[m1dorii]

im sad and i DO NOT want to listen to mitski

[m1dorii]

i was OBSESSED with black eyed peas between ages 10-12 lmfao i memorised every song of theirs

[m1dorii]

i need to understand the correlation between me having a crush on taboo from black eyes peas and getou suguru

[m1dorii]

shiny knees in anime need to be studied

[m1dorii]

i fucking hate that clock ittt hand gesture and the whole body language that accompanies it

[necroman666]

Watched Princess Jellyfish recently and really enjoyed it!

[meowmorials]

2006

[m1dorii]

what's the point of horses

[m1dorii]

donkeys are WAY better

[machi40h]

[m1dorii]

things i hate for no reason:

1. horses

2. blackout tattoos

3. ariana grande

[m1dorii]

what's the point of horses

[jams-sims]

I didn't know people were making Fifa yaoi of the big Vaking man and his ex teammate- they called them Gojo and Geto- gang what are yall doing 😭😭

[m1dorii]

fifa yaoi 💯

[m1dorii]

i think an important part of life is realising where your mental capability reaches

i'm really stupid, like more stupid than what i considered myself to be and i need to accept it

i'm grateful that my stupidity didn't land me somewhere bad but i don't think it would bring me anywhere better and i accept that too

i'm bored of everything but i'm not depressed

these days i feel more.. paralysed and emotionless

i feel like i'm pretending all the time and faking emotions

and i do it unconsciously

i don't have feelings about things anymore

no happiness no sadness

and i guess that's how it is

but at the same time i feel like i'm about to cry all the time, but not out of sadness

i just don't know what to do and how to react to many things

one of them being my stupidity

so whenever i get reminded of it i start crying

also another reason for feeling this stupid is the language pressure i face at work and how harsh judge myself for making mistakes

my expectations shouldn't be this high if my situation is like this, if my abilities are like this.. gotta lower the bar i guess

and i'm really good at hiding how mentally ill i am

i'm tired of sharing.. even to my therapist

i kinda hate her and i don't want to go to her anymore

and the others who i used to talk to or seek help from... yeah no.. i've seen how they think of other mentally ill/depressed people

[m1dorii]

when gojo said love is the most twisted curse of them all 💯💯

[m1dorii]

for the past two years i've only seen my father through low quality video calls

and now i saw a good quality pic of him and i can tell he's getting older

[m1dorii]

[m1dorii]

commissioned my friend to draw me a profile picture because i don't wanna use ai... and then she made one by tracing an ai generated image......... WOMAN BE CREATIVE