[lunarismss]

Intro post!!

Hiii! ^_^ I'm Steven! I'm a mood booster in our system! >w< I loveee jumpers, and kitties, and sweets, and my partner system!! This'll just be a blog for my thoughts and stuffs i likes! Id love to make more friends also!!

Bodily we are 27 and im personally 35! Please be 18+ to interact!

[rosees3ray]

reblog if it's okay for your mutuals to message you and create an actual friendship, not just interactions

[goatstrogen]

you can add me on discord and never say a word because i love you

[goatstrogen]

you can add me on discord and text me everyday because i love you

[lunarismss]

Finding out someone yous known for a while has been lying about a lot of stuff sucks really bad especially when weve known them for years and was close.. then it turns out theyre a really awful person and an abuser.. playing the victim and emotionally manipulating people... and we fell for it.. it makes us feel stupid for trusting them.. :(

[marvels-universe]

@giftober 2024 + @mcuchallenge prompt Day 16: Lights.

Moon Knight 1x03

[mournfulroses]

Emily Skaja, from a poem titled "No, I Do Not Want to Talk with You on Linkendin," featured in Brute: Poems

[yardsards]

but i stay silly! *←said in the most world-weary voice you ever did hear*

[lunarismss]

Havent beens too active here. Been feelings really unwell lately and fell off the face of the earth >_< we had a bad flare up of some of our chronic conditions but! Its okays now!! More energy now yay!!

Anyways curls up.. so sleepy.. i miss my source fellas.. miss my marc and my jake.. miss layla.. she was always so nice to me too. Wuh... ;; i wish they all knews how much i love them and care bouts them.. i wish i could tell marc thank yous for keeping us safe and letting me live a normal life, that i appreciate him so much for everything hes done... tell jake thank yous for always doing the dirty work but also that hes so much more than that and i wish i got to know him better... tell layla thank you for always showing kindness and being so sweet to me even if it mustve been upsetting for her to see her husband (marc) deal with this kind of disorder... (we weren't romantic in my personal memories)

I just. Feel lotsa love for those fellas and wish i had them here with me. Being a systems really hard sometimes.. i feel really lucky to have people in my life (here!!! In this body!!) who understands me and love me still despite it...

[hunnydoesstuff]

Steven Grant 𓆝 ⋆｡𖦹°‧🫧 Moon Knight

[gothredy]

[kaibacorpintern]

in the Egyptian wing of the museum and my boyfriend is like "what are all the time periods of ancient Egypt" and I'm like predynastic, early dynastic, old kingdom which is when the pyramids were built, first intermediate, middle kingdom, second intermediate, new kingdom which includes amarna period and yugioh, third intermediate, and then all the late period stuff and macedonian and roman eras. and he's like run that by me one more time

[faeberrywine]

ID credit: 783801473 on 小红书

(please like, reblog and give proper credit if you use any of my gifs!)

[monatoxin]

fish song

[lunarismss]

I wish our Marc was here..

[lucielovekj]

Ppl will be like “end the stigma around mental illness uwu” but still judge you if you’re unemployed or single or not completely self-sufficient or healthy or perfectly groomed or still live with parents and don’t see the hypocrisy in that whatsoever

[gupaooooon]

🌘3.30 MoonKnight 配信開始から3周年 🌒

[lunarismss]

Sometimes i feels like people would prefer if maybe i was someone else. If i wasnt.. steven grant..i dunnos. Maybes id be more liked if we was a different guy fronting... someone from a shared source with friends. Or maybe our partner would be happier if i was someone else and was from his source instead. I feel reallys out of place and its making me feel really sad? And i know its like!! I cants control who is fronting, or who we introject... but i dunnos it feels weird and isolating too at times. And maybes im just kinda being all.. i dunno weird abouts it? Seeing that people we know share sources and getting to talks bout that stuff.. and getting to all gets on well with eachother and allat. Or just seeing our partner like ship art or stuffs from their source. It makes me feel sad..? I know its dumb and stuffs cause i know logically im loved. Maybes its just a BPD flare up... wes been having them a lots lately and its been really awful... i just wants to feel enough and like i can be liked being who i am even if im not sharing a source or stuffs with any of the peoples im close with.

I dont knowssss >_< i thinks the past half a weeks been reals awful.. lots of feeling likes we aint liked by those around us. Even if logically i know we are!! I really thinks it is a bad BPD flare up and its making things so hard cause i feels sad and wants to be around the people im close with but i also want to isolate cause i don'ts feel liked or deserving of their company..

Bein a system is reals hard.. being an introject is hard.. i wish this stuffs was easier, i wish life was easier and we didnt get so screwed up :( i wish i wasnt feelings so insecure abouts being here and i wish my brain woulds do its job and switch someone else in insteads of making me stay frontstuck