Iāve started studying anatomy for art using Stan Prokopenkoās free assignments. Hereāre a bunch of spines.Ā
His anatomy for artists playlist:Ā https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLtG4P3lq8RHFBeVaruf2JjyQmZJH4__Zv
HisĀ āHow to Draw the Spineā vid:Ā https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H2ZerTdtudk&list=PLtG4P3lq8RHFBeVaruf2JjyQmZJH4__Zv&index=8&t=0s
WARNING: the āTrace Modelsā and theĀ āDraw Modelsā assignments use nude models.Ā Assignment photos referred to in the vid:Ā https://www.proko.com/how-to-draw-the-spine/#.XyqpBS17G00
(P.S. Youāll notice the 2nd image is of better quality than the first. ThatāsĀ ācause I only realized I should expand the assignment photo and draw it bigger when I got to the 3rd spine photo qtytoealkdvnz,mxc)
6-7 weeks into learning art, and I finally made a drawing I feel pretty proud of: Kelbad, by D&D character. Not as good as I want it to be, especially with the hair. But itāll more than do for now. Iām gonna move on to learning to draw bodies (which for me means watching a 107 vid playlist about anatomy for artists).
Thank you to my friend for listening to me reading my essay out loud to them to see if itās okay.Ā
Disclaimer: No research has been done to back up my claims and views in this essay. Itās based only on what Iāve happened to read/see and my own experiences. Take everything with a grain of salt. However, I do hope this essay will help you.
Note: A lot of what Iām discussing here, I learned from Jordan Peterson. Yeah. Him. If you know him, you probably either demonize him or put him on a pedestal. It seems that the people that are neither and just critically examine what he says without assuming that he has some kind of evil agenda or that heās a savior sent by God are rare or are just not vocal on the internet. I donāt know if the two extremes are justified, but they certainly are understandable. Look him up and youāll get it. I would ask you not to watch the videos that are titled to obviously get praise and views from the right and hate (and views) from the left (I dislike both sides) because of the way they frame him, and I like to think that the best of what he has to offer is truly in his lectures on Youtube. But itās up to you. Either way, I hope you check out said lectures. Iāve only seen about half of his 2017 Maps of Meaning lectures, but theyāve helped me improve my life a lot. Honestly, you could probably just watch those lectures and ignore this blog entirely. But hey, if this gets you watching them, thatād good enough for me. I did try my best to add all I could though. So I hope thatās something thatāll help you.
You value certain things over others. And you have to. Itās what lets you move and act, and itās what gives you, or would give you, a sense of purpose. You give importance to some things over others, believe this rather than that. So you have a hierarchy of values. And because you have that hierarchy of values, you can orient yourself towards a goal, and so you have some idea as to what you should do. And, well, your environment is there. You have reality around you, the physical environment, strangers, acquaintances, friends, the social climate, the culture that society is ensconced within, etc. And because you have that goal, you can decide how to navigate that reality.Ā
If your value system were flat, that is to say you didnāt have one, ācause whatās valuable when nothing is above anything else in importance, thereād be no difference between going about your daily life and the truck about to hit you, as far as you can tell. So itās really important that you get that right. Because if your value system is skewed, in disarray, or just has something bad or inadequate at the top of it, youāre going to be leading yourself to some very dark places. And it can lead you all the way to Hell. So that hierarchy of values is in itself meaningful. And itās what makes things, actions, events, symbols, and thought meaningful.
So the problem now is what should we believe in? Thatās hard. You canāt even answer that without first having an already present value system, because then what should or shouldnāt be believed in wouldnāt matter. Thankfully, living beings arenāt born blank slates. We value life as made evident by the very fact that weāre alive and act to keep it that way. Itās precursory to everything else. And we want to get the most out of it. So you could say that you want to believe in something that will let you navigate reality such that you get the most out of life.Ā
And I think this is the same idea which religions operate upon. Thatās what the idea of an afterlife or enlightenment is, as well as why thereās a good and a bad place. Itās the belief that you can do something with your life that will transcend death, and because of that, what you do with your life matters. Because death and suffering are the ultimate arguments against the existence of meaning, and theyāre really strong arguments. Those two can destabilize your perception of reality and make the reality you thought you knew and was working fine just minutes ago seem suddenly made of chaos. How do you justify to yourself that your life is worth anything when itās full of so much suffering and will eventually end in death? And it gets harder to do that the worse of a place youāre in. How do you get yourself to believe with all your being that you should strive to get somewhere better? That you should become better? It seems that you need to be able to believe in something more valuable than life.
The question of what a meaningful life is seems to be a question of purpose. What should you aim your life towards? To what end? Because whatever you believe in, thatās what youāre headed towards. Whatever set of things (values, virtues, etc.) you hold to be of the highest importance, thatās the thing that your life is oriented towards. So I think you should orient your life towards the most noble goal you can see yourself reaching. That seems to be what most belief systems do anyway. You donāt have to reach it immediately, of course. Part of reaching for that goal will be taking the necessary steps to better yourself over the course of the rest of your life.
What this is in its totality is a belief of what the Good is. What would the Good be? Hell if I know. No one can tell you what the Good is, and every belief system will have its own idea of what it is. And even then they can only tell you, at best, what the Goodās effect is or what following it will result in. And they can only give you a general estimation of what it will result in. It seems to be a self-evident thing, along with all other forms of perfection (like Beauty and Love). Thatās not too important. Whatās important is that we do know what good things are. And we can tell when weāre not doing good if we pay attention. We feel weaker. We cause unnecessary suffering. We lie to minimize the damage but damage our relationship in the long-term. Likewise, we can tell when weāre doing something Ā What that seems to mean, at the very least, is that although you could come up with an infinite number of value systems placing different things at the top, some value systems are more suitable for guiding people to living properly.
And you might say something like you believe helping others to be a good thing but you donāt do it anyway, as a counterexample. Well, maybe you donāt really believe it. Maybe you just know it while not really having enough reason to follow through with it.Ā Because to believe in something also means to be committed to it. This is something I learned from an audio recording of Alan Watts when he talks about acting and deciding needing to be simultaneous (though I donāt know if my interpretation of it is correct, so please correct me if you think itās not; I also barely know anything about Buddhism so seriously, take this with a lot of salt). What I understood from it, perhaps as a derivation of part of what he said, is that thereās no difference between believing and acting on a belief. Thatās what commitment is. Although you may not be physically applying the belief onto a concrete situation at the moment, if you are committed you are already oriented such that you are presently someone who will act on the belief whenever applicable. Commitment is believing that you should act a certain way.
Another possibility is that maybe you ābelieveā it, but maybe you value something else more. The possibility of embarrassment or disappointment seems to be something some people have a strong urgency to pay attention to. And it can get in the way of being productive. If thatās how it is for you, then perhaps you value the avoidance of the possibility of failure too much and put it way over the possibility of gaining something meaningful from trying. Completely understandable. And itās certainly the right thing to value when the risk is far too much for the reward. But if the possibility of a failure that will do little to no lasting damage causes you to avoid trying altogether, then maybe you should reexamine your values.
In either case (feel free to point out more and Iāll try to address them) we come to what I believe is the hardest problem to overcome. I donāt think itās too hard to know how to live properly. You can learn, and generally we can all approximate that some things are better for us than others. After that, it would be a matter of adjusting and improving yourself and what you know as you notice more and more about yourself. Then it will come with time. The hardest problem, I believe, is getting yourself to believe that you should live properly in the first place. And this is what I intend to discuss in my next essay.
Thatās it for now. I hope this helps you guys.
(I had written this as a side note to something that I eventually deleted. But itās relatively long for a side note so I didnāt wanna delete it and kept it here anyway)
This is something I learned in Metaphysics.
Why is it reasonable to believe that God exists? The line of reasoning goes that finite beings donāt possess self-sufficient reason for their existence. I think the easiest way to understand this is with the Law of Conservation of Energy and Mass. Finite beings come from already present matter. And so for all matter to even exist, it must be that an infinite being, which does possess self-sufficient reason for their existence (and yeah, I know, defies the Law of Conservation anywayā¦), made them exist. And that infinite being must be unique because it canāt be that there are two infinities as these two infinities would be the same thing. That infinite being would be God.Ā
But this is only if we presuppose that reason is self-evident. Why should we? Well, you canāt answer that because youād have to use reason. Reason is its own reason for being necessary. And whoās the perfection of all? God. God is reason. So why must it be that God exists? Because God. (Man, I hope I explained that correctly). So itās possible, when not presupposing that reason is self-evident, that existence is absurd and has no meaning.Ā
As far as I know, thereās no argument for ruling out the second possibility. I myself can only give an argument for why youād want to believe in the first possibility rather than the second. And itās that the second possibility is to believe that you might as well be dead. Thereās nothing to gain from it, as gain is only gain in the context of the presupposition that there is meaning to existence. And, you know, we seem to believe that there is meaning to existence anyway, even if one donāt necessarily believe that God exists. Because if we truly believed, with body and mind, that thereās no such thing as meaning, then weād just not move until we died because the perpetuation of life through action would have no meaning to us.
Second, why would Godās existence as our creator give us meaning? Well, for this, we go to the four causes. Particularly, Final Causality. Also, Efficient Causality. But to be quite honest, this is already taking more words than I initially thought. I am not explaining Efficient Causality as well. I donāt even want to explain the whole of Final Causality. In any case, I donāt believe I need to for the purpose of this discussion.
The important thing to know is that everything, because it exists (and exists because something caused it to exist), has a final cause, a purpose in a way. A useful analogy is that of creator and creation. A carpenter doesnāt make a chair without the purpose of having it to be sat on. Even if you were to create something to just stand there and be useless, that in itself is a purpose. That it was made to exist means that it is āheading towardā some kind of end. So while things can be āuselessā in the conventional sense, they cannot be purposeless. It must be that everything has a final cause, because without a final cause, there would be no sufficient reason for a particular cause to result in a particular action. Without a final cause, everything would again be absurd and meaningless. And so with us being created by God, we must have a final cause that we are acting toward. What that is, no one knows. But, if reason is presupposed to be self-sufficient, our existence and actions do have purpose and meaning.
(This isnāt Theology, by the way. Iām not talking about any specific God of any specific religion.)
I really hope I explained all this correctly or at least well enough to be understood. Iām really not the best person to be learning about this from. The book we used for our class was Metaphysics by Coreth, I think. If you wanna learn more, you could use that.
Disclaimer: No research has been done to back up my claims and views in this essay. Itās based only on what Iāve happened to read/see and my own experiences. Take everything with a grain of salt. However, I do hope this essay will help you.
I guess I should start with why I made this blog.
This feels like it should be something obvious to most people, but I realized quite late that endeavors are most meaningful when theyāre aimed towards bettering lives, your own and others. I had isolated my interests for most of my life up until college when I was required to actually share the things I wrote with others. Even then, I only came to realize a substantial enough amount of what that meant for it to be useful to me during third year.
Youāve probably heard multiple times that humans are social animals. This can be examined and applied on many different levels, from our brainsā need for social stimulation, to various situations and events in daily life, to a metaphysical reality. My aim is to explain this somewhere in between the level of daily life and the metaphysical, partly because I lack the technical knowledge to explain this in metaphysical terms without slipping back to my own terms (and some terms borrowed from books Iāve read and lectures), as well as the technical knowledge for a neurological explanation, but mostly because I would like to explain this on a level that can encompass and be practically applied to daily life.
For you to have meaningful social interactions, you need to expose yourself to others in some way. And that comes with the risk of exposing yourself to potential dangers. You could make a fool of yourself, have your ideas criticized, injure yourself in sports. But itās also the only way for you to gain anything meaningful. And I mean anything: the material resources you need to keep yourself alive, skills you need/want to learn, emotional security, etc.
To expose yourself is also to open yourself up to the possibility of gain. Itās what you do when youāre talking to someone. Letās try to picture that. Letās say itās a face to face interaction. Well, first, youāre showing your physical appearance and giving off social cues with your bodily expressions. And then, as you talk, youāre giving bits of information about yourself. The same goes for the person youāre talking to. You learn about each other, exposing parts of yourself while the other integrates those parts into their perception of you. And if you two are having a really good, personal talk, the two of you are leaving yourselves vulnerable but also gaining from the interaction. And you can feel that with your mind and body. Disclose something thatās been causing you a lot of emotional stress to someone, and you could get hurt and they could shame you. But if theyāre trustworthy, they can offer advice and emotional support. And maybe you could do the same for them. You can be friends.
And I guess thatās what Iām trying to do with this blog. I used to write without really considering who Iād show my work to or if Iād show it at all. And I felt pretty stupid when I realized that that meant I was keeping my writing from being a social endeavor, which it should be as its very nature is of being written to be read. This blog is, for me, an exercise in exposing myself and trying to do others good through writing. This isnāt exactly the kind of creative writing that Iāve been trying to learn through my course (Creative Writing), but this is more for the function stated before and has little to do with my pursuit of art.
I hope this blog helps you, reader/s. Iāll try to explain as best as I can what I think it means to live a meaningful life and how one can orient their life towards good. Iām not the best person to be learning about these things from. Iām just some student. There are lots of better sources, those of which I know Iāll share with you. But I hope that, at the very least, I could get you started on seeking those sources out and learning to improve your life if you havenāt already.
I donāt know how much Iāll be writing, but more will come, and Iāll be expounding on some ideas Iāve mentioned here as well as many more that I have yet to talk about.