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Sometimes when I’m writing, I just suddenly get fascinated by how surreal it looks. Like, I think of a word and my hand just naturally draws letters without me having to picture the written word in my head. I just look at my hand writing as if it was its own entity. It looks cool.
I create different characters with different traits of my autism without noticing so none of them are autistic but they just have random autistic traits thrown in.
Ok so I saw an article that was labeled "august blues" and "summer depression" and they had this reason why you may feel down in August (among other things like "oh no the temperatures are dropping and the days are going shorter") :
"When August comes around, you may ask yourself: Summer is almost over, where did it go? There’s a sadness to the ending of the season"
This is not summer depression, it's literaly the opposite. That rubbed me the wrong way. If the reason you feel bad in August is that the summer is almost over, it's not summer depression. Why would we be sad that the worst months of the year for us are over ?
Basically half of the article was about how "summer depression" is how you feel sad because the season is too short and, please, no. Have you felt how LONG summer is ?
I was born on the same day as Saiki Kusuo
That’s it. I found it out today and I can say even more that he’s my spirit animal
Today on heteronormativity “Instead of trying to find people that he tried to seduce, we should try to talk to those who lost their lovers because of him.” My corrector : “women he tried to seduce” ? Ma’am. Not everyone is straight.
There is no one on this Earth with a perception of reality more opposed to mine as those who feel like winter is the longest season. We literaly have polar opposite perception of time.
Winter is slow, yes, but in a quiet way. Snow makes everything fluffy, sounds are less loud and less omnipresent, there are less different colors, so I can finally put my senses to rest. Winter is, to me, comfy season when I can enjoy a hot drink or meal wrapped up in a blanket and write while looking at the white sky and, if it's snowing, enjoy the soundproofing. I can be productive, I can sleep, I can control the temperature around me to always be what I need. It passes by so fast, too, winter feels like a short-lived spark.
Summer, on the other hand, feels stretched out. Everyday is so long I can't see when it's gonna end. Lights are strong, sounds feel louder, there are more people outside, the heat drains my energy, the sunlight overdose messes up my sleep schedule, the heat lowers my appetite so I eat less and my day isn't cut clean in periods, I can't drink tea so my morning routine is messed up and I'm also less hydrated because I usually drink 5-6 teas a day. Every day feels like a drag. Everytime I look at a calendar and see only a week has passed in what I felt was a month, I get more depressed. I lose track of time and memories with it, because what happened yesterday feel like forever ago, and I often find myself saying "the other day" about things that happened on the exact same day. My brain is all over the place with uncontrollable thoughts that I can't grasp and I end up incapable of focusing and doing anything. Not to mention any heat above 15°C already has me in sweat and it can go up to 40-45 in my country.
This is not to say people who feel like winter is the longest season are wrong in any way, of course. But I am amazed at how different our perception of time is every time I hear someone say that the summer was too short, while in my head I just feel like I lived two years of excruciating heat and overstimulation. The human brain and its depiction of the world is really fascinating.
I've been trying to sleep for 3 hours. So far I have had
7 different songs stuck in my head
Three different comversations with my mum in my head about aphantasia, aromanticism and asexuality
One conversation about fetichization of homosexuality
One conversation about overwatch
Five tries at invoking any image in my head and failing miserably at creating more than vague shapes that dissipate after a second
One weird "my body is changing shape" experience
Twenty different but equally unusual ways of laying on my bed, including having my feet against the wall on the right of my bed with knees up, lying across the bed, legs straight above the nothingness with no support, one leg straight and one leg folded, etc
Two fucking mosquitos that need to buzz off or they won't make it through the night (one down, one to go)
Two kissing scenes semi-daydreams involving nameless characters that I had never "seen" before
One existential conversation with myself about how I don't just go back to whatever I was doing when i can't sleep because I don't want to disturb my cat's schedule
0 seconds of sleep which was supposed to be the whole point
Summer is great. 0/10 wouldn't recommend
The coach of my book marketing class : So we’re gonna use seduction as a metaphor to explain how book marketing works. *proceeds to talk about love at first sight for the cover, first conversation with a crush for the back covers text, etc* My aroace brain :
Asexuals in a nutshell
(art isn’t mine)
I started snaping my fingers again
As soon as I learn how to snap my fingers (i only can do it with my left hand btw), it became a means of focusing or keep the running thoughts away, organizing my speech, get my brain back on tack, etc. By the definitions I’ve read so far, it’s very likely some kind of stimming. But when I was a teenager, after watching a few movies and everything, I started noticing that most people snaping their fingers in conversation do it as a way to give an order in a very very rude disrespectful way, basically treating the other person like a non-human, and I was terrified that I might give off that vibe. So I stopped. I’ve started doing it again recently when I’m alone (and also in music reharsal because no one bats an eye there as it’s literaly part of the activity) and it feels SO good. I’ve started collecting knowledge about moments and areas where and when it’s acceptable, like when you can’t think of what to say people are not gonna flinch if you repetedly snap your fingers. I’m just careful not to do it when I’m asking someone to do something and so far it’s been going great. I can snap my fingers freely ♥
Humans are space orcs idea
An alien species being intimidated by humans because of eye contact (humans being predators in nature and all). To remedy this, all diplomatic interactions are done by autistic people who can't/don't like eye contact.
It pisses me off when people can't see that both things are true at once: sex and romance are seen as compulsory, and this is bad not just for ace/aro folks but EVERYONE, and that it's viewed as a personal failure to not participate, AND people (especially women and queer folk) are still shamed for sex and sex is still often a very taboo subject and that's not good either. It's why despite sex being a pretty big deal to allo people, sex ed understanding is actually very poor. Hell, conservative groups wanna push it out of schools entirely, and more recently so do even more left-leaning groups, on the basis that kids being taught about their own goddamn body functions, and safety and hygiene issues surrounding it is "grooming". Newsflash, asshole, you want to get this information to them BEFORE they have sex, and whatever age you think is "too young", has probably happened earlier.
Less grim but still definitely there is the fact that despite the prevalence of romance, there's this sort of patriarchal reinforcement of traditional gender roles in which woman is hypnotized by man's masculine manfulness and man is attracted to lady's feminine flappityfloops, so they get together. And yet, romance is by and large seen by most people as a fickle "woman thing" they're silly for enjoying, and not worth the time or attention of men and SMART women. Especially when it involves mutual emotional vulnerability and not just a strong muscular man doing cool tough man things with a pretty lady hanging off of him making doe eyes, (the closest thing most cishet men allow to the concept of romance)
sorry this got really long and rambly, i am VERY tired writing this and not sure i even got around to the original point i was trying to make, or if it even fots the blog theme at this point so if you don't post this i understand But-
TL;DR sex and romance are things that are both societally imposed and societally shamed, especially for women, and it's a really sucky lose-lose situation. I hate seeing infighting where each side claims only one or the other, they're both true.
I wanted to come back to something I said a while ago on another blog that got me a pretty angry anonymous message as a response. That person told me not to share their message so I will not, but I still want to express my point of view on this.
There are three continent systems in the wolrd
The 7-continent (North America, South America, Europe, Asia, Africa, Oceania, Antarctica)
The 6-continent (America, Europe, Asia, Africa, Oceania, Antarctica)
And the 5-continent (America, Eurasia, Africa, Oceania, Antarctica)
I was answering to a post, most certainly from a South American, that claimed that using "America" for the US was US-centrist, which I disagree with. Because English speakers, and France where I'm from, use the 7-continent system in which America is not a continent. And I insist on that. It's not "a continent that we divide in two parts". In our world construction, America is not a continent to the same level as say Eurafrica is not a continent.
For example, a few years ago, I heard in a song that the US president was "ruling the dumbest of continents". My first reaction was not saying that he was ruling a country. My first, inate, genuine reaction was "America is not a continent, it's a country". Because I have never and can't consider America a continent, this is not how my world was shaped.
And listen. I was the kid who got pissed when people used Holland instead of Netherlands. I was the kid who corrected people all the time when they said Australia instead of Oceania. If I tell you that I genuinely don't see America as a continent, it's not a matter of wording. "Americas" I guess could be the name for both but I can't use America as a word for a continent.
I get it though. I hate when people say "Europeans do this" because we are all super different so I understand that feeling associated with the US as a Brazilian or Mexican or Argentinian etc must be excruciating, especially with the amount of racism up there. I get it because people often use "French" people to mean Parisians to the point where I don't even see the point of correcting them. But the difference here is that most people in the 7-continent system don't even know that some people use another system where America is the name of a continent.
Another example specifically taken from that message was the middle east. See, just like the two American continents can be seen as a very subjective subdivision considering the landshape, Eurasia is the same. Where does Asia stop and Europe start ? According to that message, the middle east was part of Asia so people saying there was no or almost no war in Asia were dismissing them. But when I learned the continent, Afghanistan, Azerbaidjan, Yemen and all those other countries were part of... Europe. Not Asia. It's all a matter of how our ancestors divided land.
So I'm probably gonna continue using Americans to mean US people, because there is not other word in my language for them first of all, and because to me those are two different things. I do not think of Latin America when I say Americans. Hell I don't even think of Canada. I know it's hard to understand but we just have different views of the world. America was never a continent to me and even if I tried, it could never become one. It's just not how I see the world and frankly, I don't really want to associate all of those countries to the US and that's what will happen if I start using Americans for the continent.
That may be because a strong sense of continental identity is not really a thing where I'm from ? Like people don't claim to be European and we don't classify people by continent but by country. If I want to talk about someone from South America, I'm probably gonna name the country itself and not say "South American" because I feel weird englobing a whole continent as if everyone on it was the same. Even more so for people as different in culture and mentality as North and South Americans. It just feels as wrong as saying "Asian culture" as if India, Japan, Taiwan, Korea, China, Myanmar, Pakistan, etc had the same exact set of values and traditions. Or even European culture or African culture like no there are different people and cultures in there, continents are not cultures.
Anyways that message got me pretty upset especially since I don't like getting yelled at by anonymous people. I can change things and opinions given facts and everything but the continent systems being entirely subjective and cultural, I am not gonna give up my culture and upbringing that doesn't belittle anyone because people think theirs is the truth. You have your continent subdivision, I have mine, other countries have another. Fact is if we go by landshape the "true" system is the 5-continent system and people who separate Asia from Europe would be wrong too.
My emotions are so dumb like I’ll just get a good news and be unable to do literaly anything besides ✨ be happy ✨ until my brain goes back to live mode. And the other person out there waiting for me to answer like : 🙃??
So I told my mom about all the things that make me seek a diagnosis for autism and she said that it was possible and she had thought about it when I was a child, but then the next day we were talking about how I see my environment and she said something along the line of “Maybe you’re not autistic, maybe it’s just that your brain is wired differently.” Mom, that’s... that’s literaly the definition of neurodivergence.
Body : ok it's getting hot outside, we should stop eating hot food.
Brain : the only cold food I like is ice cream. Oh.
*proceeds to eat only ice cream for the whole summer
Body : wait no that's not what I m—
Feels like summer again, back to summerbrain mode. I have food and nothing is appealing and of course if brain says no, it's a struggle to even think about eating.
