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@lucisaphiraarchive
⏤ 𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 … 𝐀 𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐀 𝐒𝐀𝐏𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐀 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 .
a playlist featuring songs of girly pop , heartbreak and catastrophic loneliness . listen now for the premium sad girl experience .
❛ ─── 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 » 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 » 𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭 . ( the playlist is always being added to . so i’m just gonna list five on here and if you’d like to hear the rest feel free ! . )
will splash from afar towards luciana, knowing the spray of ocean water won't hit her - the girl far too away for rory to do much of anything, and far too well gorgeously put together for rory to do much of anything to ruin her looks. "i feel like i could take over the world, write a couple novels, and maybe run for president. except i don't actually care enough about this country to do that." will twirl around in the water, before getting out, dark slick hair sticking against her skin. "hand me a towel? it's not too cold. but i run hot. i still think you should give it a shot, luce."
a laugh fell from the girls lips as rory splashed around . the temptation to get in with them building the more she was witnessing just how much 𝐅𝐔𝐍 they were having . although , luciana did strive for whatever version of 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐅𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 she was told she must keep . a life so detached from everything around her in a way because she was too busy trying to live by very specific conditions . ❛ i mean . . . if it's not too cold ? ❜ she began as she handed rory a towel . eyes glancing over at the water before looking back at rory . she always did like hanging around the other because of how 𝐃𝐈𝐅𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓 they were . rory seemingly doing anything they wanted without a second thought . while luci on the other hand thought about things probably a little too much . ❛ and i'm sure there's something about how natural water is good for your skin or something out there . ❜ she added before reaching out and placing a hand on rory's arm . ❛ okay , fine but you have to come back in with me . ❜ despite the fact that they just got out .
for all her apparent flaws , tiny jackson was one of the best friends that a girl could have , someone that would learn you inside out and make sure to always handle with just enough care . when the music started repeating for what felt like the thousandth time , she raised her hand in the air , " ok , enough ! we need a drinks break , " whether that was because her head might explode from one more verse or for the others welfare going unexplained for the moment as she grabs the phone herself , pressing down on the button to stop everything as relief flooded in . already holding glass between fingertips in seconds as she pours her latest mixed cocktail ( a lover of having service people on hand who were great at their jobs ) and hands diamond encrusted glass to the other . " are you going to tell me what's going on or are we going to tiktok dance into our graves today ? " enquiring raise of the eyebrow glass lip touches her own , gloss print left behind .
tiny really was luciana's best friend , one of the people in her life that she would do 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 and 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 for . knowing that tiny would do the same for her . it was easier around tiny , feeling as though she didn't have to be so picture perfect in front of the other . it almost becoming draining and suffocating living life trying to be the pristine version of whatever it was her parents wanted her to be . a moment to breathe and be an 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐔𝐀𝐋 human being in front of one person that she knew had her best intentions at heart . an almost relieved sigh fell from the girls lips as tiny stopped the video from recording . an excuse to stop , as if the other knew she needed it . ( even if the truth of the matter was that they both needed it . ) taking the glass from tiny , she took a small sip before sitting down on the nearest chair . ❛ i don't know ? i just feel like i can't stop causing problems . . . it was my fault . . . the thing that happened with charlie . charlie was trying to help . . . i shouldn't have let him . and now you're forced to question things about your own boyfriend . ❜ another sigh fell from her lips . although , there was a lot more going on with luciana . the whole thing with charlie felt like a 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐀𝐋 to her friendship with tiny , one of the only relationships in her life that truly mattered . over any romance or anything else .
laying there on luciana's lap , two completely delusional people who would only encourage each other in thinking that whatever romance they dreamed up really existed … it was exactly what was needed . closing their eyes , they take a deep breath as if it is too hard to carry on with talking about what is on their mind , the memories of the blonde haired girl too heavy and painful to even recollect . suddenly grabbing her hand for dear life , placing it to his chest in a dramatic movement … " we rode a bike through times square . i was on the front and the wind was flowing through my hair so majestically … it is majestic , isn't it ? " doe eyed awaiting reassurance of their own perfection , forgetting how beautiful their hair truly was when so enveloped in grief . " she could hold a latte no matter how fast i pedalled . she was so talented . "
if there was one thing kellan and luciana could rely on each other for , it was the fact that they lived up in a version of romanticized notions and feelings that most people couldn't grasp onto until much further into whatever relationships or 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 of love they encountered . meanwhile , kellan and luciana felt as though things were burning hot the moment they let their minds run wild with the thought of someone else . a frown played on her lips as she looked down at kellan . squeezing his hand once they brought it to their chest and clenched on . ❛ she sounds perfect , kellan . and so so talented , it's not every day you meet someone that could hold a latte that still while riding a bike . ❜ a sigh fell out as she looked at her friend . the true 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐊 she felt in her heart while looking at them in so much pain after losing someone so special to them . it was something luciana could understand . ❛ it sounds like you've had such amazing memories together . like she was able to bring out such a majestic and magical side of you . ❜ and she truly believed that even if the memories at hand were just a couple very random ones . in her head , she was romanticizing it all for him , just as he had . ❛ she might be irreplaceable because she sounds that priceless but sometimes there's more than one great love out there . ❜ 𝐇𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐅𝐔𝐋𝐋𝐘 . . . ❛ we can make a little fire outside , make some toasts . . . mourn but also honor the time you two had together . ❜ an outrageous idea but it made sense to luciana .
"you're just every where, aren't you?" jack responded with a smile, though his tone made it clear that he was annoyed. under different circumstances, he would've been quite flattered by the attention she was paying him. but presently, her persistence was proving to be QUITE annoying. and he felt it was his duty to make sure she knew that. he scoffed, loudly, at her reference to her subtle hints. "if anyone's been too subtle, it's me," he responded, his eyes narrowed. "i would've thought you'd gotten my hint by now."
call her naive . . . delusional . . . but she wasn't stupid . if anything , luciana fell into the previous categories because she would've much rather lie to herself than face anything that 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐘 mattered . that being said , she noticed the shift in jack's tone . thinking that she might've caught him on a bad day . that was until his comment about being the subtle one . she didn't know exactly how to read it but it was starting to feel like her presence 𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐍'𝐓 really something he was looking forward to on that day . a little taken aback , thinking at the very least that he enjoyed her company . ( unless all the smiles were an act ? ) nevertheless , she told herself she was reading too much into everything as always . the smile never really leaving her lips , something else luciana had practically 𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐃 in her mind . never falter . ❛ hey , is everything okay ? ❜
ace stiffs a laugh as luciana , a little tipsy , rushes up to him . “ yeah , no prob , i got you . ” he nods , friendly grin on lips , and takes her phone with practice ease . he steadies it as luciana strikes a pose , making sure to capture the festival surroundings in the frame . after capturing a couple shots of her , he skillfully flips to the mirror front camera , taking several photos of himself pretending to take her pictures . “ perfect , ” he exclaims , encouraging her , “ you’re nailing it . now , switch it up . try another pose . ”
luciana was on cloud nine which could've had mostly 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 to do with the alcohol in her system . but , genuinely , she was having a good time . laughing when ace told her to do another pose , she started pulling different poses . her hands coming up to her face to cover it as she continued , feeling a little shy . despite the fact that she modeled for a living . also completely 𝐔𝐍𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐄 that he was taking photos of himself . . . although , there was a big chance that she'd see them later and the romanticizing delusional part of her would think this was a sign of flirting . she really was 𝐇𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒 in . . . so many ways . as stated a million times before . . . she choose to live in her own delusions over having to live in any 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 . it being something that had already sucked her dry enough times . it was better to get twisted up in fantasy rather than anything real . nevertheless , that was all besides the point . finishing up with her poses , she practically skipped back over to the male . ❛ have you ever thought about becoming a photographer ? ❜ she teased , a smile spread across her lips as she let out a laugh before a hand coming up to his wrist and grabbed on . ( blame the alcohol , ) ❛ you know what we need ! ❜ she began , eyes widening for a moment . ❛ ice cream ! i'm gonna get you an ice cream . call it a thank you for all your hard work ! ❜
❛ . 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 ╱ @ 𝐉𝐀𝐂𝐊 ( @wcrstbehaviior )
❛ you know , we're gonna have to stop meeting like this , jack . ❜ luciana spoke as she made her way over to the male . it almost seemed as if it was 𝐅𝐀𝐓𝐄 that they kept bumping into each other . then again , it was luciana , she had the ability to make everything look a lot more 𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 and 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌 like than it actually was . she was either living in her own dream world or she was losing her mind in the 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐔𝐀𝐋 world . . . ( she preferred to be in her own dream world . ) ❛ i'm starting to thinking all my subtle hints to get your attention aren't working . . . you haven't even asked me out to hang with you . ❜ again , 𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋 . nevertheless , she was just messing around , playing around with the male as she smiled .
𝐖𝐇𝐎 : ej + anyone // @nepofmstarters 𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 : central park
it was a gorgeous day, ej took a walk around the park, a coffee in one hand, && a book in another. he enjoyed days like these, where he could relax, && let his mind W A N D E R . others were doing the same, listening to music, writing, reading some book. after sometime, he ended up spotting someone get up && a journal falling out of their bag. he ran up to them && grabbed it. " hey–– you dropped this, " ej said.
luciana's guilty pleasure was going to the park and 𝐒𝐊𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 . of course , her parents weren't really for her art work but it was something that she held near and dear to her heart . something she actually 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃 and 𝐄𝐍𝐉𝐎𝐘𝐄𝐃 . . . ( probably even more than what she actually did for a living . ) something that was more so picked and crafted by her parents . she had been sitting there for awhile , sketching whatever she saw , whatever nature caught her attention before finally getting up . thinking she had slipped the sketchbook into her bag , she hadn't realized it wasn't secure as she got up and the notebook fell to the ground . it would've went 𝐔𝐍𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐃 if it wasn't for the other stopping her . a smile formed on her lips as she took the notebook back . ❛ oh my gosh , thank you so much . . . my very own knight in shining armor . ❜ she teased as she tucked the book away in her bag . this time making sure it was more secure . ❛ how could i ever repay you ? ❜ she was just teasing around , but she was thankful . ❛ have you ever been to the bakery down the street ? ❜
𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐀 𝐒𝐀𝐏𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐀 ( @lucisaphira ) 𝑢𝑝𝑙𝑜𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑎 𝑛𝑒𝑤 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐌 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘 .
instagram notification from @lucisaphira , august 1st 2023 .
❛ . 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 ╱ @ 𝐉𝐎𝐒𝐇𝐔𝐀 ( @nctoriety )
knowing joshua for what seemed like her whole life , she had a soft spot for the male . not only that but call her a hopeless romantic because she secretly , ( or not so secretly , ) thought joshua and tiny were 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐅𝐄𝐂𝐓 together back when they were together . that he was the first person luciana had 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 seen her best friend with that she actually cared enough about not to find them totally disgusting afterwards . then again , that could've just been luciana building things up in her own mind . romance really wasn't dead . . . even if the two of them were trying to move on and past the their past . ⏤ ❛ are you going to that event thing ? i heard both our parents are going . ❜ she asked , luciana really didn't want to go to any of the events that her parents found a way of 𝐆𝐔𝐈𝐋𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 her to go to but she knew . . . she'd probably be there . although , if joshua was there as well . it'd probably make it a lot 𝐄𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐄𝐑 to get through .
❛ . 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 ╱ @ 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐄 ( @lilacrespite )
even if everything that happened at the festival 𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐍'𝐓 necessarily her fault . . . she found a way to blame herself for all of it . not only did she feel like she owed charlie an apology but she also felt like she owed her ex an apology as well . thinking if it wasn't for her , they wouldn't have been fighting in the first place . not to mention , the tiny of it all . they were together , ( to luciana's shock , ) but that didn't change the fact that they were together . and she was the reason that their relationship , their coming out was 𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐃 . something , that in her head should've been a sweet moment for a couple was utterly destroyed . ⏤ as the door opened , luci greeted the other with a soft smile . ❛ hey charlie , ❜ her voice softer than the usual softness it already possessed . a way of showing that she came in 𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐄 . ❛ can i come in ? i brought coffee . ❜ she smiled , holding up two large coffees from starbucks .
❛ . 𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 ╱ @ 𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐘 ( @tinyjackson )
if 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 knew luciana better than anyone else . even herself at times , it was 𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐘 . it was almost routine for luciana to get overwhelmed by life only to fling herself into things that she felt would make her feel better . try her hardest to keep the smile from 𝐅𝐀𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆 from her features . ( something she'd learned while growing up , always be picture ready . ) but luciana was a 𝐅𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐋𝐄 and 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋 person . there was only so much she could take before she was crumbling to the ground . and tiny knew those signs . ⏤ ❛ one more time ! i feel like we can get this dance perfect . ❜ she commented as she ran over to her phone and restarted the record button for the tiktok she was trying to record . dancing along to the music before stopping mid - way through and running back over to start the recording over again . running back to her spot , she started to dance again .
♡ cindy kimberly at the cannes film festival 2023
kellan answered the door , a look of despair gracing their features as they accept the ( deserved ) condolences taking the flowers . traipsing into the living area of their home , they collapse down on the couch , blanket pulled back over him . " i really can't believe this … but i suppose , it's better than to have loved and lost than never loved at all … "
as kellan went further into his home . luciana closed the door behind her and followed them into the living room area . a saddened look across her features as she watched them in such a look of 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐊 . if there was anything that kellan and luciana had in common it was the way their whole world could crash and burn due to the feelings that boiled up inside of them . ( they were dreamers , in a way . ) ❛ sit up for a second , ❜ she spoke softly as she slowly helped him up and sat down . grabbing a pillow and placing it on her lap before gently laying his head back down on the pillow . fingers brushing through his hair , trying to comfort him in his 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃 . ❛ and i'm sure that you brought so much to her life while she was here . ❜ the dramatics turned up to eleven , the two talking about a woman like she had passed when she was very much alive . ❛ she was so luck to have known you , kellan . you're so special and have such a great heart . ❜ she continued to brush her fingers gently thought their hair . ❛ wanna tell me your favorite memory with her ? ❜
〈 starter ➝ @lucisaphira 〉
soft humming could be heard coming from the toned figure standing at the stove in luciana's kitchen, accompanied by the quiet hissing sound of something being fried in a pan. once he had woken up that morning in bed with luci, the latter still asleep, he donned his boxer briefs and immediately headed towards the kitchen to prepare breakfast for the two of them. it was something he usually did whenever they ended up spending the night together; not only because he would go absolutely insane without something in his stomach upon waking in the morning, but as a way to treat his companion for the evening to something nice. the sound of footsteps caught his attention, bringing his humming to a stop as he glanced over his shoulder. "it's about time you woke up, sleepy head. are you hungry? i made something i think you're going to like."
luciana really had been , ( in her opinion ) going through a bit of a 𝐒𝐏𝐈𝐑𝐀𝐋 . she was trying to act as normal as possible but with everything that was happening in her life back to back it was a 𝐋𝐎𝐓 . that being said , yemi was a good escape for her . there was something about spending time with him . as well as the way they were able to let off steam together . it was one way to put it . ⏤ eyes fluttered open as she pushed herself up onto her elbow a little to look around . realizing that yemi wasn't in the bed anymore . there was a small moment where she felt disheartened by his absence . not wanting to be alone in any given moment . despite them just being friends with benefits . but that quickly 𝐅𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐃 once she started smelling the food . rubbing at her eyes a little , she streched before getting up and throwing on her robe . as she made her way down to the kitchen , a smile curled on her lips when seeing the male in the kitchen . the small hums being heard before yemi turned to look at her . ❛ you made me breakfast ? ❜ she questioned , a look of playful shock . although she didn't need an answer , already knowing as she moved closer . the smile never leaving her lips as she made her way over to yemi . arms snaking up and wrapping around the back of his neck . head tilted back as she looked up at him . they were just friends , she knew that but she could be a handsy person when she wanted and she was comfortable around yemi . ❛ you're adorable , ❜ unwrapping her arms , she brushed her thumb against his cheek before stepping back and glancing over his shoulder to see what he was cooking . ❛ what's on the menu ? i'm ready to be impressed , woo'ed even . ❜ she smiled , scrunching her nose a little at the other .
𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 ›› @nepofmstarters
❝ something catch your eye? ❞ yujin came to a halt beside her companion, smiling shining. shopping never failed at putting her in a good mood; it was even better when she had someone to shop with. her gaze drifted toward the object in question, assessing it quickly, before returning to the other's face. ❝ it's cute! ❞
luciana couldn't think of a better way to spend her day than going shopping with one of her best friends . plus , she felt like she 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃𝐄𝐃 a distraction after everything that had happened at the festival despite the days that had passed . ( she was still in a funk with it all . ) classic luciana , unable to really digest or know what she was feeling and instead she felt as though a huge shopping spree would hit the spot . ❛ really ? you think this one ? ❜ she continued to hold the dress up to her before moving over to another rack and picking up another 𝐒𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐀𝐑 dress in a different color . ❛ or this one . ❜ she asked her friend , holding up both dresses , waving them around in the air a little . a smile spreading across her lips .
"right," jack clenched his jaw before nodding this head, "that's definitely your prerogative," he responded, his eyes narrowing momentarily. he remained relatively unbothered by the threat, if he could ever call it one. after all, luciana was hardly the only person with something against him. "so i've heard," this remarked earned a loud laugh, "thanks, i'm a bit strapped for cash after i had to replace my lighter," an obvious lie, "i'm coming, i'm coming," he chuckled before following behind her. he wasn't the type to pass up a free drink or several.
it was nice seeing jack , ( in luciana's opinion . ) always being the type of person that saw the best in people and wanted to 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐓 or be likable to the people around her . sometimes even willing to change everything about herself just to get someone to like her . maybe she was doing that with jack ? acting extra bubbly and jokey to try and get the males attention ? either way , here she was . once they got to the bar tent , luciana let go of his hand and ordered them a couple drinks before 𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐈𝐄𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 them and handing one to jack . a smile crossing over her lips as she looked up at the male . ❛ so tell me jack , what's your deepest and darkest secret ? ❜ she asked , teasing around a little as she brought her drink up to her lips and took a sip .
