hi i’m not sure if you still take requests but would if you ever have time a yelena belova x reader (platonic) with lots of cuddling and kisses? just a whole ton of fluff and it doesn’t need to be too long? if you can’t/don’t want to do it that’s totally fine but i have such a soft spot for sweet yelena <3
Home {Yelena Belova}
Pairing: Yelena x gn!reader (platonic)
Summary: Yelena arrives from a mission and all she really wants is you
Note: yelena is the best i swear <3 hope you like it! this request has been sitting on my drafts for months, but now it’s finally here!!! so, enjoy 💕
You sighed as you flipped another page on your book, a pink highlighter on your hand and a bunch of loose pages resting in your lap. Were you studying on a friday night again? Yes. Sure, you had promised to yourself that this kind of nerdy behaviour would be left behind in high school, but who could blame you? It's not like you had anything else to do and you actually enjoyed studying.
- Oh, absolutely not. - a familiar voice with a thick accent sounded behing you and you smiled.
- Hey, Yelena. - you turned your head towards the voice, seeing the blonde girl climbing out the window. - Nice to see you're home again. And still unable to use the door.
- I already told you, sometimes I need to climb the window so I can make sure that no one else can climb the window. It is science. Just like your book. - she said, taking off her shoes and coat, her cheeks red from the cold weather. - Now, what are you doing reading a book? When I left, a whole week ago, you were doing that exact same thing.
- Well, I have to. It’s called studying. And if it helps, it was a different book last week. - you answered, watching as the blonde went straight for the kitchen. - But I wanna know about you. Your super secret mission went well? Where were you, after all? Now you can tell me, right?
- Bolivia. And yes, it went well. No one blew me up and it was not for lack of trying. - she said, frowning at the refrigerator. - Now, tell me, Y/N, this studying of yours does not require eating? There’s nothing in here.
- I was planning on ordering something later and I didn’t know you were coming home today. - you said, finally closing the book and resting your head against the armchair. - What do you mean they were trying to blow you up? Are you okay?
- Peachy. - Yelena said, sitting on the sofa. - I wasn’t even shot this time. It’s a big win.
- I don’t think I’ll ever get used to this. - you glanced at her with your eyes a little widened. You still remembered when, a year ago, Yelena showed up holding your announcement and asking if you were the one looking for a roommate. At the time, you didn’t knew you were getting a best friend and a giant headache all in one person. - You know, every time you leave I get worried sick.
- That is very sweet, Y/N Y/L/N, but you don’t have to worry. I am the best, so yeah, no danger here. - she smiled and you held back a laugh. Yelena could be so unintentionally conceited sometimes. - Now, will you please stop with the books, order some pizza and watch a movie with me? I missed you a lot.
- Own, Lena, I missed you too! - your heart melted at the russian’s words, smiling at her. - I’ll just bring this stuff to my room and then we can watch anything you’d like, okay?
She agreed with her head and you piled up all your books, papers and pens and carried them to your room, leaving it all on your desk. Fishing a blanket out of your closet, you picked up your phone and went back to the living room, sitting comfortably in the armchair again as you dialed the number of the pizza place you guys always ordered from.
- The pizza will be here in 40 minutes! - you yelled to make sure Yelena would hear you and went back to your phone, waiting for the girl to come back.
A few minutes later, she showed up in sweatpants and a My Little Pony white t-shirt, her hair wet and carrying a sweet lavender smell. She used your shampoo, but you didn’t really care, just watching as she practically fell onto the couch, resting her head against the pillows.
- So, what are we watching? - you asked, toying with the remote.
- Can we watch the one with the sirens again? You know, the one with the song that was stuck in my head for like a month? - she asked with big puppy eyes.
- Barbie A Mermaid Tale? - you asked with a laugh. Yelena was a big Barbie fan, but she specifically loved this one. - I think we’ve seen this at least five times.
- Please? It’s my favorite! - she pleaded, holding her hands together. - I love the evil fish.
- Okay, okay. But I’ll choose the next one.
- YES! - she exclaimed in pure delight, making you laugh again. If there was something you loved about Yelena, was her almost childlike joy about the little things in life. It was adorable.
You were about to press play when she cleared her throat, making you look in her direction only to find her already staring at you, brows furrowed.
- What? - you asked, a little confused.
- Aren’t you forgetting something? - she asked, rolling her eyes at your absolutely lack of perception. - Cuddling, Y/N Y/L/N, you’re forgetting the most important part of a movie marathon. Get your ass on this couch right now.
You couldn’t help but smile as you got up, laying beside the blonde on the couch and throwing your blanket over the two of you. It wasn’t long until Yelena’s arm was around your waist and the russian’s cheek was resting against your head. You hummed in contentment, feeling relaxed and warm and safe, like you always were with her.
- Now you can start. - she said simply as she placed a kiss against your forehead, making your heart melt all over again.
- It’s nice to have you home. - you said softly, grabbing the blonde’s hand and kissing her knuckles. - You know I love you, right?
- Yeah, you big softie, I love you too. - she said rolling her eyes as she kissed your cheek. - Now shush, my movie is starting.
You just smiled, too enthralled in the feeling of being in Yelena’s arms. She was home now, and it was all that mattered. After all, she was your home.
Aw thank you for the tag, @obiknights (I love The Clash, The Killers and Bowie too!)😘
The Killers
Manic Street Preachers
Duran Duran
Marina and the Diamonds
Lady Gaga
No pressure tags: @mariamariquinha, @thoroughlymodernminutia, @mysoulisasunflower, @khindahra, @lavendertales, @acrossthesestars, @massivecolorspygiant, @morninglesss, @albatrossandivys and anyone else who wants to play!
Tag game! Tag 9 people you want to get to know better (if you like)
Tagged by @fandomscraziness22, thanks keer!
3 ships: Locklyle, Juke, and Caleb/Adam from The Bright Sessions!
First ever ship: not to copy Kira but it was honestly probably Ron/Hermione… I wasn’t really into fandomy stuff before my Harry Potter reread back in high school!
Last song: Sunlight by Radical Face!
Last movie: I think it was actually Holes? because I was feeling nostalgic a few weeks ago and wanted to watch it again lol
Currently reading: The Creeping Shadow by Jonathan Stroud!
Currently watching: Lockwood and Co!
Currently consuming: a Trader Joe’s dark chocolate peanut butter cup (the best peanut butter cups ever tbh)
Currently craving: nothing sounds appealing to me at all right now actually lol
aw hello! thanks for the tag @lockwoodsco, i’d love to get to know you better too!
tag game! -> tag 9 people you want to get to know better (if you want of course!)
3 ships: locklyle, percabeth, and hartemis (artemis fowl is so good!)
first ever ship: it was either percabeth or hinny!! however the first ship i ever read any fanfiction for, or entered an online community for, was dramione (i don’t ship it anymore lol)
last song: mad iqs by I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME
last movie: polite society, in cinemas! tbh i hated the movie lol- not a recommend from me. the last movie i liked though, was a rewatch of the matrix!
currently reading: jane eyre! only 4 pages in though
currently watching: LOCKWOOD AND CO
currently consuming: just finished breakfast, toast with avocado and a fried egg!
currently craving: water lol. i need to go refill my waterbottle but i’m lazy lol-
tagging a few people i want to get to know better!
@oblivious-idiot, @neewtmas, @uku-lelevillain, @fivecoffeemugs, @sas37868, @lucy-j-carlyle, @lvockwoods, @biscuitrule, @so-true-jestie @givemea-dam-break @waitingforthesunrise
three ships: dizzie (i recently fell into a pride and prejudice rabbit hole and cannot be stopped), skysolo, wesper
first ever ship: percabeth
last song: sail away - lovelytheband
last movie: promising young woman but only through movieclips available through youtube
currently reading: leviathan by scott westerfeld
currently watching: f1: drive to survive (my beloved)
currently consuming: mint gum (genuinely i have an addiction)
currently craving: honeycrisp apple
no pressure tags: @maximoffgxrl, @mxltifxnd0m, @ellobruv, @zaypay, @hanmegumi, @justasimphere, @kvtnisseverdeen, @mystic-writings, @mayfieldss, and anyone else who wants to do it!
favorite color: blue yellow pink. sometimes green. i cannot make choices
last song: american pie by don mclean (lets me write with great motivation)
last movie: dungeons & dragons: honor among thieves (and it was INCREDIBLE)
sweet/spicy/savory: sweet forever
currently working on: the 28 requests/fics in my queue aaa
mutuals i wish to know: @mayfieldss, @hiya-itsamber, @maximoffgxrl, @zaypay, @marmar-c, @mxltifxnd0m, @musicallisto, @amortensie, @starlit-epiphany, and anyone else who wants to do it!
LISA CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!! you deserve it all <333
can i request a 🎬: casting call? i would love one for the grishaverse!!!
i don't really know how to describe myself so i hope this is enough! i'm shy and quiet but once i feel comfortable with someone i really like to tell them about everything that i like, i love music and i have a playlist for every single thing you can think about, i love writing since i was 11 and taylor swift is my ultimate inspiration. my favorite color is pink and i listen to a lot of true crime podcasts, i'm a big perfeccionist and very romantic, i think?
tell me if you need anything else, congratulations again! you're a big inspiration <3
thank you so much!! you are a big inspiration to ME
i ship you with genya safin!
i am connecting the dots. you are a romantic. genya is a romantic. you are a perfectionist. genya likes things to be perfect. it all makes sense. if genya was alive in modern times i KNOW she would have The Best Playlists for literally everything. the two of you would make them together! taylor swift goes on the 'killing the darkling' playlist. zoya laughs. zoya will face the combined wrath of both of you, which is a terrible thing indeed. you and genya show up to fetes and balls with color coordinated attire. she will talk to people for you and you can get her out of boring events early. it's a partnership made in heaven.
Summary: Y/N was the sunshine that brightened Zoya’s darkest days. Zoya was the moon that comforted Y/N on her loneliest nights.
“She was sweet like Honey,
But she stings like she means it
She's mean and she's mine”
Y/N L/N was a miracle. The very personification of everything good in the world.
Or at least that is what Zoya believed and she would be damned if she let anyone convince her otherwise.
They had been friends since Y/N quite literally stumbled into Zoya’s life when they were 13.
Zoya was becoming one of General’s favoured Grisha after she had acquired her amplifier, the remainder of which was forever etched on her back.
Zoya’s world was tipped off its exits as an unknown girl barged into her, resulting in both of them stumbling to the ground.
The poisonous insult on Zoya’s tongue died in her throat as Y/N grinned unabashedly at her, helping Zoya to her feet.
Y/N had been an awakening. An earthquake sent to shatter her to her very core and rewrite everything she had believed to be true.
Zoya had tried to hate her. She really did. But she could never succeed, not when Y/N flashed her that damned smile that Zoya knew was only reserved for her.
The warmth in Y/N’s eyes felt like home to Zoya. The sweetness of her lips pressed against her own reminded her of the honey cakes Aunt Liliyana used to bake. They were only made on special occasions and Zoya always looked forward to eating them, the honey melting on her tongue as she savoured the last bite.
A hand obstructed Zoya’s view as the familiar presence of her lover cocooned her in golden light that the girl somehow managed to carry with her.
Y/N’s lips ghosted over Zoya’s ear, “guess who?”
“Is it Genya?” Zoya’s lips pulled up in a smirk.
Y/N pinched her waist, earning an undignified squeak that Zoya would deny for the end of her days, “I was kidding, I know it’s the bothersome love of my life”
Y/N removed her hand and came to stand in front of Zoya, a dimpled smile brightening up her face, “I am the love of your life?”
Zoya rolled her eyes, “I don’t just tolerate all your shenanigans for fun”
Y/N seemed not to hear her as she took Zoya’s face in her hands, thumbs caressing her soft cheeks, “you, Zoya Nazaylensky, love me”
Zoya’s forehead pressed against hers, “of course, I do”
Y/N’s smile was blinding and Zoya felt she might believe in Saints for a moment if the saint was Y/N. Whatever she felt cannot be anything but holy. Y/N’s lips captured hers before Zoya could form another coherent thought.
Y/N’s back pressed against the wall as Zoya towered over her. Hands roamed wherever they could reach and Zoya’s fingers gripped the fabric of Y/N’s purple kefta as she tried to close whatever minuscule space remained between them.
The loud knock on the door forced them apart, both panting and still drunk on the feel of holding the other so close. The knocking ceased and then it started again in an impatient manner.
Zoya straightened her kefta and opened the door as Y/N sat down on the bed, running a hand through her hair.
Nikolai strolled into the room, spotting Y/N and flopping down beside her, “there you are, lovely Y/N, I was looking everywhere for you”
“Why?” Zoya questioned, crossing her arms over her chest. She was quite annoyed at being interrupted.
“If you must know, Zoya, me and Y/N have a date with a very beautiful aircraft” Nikolai smirked, wrapping an arm around Y/N’s shoulder. Zoya’s jaw ticked unconsciously at the action.
“Oh, I had completely forgotten!” Y/N clapped her hands, eyes shining brightly as she turned towards Zoya, “you have to come see it when we are done remodelling it, Zoya, it’s gorgeous!”
Zoya’s posture softened, lips quirking up in a half smile, “well if you say so, love”
“That reminds me I have to change my kefta,” Y/N told Nikolai and stood up, pecking Zoya on the cheek as she dashed into the joined bathroom that she and Zoya shared.
Zoya watched her go, something tugging at her heartstrings, something that felt suspiciously like love.
“You guys are adorable,” Nikolai remarked, grinning when Zoya glared at him.
“You better look out for her, she gets too excited and forgets to take care of herself” Zoya pointed a threatening finger at Nikolai, “I want her back with no injuries and not a hair out of place”
“You got it, Zoya, no harm will come to your girl” Nikolai held up his hands up in surrender, lips pressed together to stop the knowing smile from forming.
It was no secret that Zoya Nazyalensky was hopelessly in love with Y/N L/N but Nikolai had enough self-preservation to not declare that in front of his terrifying general.
i finished daisy jones and the six and i read the book again and i am obsessed so please send requests for the characters!!! i'll write for the girls and for warren! maybe for graham, idk
hi, love! i hope the link works this time and thank you for letting me know something went wrong with it before :)
here it is!
reading + reacting to my friends' fics // all the time in the world - zoya nazyalensky
it worked!! thank you for sending it again, i was majorly confused when i didn't find the link in your first request x.x
live reaction:
zoya zoya zoya
have i ever mentioned that i am a lesbian and so down bad for her?
because i am and i need everyone to know
is that an enemy to lovers trope i smell
very queer of you
oh no, a corporalki
is that a 10 things i hate about you reference??
not in this way?? oh??? I-
flirting through insults <333
a ball!!! i repeat, a ball!!
a blue dress??
i wonder why ;))
sdkhgfkjsdhg yes
oh enemies to lovers AND jealousy my god
‘that thing’ i died
having a private chat ohoo ;))
elliot is zoya’s numer one enemy
confessions confessions confessions
nicknames!!!
awwwwwwwwwwww, that was so cute jsdghjkd
my favourite lines:
– Good morning, Zoya! - the very well known voice echoed through the hallways of the palace and Zoya rolled her eyes without even bothering to check who was talking. - Made anyone cry today?
– No, but you can be the first. - the general answered, fighting the urge to send the girl flying out the window.
-> i understood that reference
– Aw, darling, we both know you can’t make me cry. - Y/N continued, stopping right in front of the other girl, smoothly resting her hand on her shoulder. - Not in this way, at least…
-> and i oop-
– Zoya. - Y/N called, her voice sweet as honey and Zoya knew she shouldn’t stop. Yet, she did it anyway. With a smile on her lips, Y/N simply said. - I’ll be wearing blue.
-> dshkjfdshfdkjh
Blue was Zoya’s color and Y/N was clearly making a statement. She was claiming something and Zoya was afraid of discovering what but, at the same time, the idea of seeing her wearing something that was hers, even if it was just a color, was doing something to her. And she was hating every damn minute.
-> yes yes yes
She was absolutely perfect and she was flirting with a guy.
-> zoya is not amused
– Zoya! - the girl said, taking a step back and thankfully putting some distance between her and that thing. - You really came!
-> 'that thing' THE WAY I CHOKED
It was Zoya’s turn to smile, and she did. A big, bright smile that had nothing to do with the scaring general Nazyalensky, but everything to do with the Zoya that was in love with the most annoying human on the planet. Her Y/N. She didn’t waste any other second before wrapping her arms around the girl’s waist, pulling her close before closing the distance between them, kissing her with passion.
-> dahbgdsaljhgdsljhg
final review:
as soon as you pulled out the enemies/rivals to lovers card you had me hooked. also, jealousy?? loved it. it was so good!! i just really can never say no to a good zoya fic lgdhjd
Summary: Reader is not feeling well. Everything seems grey and overwhelming and she can't take it anymore, but she keeps hiding in corners and faking smiles so no one notices it. But Zoya notices. She always do.
Note: hi!!! this isn't a request, it's just something i had in mind and finally decided to write, but i'm already working on the requests that were sent! i hope you guys like it <3
You were tired. You had started your day early, slipping into your blue kefta and leaving your room to train along with the other Squallers. You followed your routine quietly and without talking to anyone, but your collegues didn't really care, after all, it was y/n and she was always quiet, your shy personality being well known in the Little Palace.
During lunch, you ate fast and silently, being done and out of the room before most of the grisha even arrived. You didn't want to risk running into Genya, the closest thing to a friend you had here, because you knew the Tailor would know something's wrong.
The afternoon was filled with more training, since studying was your way of occupying your mind. You always were a brilliant student, being fluent in multiple languages and one of the best Etherealki in the Little Palace, and you took refuge on those terms. It was easy for you, simple, and that was all you needed right now.
But you were pushing yourself too much lately, trying to occupy your thoughts all the time so you wouldn't think about all the things you couldn't control, and that came with a price. When the night came, you had a massive headache and sore limbs, so you decided to skip dinner and head straight to your room.
It wasn't really a problem, no one would notice your absence the same way no one noticed the many times your eyes filled with tears during the day. You didn't really care about the lack of friends in your life, it was just another one of the things you were terrible at: connecting with people. There was nothing to be done, just accept it, but it still hurt when you thought that nobody cared about you.
So you went to your room and took a long shower. With your hair still wet you put on a robe and sat by the mirror, staring blankly at your own empty eyes. You didn't know how things had gone this way, you used to be a happy kid - rosy cheeks, jumping around and smiling - but now you just feel sad and it's overwhelming.
Your mind seemed to never slow down, a hundred thoughts per minute, and sometimes you just couldn't breathe. Your chest tightening up, your hands shaking and tears streaming down your face. You were tired, hopeless and lonely, and it was killing you slowly.
With tears in your eyes, you just hung your head and cried, shoulders shaking with sobs, your hair falling around your face. You didn't know how long you stayed like this, only opening your eyes when you felt a hand on your back, stroking it lightly and letting you know that someone else was there.
Thinking it was Genya, you lift your head just to meet an all too familiar pair of blue eyes. Zoya Nazyalensky. Her hand immediately left you body and you tried to hide the surprise in your eyes, but knew it was pointless, Zoya was always able to know exactly what you were thinking, and by the look on her face, she still could.
You had been in the Little Palace for only two weeks when Zoya arrived. You actually saw her, dressed in golden and with dirt on her face, and felt a strange pull towards that little girl looking back at someone you couldn't see. And, lucky for you, she saw you too. It was the first time those blue eyes landed on you, and you felt safe under her watch, comfortable.
So, when one of the older grisha knocked on your door later and asked if you could give the new Squaller a tour, you nodded happily before jumping out of bed, smilling at the girl who eyed you skeptically. You didn't know why they were asking you of all people to help her, you could barely find your own way to your classes, but you wouldn't complain, being curious about the blue-eyed girl the whole day.
For the 9 years old you, being the girl they picked to show Zoya around was destiny, something magic and irreversible. Now, you think it was because the older Squaller saw the possibility of you two being friends since you both arrived at the same time and were the same age. That way you could help each other with the Small Science and develop your studies together.
However, everything was still magic when you were a kid, and you decided in that moment that Zoya was meant to be your friend. You talked a lot while showing her all of the Little Palace and, even though she wouldn't answer all of your questions and kept staring at you with cold eyes, you just smiled, and that seemed to surprise her for only a second before she averted her eyes.
It wasn't easy, but Zoya eventually gave up the cold stares and let you follow her around, rolling her eyes at you excited chattering, but answering anyway and even smilling at you sometimes, when no one was watching, and that was more than enough for you. The two of you were together constantly, and after about a year of this strange relationship, Zoya finally called you a friend.
She wasn't as open as you are, but she would confide you some of her secrets. Zoya didn't like to be seen as weak, and she made sure everybody in the Little Palace knew how powerfull she was, but when she was afraid of her past and scared of being alone, she would hold your hand. She didn't need to say anything and neither did you, your presence being enough to bring her comfort. The lack of words also made her feel like she was still in control, like that simple exchange was nothing, and you were fine with that. You were fine with her.
The years passed and you grew. Zoya was the most beautiful person you've ever met, and also the scariest, but you knew better than to be pushed away by her scowl and harsh words. You didn't mind being in the receiving end of it because you knew she didn't mean to be mean, at least not with you, and she was grateful for that.
However, somewhere about 5 months past you 15 birthday, things changed completely. Zoya started to shut you down. She wouldn't go to your room anymore, and she never started conversations. She listened impatiently when you came to her, and tended to interrumpt you saying she had somewhere else to be. No more holding hands, no more smiles, no more chattering. She was getting more distant every day, and you found yourself helpless. There was nothing to be done, and you had to watch her go and become a stranger to you.
So, to say you were surprised she was staring at you right now was an understatement. You got up quickly, tightening your robe around your body and staring at her with the calmest expression you could.
- Uhm... Hi. - you said simply, pretending your eyes weren't red and puffy and hoping she would do the same. - Do you need something?
- I came to talk to you. - she said. No greeting, her eyes no longer in yours. You just sighed. It was probably for the best.
- About what? - you asked, running a hand through you hair, beggining to worry. - Did I do something wrong? Am I missing something in my classes?
She laughed dryly and you arched your brows, confused. You didn't know what else could be the topic of this conversation. Of course, you knew Zoya was close to The Darkling, but he already had the best Squaller with him, there was no reason for him to come to you.
- No, Y/N, you didn't do anything wrong. - she replied honestly, increasing you confusion. Reluctantly, she continued. - I was worried.
- About what? - you repeated, your brain apparently malfunctioning due to her presence. - Is it something I can help?
She sighed, taking a step in your direction. She lift her hand and it looked like she was reaching for yours, but she just tossed her hair over her shoulders, closing her eyes for a second before staring directly at you.
- About you. - she said simply, as if it was nothing, but you could see how tiff her body was.
It was your time to chuckle humorlessly.
- About me? - you arched your brows, crossing your arms over your chest, the anguish in your heart slowly being replaced with anger. - Funny. Where was this worry for the past two years, Zoya?
- Y/N, please... - she started, but you interrupt, not being able to contain yourself.
- No, I'm curious. Where was this worry when you just vanished from my life? When you decided that our friendship wasn't worth the effort anymore? When you walked away without even giving me am explanation? - you nearly screamed, tears treatening to leave your eyes. - You didn't worry back then. So why would you now?
- It's not like this. - Zoya said firmly, her cold expression giving place to an almost hurt look. - I didn't... I never said our friendship wasn't worth it.
- You didn't need to say it when you left me for no reason. - your voice mas trembeling, but you just could't stop yourself from saying what was stuck inside your heart for so long, tears already streaming down your face. - You were everything I had. My only friend, the only one I trusted in this place... Saints, you were family to me. When you started to act like I didn't exist, I felt my heart break in ways I didn't even know were possible. I loved you so much, Zoya, I would've done anything for you, but you just left me.
- I never meant to hurt you, Y/N. - she started again and for the first time in almost two years, you saw her armor fall at least a little bit. She sighed deeply and all you could see in her eyes was the 10 years old girl who was once your best friend. It was enough to make your heart ache for her, to make you listen. - I also never wanted to leave. You were the only person in this whole place who made me feel comfortable and loved. You weren't trying to change me, to find the adorable girl beneath my cold exterior. You didn't wanna be the one to tame me, you just wanted to be with me and love me despite all my flaws. You were truthfull and kind and loving and sweet, never asking for too much and yet so ready to give me everything. I loved you more than anything.
You were at a loss of words. You've spent so many time wondering what have gone wrong, repeating every interaction you both had in your head just so you could try to understand what you've done to make her go away, and now you were just so confused. If she loved you so much, why did she left?
- Then what went wrong? - your voice was almost a whisper when you spoke, almost dissapearing in the already quiet room. - Why did you left?
- Because that was exactly the problem. - the words left her mouth with so much sadness that all you wanted to do was hold her, but you just stood there, watching her. - I loved you so much, Y/N, I would do anything for you and I had never felt that way before. It was new and it was terrifying. You were gentle and sweet and I was not. I just... I wasn't the girl for you, I couldn't be what you needed and the idea of you realizing that and leaving me was haunting me. I was scared and i decided to leave before I get left. I was so terrified of losing you that I ruined everything we had by myself, and I'm sorry.
- You should have talked to me. - you said, your anger starting to built. - It's not up to you to decide what I need or what's good enough for me.
- I know that, I just... I was scared, Y/N, and I was a coward. Saints, I still am. - she said sheepishly. - It was selfish and wrong, but it was easier for me to walk away from the situation with some sort of control. And after that, I watched as your faded away in the crowd. You used to be so bright and I barely saw you smile anymore, and I knew it was my fault. I was too embarassed to come after you after being a jerk, and that's on me too. I should've been a better friend. I should've been better for you, and I'm sorry.
She finished her sentence looking at the ground, and you were speechless. You could understand why she did what she did and, after all, the two of you were only fifteen when all of this happened, too young and with too many responsabilities. You just didn't understand why she decided to tell you all of this now.
- Look, Zoya, I get it. - you finally said after a few moments of silence. - You were young and scared and you ran. Yes, it was wrong and you should've just talked to me instead, but I don't want to hold a grudge over this. You hurt me and you said you're sorry, and it's ok. I just don't understand why you came to me now.
- I told you, I was worried. - she said simply, lifting her head so she could look you in the eyes. - I see you, Y/N. I never stopped looking after you, I was just doing it from a distance. And this past few weeks... I know something's going on. You don't have to talk to me or explain yourself and I know I don't deserve your trust after two years of nothing, but I just... I couldn't watch you suffer from afar anymore, even if it meant I had to face what I did and explain everything to you. I should've done it sooner, and I'm sorry, but I'm here now, for anything you need.
You looked at Zoya, the fearless and feared Zoya, standing in front of you with teary eyes, no armor, no secrets and no excuses. You were feeling so many thing at the same time that you didn't know where to begin, but you knew you missed her. Even with all the sadness, anger and betrayal you felt, you missed her more than everything.
- You're ridiculous, you know? - you said while tears streamed down your face, taking a step in her direction. - Ridiculous and prideful and really stupid, but I love you and I missed you, so I would really like if you just shut up and hugged me.
A little smile showed up in her face before she wrapped you in her arms, your head resting on her shoulder just like you always did when the two of you were younger. Your body still fit right into hers, it was familiar and warm, and for the first time in a long way, you felt like you belong. You weren't alone anymore.
- I missed holding you so much. - she whispered, her chin resting on the top of your head, one of her hands caressing your hair softly. - I'm sorry it took me so long to come back, I really am.
- You can stop apologizing now, but if you ever leave me again, I will summon lightning just to stop your heart. - you said, your voice muffled by her skin.
- Oh, sweetheart, I will never leave you again. And I won't stop apologizing either. In fact, I have a lot of ideas on how I can make it up to you. - she said and you knew she was smiling.
- I'm only interested in it if by that you meant a lot of candy. - you said, finally breaking the hug to look her in the eye again.
- I can definetely get you candy, but that's not what I had in mind. - she said, her eyes shining with excitement as she took a step back, taking your hand in hers. - May I have this dance, Y/N/N?
You couldn't help but smile. When the two of you were younger and couldn't attend the balls the older grisha were invited too, you used to stay in the hallway where you could listen to the music they were playing and ask Zoya at least a thousand times to dance with you. It warmed your heart that she remembered.
- There's no music. - you answered, but your arms were already wrapped in her neck.
- We don't need it. - she said, pulling you close by the waist and making you giggle.
- You're right. - your voice was soft and calm, the tears you cried early already in the past. - I have all I need right here.
Zoya blushed and you smiled as she twirled you around your room, your laugh being the only music the two of you listened to, and for that moment, you forgot all about your loneliness and your pain. You were filled with love and joy, and you knew it wouldn't last forever, but at least you weren't alone. Facing the bad things with someone by your side was easier, and when Zoya hugged your waist firmly and kissed your cheek, you couldn't think of a problem the two of you couldn't solve.
my to be read is currently about 50 books. I tend to stick to my favorite shows/movies on a loop so I don’t have a to be watched lol.
I’ve never been to one of the aesthetically pleasing libraries but I’ve always wanted to go to one!
I don’t think people tend to fall for me when I read in public! I don’t really read in public very often, to be fair.
My main character moments always consist of getting compliments after I’ve dyed my hair lol
The best side character who gets no attention? I would have to say it’s either Haymitch from The Hunger Games or Farley from Red Queen. Farley and Shade got their own novella in the series of novellas attached to Red Queen called Broken Throne, but I will forever stand by the idea that Haymitch deserved his own book.
tagging (no pressure!) : @ell0ra-br3kk3r @b3kk3r-by-br3kk3r @thedelusionreaderbitch
Ooooo thank you for tagging me, Cal! This one is unique!
How long is your TBR/Watch List?
Oh Jesus… I don’t even know. I’m part of a free torrent site, so I just download free digital books and audiobooks that look good, and I have physical books too!
So, long story short: hundreds. Maybe thousands. There’s too many to tell, and it keeps growing!!!
As for my Watch List, I don’t really have one. I kinda just pick whatever I’m in the mood for in that moment. I can’t make a list because I’m such a mood watcher.
Have you ever been to a fancy library, like in all the aesthetic photos?
NO and it may be the greatest tragedy of my life!
Do people fall for you when you read in public?
This happens to people? This isn’t just a book/movie trope?
I don’t go out in public, so no. And also, don’t approach me in public, stranger! Ew! Get away!
Your favorite Main Character Moment?
I can’t say I have a lot of these since, again, I don’t leave my house. The only one I can really even think of is that when I was in high school, I dyed my hair purple, then a bunch of other girls in my grade started dying their hair purple too.
A popular girl also told me I looked great with bangs and my purple ombre! She said most people cannot pull off bangs WITH an ombre, but that I did really well. I was fucking FLATTERED.
The best side character who gets no attention?
Oof. There’s so many to choose from… do I go books? Movies? TV shows? Suddenly all media I’ve ever consumed has left my brain.
The only one that really comes to mind is Riley Poole from National Treasure, but he is very much recognized as the best part of the franchise…
OH! No, I know. Eames and Arthur from Inception. LOVE them.
No Pressure Tags: @keikigoodbetter @sophierequests-trashblog @jahayla-parker @rowritesstuff @thatfangirl42 @starstruckwillows
I wish i knew to be honest. Both of them are so long, it’s ridiculous at this point.
Have you ever been to a fancy library, like in all the aesthetic photos?
Honey, I WISH.
Do people fall for you when you read in public?
Once again, I WISH. When will I have my romcom moment!?!
Your favorite main character moment?
I’d have to say the five minutes that this really cute guy tried teaching me to dance. It was short-lived, and when I tried shoot my shot and missed, but what can you do?
Walking down the street to ‘hold tight’ by Sabrina Carpenter was pretty significant, too.
Best side character who gets no attention?
Garth from Supernatural, hands down!
Tagging w no pressure: @hiya-its-amber @amaryllisaa @t-reblogs @winter-soldier-vibes @froggydobegaytho
-song stuck in head: antibiotics we're wonderful pills but dont ever think we'll cure all your ills and willow by tswift
-# of followers: at least 10
-amount of sleep: usually 4-6 hours (begrudgingly)
-dream job: librarian/historian
-wearing: shirt, grey sweater, black coat
-movie/book that summarizes you: all of them
-fav song: too many, right now probably constellations by the oh hellos! and faroe's theme from malevolent
-aesthetic: changes everyday, but personality wise eldritchcore/oddcore
-fav authors: alice oseman and any romantic author ever
-random fact: i can bend almost all of my joints backwards
not tagging 15 people because that is too many but -> @aroaceupmysleeve @galxgal @gothicwolf125 @arakhnee @lesbian-hannibal @transgenre-music and whoever want to join in :P
nickname(s): cube, parasite (not a fan of that one), parissimo, dactylic (it's a remnant from my deadname but im still attached to it)
height: hell if i know maybe like 5'6"??
last thing i googled: danish to english
song stuck in my head: none, at the moment
number of followers: last time i checked it was 45
amount of sleep: idk but not enough
dream job: lab technician for a secondary school
wearing: dungarees with a patterned t shirt + cable jumper
a book/movie that summarises you: not really sure what this is asking of me, so. pass
favourite song: changes regularly, but currently it's dance of the little fairies by sky
aesthetic: not sure i just vibe
favourite author: catherynne m valente or leigh bardugo
random fact: my hair is dyed dark purple
@lilacebean @sleepless-crows @jordieritzcracker @ketterdam-snack-bar @faeeclipseruine im too tired to find other people rn so anyone else who wants to participate!!
nickname: so– you can call me anything. but i've been called stell and lynnea (you can try and find the why and when somewhere)
height: more or less like 5 feet. sometimes i check and i'm 4'11 and sometimes i check and i'm 5'1 so no in between
last thing i googled: hands symbolism (yeah, for tumblr)
song stuck in my head: my mind is currently blank right now but i'd say cruel summer or cornelia street from yesterday
number of followers: 157 i think
amount of sleep: christmas break is giving me 9-10 hours. and i deserve it for sleeping 2-4 hours on school days
dream job: i'll pretend i don't know so i won't jinx it or disappoint myself
wearing: pajamas, with donuts on them (AND A BRAID, MOST IMPORTANT)
a book/movie that summarizes you: none can possibly describe how boring my life is right now but if you're asking for my book taste, six of crows
favorite song: mean by taylor swift (it isn't but my brain is telling me to not say all too well since we hear that every time)
aesthetic: chaos?? like, absolute disorder and disorganization???
favorite author: LEIGH BARDUGO
random fact: uhhhh... my family has covid right now so this christmas we're staying at home, again (bet you didn't expect me to say that. we're fine though. its mostly asymptomatic at this point, we just have to quarantine)
also, why was this only 13? i'm not complaining though, the number is 👌
NICKNAME: None for Raven (my online name) and I don’t really feel comfy sharing my IRL name, so… yeah. 😊
HEIGHT: Like five-one? Five-two? I’m short, let’s just say that.
LAST THING I GOOGLED: “Where do the Addams family live in the movie?”
SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD: “3 O’Clock Things” by AJR.
NUMBER OF FOLLOWERS: 344 (!!!).
AMOUNT OF SLEEP: I usually get about seven or eight hours.
DREAM JOB: Either Broadway performer or voice actor.
WEARING: Christmas pyjamas.
BOOK/MOVIE THAT SUMMARIZES ME: Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell. Seriously, if you ever want to better understand me, read that book and take a good look at Cath. I have never related to a fictional character more.
FAVORITE SONG: Currently? “21 Guns” (the version from the musical American Idiot).
AESTHETIC: I think a mix between cottagecore and light academia??
FAVORITE AUTHOR: @heliads (don’t know if I’m allowed to name Tumblr writers, don’t care, this is my answer).
RANDOM FACT: I have a photographic memory!
Tagging: @amaryllisaa, @winterxisxcomingx, @juneberrie, @auxiliarydetective, @thehedgehogat221b, and anyone else who wants to do this!!
thanks for the tag, i love these!! also it is an honor to be your favorite author <33
nickname: from my name lisa, i've heard liz, lise, lizzy, and others that i do not remember at this moment. i love them all
height: prob five six if not taller, i haven't measured myself in a while
last thing i googled: molecular orbitals (there was a drawing of them on a white board in spiderman: no way home which i finally saw and i wanted to prove that i was right)
song stuck in my head: high infidelity by taylor swift, i want to tack on some 3am songs to my ongoing nikolai lantsov modern au series
number of followers: for heliads, 6,026. for amaryllisaa, 39. both are terribly inflated by bots that i need to go block asap though.
amount of sleep: eight hours! i'm living the life. this is because i am on break from university though, usually it is lower. rip.
dream job: biomedical engineer, which is what i'm studying to do now! i want to synthesize tissue and organs. if i was being unrealistic i would say agent of s.h.i.e.l.d. or formula one driver though
wearing: yellow shirt, black sweatpants
book/movie that summarizes me: i want to say lizzy bennet from pride and prejudice but if we're being real, catherine morland from northanger abbey. i love novels, i am insanely dramatic, and i would also risk it all for henry tilney.
favorite song: coast by hailey steinfeld at the moment but it changes by the day
aesthetic: dark academia i go to college and it is poorly lit there
favorite author: erin morgenstern, she has written two books and both are my absolute favorites in the entire world
random fact: i have a national rating in fencing!
no pressure tags: @thatfangirl42, @hiya-its-amber, @zaypay, @maximoffgxrl, and anyone else who wants to do it!!
so, here i am with another ask for fem!reader x zoya! could you do one where zoya saved reader (who's like, 1 or 2 years younger) in a battle in the past and, ever since then, reader fell for her
and i really like the idea of genya being something in between a older sister and a mom for reader, so she's always listening to reader go on and on about how zoya is the most perfect person in the world and how she's beautiful and etc, and literally everyone can se how she stares at zoya with moon eyes
the only problem is that zoya has 0 feeling towards reader, or at least she acts so, like she's just another kid even though the age difference is minimum
so one day reader comes to here room feeling sad because she tried to talk to zoya and she just rolled her eyes at her, and genya decides that she had enough of this situation, that she will play cupid and get reader a boyfriend/girlfriend
but when reader stop hovering over zoya and staring at her like she's carrying the world, she notices her absence and, for her absolute terror, she misses her. and when she sees reader with someone else (i pictured nina because she'd be very loud about it, like, feeding you waffles in front of everyone, but feel free to use whoever you want!!) she gets incredibly jealous and she doesn't even know how to deal with it
well, that's it, thank you and i hope you like it <3
Storms and Maroon
A/N Not my best. At all. And this is barely a snippet of the things happening that i might elaborate later but not for anytime now. I might also post an entirely new fic in this topic but don't get the hopes high. THANK YOU SOO MUCH FOR HANGING ON THIS LONG. Thank you 💙
Zoya tried. At least, that's what she told herself. She tried to keep the younglings on their toes and prevent the roof of their training dom from crumbling down to piles of hubris. But her king would be proud to announce that his general had not failed to run a storm through his training grounds.
She was fuming. The kids were terrified. That much she knew. The least they could do for tarnishing her reputation as a stoic teacher with a talent for handling kids.
The storm probably brewed under her fingertips but the wind definitely howled in the collapsed classroom.
Before she could open her mouth, a tiny figure pushed through the crowd of students. You. Your deep red kefta a stark difference from the blue ones surrounding you, looking at you like you were their saviour. You would mingle right in with them.
“Can you please calm down?” You asked, after escorting her off the training grounds and taking the pleasure of reprimanding those brats off her hand.
“Why must I calm down? It was not me who brewed a storm they couldn't control!” Zoya said, crossing her arms over her chest as her eyes roamed around the room. She supposed it was your living quarters and she was disgusted over the sheer amount of maroon covering your room. Maroon mugs, maroon comforters, maroon jewels littered by your mirror, maroon rugs. Zoya simply didn't understand the motive of covering one’s room so deeply as such.
“No. I-I didn't mean it like that. You looked as though you were going to collapse both the Palaces.” You said and frowned. “You probably could.”
“I probably would,” she said and noted your flustered appearance. Your fingers wrung together and your face flushed. She must admit you were beautiful. A sort of saintly beauty. Much more at the moment, illuminated by the glaring sun peaking through your open windows and the stark red of your room. You were mercy and hope on a battlefield.
What in the name of saints was that?
You sighed. "They are just kids. Mistakes happen and things go wrong but that's how they are going to learn it."
Your words almost made Zoya retch but she couldn't even open her mouth for words. Despite the overwhelming urge to dismiss your words, Zoya found herself struggling for a retort that was sensible.
It was as if you knew what was in her mind. “You probably must speak to the King and prepare for the replacement.”
Zoya scoffed and without another look, she strode out of your room.
thank you for the tag, i always love doing these!!
💖 current book boyfriend: jacks from the caraval universe i love you
❤️ current book girlfriend: circe from circe by madeline miller
✒️ current favourite author: erin morgenstern
📚 current favourite series: the grishaverse my beloved
📖 current favourite book: the starless sea by erin morgenstern!! i am in love with this book and i will never ever stop talking about it
🤮 least favourite book: blood & honey, sequel to serpent & dove, you haunted me so much i could not finish the trilogy. i believed in you so much and you let me down so much as well
this was fun!! no pressure tags: @thatfangirl42, @hiya-its-amber, @zaypay, @like3dbypierregasly, @maximoffgxrl, and anyone else who wants to do it!
thank you for the tag, i always love doing these!!
💖 current book boyfriend: nikolai lantsov from the grishaverse you'll always be my favorite
❤️ current book girlfriend: isabelle lightwood from the mortal instruments
✒️ current favourite author: taylor jenkins reid
📚 current favourite series: the grishaverse and harry potter
📖 current favourite book: daisy jones and the six, i just finished rereading it because of the show and it's as good as it was the first time, even better
🤮 least favourite book: the perks of being a wallflower. i'll always regret the day i decided to buy this book.
i had an idea and i just really needed to tell someone about it but none of my friends would get it so i hope you don't mind you're the one i came to
what would you think about rebekah and katherine fighting for a girl's attention?
rebekah and katherine fighting for your attention...
a/n: babes!! i don't mind at all that you came to me. i adore this idea! i don't know if you wanted this to become a headcanon but i kinda got carried away lol. 🫶🏻
rebekah masterlist | katherine masterlist
okay, we all know that bex and katherine don't get along
never have, and i'm ninety-nine point nine percent sure they never will
though rebekah fights with her brothers, she still doesn't appreciate the way katherine got in between elijah and klaus and caused problems to arise in their relationship
katherine, on the other hand, doesn't exactly appreciate how klaus wanted to sacrifice her
so, the stand where they've always stood when it comes to the other
and it's no different when they set their sights on you
alright, let's get into it
katherine approaches you, asking if you wanna hang out with her
she promises you a night of drinking, dancing, causing chaos, and mostly having fun
but just as you're about to respond, guess who pops up?
"sorry, love. y/n and i already have plans. we're going clubbing, and you're not invited," rebekah says, slinging her arm around your shoulders
katherine's impulse is to roll her eyes, but she wants to make a good impression on you
so she goes "well i'm sure y/n wouldn't mind if you?"
and of course, you being the sweet person you are, you agree (much to bekah's dismay)
then, one day, rebekah hears that you'd had a rough go of it at work, so she picks up a bouquet of flowers on her way over to your house
a little pick me up
sweet, right?
wrong
because when she gets there and you open the door, her eyes land on the hundreds of carnations — which are your favourites, might i add — and she notices katherine standing behind you with her signature smirk plastered on her lips
it takes everything in bex to not rip katherine's heart out right at that moment
but then she sees the glimmer in your eyes as you still take the bouquet from her hands, and you plant a kiss on her cheek in thanks
so can she really be mad?
there's always some fun (or not so fun) banter going on between them every time you all hang out
"you know, she's not very original. i can name at least two other people who are carbon copies of her. on the outside, anyway."
"hm, well at least i don't have a psychopathic brother stabbing me and shoving me in a box for centuries every single time i annoy him."
and you're just there like :/ because you just want them to get along
there have been a few (many) cat fights
they're both always offering to do everything for you
need a ride home from work?
rebekah's ordered a car service for you
having a stressful day and needing to blow off some steam?
katherine's dragging you to a party
in need of a dress for a fancy occasion?
they've both got racks after racks from every high-end boutique they could find, and have compelled strangers off the street to try the outfits on for you
anything to make your life easier
they're both extremely protective over you, especially when it comes to you
bex: "come with me, love. anyone involved with katerina finds themselves dead as soon as she's done with them."
kath: "oh, please. you have a thousand years worth of enemies trying to take you and your siblings down. i'm only at a mere near-five hundred."
if there's one thing i can say, it's that there truly is never a dull moment
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lisa!!!!! thank you so much, honey, you make me incredibly happy as well <3
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