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Thinspo isn't enough. I need someone to walk up to me, grab my thighs, and whisper, "lose it, fatty"

#disordered eating mention #ana mutuals #th1nspø #th1gh g@p #th1ghspø #light as a feather #body dysmorphia #th1n$pø #thinspø #th1nspi

Does anyone that uses wattpad on here knows if there's been a glitch? I've tried logging on my phone and I though it was my password just not being recognized so i reset it a BUNCH of times. Then tried w just fb on the app and it said user not found or something. I panic changed the password sm times and now idk if it was just an app issue

Still not logged in yet btw

#wattpad

I always found it strange but good how my body finds a way to tell me I'm choking through my dreams as it starts or before it starts to happen irl.

I'm taking a while to fall back asleep

So here's what I'm thinking. Over and Over et encore et encore déjà :

Of course I don't take jokes as well as I'd like to. Especially the ones that play on feelings of abandonment of forgetfulness. Even when I seem to play along it looks like I've takenn it personally.

But I say 'of course' mainly because of my mom's reception of jokes. And my sister's. They both get offended to some degree and sometimes ask not to say it again after asking what I meant by it. They don't ask until DAYS after sometimes. Living with them, i found it annoying. Until the air was tense. Chuckling to a joke I found that I'd share but ultimately deciding to keep it to myself. Most times.

I'd never laugh at my sister's jokes too long. They were a lack of taste most times. My mother's were funny, vut as time grew and her random outbursts I decided not to bond for long over the small jokes that she could crack.

Now, I'm living with my fiancé, the sweetest man I've ever met; a joking menace when he wants to be. . . But I fear I'm becoming too joke sensitive. Like my mom or sister. And I grudge myself for that.

I overthink. I apologize. I... wish I knew where a joke ends. I wish I wasn't so sensitive

#thoughts #prose

Ego up bc ive got on a slimming leotard and my hair is just long enough to cover my tatas.

Also about to wash my hair😭

I got a hair botox treatment(to make my curls less frizzy) and to seal it in, one should/must flat iron... My hair pre-trim, cause it was almost waist length but the ends were deaaadd. But im proud my regimen is keeping it growing out

My partner said I'm a lot bonier that he thought 😂😂😂

I'm so fucking stressed bro

I ate way to fucking much yesterday and my weight is showing for it, especially through bloating

I genuinely hate the tension i have in my jaws and cheeks today

Baklava is so goddamn sweet wtaf

Here's your reminder to drink green tea, preferably unsweet, first thing in the morning

The things Caribbean moms will let you listen to casually(in the moment hoping you're not asking question 🤣) dance da dance mein

#Spotify

I looked bloated cause i had a sour strawberry frappuccino, but i got my piercing redid w my bestie🤭

The scar tissue from where it was pierced before made it a bit harder and STUNG like a mofo

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Trying not to celebrate toooo much, but down another 2 ish lbs,

From 136 - 132 - 129.8

I'll have a pear gerber sauce since it's almost lunch time and we have some food we ordered coming in.

Feel soo good about this. Especially since I'm in mu luteal where weight goes up

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So that went back to 132.4!lbs today😭😭😭

Trying not to celebrate toooo much, but down another 2 ish lbs,

From 136 - 132 - 129.8

I'll have a pear gerber sauce since it's almost lunch time and we have some food we ordered coming in.

Feel soo good about this. Especially since I'm in mu luteal where weight goes up

#disordered eating mention

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