[lulumoondreaming]

on rosin veiled strings, bridged between breaths’ secret spaces in the gnarled mazes of our lungs’ abyss we resist, forgetting how to sing

so shock me with your resonance, why don't you shoot some stars outta my mouth trace this throat with your tips, chase away the harshness and find home, echoing inside us

with lips bleeding notes sketched into the shadows bring me light etched into the corners of time and grab my doubts by the waist with a heart full of lust til our eyes blink away the longing

[lulumoondreaming]

..and while i long to feel your warmth upon my flesh i understand that this tapestry has unraveled by my own thread that bears more barb than silk right now and yet i watch you.. from afar.. learning that my pulse, although transparently loud and ungraceful, should never tap the glass if the side you're on lifts the corners of your heart and i will watch you, always, even though my time has passed, i know magic cannot be replaced or borrowed instead it lingers with flitted embers in the dim lit corridors of pasts' unrest, a note, caressed for all eternity.. -perhaps  not sung nor spoken..but all the while, never forgotten

[lulumoondreaming]

gliding along the sunset where the clouds encompass the tasman sea i see the wind of the ancestors rise up to greet me at 551 km speed and there, in the air, as the arrow faces north east i feel my arteries pump and release memories in bodys’ veins that embrace this country this soil of blood this horizons' fire the deep black breath of the ancient stories whispered at the nape of my neck and somehow the sky tastes like earth and the clouds look like songs and the sun smiles because it knows you know ..that creation is instant yet infinite intention is personal and reciprocal living is autonomous but life is shared

[lulumoondreaming]

with fingers clenched, expression quenched i see in you a page not turned in me i dare not touch upon the pulse within my throat explodes it aches to sing a note but mute has pressed record

and in the nightlight all i see is blue a darkened hue as regrets' curved lips approach to kiss these eyes of longing never before did they notice the maimed belonging press play now, remove repeat, don't skip a beat, you've tripped enough already

unravel in your scale undulate. . . for the heart knows how to dance to truth and all things visceral, linger to strings that make your soul smile and all the while, you'll see -your fears were friends, not foes.

[lulumoondreaming]

they say they wanna get underneath my mask want to be the ones to see me, taste my darkness be the ones to hold me in my most vulnerable moment they want to tear me to my most transparent layer that's what they say that's what they want they say that's how they want me

i don't want to be your fucking doll wearing a smile to meaningless my mask is there for my own protection asshole i use it as i please so please back the fuck off out of my space, this face is not for your amusement these thighs grip stories that erase your fucking needs don't you fucking tell me how to be you think you know truth? you wouldn't know how to feel real if it blinded you

and i'm tired of having to do something for you to feel anything and i'm tired of needing to be your one to make you feel you're someone and i'm done with stretching my skin to fit the face you say belongs to.. me.

where is the music that sings my song? which lash will lower this wild gaze?  whose hand will dip the cloth into the bowl?

i just want to feel ..too.

[lulumoondreaming]

neat chaos.

[lulumoondreaming]

i knew her when.. the ocean echoed her name in its breeze, where upon the cracked lips of the seas’ knees she would kiss with harmonies that begged for her breath the black and white keys under her touch, her fingertips weaving a sunrise in the horizon, her wild green gaze met with the storm in her iris, yes.. i knew her then, and i love her still.

[lulumoondreaming]

i dream a highway back to you love..

[lulumoondreaming]

a reckless danger flirts with me as the black eagle looks down with its wings outstretched what a powerful and enticing lover she is, no one has or ever will, come so close.. my lungs are pursed in the palms of her blue and white hands and i breathe her suffocatingly sweet caress with a breast that yearns to know something fearless. i fear to stay. jasmine.. jade pure petaled bliss upon my fingertips so i can touch your earth's wise scent.. so i can move my heartbeat once more.. -yet again, yet never before. 

[lulumoondreaming]

here..in the dark..where my lashes shut to see you.

[lulumoondreaming]

white porcelain smeared with red tears, fighting back the fears now of guilt and regret my hand moves like a dismembered limb mechanically, moving innocently hovering above emptiness there is nothing there now to caress, silly palm, close your fingers, clench that fist, for what exists is hollow except this void of tissue torn around a bed of bleeding tales, trailing, travelling the remnants of a gift  now grieved for

still, i thank you for the spirit of your kiss, even if it was a moment know that this ache will last as long as time takes to feel once again your beat inside my heart like a seed inside the fruit like frequencies of the universe like the pearl, pulsating for the shell to sing i anticipate this and long for you, my sun, for you are the closest i have ever been -to magic

[lulumoondreaming]

[lulumoondreaming]

blind faith is a false sense of the senses.

[lulumoondreaming]

don't doubt me when i tell you that i love you, he said and the wind whispered a song to me in it's breeze, a melody a voice echoes - fear is redundant

[lulumoondreaming]

morning shadows move the mist that sits between our lashes, shapes disappear, too tired to find the fog lights yet here we are standing still with woods that hold these trees like mirrors reminding us, there's more than one shade of green and leaning on the dampened soil new memories of trust recoil like bark that flakes to bare new skin, fresh life begin and teach me how to love this time, my cells spread like roots and i will not hide this time, the voice in these veins weave stories not scared to sing this time there is music echoed from the mountain's lips and for this, now and forevermore each molecule within me will rise to join the reigning constellations of our sky's night

-for your open palm has cracked my sorrow and lead me to dance.

[lulumoondreaming]

[lulumoondreaming]

and i see melodies stuck on rosin veiled strings bridged between breaths' secret spaces in the gnarled mazes of our lungs' abyss