I want to be magic

Liminal being, betwixt and between worlds and words and needing an empty sky and someplace to be flying. I am on the fringes of fandoms and I am missing magick I once had. But here is where my lives merge and I pull the ley lines of my life back.

[lovingrot]

i miss being 5 years old and collecting the static from the tv with my hands

[spelldealer]

check out the grain on this piece of driftwood

[malglories]

“I lost a God once. It’s easier done than people think. Forget a prayer once in a while or simply grow grief in your kitchen window along with the basil and rosemary. Somewhere inside my heart, I misplaced my faith, misunderstood my own origin story, became a person half tragedy, more misery, and I started to relish it.”

— Nikita Gill, from A Mortal Interlude in “Great Goddesses: Life Lessons From Myths And Monsters” (via adrasteiax)

[andysambrg]

ハウルの動く城 Howl’s Moving Castle (2004) dir. Hayao Miyazaki

[exitwound]

jacqueline woodson

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

you’re putting magic into the world with every stitch you make, every painting you create, every note you play, every word you write. everything you create and put out into the world will touch or inspire someone. everything you keep to yourself will be special and personal, like a mosaic piece of yourself that will last forever. all the little things you created into the world will like a museum exhibit of your existence, and your own love letter to the universe.

[kermitreactions]

[firstfullmoon]

i keep thinking of this

[body5000-deactivated20180929]

im 12 years old sitting on my bed reading it’s midnight it’s summer my window is open the crickets are very loud but very soothing my room smells dusty and warm and no one else exists. im 12 years old. the feeling never goes away.

[eucalyptus-sage]

being known is being loved

"i know your pizza order" "you have freckles on your ears" "you make this face when you're tired" "you order green tea on a good day black on a bad day" "you always make that face before you try something" "the tips of your ears turn red when you're angry" "i knew you'd say something" "you must be exhausted to miss the class" "your favorite pie is pumpkin, right?" "i know your phone number, don't worry" "you miss me, i can tell" "you fiddle with your pens when you're bored" "you don't like converse unless they're high tops" "your favorite cereal is cinnamon toast crunch and you first ate it when you were 8"

being known is being loved.

[st4rrg1rll]

i can always tell how my best friend is feeling even when she’s hiding it, and she says, admittently, “how do you know that?” and before reading this i’d reply, “because i know you,” but now i think i will start saying, “because i love you.”

[owlmylove]

i may not know a lot abt life but i know it’s how keith haring said “touching people’s lives in a positive way is as close as I can get to an idea of religion” and how kurt vonnegut said “and I urge you to please notice when you are happy, and exlaim or murmur or think at some point, if this isn’t nice, I don’t what is,” and olga jacoby said “to leave a good example to those I love [is] my only understanding of immortality” and felix poswolsky said “I think we found the answer to the universe which was, quite simply: spend more time with your friends”

[wheresmybubble]

Life can get overwhelming sometimes. Remember to practise a little self care!

Books - http://debbietung.com/books

[inkskinned]

i would give you every hope back, do you know that? if i could, i’d fix us both a table for tea and we could sit under a sunbeam. and i’ll read you poetry and you could tell me - i do not chase happy, it chases me. i’ll feed you every half of every cookie. divide up life like - one for you and one for me.

[burningmine-deactivated20230217]

Cougar Mountain, October 2020

[carfuckerlynch]

[transcript: 1. “this is the year you begin. slip into the sweet mud. get dirty. stay dirty. there is nothing to forgive.” 2. “i kneel into a dream where i am good & loved. i am good. i am loved. my hands have made some good mistakes. they can always make better ones.” 3. “you do not have to be good. you do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert repenting. you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.” /end transcript]

jeremy radin/natalie wee/mary oliver

[comfydarkme]

I sit with my grief. I mother it. I hold its small, hot hand. I don’t say, shhh. I don’t say, it's okay. I wait until it is done having feelings. Then we stand and we go wash the dishes.

-- Callista Buchen, from Taking Care

[inkskinned]

Actually life is beautiful because the sound I make while trying to breathe around hot food sounds like my dog trying to eat an apple. When I yawn my cat tries to put his face in my mouth like a little dentist man and when he yawns I put my finger in his obligate-carnivore trapzone and we both know he will not hurt me. When I do not fold my clothes, they do not hold it against me.

I am demonstrably sad, and lonely, and full of fear. But there are other people who will hold my hand, who will point out the hawk overhead, who will give you That Look in a public place. The other day at a coffee shop a child said "look! It's snowing!" so all of us strangers went to go look out the windows. It wasn't the first snow and it won't be the last but wasn't it lovely like that?

How wonderful to live in a world where birds and frogs both say beep! How wonderful to have an ocean of beautiful sharks with their dinosaur teeth! How wonderful the moon and her changing face, how wonderful the bees and their dancing to communicate, how wonderful shrimp and their forbidden layers of vision! How wonderful, you, and what you will give the world! The way we love things enough to spend entire blogs devoted to them? How people will let me explain my Pokemon team to them? How we will both jump at the scare in the movie, how we laugh so loudly, how it feels to give someone your baking? How wonderful to be alive. I am sorry for forgetting.

This is the process of getting better. With wonderful people and wonderful strangers and wonderful friends: I am getting better, slowly. Thank you, whoever you are. In some way, you've been wonderful, and left a wonderful place in the world to ripple out to me. In some small way - isn't it beautiful - I promise, you've been helping.