimously as my spiritual blog is linked to my main blog and I wish to keep them separate, but I wish to inquire a bit about His Majesty, Luficer, and felt that you would guide me well on this matter.
I come from from a religious household, while not christian it is a part of abrahamic faith, and my relationship with said religion is rather... Complicated, I would say. I was only a child when I felt completely abandoned by God, and despite the clear spiritual powers gifted to my family by my ancestors (who were no doubt worshippers of a polytheist faith and had practiced magic themselves), it felt for a while that I was forever doomed to eternal sin.
When I was 14-15, I learned about Lucifer and was deeply intrigued because I barely knew much about him nor anything about christian angels. I did not feel any calling, but simply a fondness of learning anything I could. This was around the same time I would be interested in Greek Mythology, and naturally found my way to Hellenistic Polytheism where I found a calling to Lord Apollo (whom I've been devoted to ever since)
My spiritual belief is that despite only having worshiped Greek deities, I believe in the existence and power of every divine entity to have been given name, and even those who remain hidden from mortal eyes. I'm in my early twenties now, and a day or so before new years eve I felt a sudden pull towards Lucifer that was as simple as reading up on him again between breaks of my dued project, and when I laid on my bed for a quick rest, this happened: I do not if ever hear my deities, Apollo relies on his trust in me to interpret his messages in oracle cards, but in an almost tranced state that I've never felt before, Lucifer had come before me, powerful in presence like a spotlight was shining directly into my eyes.
I felt like I was losing my mind at first, because he endlessly shifted in form that it felt as if I was seeing something the human mind isn't supposed to comprehend at once, and maybe it's because I was so aware of everything that I could learn about him. When I had felt so frightened, His Majesty began to stabilize into a more human like form, his face was handsome but worn with a light wrinkle and shadow beneath his dark eyes, his long hair was straight and black as obsidian, the unending strands float about like silk in the wind, as if it had a mind of its own. He wore nothing but a cloth that had been drapped over his lap as he sat upon a rock.
He smiled at me, while in outward appearances it seemed cunning, no ill will or malicious intent was behind it. Lucifer seemed amused by my attitude towards him, frightened and keen to be humble before him in fear of disrespect. In my confusion and fear I had asked what he may have wanted, and in a voice I could not hear and yet understood, replied:
"Whatever it is you want."
And it echoed throughout for a couple times, and then I felt something on my heart, a serpent wrapped around it. Lucifer had came at a time where I had lost all confidence in myself, I no longer knew the person I had once been, I felt myself as if fallen from grace. And as I write this, I had come to a realization that the little serpent wrapped around my heart, is a part of His Majesty that he left with me.
Now, this is brief as I can give about my background, as for my inquiry, and I extend this to other worshippers who come across it: Has Lucifer's presence alongside you ever been felt by other people? Because my sister who is spiritually gifted, as well as a skilled tarot reader with remarkable clairvoyance, has seemed to suspect I brought with me a kind of "foul spirit or presence" in my father's words of what she said to him, days after I returned home after a year in university but my father said he felt nothing. Lucifer is powerful no doubt, but I fear for my wellness if she thinks he's a threat for the reason being of his demonic aspects. And this troubles me because she had never sense Lord Apollo's presence, or at the very least felt he was a threat.
I don't want her to know about Lucifer and I don't want to be shunned that I was called by him, any guidance would be of tremendous help to me. Thank you and may you be well.
Hi! Thanks for reaching out. I'd be interested to hear how things have developed since you asked this question.
I've seen the sentiment that Lucifer is extremely responsive be echoed time and time again, especially online, and I think that is a part of what you may have experienced.
I'm not sure I quite know how to explain this well, but Lord Lucifer is literally the spirit of awakening consciousness and realization. He really likes being noticed. He is commonly considered to be an Air elemental and the Prince of the Powers of the Air, which in symbolic terms means that he dwells in the 'dimension' of the mind. He is extremely fond of those who are deeply introspective.
He is also said to dwell in the air that we breathe, as in, he exists among the common man here on Earth (and falls to Earth every morning). I have experienced a great disparity between how different spirits or Gods manifest based on where they are said to dwell, literally how far or near they are to humanity. Higher Gods and heavenly angels are notoriously difficult to contact because are literally so high. Infernals are notoriously responsive and more accustomed to human conditioning. When you think about it, it may not be all that surprising that you have felt and sensed Lord Lucifer with far greater ease than Apollo, and his initiative for you may be strengthening the abilities you already have to obtain greater contact with your other Lords.
There are obviously always nuances and factors specific to your experience, but I would say that Lucifer is, (and many i'nfernals' in general) known for responding.
In terms of your fear or resignation towards his demonic aspects, I think exploring those fears is gonna be the bread and butter of your introductory phases. My advice would be to isolate what exactly you are anxious about and dissect it. If you're apprehensive about his "demonic" aspects, investigate where those aspects came from. Who do you fear judgement from, and why? What do your fears say about your attitudes towards yourself?
This is very anecdotal on my part but Lucifer is definitely a trickster in the (usually) very harmless way. If your sister is a certain brand of love and light practitioner, it is very possible that Lucifer was just trying to spook her as a joke. He does that a lot. He thinks he's very funny. There have been many many instances where I have been in the presence of religious folks or even certain witches, and they're like "my friend, please come to the light I fear there is something wicked attached to your soul." And I'm kinda like oh yeah.
Haha. That's just him. Lucifer stop it.
My partner has reported feeling Lucifer around, but says he never felt anything hostile or negative. He kind of just messes with people sometimes.
But if you're less sure that's the case, banishments and cleansing rituals are always a safe way to rid yourself of any truly negative presences. Your sister very well could have been pointing out a "parasite" having nothing to do with Lucifer.
If you don't sense any hostility my advice is always to continue to explore.