ESO & Skyrim Scribblings

[margravigne]

Returning to Camlorn Wishlist:

This has inspired something I'd love to be able to do some day in future content - go buy a loaf of Olwaf's cheesy bread with Darien in a repaired Camlorn. If there's any justice he was someone able to be cured by Alinon, because surely Darien loved that bread too.

What's something you'd like to be able to do if we're able to revisit Camlorn as part of a questline someday, and it's no longer a smoldering ruin?

[forgetful-nerd]

Spelling mistakes? I guarantee neither of us saw those at 3:00 AM Monday Morning.

[margravigne]

And sometimes you find yourself in both vehicles at the same time, because you need to step away from the writing for a moment or two and a new update just dropped on a fic you've been following

[margravigne]

There's nothing like the almost disorienting freedom that hits you moments after posting the final chapter of a fic that's had your attention in a deathgrip for months, and knowing it can't control you any more

[evildoer420]

someone should make an alarm clock that plays the nirnroot sound because it would wake me up in a cold sweat without fail

[margravigne]

Is it wrong that I immediately went and recorded/looped this sound file and downloaded it to my phone so that I now have a Nirnroot alarm?

[antigonehappy]

character who is sun-coded but not in the traditional ray-of-sunshine way. character who is sun-coded in the sense that they burn hot and bright and powerful, that they're a raging fury of fire and passion, and that maybe, just maybe, they are destroying themselves as they do so.

[binabees]

character who is moon-coded but not in the moody grumpy way. character who is moon-coded in the way they shine brightly in darkness guiding others. a character that is moon-coded with all their darker sides no one else can see. that they are lonely and lovely. doomed to watch on as the the person who gives them their light slowly destroys themselves taking the light with them.

[margravigne]

I'm seeing my Vestige as the sun-coded one and Darien being moon-coded here - Angélique's definitely the more violent of the two, and she's convinced there's a lot Darien deliberately keeps hidden by his flirty act, because she's read his diary - she knows what's torturing him and has her suspicions why, and by Coldharbour the guilt is destroying her.

[margravigne]

17th First Seed - Happy Birthday Darien

A new mount as a gift for the man who likes his current armor because it has lions on it 💕

(although I had to change the colours, his canon gambeson looked like it had been scavenged from a sulphur pool ten years after someone left it soaking to remove a mustard stain...)

Probably his favourite chair, too 😉

[margravigne]

What inspired your OC?

I had someone ask me in-game a few days ago about my PCEU main Angélique - they wanted to know if she was based on me or not.

I'd intended her to be a copy of my 19-year-old-self back before certain events in my life, so that I could imagine living through her as a version of me who never went through those things. Which is one of the reasons the Angélique in my fic has near-total amnesia of anything before waking up in Coldharbour and meeting Varen and Lyris, (other than a few scattered flashbacks of the hooded figure and of being sacrificed), the others being that narratively it's easier to use her amnesia for exposition, and I'm sticking entirely to the canon dialogue so I won't have much opportunity to share a backstory anyway, but that's beside the point here.

Then today I found an old ID card, with a picture of that 19 year old girl, and she and Angélique look almost nothing alike in facial structure or expression, other than both being redheads with blue-green eyes. At first I found it hilarious just how much I'd screwed up in character creation by trying to design her based on memory, and wondered if I should show my old pic to the person I'd been discussing Ange with, to share the joke, but... I don't share pics of myself, and it felt a bit weird to think of doing that. Then I asked a friend, with the added question of whether I should change Ange's appearance to 'correct' it, and he pointed out that if I did, would she even be Angélique anymore?

And he really got me thinking... this character has developed a personality of her own over the years (she started on PCNA as an alt long before I made her my PCEU main last year), and she deserves to be treated as herself now. She may have sharper features than the girl in the picture I found, but those suit the more sarcastic, volatile, dangerous person she has become - and she's earned that. The girl in that picture looks younger, softer, far more naïve and hopeful, (he called her a 'fairy') and she's long gone now. In Ange's case, she's who Mannimarco killed, the corpse he had his undead servants drink from and later raised - the dead girl my Vestige may have once been but no longer remembers being or has anything in common with, and changing Ange's appearance now would be like trying to turn her into someone she isn't, and shouldn't have to be.

I probably have more in common with Angélique's personality now (other than killing people, of course) than I do with that girl in the picture - I'm older, wiser, more experienced and far more cynical (maybe even a little paranoid) but I hope I've kept some of her optimism - and in a lot of ways, I should be proud of that difference. I haven't had Angélique's experiences, but living them through her both in-game and while writing has helped me process some of my own, and taught me a lot I needed to learn about myself.

I've loved this game for being my escape and a source of enjoyment through the years, but it turns out it's also provided healing and self-discovery, at a much cheaper rate than a therapist.

And I hadn't fully grasped until now how much that's changed me.

[shardlily]

Big thank you to all the creators out there ❤️

[margravigne]

A little bit of seasonal silliness - Happy Hearts' Day everyone 💕🌹🪻

Volume on for the punchline 😉

[margravigne]

I absolutely adore this - his expression, the hand on her back - I'm so lucky to have mutuals who will patiently indulge my "don't move, I want to try something" moments. Thanks to @housefathryon for supplying the lap and @nightingaletrash for taking much better resolution pics 💕

[yesornopolls]

Have you ever worked in a retail store at Christmas?

Yes

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Voting ended onDec 30, 2025

[margravigne]

Dear gods, why do you have to remind me of that trauma?

[ghostwriterofthemachine]

Goddddddd thinking about that narrative moment when something horrible is happening and the character who has been frantically trying to come up with a way to fix it and getting more and more frantic and panicky just—stops. Because. Oh. There’s the solution. They’re not getting out of this alive but like. It’s a solution for everyone else. Okay. Okay.

[antimony-medusa]

Why would you do this to me.

[ghostwriterofthemachine]

and!!!! like!!!! obviously this is delicious when you hit your Self Sacrifice Archetype with it, but honestly I think it's even chewier when you give it to, like. someone with a selfish streak. The one with some arrogance who's maybe not quite a team player. leans more towards loner. Give this moment to the one party member who has been shown to prioritize their own survival over everything else.

And then the eye-of-the-storm realization of "Oh. Huh. I am not making it to the end of the story. but everyone else is going to. Isn't it strange, that I'm not more upset?"

[margravigne]

Darien has been the absolute poster-child of using self-sacrifice as a 'solution'. Verandis has made this call a few times now too. Seeing Abnur Tharn do it? That was a shock. Total against-his-usual-play call there. But I swear, if Jakarn ever does, it will be the first sign of the end of the current Kalpa.

[holmesandtheroman]

NOTICE: As more and more fanfic writers are using generative AI for their works (you uncreative dweebs), I hereby swear on everything I hold dear that I have not and will NEVER use generative AI in ANY of my written work. Everything I post will be organically and creatively my own.

[margravigne]

Can it even be called 'fanfic' if it isn't the creation of a fan? If it hasn't come from a place born of obsession, causing you an agony of self doubt while second guessing whether you've done the source material justice?

How can a story be given a soul when it's written by code, not compulsion?

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

[margravigne]

Me, currently trying to make a chapter convincingly sound like it's told from a particular NPC's POV and not my OC's.

[margravigne]

[margravigne]

All this time, has our Breadboy's love of a good loaf just been a subtle joke by his writers in reference to what he's being forced to endure?

[margravigne]

Darien's Sliders

I've been seeing a few other Darien-clones running around on PCEU/PCNA recently, and it's always a fun interaction. So for anyone wanting to build their own Darien, I've pasted the sliders I use below the cut. I can't tell you how entertaining it was tracking him down all over the place in his different models on the PTS to fine-tune these. They may not be exact, but it's pretty hard to tell the difference.

I'll add a revised breakdown of his outfits and their dyes in a day or two when I get some time to take a look.

Also, the 'Male Breton Voice E' is Jon Curry, so it really will (mostly) sound like Darien too.