Marion

Desperately in need of red bull everyday

[marions-stupid-life]

Uhh intro ig bc I’m new here :p

My name is Marion but I go by Kam or Mari

6teen!!

Bi

She/her

Taken (not really I’m just delusional over my crush)

“Ich hab dich lieb” 🎵

TW!!!!!!!

I will be posting/reblogging stuff that has to do with SH, suicide, depression, and loneliness. I might post about other things too like my interests, but the things I listed are going to be the vast majority of my posts.

Likes/Interests:

• SH

• Speech and Debate

• Squid game

• Amphibia

• The Owl House

• Anime

• Zero Day

• House

• Everybody Hates Chris

• Severe weather

• Discord

• Video essays

• Roblox

• Minecraft

• Piano

• Bedrotting

Random stuff ig

I might seem very standoffish but I’m really nice pls be my friend!!

I ❤️ R&B

I have diagnosed depression and undiagnosed ADHD and AVPD

I don’t really have a DNI just don’t be rude.

Discord: marion_is_stupid add me pls I NEED FRIENDS 😭

Uh yeah that’s all ToT

[ch0co-c0rn3t-lov3]

my day ends up 1000 times better if i listen to good music throughout

[m7santhropy]

“ You had a hundred billion chances

and ways to have avoided today . ,,

[notonelover]

[stpdgooglesearches]

how to make people understand that the ability to functionally socialize does not mean a sudden desire to continue socializing

[girlzoid]

isolating isnt enough anymore i need to not be a person

[buriedrotten]

I HATE QUESTIONS STOP ASKING ME QUESTIONS MY ANSWER IS ALWAYS I DON"T KNOW

[bebx]

the high and the ecstatic feelings you get when your hyperfixation first hits you are honestly better than any drugs

[marions-stupid-life]

Just started drafting the first paragraph of my new OO even though my next tournament isn’t for another 4-5 months

[bloodyonyxposts]

i’ve been wanting to cvt but i’ve just been too lazy and busy to, and like i really don’t have a reason to other than i just want to

[evangelline-wow]

Gonna start using 4 chan as an experiment to see how fast I'll become radicalised

[marions-stupid-life]

I think I’m finally starting to realize that no one will ever love me because I’m a stupid fucking idiot who can’t get along with anyone and I don’t want to torture others with having to deal with me

[girlzoid]

i dont "struggle" with isolation, i'm actually soooooo super fucking good at it

[marions-stupid-life]

“There’s nothing wrong with you! You’re just acting out!”

I will shoot myself in front of you.

[marions-stupid-life]

My parents think they’re helping my depression, when they’re doing the complete opposite.

[theseasonofs0up]

i love when people ask if i’m okay

like yeah obviously

i’m thriving actually this is my best

If you ignore the part where

i feel like I’m not around in my own life but whatever

it’s not even sadness anymore

that would be convenient

at least sadness has a shape a reason a beginning middle end

this is just

???????????????????????????

like my brain hit an error screen and decided not to reboot

and now i’m just walking around doing things saying things

none of them feel real

especially me

and everyone else is like “just talk about it”

about WHAT

the fact that i feel like i’m watching myself exist from like five feet behind my own skull

the fact that everything feels fake but also too heavy at the same time

the fact that i can’t tell if i’m numb or if this is just who i am now

because that’s a fun thought

love that for me

and i keep doing normal things

laughing texting being a person

which is crazy because internally it’s just

static static static

like a tv that lost signal but no one turned it off

and the worst part is

i don’t even have the energy to freak out about it anymore

like congrats

you’ve officially broken me to the point where i can’t even react properly

that’s impressive honestly

and yeah

i don’t want to be here

not in a dramatic way not in a “cry for help” way

just

in a tired flat “can i log out now” kind of way

but instead

i wake up

again

and again

and again

same body same brain same noise

no exit screen no pause button

just

this

constant

fucking

noise.

[jiraicatgirlsunny]

My dream?? To look pretty and aesthetic when I eventually end it all.