Catalyst || Rhi and Lulu
rhiannon-lewis:
If Rhi had learned anything about Lulu in their time together, it was that you had to let her spend her anger in full before saying anything in reply. Otherwise you were just fueling the fire, and that was the last thing she needed to have to handle right now. Instead she listened, she toyed with Luluâs hand in her own and studied the damage done to her knuckles while she did so. âAround. London, Tokyo, Cardiff, Moscow for a bit. Anywhere that wasnât here.â She said simply, kissing Luluâs hand gently before setting it down on the sofa between them. Hearing Harperâs so-called love being voice had made a harsh little laugh escape her, and she stood, stepping away from Lulu slightly so she could hug herself and look at something other than the tears that she had caused. âHarper doesnât love me, he loves an idea of me. He doesnât even know me. Not really.â Rhi said sharply, mentally shoving herself into explaining the whole thing before the effort was beyond her capabilities. âI should have cut him off ages ago, but heâs too bloody nice, it felt like kicking a puppy in the face. And I didnât go home with him, I walked out on him after he threw that bollocks love of his at me when I was minding my own business at Inferno. Then I just kept walking, because it was too much, all of it.â It felt like the way her arms were wrapped around her torso was the only thing holding her up now, but she forced herself to make eye contact with Lulu now, otherwise the apology would mean absolutely nothing at all. âIâm sorry, love. Iâm sorry that I scared you half to death when I was breaking into bits over this nonsense. You deserve far better than that. I just didnât know what to do with any of it, and with otherâŚâ She sucked in a harsh breath and sunk her teeth into her lower lip, cutting her words short now that she realized that something else needed to be said in case Lulu decided to kick her out after this revelation. âIâm in love with you, not him. Always have been, Iâm realizing. What youâve got to understand is that when youâre my age, when youâre what I am, itâs so much easier to not get attached to anyone mortal. And I tried so bloody hard not to fall for you, I lied to myself and tried to play things as I had for years to protect myself.â Now she was crying herself, hot tears sliding down her cheeks in droves, but if she stopped now sheâd never start again. âBut everywhere I went, all I thought of was you. And now Iâve hurt you, and thatâs justâŚitâs wrong. Iâm so sorry, love.â
âMoscow? You were in fucking Moscow while I was-â Lulu mumbled in disbelief, fucking christ, she had been so wrong. Her heart shattering, no amount of perception twisting was going to make the devastation of being a cunt fool disappear. For once, she fell silent. Everyone was going to know, she realized, everyone was going know how stupid she had been. Running around town like a half-wit, too blind to accept whatever she thought Rhi had felt for her had been all in her head.  At the mention of Harper, she gave a disgusted grunt as she bolted off the couch, snatching missing person fliers up and bawling them up into balls as she looked around aimlessly at the mess that was her apartment. What a fucking joke. Posters of Rhiâs face scattered everywhere, staring mockingly back at her, while the real life one could barely keep her gaze on her. âEvery single day you were gone was another day I kept expecting to find you hung up and gutted for everyone to see so no, scared half to death doesnât cover the hell I went through. And now youâre telling me you left town because Nurse Harper pissed himself?â She said with a forced scoff, trying with all her might to hold on her anger than feel the pain. With gut wrenching  urge to start crying again, Lulu had to turn away before Rhi could see how incredibly hurt she was. Then as Rhiâs words sank in, she dropped the balls of paper onto the ground, a million expletives fit that moment but there was one that summed up by one colorful phrase. âHoly mother of Jesus Fucking Christ! When you come back from being dead, please for the love of god start off with telling the person that you love them!  Alright, because Iâm weak. Iâm so weak, I canât process information when I am literally feeling my heart breaking. Like the Cardiff thing, that went straight over my head because all I kept thinking was why you didnât love me. Why Cardiff? Nevermind, we can talk about it later, if you want, but right now I just want to kiss you.â Her feet having a mind of their own had already made their way to Rhi as she uttered the last of words. Lulu wrapped her arm around Rhiâs waist, pulling her gently close to her, smoothing her hair out of her face as she cupped her cheek. She felt warm and safe in Luluâs arms while whispers of adoration escaped from her lips as she wiped Rhiâs tears. Her lips feverishly meeting Rhiâs own, Lulu melted against her darling Rhi. It was slow and soft, a type of kissed that was shared by long lost lovers. savoring every second as though the kiss would be their last. The heartbreak she had felt, Harper, even the aching sensation of her busted lip dulled in comparison. Just a single thought: she loves me and I love her. And as their kiss came to a natural stop, Lulu sighed with a wolfish, delighted grin. With Rhi still in her arms, she didn't plan on letting her go any time soon.  âHonestly, itâs going to take more than a kiss to make me forget how angry I am with you. See this?â Lu asked while pointing out the superficial wound on her upper lip, it looked worse than what it really was. âI got this while breaking skulls trying to find you, babe. I was going to commit a felony just so I could see your gorgeous ass again. If that doesnât say love, I donât know what the hell does.â










