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[johnnysilverhandssuitcasenuke]

[funnier-with-narcpd]

[zeravera]

smattering of ENA

[cor-vent]

Why is everyone hurting me. Mommy. Daddy. It hurts so much.

[thrashingdreamer]

Nos encanta su arte, es algo diferente, tienen un estilo que nos llama la atención y la forma en la que escriben es genuina. No saben cómo agradezco ver éso. -Johan Ahn.

this makes me so happy to read, I truly appreciate it. I put a lot of time into my work and often fear people may think its strange or something, i cant thank you all enough for your kind words :) ❤️

[lunargarden]

i always wanted to show you this picture for no reason i hope is ok thank you for being my friend

[cor-vent]

Memories

[cor-vent]

Been remembering my children and I don't know how to put memories about them into words, I can't even remember how many times and when I got pregnant. I thought I never gave birth and all were aborted but yesterday I had a feeling that I had a baby and touched his hand. I don't know, everything was so blurry like a dream or nightmare. My suicide program got triggered and I wrote down pages of words that didn't make much sense. I want to know what happpened to my children. Some alter inside told me I did give birth to two children but I don't know how it happened, and I feel extremely tired. I think I had a son and they sold him. I don't know, it doesn't help at all that I received messages from my mother who denies everything. I feel so empty.

[cor-vent]

I just want to look for resource to understand myself but every time the search results are filled with fakeclaimings that deny tbmc and ramcoa exist. I'm so fucking tired.

[thrashingdreamer]

there is no God.

unedited

[sacredidolsofhim]

I had a horrible nightmare that I was raped by a dog that resembled a wolf. The dog spoke to me like a person would and it sounded like both a woman and man. I think it was my handler’s voices. I’ve never had a nightmare like this before, at least, not one that I ever remembered.

It’s weird, but I don’t feel anything towards it (yet). I think it’s because I’m no longer at the house I’m being harmed at, just with those I love. I hope it doesn’t feel worse or settle in harmfully when I go back. I have a weird feeling it will.

[cor-vent]

[cor-vent]

Born to be raped

[roaches-inthecereal]

[uwuinhell]

[bloodforangels]

angel hunters

[sacredidolsofhim]

Pretty boys love their punishments

[sacredidolsofhim]

i think back to the wigs, suits, and dresses i used to where and how they attempted to remove every single aspect of my identity. it built a deep hatred for my culture, family, and many like me. i would happily let my hair be straightened and to be dressed however they wanted me to look, but now, i haven't straightened my hair since i ran away from home. i like my natural hair, i like my eyes, and my skin. i like me more than what they wanted me to be

[holy-hound-dog]

I had an absolutely mind blowing interaction with my father the other day.

So, he was complaining about how bad the mosquito are this year, which is fair because they are horrible this year. I can't enjoy the woods because it is just a wall of insects. So, so far so good, nothing objectional or odd there. No way for this conversation to take a sharp right turn, right? ...right...?

Wrong!

He then tells me, and now, this is not verbatim,.but he tells me something along the lines of "you'd think they'd have a spray for that by now/they better have a spare for that by now" and I say "yeah... they do..they have bug spray...." and then he makes is "i will look into that" sound and continues talking.

Obviously the man is deteriorating to some degree, I think the AI kick he's been on has completely fired what was left of his brain. His side also has a history of late-onset sctizo-spec disorders, I do not know which ones exactly. So thats something I've been aware of and keeping an eye on for a while. (Its not like id even be able to convince him to get help whatever the reason)