mo's world

[mangosmangosmango]

Just general info on me:

My name is Mo, I’m 22, they/them for me plz

Autistic, Chronically ill (pain) + more i dont see the point in sharing 

I’m nonbinary/trans androgynous

I’m greyromantic asexual

My special interests are literature, writing, psychology, typology, bts, adventure time (animated media), music (main genres are rock and kpop). 

My hyperfixations are ever expanding...

[fluffyartbl0g]

Shout out to that one tumblr post that was like: "You know it's not just trans people who ponder their gender, it's healthy for cis people to take a look inside and be like! Yep that's all good!" And I read this post and was like.... like what do you look at inside though T O T??? I asked my boyfriend how he knew he was a boy and he said he just felt this unexplainable intrinsic feeling he was a boy... and I'm like... I HAVE GENUINELY NO IDEA WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT WTF 😭😭😭!!!!!!!! So apparently its like. Normal for people to feel this inexplicable 'Gender' feeling or whatever,,, I feel like how asexual people feel when they discover people around them aren't making up the fact they experience sexual arousal T O T

Obviously all my sciency stuff is just speculation! But I'm the type of person who believe that everything has a rationale behind it, and like an adopted child who is curious about their biological parents, I am just interested in my origins! The field of genetics still is mostly just like,,,, hmmm we think this whatever MIGHT be a contributing factor to a person turning out this way... maybe. If you are more interested in the topic I discussed, just look up 'epigenetics' and there should be some more stuff OuO!

I'd love to hear how this 'inexplicable gender feeling' feels to gendered individuals! For those willing to share, I'd love to listen!

[apuff-comics]

*remembers im aro*

[mangosmangosmango]

not gonna lie, somedays i just scroll through my old post like "they're so real for that"

[aubryjoi]

Did it 👍 (eventually)

[tanknaka]

hey

hey friend

dont kill yourself tonight ok

you have a really pretty smile and i know its not always easy to manage one but itd be a bummer if we never had the chance to see it ever again

youre really important and you matter a lot so stay safe and try and have a nice sleep

[landmineblogging]

[daysleftofsecondterm]

But only if you want to; to be very clear you don’t have to reblog it and are not getting a bad grade at Tumblr if you don’t

[mangosmangosmango]

i have no idea if im actually aromantic, reason being is that my gender, disabliities and asexuality might all be reasons i tell myself im aromantic. i do 100% believe im asexual but why i have trouble with understanding my aromantic identity is because whenever i think i might like someone romantically i feel as though the other person would be missing out on something that im unable to give them.

i feel like i cant give someone what they need or that i'll never truly be seen how i see myself.

for example if i'm were in a relationship with a man i dont believe he wont see me as a woman and i'd be forced into roles i wouldnt like. i cant give a man what he would want, i could never be a wife or a mother he would deserve someone who can love him the same.

another example if i were in a relationship with a woman it would feel like id have to be some kind of provider, i could never do that given my experience with multiple disabilities, i am not a man but i do present more masculine so i feel i would be pushed into more traditionally masculine roles.

alot of this is my own preconceptions and assumptions based on stereotypes i admit that but how do i know if i experience romantic attraction and just dont believe i deserve it out of some sort of internalized self hatred or i really just dont feel romantic attraction?

[mangosmangosmango]

yall if i told you what caused this identity crisis... someone please sedate me

[wolfythewitch]

Made this for me but I think you guys might like it

[cowardsexual]

rogy :]

[mangosmangosmango]

i have no idea if im actually aromantic, reason being is that my gender, disabliities and asexuality might all be reasons i tell myself im aromantic. i do 100% believe im asexual but why i have trouble with understanding my aromantic identity is because whenever i think i might like someone romantically i feel as though the other person would be missing out on something that im unable to give them.

i feel like i cant give someone what they need or that i'll never truly be seen how i see myself.

for example if i'm were in a relationship with a man i dont believe he wont see me as a woman and i'd be forced into roles i wouldnt like. i cant give a man what he would want, i could never be a wife or a mother he would deserve someone who can love him the same.

another example if i were in a relationship with a woman it would feel like id have to be some kind of provider, i could never do that given my experience with multiple disabilities, i am not a man but i do present more masculine so i feel i would be pushed into more traditionally masculine roles.

alot of this is my own preconceptions and assumptions based on stereotypes i admit that but how do i know if i experience romantic attraction and just dont believe i deserve it out of some sort of internalized self hatred or i really just dont feel romantic attraction?

[mrjingledingle]

Without hope, without witness, without reward 💙 💙 💙 💙 💙 💙 💙 💙 💙 💙 💙 💙 💙

That's how i felt working on this for 22 hours knowing damn well i couldn't add my favorite companion Bill 😭✌️ well at least Donna made the cut

Since the cancelation, i've been binge watching Dr.Who like crazy and getting nostalgic, even though i started watching the series about a year ago....wibly wobly timy-wimey aah

[whosehuman]

I think part of the problem even binary trans people have with non binary people is because they think its something we "choose" to "identify" as and not as something we * are *

[bearionette]

Based off this image ⬇️

[mangosmangosmango]

to the 30-40 year old man who had a 30 minute conversation with me about doctor who at the convention i went to yesterday…. I am so appreciative!!!

[mangosmangosmango]

It’s so disheartening showing my family something I am obsessed with my whole soul and they show no signs of being interested in anything I have to show them.

[eonslice]

hello world

[polarity-disturbed]

The noise I'm imagining the doctor making when they stub their toe from now on

[mangosmangosmango]

IM CRYING WTH IS THIS?!?! I NEED TO SEE THE DOCTOR DOING THIS MORE WHY DID THEY JUST SCRAP THIS