I can't pick a lane!

Weird alien doin art in a space ship

[mantisfriendd]

Hey, Hi! I'm Mattison Park, I draw, write, compose, and do too many other things!

(They/She) Genderfluid, Bi

I sometimes speak frankly on adult subjects or depict them in art, please keep that in mind.

I'm always on the lookout for connections! feel free to DM me!

Master List of my projects here

Below the cut is an explanation of my tag system, and more info for the nosy

🌻TAG SYSTEM:

I've tagged all of my art as "my art"

if you wanna see my music I've tagged it as "my music"

"bug hobbies" for anything I do that does not fall under another another tag

if you only wanna see the nonsense I've tagged all of it as "shitpost"

any thing I reblog is now tagged "re🅱️log" so you can mute that tag if you only wanna see my wholly original unhinged rambling and art.

"🅰️sks" is the tag for asks

"mantis thoughts" are for random thoughts I have, not much organization there

"radical metamorphosis" is my tag for documenting my journey into gender and sexuality, and any thoughts I have along the way.

"become cute" is my tag for discussing makeup, almost always overlaps with the tag above

"Mantis SOTD" my tag for my Song Of The Day, where I occasionally post a song and talk about it for a little bit

"obligatory mantis reblog" is me reblogging anything with a mantis in it, it's in my username, I'm obligated

"bug gaming" game related stuff

"Matti Tomodachi posting" posting Tomodachi stuff

"future projects" mostly for me to remember stuff I wanna do in the future

"good queer news" exactly what it says on the tin, I try to share positive queer news when I can because I feel that it is important that we not focus on the negative

🌻PRONOUN STUFF:

They/Them will always work for me, currently my preference is She/Her but I'll respond to any of the ones listed

I really like it when people rotate out gendered terms for me on a sentence by sentence basis i.e ("She's the cutest! I just wish they would sweep me off my feet! I would marry her right now!")

But I understand that is kinda extra, and can be a nightmare grammer wise, so just do whatever feels right, you don't need a PhD to talk to me.

🌻WANT MORE?

My website has so much cool stuff, please look at it it took forever because I'm very bad at coding (Sorry mobile users, it's not exactly mobile friendly, for now...)

mantis-friend.neocities.org

If you want to Email me feel free to email [email protected]

🛸

[mantisfriendd]

I'm listening back to this vocaloid song I wrote literally like a month before my egg cracked and like

At the time I was just kind of writing whatever came to mind.

but listening now, yeah this is a song about being trans, and I didn't even know it

I should finish making the video for the song.

[iys-cloud]

I just got. The single funniest dm I've ever received in my entire life

Characters in media fighting back against the mind control:

[gonzos-humansona]

my hips don't lie but they will exaggerate details, misrepresent the facts, and on occasion deceive via omission of crucial information

[mantisfriendd]

ask not for whom shall take you to funky town

for it is me

[onebadnoodle]

new oc :D do not steal XP

[chloesimaginationthings]

Vanessa is such a big sister to Gregory in FNAF,,

[shamebats]

[ayeforscotland]

It appears that JK Rowling’s team invited Jeffrey Epstein to the Cursed Child play and to a Harry Potter themed dinner.

This invitation was from 2018, long after Epstein had been convicted of soliciting sex from a minor.

Source + Source.

[ayeforscotland]

[curesforwritersblock]

no guys….i’m so happy...for you…..i’m not jealous….at…..all……..

[wildspringday]

[mantisfriendd]

god I'm still thinking about the Backrooms movie

[genderhardlyknower]

How would you guys suggest coming out to a big family?

I’m the youngest of 9. Yes, freakin’ 9. (Blended family, but still it’s big). Though they are all technically half-siblings to me, we don’t use step, half, or any other qualifiers. We’re family.

Even when you know that everyone involved is still going to love you, it’s a daunting amount of people to reveal your full self to.

So far, I’ve told two of my sisters (they are very supportive, and the three of us have a group chat where we chat about life, and I’ve confided some of my experience to.

As my hair grew longer last year, and my style became more androgynous, my parents finally (gently-ish) confronted me about it. It wasn’t under the best circumstances. My 70-year-old dad had broken a leg, and when I visited them my mom ended up asking me about it point blank, and I had the dreaded conversation with them then. They told me they would always love me and be proud of me, but they were going to need time with this. They were going to struggle with this.

I feel like we’ve landed in a decent place now, even if I do still tone down my style around them because I don’t want to change the relationship we have. Anyway, when they came around I told them, “Hey, you’re free to let the family know.”

I’m not sure how much they have done so, or if the word “genderfluid” has even been uttered. I came out to one brother relatively soon after coming out to our parents, but first asked him if he had heard anything about me from the parents. He said, “They said you’re getting in touch with your feminine side, and that’s why you hair and nails are colorful.” And I had to laugh at that phrasing of it, because it was kinda true. “Close enough! Lol” I said, and gave him the full story.

So I guess that basically means that my family knows, on some level, but nobody has come to me directly to ask the question.

To be clear I don’t believe I have any reason to fear anything actually dangerous if I came out to everyone in the family. My parents’ reactions were the ones I was fearing the most, and that turned out okay in the end. The most conservative of my siblings are still fairly moderate and appropriately hate the current government, so while they might not be used to seeing it, and there would be potential awkward moments, I don’t think any of them would be hatefully transphobic. I just don’t want any of them to feel like I’ve purposefully left them out of this. My appearance has changed a lot in the past year and a half, so it’s getting kind of obvious that I’m some kind of queer, but no one is addressing the elephant.

I’m thinking of writing up a text that I can either send to the sibling group chat, or that I can copy paste to individual messages with each sibling, leaning toward the latter. All of these people love me and I love all of them, I just want them to know me a little better.

Any thoughts?

[mantisfriendd]

Currently staring down the barrel of the same thing, so I don't know how much help I can be, but having come out to some more conservative friends, and my slightly misguided mother, I think I have some idea of how to go about it.

In my opinion it would be best to do it in person, I understand that with such a large number of people that is not always viable, but I have been one by one having small meetups with my friends and taking that as the way to do it.

My other advice that I learned elsewhere recently but didn't realize I was kind of doing accidentally is giving them space.

I read about a trans woman who came out at work then took the whole rest of the week off.

If anyone had something less then nice to say, they got it out of their systems before she came back to work.

Giving your loved ones time away from you to let it settle in and get comfortable with the idea of you being different is something I would recommend.

Coming out to each of my friends individually and then meeting up with them all to do D&D a couple weeks later really deflated the awkwardness that might have been there.

Also, and I know this maybe kinda defeats the purpose of coming out, but because I assume most non queer people don't know what "genderfluid" means, I have just been coming out as trans. People know what that means generally, but this is of course entirely up to you. For me this works out because I don't think I have much of a desire to be a man anymore, I'm mostly in-between woman and various flavors of NB so I round up for the sake of clarity.

Good luck on your coming out world tour!

[hockeydiva]

my collection

[keepcalmandcarriefischer]

So when Anakin Skywalker was a Jedi he looked like this

But turning to the dark side changed his physical appearance. Most notably his eyes, which became yellow (a very typical Sith transformation in many species)

And while I know that Wookies are not supposed to be able to be force sensitive and therefore cannot become Jedi or Sith, all I am saying is that

.... You know?

[alittleoptimistic]

There is literally no way I could have guessed where this post was heading

[mantisfriendd]

I'm really glad Deltarune soon but also it happens to land on the exact day and time of my ADHD appointments and I'm just a little bit upset about that lol

[honey-clementine]

sibling bonding