in the spirit of someone accusing me of faking asd -
things about me that are atleast vaguely attached to my autism
(happened on tt and irl ,not tumblr)
i have been in school for a little over a month since i just stopped going last november
the last two weeks i have only went in on a monday and still missed like atleast 2 classes a day
i havent went in at all this week and have yet to show up on a wednesday since joining
i have only eaten chicken noodle soup without chicken or veg and cereal(one brand,one type) for the last 6 months
the school had already called my mom complaining about my attendance
i have so much trouble paying attention and focusing that ive been tested for ADHD twice .i do not have ADHD ,thats just another part of my autism
i have had depression ,diagnosed since i was 9-10
i was called an alcoholic by my first camhs worker(11) ,current camhs worker(15) and the doctor that first referred me to camhs ;-(
i have a hoarding problem !i still have all my old artwork ,report cards , cracked ipad that doesnt work ,multiple full sketchbooks from when i was 7-8 ,posters i dont put up ,toys and dolls from when i was like 5 and every book,cd,dvd and even some tapes that i just kind of keep in my room (yes , not a good thing but if i dont laugh ill cry so suck it )
i have one friend that 1 isnt related to me and 2 has stayed my friend for more then 6 months at a time
i used to only speak in quotes until i was like 6 or so
much to my parents dismay the only quotes i was good for memorizing were from stupid nerdy shows,videos (httyd,fnaf,creepypasta,vocaloid type of stuff )
i was an extremely off putting child
i hated doing sports or just leaving the house in general
when we moved during covid multiple kids in my estate came up to the wall to see me because they genuinely thought i had died or gotten hospitalised
i have a genuinely really bad substance abuse problem !!
i regularly get so nervous about going to school that i genuinely make myself sick
im not good at talking to people ,like ever
even in my own house i rarely leave my room
i cant eat in front of most people ,since i was little i would eat even christmas dinners in my room or sitting on the stairs
one year for christmas instead of talking to literally anyone i just sat up stairs in my nanas house for the whole 8 hours ,my family thought id walked to my friends house down the road
i regularly forget to eat or drink for so long that i get dizzy,cant stand up ,get the shakes or lose my vision for a few seconds
i often end up ghosting my friends both online and in person
the only person to deal with that is bee ( watson)
if she doesnt hear from me for awhile and i dont answer she calls my actual parents to make sure im still like living
last november for no specific reason i can remember i tried to od
watson came over 2 days later to stay the night and called my mothers phone to talk to me while i was in the hospital
she gave out to a teacher for making me cry despite me saying i was actually fine and i just do that sometimes
i have crippling rsd and was told i had executive dysfunction at the ripe old age of 12 ,how that differs from depression im not sure