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I really wanted to go to med school. Like yes finally I think this is what I really wanted aside me being a pharmacist. But I think its one of my dreams that won't come true. I'm somewhat confident that I can make it through the rough path of being a doctor. I'm smart and hardworking and patient. Even my friends know that I can make it. But you know not everyone can afford med school. The tuition, the books, the allowance, the dorm. My friends say go try PLM or CSU. But hey I'm smart but not that smart to get in PLM and have 90-95 score in NMAT and CSU is way way far from home. I already live in Manila during my college and if I were to study Med I want it to be somewhere near my home like Manila or even Laguna or Cavite but not Northern Philippines.

So yes good bye med school. Hello PharmD. They allow me I mean my parents to be a doctor in a way they can afford which is doctor of pharmacy in CEU. Not that bad I guess.

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Know what I hate being on a large group of people even if all of them were my friends or relatives. I get so uncomfortable and sometimes I can't breathe and somewhat I start panicking on whether how to act around them. I don't know if I'm really shy or my social development was somewhat underdeveloped. I am not also the kind of person who loves dates with friends because somewhat I run out of stories to tell or words to say and felt that I was kinda boring. So for my friends out there you are one lucky being if I ever ask you out for lunch or coffee coz girl I'm not the person who loves to go out and meet up.

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Is it just me that doesn't feel anything on the movie of To All The Boys I've Loved Before? Like where are all these hypes about Peter Kavinsky coming from when they haven't even read the books? Like c'mon dude Kavinsky is way way way much better in the books. He is sweeter and gives you all that feels and the he's so swoony in the books. Peter K in the books makes you feel so loved and everything. Don't get me wrong Noah Centineo is really cool and hot but the Kavinsky on my mind is way way hotter and handsome than him.

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Hi!

A story that is too long to read: My bookshelves have been invaded by law books; which in turn, left me with no choice but to keep most of my fiction books in a box. Inevitably, the box and the books were feasted by termites. The books on the photos above were, luckily, some of those I kept in the bookshelves. The termites thing is a traumatic experience for me; ergo, I’d rather send my books away.

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So kaklase ko yung kasama ko sa work (kaklase ko sya nung college for 1 and a half yr mula 3rd yr 2nd sem) pero grabe di kami alam mo yun naguusap. Kakastress sya kasama kasi walang pakisama. Ok naman kami nung PA kami lang naguusap, nagtatawanan tas sya andun sa kabilang dulo nagmamine sweeper. Naririndi na ako kakaclick nya ng mouse. Tinatry ko magstart ng convo pero isang tanong isang sagot. Kahit naman nung college tahimik talaga sya pero hanggang dito ba naman di nya kikibuin mga kasamahan nya sa work? Pano na lang sya pag sa bigger company? As in di ko kinakaya katahimikan lalo na pag kami lang dalwa magkasama. Nanunuod lang ako movies sya naman naglalaro. Ako naman mabilis gumaan loob ko sa nakakasama ko sa work pero sa kanya grabe as in walang imikan. Naiinis na din ako kasi one week na nga sya wala next week coz leave tas di pa nya mapagbigyan request ko na magmorning ako bukas kasi uuwe ako sa amin. Feel ko di talaga kami magiging friends. Kastress si ate guuurl. Yawqna

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Minsan gusto ko na lang magresign on the spot when things get so tough or toxic sa branch. Minsan mauumay ka na kumausap sa mga patients buying meds especially mga senior citizen. Then maiisip mo pag nagresign ka san ka kukuha ng pera for everyday needs plus ang hirap na naman magadjust sa bagong environment.

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Hirap maging adult. Hirap kumita ng pera pero ang dali magwaldas. Hirap makahanap ng work na gugustuhin mo pasukan everyday coz you love what you are doing. Hirap if you are in your early 20s kasi you felt lost. Like di mo alam san field ka lulugar in your chosen profession. Feel mo nasa marathon ka on success when you are on this age kasi ang daming pressure but deep down you really don’t know yet where you are heading. Minsan mapapaisip ka what if ‘magaral na lang ako ulet?’ But then are you just trying to escape the real world and dodge the thing about adulting? Its like whenever I look at everyone I’m getting left behind- like I’m always here at the starting line and having no progress in life while everyone is already in the middle of their so called success.

Am I the only one with these thoughts? Its so difficult to be that achiever but at this point in life where you are already in real world, you don’t achieve something yet in life.

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I felt that I had no progress in life. I never thought of any profession aside from being a pharmacist. I knew from the start that this is what I really wanted but when I finally became one, I really don't know what career path in pharmacy that I want. I know. I'm still young. I'm just 22. But you know I want to finally find a career that would make me feel fulfilled as well as contented. Something you can finally call as passion in work. I want to stop searching in this vast place called real world for the self fulfillment that I wanted to have since I graduated. I don't want to wake up every morning and think if I am just wasting my time on my work that I don't really love. I don't want to drag myself anymore to work just for my salary. Its difficult. Difficult to find the career path that really suits you.

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What if after all these years of chasing your dreams and finally having it, you realized that it is not what you really wanted in life?

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Bakit tila ako ang extra sa storyang ako dapat ang bida?

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How can a story just end even without starting it?

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That girl is his home, but I am his refuge

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Why do I find it hard to rekindle the friendship I had with my old friends?

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Do you ever feel that you've been waiting for so long to hang out again with your old friends and when it is finally happening you want to back out, too lazy to go somewhere? That all you want to do is stay at home and read a book. Not that you don't want to see them but you just felt tired of the travel time and all you just wanted right of the moment is to lay down all day on your cozy bed

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I'm that type of friend that lose touch or communications with you. Like at one point we are super close but when distance get through us I don't know how to keep in touch or even convey my feelings on how I misses you because I fear that its only one sided - that I am the only one who misses, who want to see you in person and hang out again. I suck in maintaining relationship with friends and I admit a shitty one because of miscommunication. At first I constantly message you but when I feel my presence was not needed anymore or if I feel 'oh ok she was not as elated anymore to talk to me unlike before' I start to drop off talking and being there with you. I feel like a burden by being so clingy so I just stop and just keep to myself how I misses you guys.

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2. Let love find you not the other way around

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Smile and let the world knows that no matter how many shits life throws at you, you stand strong with head held high and a face showing you are game with anything