moving on
A very nice concept. One I’m guessing you know I’m not very good at, given that you sent this. I’m working on it, I understand in theory it’s unhealthy to keep letting my past define my present. Sometimes it’s harder not to fall into in practice, but I am seeing someone about my issues and I’ve been working on changing the actual behaviors that make me miserable instead of just being like “fuck everything, it’s my shitty childhood/shitty father’s/shitty environment’s fault I’m this way and I’m not actually going to do anything to change it.” I can’t keep making the same stupid, self-destructive choices and expect different results and I’m starting to get that now. It doesn’t mean sometimes I don’t still want to revert to that default though, because it is easier.















