Luma Black

I don´t know what i am doing but i enjoy good writing and pretty art :) Ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/users/Luma_b Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/user/Luma-black

[luma-black]

Ich schreibe sehr gerne Gedichte (und das auch schon ewig) aber ich habe noch nie was auf tumblr veröffentlicht. Das möchte ich eigentlich ändern. Ich schreibe aber nur auf Deutsch. Vielleicht mache ich auch nen neuen Blog daführ. Mal sehen

Ein Abendessen in 5 Akten

Ein Mann zum Abendessen ging

Ein Akt zu dem er sich selbst zwing

Gefühle sind stark am Rumoren

Gen seines Herzens auserkoren

Seit Tagen schon beschwert die Last

Der Mann hat sich ein Herz gefasst.

Heute beim Abendessen nun

Will er es nun endlich tun.

Betritt den Raum, er guckt sich um

Ach wär die Unrast endlich stumm

Sies da!

Sein Herz macht eine Paus

Die Freunde sehn belustigt aus

Schaut sie ihn an? Sie ist betörend,

Der Abstand ist auch wirklich störend!

Die Spannung steigt, ein Blick hinüber

Ist das Verhalten schon darüber?

Was wenn…“, bloß nicht überdenken,

Er versucht sich abzulenken.

Doch Oh weh! all die Rücksicht,

Das Ende naht! Sieht er es nicht?

Jetzt kommts drauf an, was macht er denn?

Jetzt müsste er doch wirklich renn!

Eingefrorn vor lauter Graus

Gemeine Panik breit‘ sich aus

Enttäuscht. In mit der Hysterie

Der Mann entspannt in Lethargie.

Am Ende bleibt, trotz all der Krisen,

Sie hätte ihn eh abgewiesen.

[raspberry-twist-ao3]

You Were Something

Ilia Malinin/Mikhail Shaidorov | 8.3k words | rated M | archive locked

He reaches the door in three heavy steps and hesitates for a moment, his hand hovering over the handle indecisively. Ilia takes another steadying breath and yanks the door open. 'Dad, I told you I'm fine,' he starts to say even before he looks him in the eye, voice whinier than he intended. Frustration begins to boil inside him again. Can I have a minute alone, please? 'I just need a moment to myself to-' he pauses. 'You're not my dad.' Misha blinks at him. 'Um. No?' he says eventually and rocks back and forth on his feet. 'Can I-?' 'Why?' Ilia asks and immediately wants to hide his face in his hands. Misha laughs at him. 'I mean, why are you here?' he corrects himself, tripping over the simplest words in Russian. 'To see you,' Misha says simply and shrugs delicately, the laughter gone and replaced by uncertainty. 'Can I come in?'

[iriily]

"How many Einsteins have spent their lives washing dishes? How many Mozarts bent over stoves instead of pianos, because they had the misfortune of being born a woman?" Is such a raw fucking line you'd expect it to come from some huge feminist piece of literature from the 1970s but nuh uh it's from a random funkyfrogbait YouTube video

[midwinterhunt]

hot artists don't gatekeep

I've been resource gathering for YEARS so now I am going to share my dragons hoard

Floorplanner. Design and furnish a house for you to use for having a consistent background in your comic or anything! Free, you need an account, easy to use, and you can save multiple houses.

Comparing Heights. Input the heights of characters to see what the different is between them. Great for keeping consistency. Free.

Magma. Draw online with friends in real time. Great for practice or hanging out. Free, paid plan available, account preferred.

Smithsonian Open Access. Loads of free images. Free.

SketchDaily. Lots of pose references, massive library, is set on a timer so you can practice quick figure drawing. Free.

SculptGL. A sculpting tool which I am yet to master, but you should be able to make whatever 3d object you like with it. free.

Pexels. Free stock images. And the search engine is actually pretty good at pulling up what you want.

Figurosity. Great pose references, diverse body types, lots of "how to draw" videos directly on the site, the models are 3d and you can rotate the angle, but you can't make custom poses or edit body proportions. Free, account option, paid plans available.

Line of Action. More drawing references, this one also has a focus on expressions, hands/feet, animals, landscapes. Free.

Animal Photo. You pose a 3d skull model and select an animal species, and they give you a bunch of photo references for that animal at that angle. Super handy. Free.

Height Weight Chart. You ever see an OC listed as having a certain weight but then they look Wildly different than the number suggests? Well here's a site to avoid that! It shows real people at different weights and heights to give you a better idea of what these abstract numbers all look like. Free to use.

[midwinterhunt]

Oh geez you crazy people really did it. You've made my notes unusable for a full year and made it so i have a widely circulated post. I will be turning off notes for this, but before then, have some seconds!

DesignDoll, I can't believe I forgot to put this in the original post. This is how i make 3d bases. Has both free and paid versions.

Bodies In Motion, great resource for animating and seeing how bodies look throughout different parts of movement

Pixabay: Free stock images + sounds and videos and such

Museum websites with CC0 (public domain) images, big list of places to get copyright free works

MapCrunch, kinda like google roads, great for background references

ANY BOOK BY CHRIS HART

And for the writers who loved this, I made a post specifically for y'all

[luma-black]

I have no idea if anyone who knows the work will read this but my fanfiction "grasping at butterflies" will have a double chapter update tomorrow

(in part to make up for last weeks hiatus)

[luma-black]

"Hot take":

Creating AI generated images of people is weiiiird!!!

(Even if its "just" self insert pictures of you and a celebrity)

Explanation:

Today i saw a twitter post calling out a tiktok user for generating a photo of Zeta Division players Sitetampo and Sizuku. 1. it looked weird af and 2. there is no real shortage of clips with them both! They're roommates? Sitetampo litereally posts videos of their life.

Sizuku actually commented basicially "lol" underneath it, and it just seemed so uncomforteable?

This is 12 y.o. making a 19 y.o. uncomforteable :')

(there are multiple instances of younger fans of especially Sitetampo commenting weird stuff underneath a creator who he admires... and who is married btw)

Another example:

When wednesday s2 came out I saw so many people on tiktok generating pictures of themselves and owen painter. Seems harmless. Until u think about what ai is also used for. Generating non consentual sexual imagery for example? Also cp?

sorry for the rant, this just really annoyed me today...

[luma-black]

Just uploaded my first proper work to ao3 and wattpad 🫥

A little scared, but well see what happens...

New Aric Lesso character study; planning on uploading new chapter every week from now on

[luma-black]

Tedros got raped by Aric!? (SGE)

I did not see anyone talking about this :( Would love to hear if there is any disscussion about this already

Okay i am working on a Character Study of Aric and i just kept on noticing little things that my little 12 year old brain back then did not notice.

Firstly, there is this happening in " A world without princes" (Book 2):

"Tedros lifted his eyes to Aric, smirking in the open doorway. “Special occasion”, the captain said, cracking his knuckles. “Think I´ll do the punishing myself.” Tedros turned away, like a dog offering his neck. Arics eyes flipped to Filip. “Get out.” (p. 150)

Not really evidence for anything, could be a whipping. Then later:

"Tedros looked up from his bed, stopping her in her tracks. His eyes were puffy and red, dark bags beneath them. His skin had gone from tan to ghostly pale, the veins showing through them […]. There were no bruises on him. No wounds or welts. And yet, everything in his eyes said hed been tortured beyond what a boy could handle. […] “get away from me,” he whispered. […] (p. 160)

No outside marks but tortured beyond what his mind could handle.

Did Aric just point an tell him "Youre father is dead and your mother left you" over and over or was something more sinister going on.

Plus not wanting cotact with someone male and telling them to get away from them? Not just "get out" but "get away".

And then even later Sophie sees "Tedros clutching his own arms, barely able to walk." (p. 160)

So that refutes the theory of "just" verbal torture.

and another point:

In "One True King" (Book 6) when Tedros sees his innermost secrest in the Mirror:

"Tedros, stiffening as Aric came toward him in a prison cell, a whip on his belt." (p. 186)

The only other time we see Aric torturing Tedros is when Sophie stops Aric. So why would that be the secret? To add to that, I am also 99% sure, that that second part of the scentence was not added by Soman Chainani but by the publishers, sincethe scentence is also noticeably structured differently than the others (eg. two comma-scentences).

I would love to hear what others think about this topic!

Edit: a commentor made me aware of another instance of Aric’s torture methods being described in… weird ways. In Chapter 12 of “The Last Ever After” there is this scene: 

"'Aric send[s] us to the Doom Room to be tortured for rules he completely made up. He's tortured every boy in the school like ten times already.' [...] 'That kid is evil' 'and not in a good way' Vex muttered quietly. Sophie waited for them to elaborate, but all the boys glanced at each other in tortured brotherhood, before swiveling back to her." (p. 91)

Of course, nobody likes being tortured, not even most nevers, but as far as i remember nobody ever called the old torture master “Evil, and not in a good way”. Torture to them clearly is ‘good evil’. 

I do believe that this is another instance of rape being hinted at.

[luma-black]

writing my thesis on human zoochis is so tiring. There is no research and everyday i feel more hopeless

[muffyblogs]

Do you ever cycle through the same 4 apps on your phone over and over again and feel like a tiger pacing its cage at the zoo

[beefharlot]

[emptyportrait]

[luma-black]

Why do all writers have adhd?!

[luma-black]

If you play Hogwarts Legacy, you have to stop by at Bella Navarros in Cragcroft. I was there to sell some gear and...

What can i do for you my lovely~

Thank you for your time my sweet ~~~

adfhjdfhnnjfdsx i almost dieddd

[luma-black]

Sweet (short story)

Hi, please give me some feedback, because i fully intend to present this in my english class (The task was to write a short story with these words included: Coffe; Table; Tiramisu; Envelope; Bathroom; School)

“So, how was your day?” She smiled across the table. It was reassuring. “It was okay I guess, stressful, you know, school...” “Mhm” She took a sip from her coffee, not taking her eyes off me. “We had a maths test today.”

We sat in a coffeehouse. A piece of Tiramisu on my plate.

“How do you think you did” “Not too bad...”

She put her hand on mine. “I bet you did better than you expect it to go. You are good.”

Just a statement. I´m good.

We sat like that for a while, staring in each other’s eyes. “I missed this.” I said, breaking it. We hadn´t seen each other in weeks. She was a busy woman. An acclaimed author, always traveling the world. But no matter how long we didn´t see each other it always felt the same. Familiar.

We had found each other on Tumblr. Back then, she had just started writing and sharing her work. I had been a huge fan and she had been my biggest inspiration. A year later her first book was published, and she had the means to finally visit me.

She signalled at the waitress for the check. “I´m just going to the bathroom. You wait for me sweet. I´ll drive you to my apartment and maybe I can make the time worthwhile for you.” She winked and stood up.

I quickly pulled my phone out to text my mom.

Staying out late. Study group.

There she was again putting her coat over my shoulders.

“Oh, before I forget,” And she pulled out a white envelope, giving it to me. I opened it. A beautiful silver necklace fell into my palm. A Peridot as a pendant shimmering green and yellow. “It´s beautiful” She put it around my neck. “Anything for you sweet.” She said kissing my cheek. I knew that her lipstick would leave a red print, but for once I didn’t care. We exited the small building, and she led me across the street to her car.

[luma-black]

Random head cannon Ominis Gaunt#1

a random head cannon about Ominis Gaunt that i think about regurlarly

A random head cannon about Ominis Gaunt that I think about regularly.

What if Ominis only slept on silk sheets because other fabrics irritate him too much because he most certainly has his sense of touch more pronounced.  

[luma-black]

The night before (Sebinis Short story)

His legs were straddling Sebastians hips. Sun shone warmly through the window. The door was open, and a cooling breeze was relieving on their overly warm torsos. Birds were tittering and you could here wind going through trees. Sebastian lay on the couch, eyes closed, enjoying the feeling of the warmth, the wind, and hands on his naked chest.  

Ominis had his eyes Closed. He felt soft skin turn into that smooth feeling of one of the countless ugly scars, that littered Sebastians Body.

Sebastian took Ominis hand by the wrist and slowly guided it towards his face. Ominis could almost see his relaxed expression. His hair having grown. His curls never quite lying flat.

He sighed. Ominis was so tired, but he didn´t want to stop.

It was the night before.

Tomorrow their fifth school year would start. The cold season would come and with it the sadness and the hollow feeling of guilt.

Damarcus-

Gentle Hands brought him back to reality and the joy, the freedom, the relief all that touched his face bringing all the dark thoughts far away, burrowing them, but not killing them.

Grief can be helpful after all and Important. Never forget that,

He told himself.

The hand was slowly stroking his back and he let himself fall towards that warm body, which was catching him and engulfing him in something he didn´t deserve.

Sebastian felt that familiar feeling of clear blood being spilled on his shoulder. Calming both and coaxing the blanket of sleep upon the world.