You Should Be Scared Of Me

Bucky he/him autistic + bpd + ptsd gay system/fictives + pokekin

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

since tumblr made it so when you first sign up, your posts don’t show in the tags, would it be a good idea for me to maybe make a blog for those intro posts people make and post them so they’ll actually get into the tags? because otherwise it’s kinda useless...

[coltre]

every time I walk around the neighborhood I think a lot about the houses and I wonder what they look like inside and who lives in them and this red one facing the lake is one of my favourite so I took a picture of it

[neonhoney-deactivated20170512]

[magic-of-eternity]

[magic-of-eternity]

[softwaring]

lil birdies 🐦

[lonelybialien-deactivated201506]

can we stop trying to define how empathy works in autistic ppl ive seen so many ways that it can happen and the only thing that can be determined is just. generally different than in allistics. autistic ppl can have super high empathy. autistic ppl can have no empathy at all. autistic ppl can have empathy that is really bizarre. there is no one way that autistic ppl experience empathy stop trying to say there is

[caecia]

ur fav 90 year old bisexuals in honor of bisexual awareness week

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

ok seriously... if you like the same stuff as me (marvel, steven universe, pokemon, and halsey are the big ones rn) and are neurodivergent (esp. bpd and/or autism) and trans (esp. nonbinary) like and/or reblog this post please?

i’ll check out everyone’s blogs, but if you follow me first I’ll check your blog sooner than those who don’t

( about | byf | kin-specific byf )

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

Halloween: *IS NEXT MONTH*

Me: sign me the FUCK up🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻 spooky shit spooky sHit🎃 thats 💀 some spooky🎃🎃shit right🎃🎃th 🎃 ere🎃🎃🎃 right💀there 💀💀if i do ƽaү so my selｆ 👹 i say so 👹 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mMMMMᎷМ👹 🎃🎃🎃НO0ОଠＯOOＯOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ🎃🎃🎃🎃 👹 🎃 👻👻👻 🎃🎃Spooky shit

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

so i did one big intro post for my blog here but i want to do a few so it can get into the search results for all the things so

(hello pt. 5 - interests)

i’m autistic so these interests will be divided into two parts - special and regular. special interests are my special interests - stuff that gets me super happy and excited when i do stuff with it and/or just makes everything feel right. regular are just things i actively enjoy

special - marvel (especially bucky barnes and the captain america movies), autism, bpd (? maybe), lgbt+ stuff (esp. arospec and trans stuff), sebastian stan (kinda), and Steven Universe (esp. pearl and amethyst and also fusions), Sylveon (pokémon),

regular - bbc’s merlin, pokémon in general, crime shows (criminal minds and ncis especially) idk what else? regular interests really just come and go pretty fast usually

now because i put in here marvel, i want to say - i hate tony stark. he freaks me out and actually makes me panic. part of it is because i’m synesthetic and his colors are the same as my family’s + 1, part of it is because i’m bucky and he terrifies me, and part of it is just because? i dont need a reason? i wont go into tags and say shit about him and will always tag anything hating on him as “#tony hate”, “#tony stark hate”, and “#ts hate” but if you praise him, have him as your icon, or even have the name tony, i won’t follow you unless you actively make sure to tag all pictures and mentions of him with his name!~Bucky

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

hey um i haven’t been posting much and i know that’s kinda discouraging (like why follow a barely active blog who you cant even see what they’re gonna post?) but it’s because right now im only following 35 people because i don’t know who to follow

also i forgot to make an intro post with my interests im gonna go do that now maybe thats part of why

[myjsgf]

one example of healthy polyamory: person a, person b, and person c are dating. every one is fully consenting to be in the relationship.

another example of healthy polyamory: person a and person b are dating. person a is also dating person c, but person b and c would like to remain just friends. every one is fully consenting to be in the relationship.

another example of healthy polyamory: person a and person b are dating, but they both feel it is okay to kiss/hold hands/have sex with other people that they are not dating. this is called an open relationship, and is often considered a form of polyamory. both partners are fully consenting to be in the relationship, and those who are not in the relationship understand and are fully consenting to the romantic acts. boundaries are established and agreed upon by all parties.

there are a lot of different types of poly relationships and poly relationship dynamics, it is not a one-size-fits-all thing. stop telling polyamorous people that their relationships are invalid because you dont like it 

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

and! person a, b, and c (in any form of these relationships and more) can be joined by however many more people

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

so i did one big intro post for my blog here but i want to do a few so it can get into the search results for all the things so

(hello pt. 4 - gender and sexuality)

gender

i’m currently identifying as semibinary which is a term i coined which is pretty much you’re trans and not binary but you’re uncomfortable calling yourself nonbinary -and/or- feel rejected from or out of place in the nonbinary community.

i use he/him pronouns and am okay with people calling me most gendered language but male is not okay to refer to me as

sexuality

i’m quoiromantic (and homoromantic) and homosexual but!

the homo- includes binary and nonbinary guys!

also i have very strong (part dysphoria induced but also just euhh) genitalia repulsion and therefore couldn’t/wouldn’t have sex with anyone with a vagina

I also very much prefer stronger guys, at least partially because of sensory stuff (squishy does not feel good to me :/ ) but i won’t ever shit on anyone who’s not that

~Bucky

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

so i did one big intro post for my blog here but i want to do a few so it can get into the search results for all the things so

(hello pt. 3 - disorders and disabilities)

I’m bucky! I’m neurodivergent and physically disabled

neurodivergencies - i’m autistic, have bpd, and ptsd as well as

mental illnesses - anxiety (general and social) and depression

i’m also a system

aaaaaand

physical disabilities -

heart condition - i won’t be specific but it means that exercise could kill me 

hypotension - i can’t stand for prolonged periods of time (prolonged being 10 seconds standing still, 20 min. moving around before starting to feel the need to sit again)

likely asthma- does this one need explaining? i can’t breathe

~Bucky

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

so i did one big intro post for my blog here but i want to do a few so it can get into the search results for all the things so

(hello pt. 2 - fictives, system, and kin)

i’m bucky! i’m a system consisting of the following fictives

main - bucky barnes, clint barton, the winter soldier (the asset), merlin from bbc’s merlin

secondary - billy kaplan and tommy shepherd

tertiary - pearl and amethyst from steven universe

Bucky is the core/host

do not follow me or interact with me if you are (kin with) any under main

ask to follow for any under secondary

tertiary are fine to follow

i know that billy and tommy are jewish and that pearl and amethyst are coded as poc but i can’t control who is in my system and i do not claim to be poc because of them

yes, bucky and the asset are separate (or maybe bucky is a subsystem? idk)

i am also kin

kins - sylveon and maybe (if so very gentle) lapis lazuli from steven universe. both are ok to follow

my system is a mix of bpd caused (extreme personality absorption) and trauma caused (have always lived in an abusive household)

please check both my before you follow and my kin-specific before you follow!

Thanks!

~Bucky

[marvelousbarnes-blog]

instead of saying “gender is fluid”, “sexuality is fluid”, and “identity is fluid”, say that they can be fluid because the people who are solid in their identity are often really uncomfortable when we see those things :/